Ink and Steel (13 page)

“Sir Christofer Marley,” she said, after a while. He choked on that held breath and looked up at her despite himself. Into a prescient smile under the crimson tower of her wig and eyes wide with mockery and amusement. “Yes, we know something of your adventures. Stand up straight, lad: even Queens tire of bended necks when they haven't an axe to hand.”

He stood. “Your Highness is well-informed.”

“We pay a great deal for the privilege,” she answered. “In gold and coin, and in the flesh and blood of our loyal subjects. Has she claimed thee?”

“Your Highness?”

“The Queen of Faerie,” she said, with a lift of her chin. She shut the panel behind herself and claimed the center of the narrow chamber. Kit's pulse fluttered in his throat: a different sort of awe than what the Faerie Queen produced. This was the awe of temporal power, of strength and age and a wit equal to any man's.
She is the pillar the sky is hung from.
“The beautiful pitiless lady. Has she claimed you?”

“She wishes to, madam,” he answered. “But her sister, called Queen Morgan, was the one who knighted me.”

“And bedded you? Oh, don't blush like that. For all 'tis engaging. We know something of the ways of the Fae. So. Stolen by Faeries, Queen's Man. And yet you seek an audience with your Sovereign, and we are disposed to grant it. Speak.”

“Your Highness.” Her eyebrow arched under its paint as he sought for words.
Do women always fluster you so badly, Kit?

Only when they're Queens.
He genuflected again, straightening hastily when she coughed.

“Sir Poet,” she said, not unkindly. “We are pleased that our subtleties have preserved you, and well-pleased are we to see you well. But now our good Walsingham tells us you beg release of your oaths of service. Your Queen would know why, and what adventures befell you. Our intimate Spirit, Burghley, had you buried, and those were of a certainment not our orders.”

“My Queen.” He would have gone to one knee again, but her worn, irritated fingers caught his elbow and held him on his feet. He couldn't look Gloriana in the eye, though she put her fingers under his chin and tilted his face like a maiden aunt with a wayward boy. “What choice is left me?”

He saw her lips purse under the masque of her paint, smelled the marjoram and ambergris and civet that clothed her. She tilted her head to examine his eyepatch and the scar that ran beneath it. “What befell thee, Queen's Man?”

“Your Highness knows—”

“Your own words, man, and be quick about it.”

“A dagger in the eye, Your Highness.” He choked. “Thomas Walsingham's men—”

“Your death was to be an illusion, Christofer Marley,” she said, seeming not to notice when her words rode over his. “A false body put in your place, and you spirited overseas. As was arranged in the letter you should have had under our seal. You have given much, and demanded little. We thought to make recompense.”

“It was not so, Your Highness.”

“We see.” Her hand left a trace of scent on his skin as she stepped away, her gaze steady on his scar. “I've witnessed worse, but it is not pretty. And earned in our service. You are a poet,” she continued without a breath. “Give us a poem.”

That was a challenge.
She smiled when he drew himself up. “And yet before I yield my fainting breath, I quite the killer, though I blame the kind,” Kit whispered, amazed at his own audacity. “You kill unkind, I die, and yet am true, For at your sight, my wound doth bleed anew—”

“Falsely said, but pretty. Like all sentiments of poesy. As a poet myself, I'll forgive it. Our subterfuge—Burghley's, Thomas Walsingham's, and mine—was to have saved you.”

Kit nodded. A cramp knotted his stomach; he had to brace his knees or they would have failed.
Dead men are hard-pressed to die again.
“My Queen. I knew you could not prove false to me, for all you are a Prince, you are a woman as true as any woman, and the mother of a son.”

She stepped back as if stung, and then shook her head in admiration and rue. “Hist! Kit Marley, you've got a tongue in you. Wilt convert me to atheism now?”

She leaned close, voice confidential. “You are privileged in your loss this once and once alone. Unmarried Queens do not have children, sir.”

“Your Highness. As I am bid—”

She smiled then, gentled. “We are given to understand that we owe you life and reign twice over, Sir Poet. We meant to reward you with your life, but it seems you have that in spite of us. What would complete thee?”

“Do you know, Your Highness, of Thomas Walsingham's faithlessness? ”

“Not unlike his cousin,” she said, “whose trickery painted me to a stand where I must have my royal cousin executed. The men who support me are true to my reign, but they
will
work at cross-purposes. We believe he is upright in his conviction that your death was warranted— for all he was misled to that conclusion. Do not ask yourself revenged on him.”

“I would not. Does Your Highness wish our task ended?”

A tilt of her head under the weight of pearls and hair. A subtle smile. “We are,” she said, “very fond of plays. You were about to answer my question.”

I should ask for Ingrim's head roasted and brought in on a platter with an apple in his mouth, and bits of boiled egg to make the eyes.
“I was a guest of that same Thomas Walsingham when your summons found me,” Kit said carefully. “There were papers. Manuscripts. Poems, part of a play—”

“I am sorry.” He believed her. “He has burned them.”

“Better my life lost than my words, Your Highness,” Kit said. “There is nothing else I will be remembered by.”

She stared down her nose. “You will be remembered as a sodomite, a heretic, and a mediocre playmender who died in a cluttered tavern through a tawdry brawl over some free-looking young man's favors. We pardoned your Ingrim Frazier, and we have buried your name, and we have saved your body and perhaps your immortal soul. Our Spirit's cousin, the estimable Widow Bull, will be tarred as a feckless tavern wench, and all that will be known of Marley is that he was a shoemaker's son who came to a sad and ugly end.” And then that smile, and a negligent wave of a jeweled hand. “You may save your thank-yous.”

Every word a blow, and yet the logic galled like a spur against his skin. “Widow Bull is Baron Burghley's cousin? Your Highness! I did not know that.”

“She is also a distant cousin of the Queen of Faerie's court musician. ” Elizabeth's smile broadened. “ 'Twas she saved your life, sweet poet.” Her delight was a schoolgirl's, and Kit could almost smell stolen flowers when he met her eyes.

“Thank you, Your Highness,” he murmured, and she laughed like a very young woman indeed.

“I knew it should come. Now beg your boon. The hour grows late, and old women kept from their beds wax querulous.”

She'd used and discarded him like a street-corner lightskirt, and still he permitted her to charm him.

As if permission had anything to do with it.
“Your Highness. If it suits you, would you share what you know of the Mebd, your sister Queen?”

Elizabeth's eyes widened: her only indication of surprise. “A fair and clever question, Sir Christofer,” she answered. “And one I cannot answer with the rectitude that it deserves—but I will send you as well armed into Faerie as I may, and hope you will remember your old Queen with fondness.” Her smile grew pensive under white lead paint and carmine. Dizziness spun him. “I have been ever too fond with you greedy, extravagant boys.

“Our reign reinforces the Mebd's, and so in subtle ways she supports it. The tricks you wreak with your plays have a greater place there than here, for her land is wove of the stuff of ballads and legendry. A strong Queen in England means a strong Queen of the Blesséd Isle, and she is old enough to know it. Old enough to remember Boudicca and Guenevere.

“But you have a problem, Sir Christofer.” She paced, pausing at last by the candelabra, and passed her hand through flames as if she caressed a lover's face. “Because it wasn't the Queen of Faerie who knighted you and bedded you and took you into her service, was it? And when we release you, it is not to her service you will go. And she is dangerous when thwarted, that one, and ambitious to a fault.”

“Morgan,” he said, understanding, as another spasm wracked him.
Was the soup poisoned?
“Does she want her sister's crown?”

Elizabeth shrugged, and her eyes grew dark before she turned away. “Who can say what one Queen wants of another?”

“Who can say, indeed. I will never—” He stopped, and then found his voice again. “Great Queen—”

“Do not flatter me, Christofer. 'Tis boring.”

“Your Highness. You release me from your service.”

“We do.”

He bowed around the hollowness that filled his throat, though pain grew in his belly like a flame.
I must return to Morgan
, he thought, realizing the source of the agony suddenly. “Service is what I have borne you, Your Highness, for I have not known you. And now that I bear you no service, I find I do know you. And my Queen, for what a playmaker's word is worth, I have traded that colder thing for a warmer thing, and with your permission, I will say now that I bear you love.”

“So many masks, Sir Christofer.” She raised one hand to her face. “We have that in common.” Her eyes narrowed as he broke, leaned forward, a cold sweat dewing his forehead.

“Your Highness—” he apologized, and she waved him silent.

“Gone too long from Faerie already,” she sniffed. “There's a mirror in my chambers that will serve. Come, then. Lean on mine arm.”

“Your Highness. It is beneath—”
your dignity.
But a bubble of pain silenced him.

Elizabeth jerked her chin, dismissing his protest with a gesture. “I am old and a Queen, and you shall do as you are bid. I will not have your life on my conscience after so much contrivance to preserve it!”

“Your Highness,” Kit answered. And for the last time in a short mortal life, obeyed an order from his Queen.

She handed him through the mirror, an old woman's exquisite fingers steadying him. The glass' surface clutched like bread dough, then snapped away before it could tear; he tumbled through, striking his knees and hands on stone. When he pushed himself up he thought the Queen's long hands had come with him.

But no, it was a rasping voice, jingle of bells in flicking ears, a strong small figure propping him up. “Sir Poet?”

“Puck.” Kit struggled to a crouch, the agony in his gut receding. And didn't understand why his next words were, “Where is Morgan?”

And whence the twist of worry and
Lust
that almost sent him back to his knees a moment after he'd toiled up off them?

“Oh, about her tasks, I imagine. Or in her rooms. The Mebd set me to watch for you. She thought you might need assistance.”

“I did,” Kit said, “but I found it. Morgan's rooms—does Murchaud keep quarters here?”

The Puck's lips compressed as if Kit had said something unwittingly funny, but there was—concern? sorrow?—in the droop of the little man's ears and the set of his eyes. “Aye,” he said. “I'll show you Morgan's rooms. And Prince Murchaud's. And the ones that will be your own.”

“Mine own?” It was a pressure. The beat of a wave. As if being gone from Morgan's side had pooled behind a dam, and now all struck him suddenly.
Gone? Kit, you
bedded
her not two days since.
But
gone
was the word, and
gone
stayed with him.

“Aye,” Puck said. “The Mebd's given you an apartment. Would you like to—”

“Morgan,” Kit said, and it came out a whimper.
God, what has she done to me, Christ, what has she done—

“As you wish it.” Puck reached up to take Kit by the elbow. Kit thought he heard pity in the little Fae's voice, but it might have been only the jingle of his bells. “The gallery over the Great Hall is by way of these stairs—”

Kit lurched up them half at a run, aware that Robin fell behind on purpose and watched him go, bells jingling. Kit found Morgan's door as much by luck as memory, tried the latch, slipped within breathing like a racehorse.

Morgan
.

She sat before the window, embroidering. Her golden hands moved over and under the frame, chasing a silver needle, dragging threads of colors Kit could barely comprehend through linen white as doves. She glanced up, pushed her stool back from the frame, and stood.

“Safe home,” she said, and he hurried across the floor to her, the iron nails in his boots ringing immunity. She met him halfway, sleeves rolled back from the linen of her kirtle, clad in a gown so antique Kit had only seen the style on statues and in tapestries. “Sir Kit.”

He hadn't words.
Something
screamed betrayal in his belly.
Christ
.
Christ
. He couldn't name it. She brought her arms up, laced them about his neck when he froze, suddenly, aching. Craving. “My Queen—”

She laughed, mocking, her black hair tossed over her shoulder, braided into a rope to bind his soul. “Long and long since I heard
those
words,” she said. “Speak more.”

But words abandoned him again. He fumbled at the knots on her gown, tore cloth.
Never Like this
and
this is not me
but she was lovely, oh, skin gleaming in the light that streamed through the window, thighs like pillars revealing a flash of Heaven's gate as she stepped neatly from discarded clothing. He had no words. For the first time in his life, he had no
words
.