I Thee Wed (Wedding Dreams) (16 page)

Oh, God, I haven’t been taken
from behind in so long I’ve forgotten how deep it is. Drew lifts my hips and
pulls me to him as he thrusts forward. It’s so good and I can’t help but push
against him to try to get him deeper. I can feel another orgasm building, but
I’m not sure I can take it. Drew reaches around with one hand and pinches my
clit and I’m done. I’m screaming his name and some other words I’m not sure
were English. Drew starts to pump even faster, I feel him swell inside me, and
he’s coming with me. I can feel him shoot his load into me and it’s glorious. I
can’t move and Drew continues to move slowly in and out of me, my cunt milking
the last of his orgasm from him. When he releases my hips, I fall forward on
the bed and he falls down next to me.

Neither of us says anything for a
while, we just lay there and catch our breath. Once I’ve recovered, I roll over
to face him. I can’t help but trace the lines of his abs while he lays there
with his eyes closed. I know I’m entering dangerous territory here because I’m
starting to want Drew around. I like our connection and he’s starting to mean
something to me. I have to try to guard my heart because he’s made it clear he
isn’t looking for a real relationship. This is going to suck.

Chapter
15

Lily

I’m finishing packing when Drew
comes back from the car.

“What else are you bringing,
Lily? There’s still a tiny bit of room in there.” He winks and I know he’s
kidding.

“I think this is the last of it.
I just need to get
Nala’s
stuff, and we’re ready to
go.”

I pick up
Nala’s
bowls, food, litter box, and carrier.
Nala
looks at
me and starts to hiss. She really doesn’t like to ride in the car.

“Don’t worry, baby,” I tell her
softly. “We’re going to stay with Drew for a while. You’ll love it because
there’s a lot of room to walk around and you can look out the patio doors.” I
know talking to a cat is ridiculous, but I can’t help it. She’s my baby.

“
Nala
,
it’s going to be great,” I hear Drew say from behind me. My heart melts even
more. He’s actually talking to my cat, too. It’s going to be very hard to not
fall hard for him. I sigh and pick up
Nala
,
plastering a smile on my face so Drew doesn’t know what I’m thinking.

“We’re ready to go. Lead the
way.” Drew takes the bag of
Nala’s
stuff and I follow
him out to the car.

Surprisingly,
Nala
is very calm in the car. She usually meows loudly and crawls all over me, but
she just sat quietly in my lap. I’m not sure what to make of that, but I’m
going to take it for the gift it is. Drew into the garage and when he turns the
car off,
Nala
sits up and looks out the window. I pet
her head and try to keep her calm, but she doesn’t need it. Carrying her, I
walk to my bedroom and show
Nala
where she’ll be
staying. Drew brings my things in. “Thanks, Drew. I’ll get
Nala
settled and then I’ll come downstairs.”

“No problem. Take all the time
you need.” He smiles as he leaves.

“Well,
Nala
.
This is our new home for now. Don’t get too used to it. We won’t be here very
long, unfortunately.”
Nala
bumps my chin with her
head and jumps out of my arms. I go about getting her litter box set up in the
bathroom and her food and water dish by the closet. I’ll have to get a placemat
or something so the carpet doesn’t get ruined. I spend some time putting my
things away. I don’t know if this is where I’ll sleep, but it’s best to have it
set up just in case Drew changes his mind about having me in his room. I try
not to feel sad, but I know I’ve got to get my emotions in check. Taking a deep
breath, I head out to find Drew. 

*
* *

Drew

I’m sitting on the patio with a
beer, giving Lily time to get her things put away and her cat settled. It’s
strange how things have changed in my life in a very short period of time. If
you had asked me a month ago if I’d be living with a woman
and her cat
,
I’d have told you that you were crazy. Never in my wildest imagination did I
consider this scenario in my life. It’s surreal, but it’s comforting. That’s
strange, too. Am I really getting comfortable with Lily being in my life, and
now, in my home? The answer is “yes, but.” The “but” is that I’m not just
comfortable but I’m also developing feelings for Lily.

These feelings make me nervous
because the last time I had them for someone I got my heart stomped on and
broken. I know I don’t want to go through that again. I also know Lily isn’t
looking for anything serious. I just need to keep my distance, much better than
I have so far. I need to stop having sex with her because that is only
confusing the issue.
But she’s so fucking sexy.
I’m going to have to try
really hard to keep my hands to myself.

I try hard to avoid thinking
about
her
, but I can’t seem to stop myself.

“Jackie, you know how much I love
you, right?” I can’t believe we’re having this fight again.

“Yes, Drew, I do, but it’s not
enough. You’re always at work or in meetings. You say you love me, but you
don’t show it. I’m always second to your career or your mother. I just can’t
take it anymore.”

“Please don’t say that. You are
my everything
. We’ve been together for years. You can’t
seriously think you’re less important than my job or mother.” I can’t read her
expression because she won’t look at me. I feel like my heart’s going to beat
out of my chest.

“I don’t think it, I
know
it,
Drew. Your actions speak louder than your words. I want more than this life. I
deserve more than this. I need to think about us, Drew. I’m going to spend the
weekend with my sister and try to figure out what to do.”

With that she turns and walks
out. I’ve never felt so torn apart. I don’t want to lose her. I gave her my
heart and soul and she stomped on it when she said she might leave me. I don’t
think I’ll ever find someone who affects me as much as she did.

Now I’m having the same feelings
about Lily as I did about Jackie. Only, this time, Lily isn’t asking me to
change. She doesn’t expect anything from me. She accepts me for who I am.

That should make a difference,
right?

I know it should, but I still
feel like I need to guard my heart. I need to stay focused on keeping up
appearances for my mother. It’s selfish, I know, but I want to do what I can to
make her happy, even if it’s a lie. My mom has done so much for me, I feel like
I need to do what I can to make her wish come true. I’m grateful Lily has
agreed to the charade by moving in with me. I know it seems ridiculous, since
Mother has early dementia, but it means the world to me to give her the
illusion of me being married.

I know I need to tell Lily the
whole story about my past. I owe her the truth before she agrees to this crazy
situation. I probably should’ve told her before now, but I don’t want her to
see what a loser I really am. My whole life has been about keeping up
appearances, and my first serious relationship was no different. Now, though, I
feel more than I thought was possible.

I walked into the apartment the
following Monday after Jackie went to see her sister. She was sitting on the
couch with her suitcase next to her. I didn’t think she had a trip planned, but
we haven’t been spending much time together lately. Our wedding is scheduled
for two weeks from Saturday, so there’s a lot left to do.

“Hey, babe.
What’s going
on? Did you get called out of town again?” I bend down to give her a kiss, but
she turns her head and my lips meet her cheek.

“No, Drew, I’m not going out of
town. I’m leaving you. I can’t do this anymore.”

I have no idea what she’s talking
about but I feel like I’ve been kicked in the balls. I stagger over to the
couch and sit down.

“You’re leaving me? Why? What’s
going on, Jackie?” I try not to panic.

“This just isn’t working for me.
I don’t love you and I can’t marry you. I’m sorry, but that’s how I feel.”

She says it like she’s turning me
down for a loan, not shattering my dreams. I can’t believe what I’m hearing.

“Um, okay. So, you’re just moving
out? How long have you felt this way?”

“I’ve been thinking about it a
lot. I’m too young to be tied down to one person. I need to figure out where I
want my life to go, without being in your shadow.”

“Is there someone else? Did you
meet another guy?” I hold my breath waiting for her answer. I don’t think I can
handle it if she has been cheating on me.

“No, Drew. This is about me. I
need to leave this town and start my life, for me. I’m sorry. I know you wanted
to get married and have a family, but I don’t want that right now.”

She gets up and starts to walk
out. I can’t let her go yet. I know I’m going to look pathetic, but I have to
try one more time. I race to block the door so she has to get past me to get
out. I reach for her hand and lift her face with a finger under the chin to get
her to look at me.

“Jackie, I love you. I’ve loved
you for as long as I can remember. Please don’t do this. If you need time, we
can postpone the wedding. I need you in my life.”

She puts her suitcase down and
holds my hand. Looking me in the eye she says, “This
isn’t
about me not loving
you, Drew. This is about me figuring out what I want
in life. I can’t be the person you fell in love with anymore. I don’t know who
I am, but I want to find out. I’m sorry this is hurting you, but I have to do
it. Please let me go.” She takes off her engagement ring and places it in my
palm. With a small kiss on the cheek, she twists the door handle. I move out of
the way and she walks out the door without looking back. I look around the
apartment and realize she has already taken all of her other things. I slide
down the door and sit on the floor feeling numb.

It took me over a month to get
back to any semblance of normal after Jackie left me. I kept hoping she’d come
back. I called her every day but she didn’t answer. Eventually I got it that we
were done. After that I decided I wouldn’t open myself up to anyone. I kept to
one-night stands and made sure no one got close enough to hurt me. Even when I
asked Lily to marry me, I had no intention of letting her in. I wanted to keep
things as casual as possible. Once I spent time with her, I can’t seem to keep
my hands to myself.

If I let her in, I know I’ll get
hurt. Lily has made it clear she’s willing to help me out, but she has no plans
to fall in love. I know she’ll want to move on as soon as my mother is no
longer able to remember me. I just have to try to keep my distance from her,
not sleep with her, and get through the next couple weeks.

I take a drink of my beer and
realize it’s nearly empty. As I get up to get another one, I see Lily in the
kitchen. She’s wearing a swimsuit and a towel, and she’s bending over getting
something from the refrigerator.
Holy shit she looks good. I could just walk
up and take her from behind.
Seriously?
I have got
to stop this.

I take a moment to get my body
under control before heading into the kitchen. Thankfully, Lily’s gotten what
she wanted, so she’s no longer bending over.

“Hey! Did you get your stuff all
moved in?” I figure I’ll stick with small talk for now
.
“I think so.
Nala’s
checking out my room. I closed
the door so she doesn’t wander all over the house. I don’t want her to go
around unsupervised for now. I thought I’d go for a swim. Care to join me?”

Only if we can skinny dip and I
can bury my dick inside you.
NO! I have to get my mind back.

“I might join you in a bit. I
should probably go check my email and make sure there isn’t something pressing
going on at the office. I don’t like surprises on a Monday morning and I assume
we will be busy with planning tomorrow.”
And I don’t want to be in the pool
with you looking so fuckable because I know I won’t be able to control myself.

“Oh, okay. Well, if you change
your mind, you know where I’ll be.” She pats my cheek as she walks out the
patio door. I can’t help watching her walk away, enjoying the way she swings
her hips. I can feel my dick getting hard again so I turn and head to my home
office to check my messages and get my mind out of Lily’s bathing suit.

*
* *

Lily

It’s been a day and I just need
to relax. A swim is exactly what I want right now. I change quickly. Swimming
has always been something I enjoy and it helps me get my thoughts straight. I
don’t get to indulge often, since I don’t belong to a gym or the YMCA. It’s
going to be a treat to be able to swim whenever I want.

I wrap a towel around my waist
and go check on
Nala
. She’s under the bed, but she
doesn’t look scared. I try to get her to come out, but she backs up, so I
decide she just needs some time to get used to her new home. I shut the bedroom
door on my way out. She needs to stay in there until she’s comfortable. I’d
hate for her to pee on Drew’s furniture or carpet because she’s not sure where
she is.