Keep it Secret (13 page)

No, Mother, Gabriel and I
are only friends.

He’s a good-looking boy,
Vanessa.

Yes, Mother, that he
is.

You know, your father and I
wouldn’t pose a problem if he came over for dinner.

Huh? I was barely permitted
to speak to the opposite sex now all of a sudden a boy is welcome
into our home…for dinner? This doesn't seem right, something’s
up.

Would you like me to invite
him over, Mother?

We’ll talk when I come
home, all right?

If you didn't want to talk
about it now, then why did you call? Oh, I know it was just one of
mother’s many ways to remind me that she controlled my life and
everything was on her say so.

Yes, Mother, whatever you
say.

I’ll talk to you soon,
good-bye.

Good-bye,
Mother
.

No, I love you or how was
your day it was always straight to the point with my
mother.

Ava

I managed to get through the
day with half a pint of vodka. Okay maybe it was a little more than
half but still I didn't completely finish it off until Vanessa got
in the car all high off of Gabriel. I was fine until she mentioned
kissing him. The image of their lips joining made the dark carousel
in my mind turn ever so slightly making me crave some liquid
courage. I rushed out the car back into the school to drink the
last of it, like a dirty black rat taking its food to the back of a
dingy alley. Fortunately for me the night called for some drunken
debauchery and enough sexually explicit behavior meant to erase a
certain someone from my mind. After getting back into the car, I
drove home in a comfortable silence with Vanessa. I parked facing
the front door Vanessa opened her car door waiting for me to open
mine.

“Aren’t you
coming?”

“No, I’ll be back later. I
already let Billy know I was meeting some friends from
Aurora.”

“All right, I’ll see you
later tonight.” She said disappointed. I felt bad but I needed
this, I was feeling suffocated and my liquid relief wasn’t
enough.

I drove two hours to Aurora
eager to get more alcohol in me along with some male
anatomy.

Once I arrived I parked the
Mercedes right in front of the bar.
Spade’s
was one of the bars
Christian promoted. This bar was pretty popular amongst the
twenty-something’s in the neighborhood. I walked in door and headed
directly to the bar.

“Jailbait! Long time no see,
baby.” Jason, the bartender leaned over to give me a kiss on the
cheek.

“Hey, Jason, how’s it
hanging?”

He laughed. “You wouldn’t
know, would you sweetheart, you’ve never let me hit it.”

“Believe it or not Jason, I
have standards.” I said scanning the room. “Give me the usual would
ya?”

“Oh, yeah? Since when?” He
asked pouring three shots of tequila.

Once he finished I took all
three shots back to back, the clear liquid went down smooth.
Yes, exactly what I needed.
I tapped the wooden bar gesturing for more.

“Since I heard you don’t
quite fall under my measurement requirements.” I said watching my
three new shots being filled.

“Damn, it’s like that?” He
whined placing his hand over his heart like he was
heartbroken.

I chuckled shaking my head
drinking the three shots before walking away to see who else was
here tonight. I was already feeling the wonderful effects of the
tequila pumping through my heart. At this point, my mind was saying
Gabriel who? I recognized a couple of guy’s I had sex with both
gave me the come hither look but I wasn't interested in something
I’d had before. I wanted something new, something that would shake
whatever it was that I felt for Gabriel lose. Passing several pool
tables I was suddenly pulled back by my wrist. I turned around to
find Reggie leaning against the wall with his leg propped against
it.
How did I not even notice he was
here?
It surprised me because you couldn’t
possibly look past Reggie even if you tried. He was that damn
gorgeous.

“I heard you broke up with
Christian.” He pulled me to him whispering in my ear.

“We were never an item.” I
replied moving closer to his mouth.

“Why did he come up here
telling everyone you were his then?”

“Don’t know. Why did any of
you motherfuckers listen to him?” I placed my hands over his chest
feeling his toned muscles under his tight blue tee, he smelled good
too, like fresh cologne. Reggie was about 5’8, buzz cut and covered
in tattoos. I’ve always been a sucker for tattoos. His brown eyes
matched his milky chocolate skin. It looked yummy enough to
eat.

“You got a mouth on you,
girl.” He replied licking his lips as he looked at mine.

“So I’ve been told. Want to
know what else I can do with it?” I pressed myself against him
already feeling the effect I had on him on my upper
thigh.

“Sshit.” He said sliding his
hands down my ass squeezing each side. “Let’s get out of
here.”

“I have a car out back.” I
replied.

Reaching the Mercedes Reggie
and I jumped in the back seat. I straddled him before taking off my
jacket his hands squeezed my ass as he buried his face in between
my breasts. I rocked back on this lap until I felt his hard cock
pressed against my leather leggings. Once he pulled my shirt off I
unclasp my bra giving him better access to my tits.

“Damn, girl you get right to
the point, don’t you?”

“Reggie, shut up and fuck
me.” I demanded not wanting to hear him talk.

“Yes, ma’am.”

I got back pretty late,
Billy wasn’t home yet and Vanessa was already asleep. I quietly
turned on the shower making the water as hot as possible before
getting in. I tried my best not to cry. I felt so dirty, having sex
in the back of my aunt’s car would have been a thrill before but
now it wasn’t the same. I closed my eyes trying to push down myself
pity. This was so messed up and twisted. I didn’t know what to do
with myself. The feelings I had for Gabriel were becoming
overwhelming. Self-medicating with sex wasn’t going to cut it any
longer. Something needed to give.

Wednesday and Thursday came
and went. It was pretty much the same. I would drive us to school
and try to avoid Vanessa and Gabriel as much as possible. I could
see the way he looked at her and it made my stomach churn. After
school, I dropped Vanessa off at the house then head back to see
Reggie. It was a disgusting ritual that I had to break, fast.
Friday was the same until after school, Billy came to pick up
Vanessa they were driving to Denver to see Declan. She begged me to
go, but I wasn't in the mood to be the fourth wheel. Once I was
home I ran upstairs to change out of my uniform and get ready for a
house party in Aurora Christian had invited me to. I changed into a
black mini skirt, and a long sleeve black crop top. I slipped on
some red heels keeping the makeup to a minimum. I was actually
excited to see Christian; it had only been a week since I’d seen
him but for some reason I missed him. Going downstairs to grab a
quick snack the doorbell rang. Dolores had taken the day off so I
went to open it. Gabriel was standing with his back to me. His
jeans hung low covering the well-defined V that dug into his sides
the hem of his white tee barely grazed the top of his jeans. His
blonde hair shined in the sunlight.
My
blue eyed angel.

I cleared my throat in an
attempt to get his attention. Gabriel turned, his eyes widened and
mouth fell open. I internally giggled like a damn moron.

“Close your mouth, Blue, you
look like a trout.” I said, he slowly closed his mouth, but his
eyes move slowly up and down my body like he was trying to burn the
image of me in his mind. It took all of my strength and willpower
not to jump his bones, right then and there.

“Vanessa isn’t here, she
won’t be here till late.” I snapped not sure why I was suddenly so
mad at him. Gabriel cleared his throat, becoming aware that he had
been staring at my body.

“Yeah, sorry, I know. I’m
here to speak to you actually.” He replied rubbing his
chin.

“I’m on my way out, can it
wait?” I put my hand on my hip cocking it to the side. His eyes
followed the movement of my hip then lowering to my
legs.

“Ahem.” I said, attempting
to gain his attention back to my eyes. Even though I loved the way
he was looking at me.

He completely ignored me.
“You’re going out? Dressed like that?” He said moving his hands up
and down making sure I hadn’t forgotten what I’m
wearing.

“Yeah.” And before I could
stop myself I said. “You want to come along?”

Shit. Shit, shit, shit!
Without even asking me where I was going or any form of hesitation
he replied. “Yes.”

We drove the long two hours
to Aurora in silence. Once we arrived, I parked the Mercedes some
ways away from the house, just to ensure that it would be safe. In
this neighborhood the car screamed drug dealer, there was no way
someone would mess with it. Still, I tried to be extra
careful.

“Let’s go, Blue.” I said
stepping out of the car.

“A party. You dressed this
way for a house party?” He stopped dead in his tracks.

“What? Did you think I’m a
stripper or something?” When he didn't answer I figured he expected
something like that. I wasn’t surprised I mean I didn’t give the
most respectful first impression. We walked to the party already
packed with bodies. Alcohol and the hazy smoke from weed filled the
house. Before entering, I grabbed Gabriel’s hand.

“Don’t let go. The bitches
will maul you.” He laughed squeezing my hand tightly. His touch was
so foreign yet so familiar, like we were meant to hold hands in
this way. My body tingled with this new sort of high. I hesitated
before taking him inside not liking the idea of sharing him with
anyone else. Still, I went.

Famous last
words.

Immediately after stepping
inside a large arm wrapped around my waist pulling me away from the
front door, Gabriel’s hand was still holding mine.

“I hear you’re fucking
Reggie.” Christian’s voice was low in my ear, it instantly
presented a different type of feeling deep down in my belly. Lust.
Pushing him away with my free hand I looked into his angry
eyes.

“Yeah, what of it?” The
party mood around us changed into tension as I felt Gabriel’s chest
rise against my back. Christian noticed too, causing him to puff
out his chest sizing Gabriel up.

“Who’s this clown?” I wasn’t
interested in a ‘my dick’s bigger than yours’ contest that’s not
why I drove two hours to get here.

“Didn’t you invite me to
party?” I asked hopefully diffusing the unnecessary
tension.

“Yeah, to party with
me
not some other
douchbag.”

“Excuse me?” Gabriel moved
to the front of me. “What’s your problem, man?”

Christian chuckled stepping
closer to Gabriel. “Yo, bro, there’s no problem. There’s enough of
Ava to go around, isn’t that right, baby?”

“Fuck you, Christian.” I
said, pushing past Gabriel to get in front of Christian.

“What the hell is wrong with
you? You have no reason to be pissed at me. Yes, I fucked Reggie
and I’m here with Gabriel. You're not my boyfriend, never have
been. This isn't news to you.” Christian’s eyes glisten with hurt.
Like an idiot, he allowed himself to fall for me, for me, out of
all the girls around his heart chooses the one who doesn't want it
in return.

“Don’t do this Chris.” I go
to grab his hand but he pulls away.

“Do what, baby?” His stare
was stoic just as he lowered his mouth to my ear.

“Call me when you get bored
with Polo shirt.” He said walking away. I’ve broken some hearts
along the way, nothing to be proud of, I know, but this
one—Christians—I felt…bad.

“Want to dance?” Gabriel
asked turning me to face him.

Yes, anything to distract
me
.

“I’d love to.”

Hand in hand we maneuvered
ourselves to the middle of the floor as we prepared to dance the
song changed to The Weeknd's
Wicked
Games.

Me thinks the universe hates
me.

Gabriel’s lips tugged into a
small smile as he licked his lips. Slowly, I stepped closer to him
placing my hands on his sides I rotated my hips to the beat of the
song slithering up and down still facing him. Gabriel’s eyes hooded
turning me around, so my ass was on his crouch. I continued to
grind against him taking my time his hands gripped my hips just as
his lips lowered to my neck. Feeling the warmth of his breath
against my skin, I tilted my head sideways giving him better
access. Instantly making me wet. My nipples tense as a hand moved
to my exposed stomach dipping a fingertip inside the elastic band
of my skirt. A small whimper escaped me suddenly I had to
concentrate on breathing.