How to Catch Butterflies

To my husband, my best friend the love of my life; Mr. F,
Thank you for believing in me and giving me the courage and time to chase my dream. I
would still live in a cardboard box in a rainy city with you.

Love you Always & Forever

To my Babies
:
I hope you are as proud of me as I am of you both. Love you so much
,
my

Darlings
.

To MY GIRLS, my inspiration, my soul mates in female form. Thanks for believing in me.

Love you all so much Beverley Hollowed,
Mrs.
G, My Sorrella & Tanya Ross (Buddy of buddies). What would I do without you? You are all my partners in crime, and you know

what I’m talking about.

To my amazing Beta Readers Jade Zivanovic, Kristy Louise, Sally Ramsdale and Wendy Neuman Wilkin thank you for reading my book. I couldn’t have had a better team to work with
: A huge thank
you from the bottom of my heart

Thanks to all the members of various clubs who helped me with info
etc. along the way:
The Writers Club, Club 50k & Indie Gals Connection, The Amigo’s. All you guys rock.

Thank you, Shelly Pratt for my ‘Love at first sight’ cover-design. You are truly awesome in every way,
and to Jade Zivanovic for your help with editing and formatting and general advice, you girl are awesome sauce and then some. Same to you as well Bev.

I would also like to thank Author P J Belden and Titan InKorp for all their support
.

Samantha Xx

P.S. I did it Daddy. Love you. Xx

Chapters Playlist...

1.
Dreams & Gypsy– Fleetwood Mac

2.
Goodbye Heartbreak – Lighthouse family & Shout – Tears for fears

3.
Never tear us apart – Inxs

4.
Alive and Kicking – Simple Minds , & Mad world & Pale shelter – Tears for Fears

5.
Landslide & ‘The Chain’– Fleetwood Mac

6.
Get down tonight - KC and the sunshine Band & Let’s get it on & Sexual Healing-- Marvin Gaye

7.
My Hero – Foo Fighters & Hero - Nickleback

8.
Brothers in Arms, – Dire straits & I’ll be there for you – Bon Jovi

9.
Wish you were here & Dark Side of the Moon – Pink Floyd all of album for Dark Side

10.
Cloudbusting & Running up that hill – Kate Bush. Macklemoore & Ryan Lewis – Thrift shop.

11.
Umbrella – Rihanna & Sowing the seeds of love – Tears for Fears

12.
Swords of a thousand men - Tempole Tudor & Coming around again – Simon Webb

13.
Time to say goodbye – Kathryn Jenkins & Amoureus – Kiki Dee

14.
Every breath you take – Police & Run for your life. - 6 Day Riot

15.
Personal Jesus – Depeche Mode

16.
Everything counts – Depeche Mode studio & live versions

17.
You can go your own way – Fleetwood Mac & How do you like me now? – The Heavey

18.
Words – The Christians & Wonderful Life - Black

19.
Sex on fire – Kings of Leon

20.
I drove all night – Cindi lauper & All of my heart - ABC

21.
The bitterest pill (I ever had to swallow) - The Jam

22.
Locked out of heaven – Bruno Mars & Anything can Happen - Elie Goulding & Everything must change – Paul Young

23.
You do something to me – Paul Weller & Comfortably numb – Pink Floyd

24.
Wicked Game – Chris Isaac’s & Come back and stay – Paul Young

25.
Weather with you – Crowded house

26.
Right here right now – Fat Boy Slim & You got the love – The Source

27.
Enjoy the silence – Depeche Mode

28.
I see you baby – Fatboy Slim remix

29.
That’s entertainment & Beat surrender – The Jam

30.
Insomnia – Faithless,& Room in your heart – Living in a box & Broken Wings – Mr. Mister

31.
Come away with me – Norah Jones

32.
Someone saved my life tonight - Elton John

Chapter 1

‘Dreams
…’

It all happened so
quickly. . . .

As the blood slowly dripped into her mouth she crawled, reaching for the phone,
thankful
it wasn’t too out of her reach. She could hear him upstairs in their bedroom, ranting and smashing as he went from room to room. He was like a tornado on its destructive path which was their flat.

She shook her head slightly, trying to focus her swollen eyes and pressed the redial button.
Thank God
she had been speaking to Lucy
earlier that
evening.

Please Pick up.... Please pick up....Please pick up
Rebecca willed
....Quick... as the noise came
closer, getting louder and nearer
.

“Lucy help me
please,” She cried out, and then
suddenly the call broke off into screams.

The line went dead....

* * *

Rebecca had been with David for several
years;
she had only just turned seventeen when they started dating. She was a typical teenager besotted with him. And I suppose he was with her, in the beginning.

She thought he was good-looking and had what she thought at the time a great body. David did karate so he was physically fit. She was quiet infatuated with
him—as a seventeen-year-old
would be with her first serious boyfriend. He knew he had a catch the very night they met. It was at one of the nightclubs in the local area. He was on a night out with the boys. Both he and his friend had made a play for her that night. The loser would back
off: Both lads vying for the gorgeous Rebecca’s
attention.

When the slow songs
started to play,
Rebecca found herself in almost a
human tug-of-war between
the two young men. Each held one of her hands; Rebecca dropped one set of hands. She had made her choice as she was lead to the dance floor by David. She had dropped his
friend’s hand. David
was the victor, he had won.

That night when he walked her home
they found out they had lots in common. They had actually gone to secondary schools right next door to each other, him in the Boys and her in the Convent Girls School. She even at one point had her form-room in the Boy’s section of the building. The schools had adjoined buildings on shared property. On his last year of school he was even in the form-room above hers. Rebecca was a huge believer in fate. And because of this, she was convinced they were destined to be together forever; how naive she was.

They did have fun at first, in those early years. There was passion, well, what one would expect from a teenage couple, both with very little or no experience. She had been a virgin when they met. He had told her he had only slept with six and that was including her. God only knew what his number was now? Hers was still only the one:
him.

She had known things had run their course with her and David. She knew that after the first four years. God, they had so many ups and downs over the years: far too many. She had grown within this relationship of seven and a half years. Playing house and ALL the responsibilities that went with it. David didn’t. No: David did his own thing, which was always about him. She thought they had all the time in the world.

They had even gotten engaged; it was nothing major; it wasn’t as if they had set a date or anything. It was more of a promise. David had probably only asked to keep her sweet. If she wore his ring it would keep her loyal, focused and his. He knew she would never stray, especially with his ring on her finger. Maybe that’s why he wanted to live together; she was very settled. He could go out as often as he liked, with his boys. She would wait eagerly for him at home; he was the only one out of his friends that could say ‘her in doors’. His friends would often call round; they were all always made welcome at any time, night or day.