Lead Me Home (18 page)

“Sorry, guys. If I feed you that’ll just cause confusion.” He stopped to pet them, though. Butch, a tan short-haired dog of indeterminate ancestry, and Sundance, a black dog with curly hair and no visible pedigree, had been strays until the Chance family took them in.

Matthew admired the big-hearted spirit of this ranch and hoped to come back. But if he did, the place wouldn’t be the same without Aurelia. He sighed and started down the aisle between the stalls. Houdini’s was at the far end.

The horses all pricked up their ears and looked expectant as he came by. “Can’t feed you, either,” he told them. “Some of you may be on special diets. I’m not going to take a chance on messing that up.”

A couple of them nickered in protest, but the rest went back to foraging for whatever they’d missed from last night’s meal.

Houdini stuck his head over the stall door, clearly welcoming Matthew. That kind of affection was a very good sign. Matthew couldn’t give himself all the credit. In the days following Lester’s successful ride, Matthew had gradually allowed the other boys to take a turn. The socializing had been very good for the horse.

Houdini also stayed in his stall these days, not so much out of choice as his inability to break out. Matthew didn’t kid himself that Houdini had abandoned his escape-artist leanings. Working with Emmett Sterling, Matthew had devised a latch that the horse couldn’t open, at least not yet.

Standing by the stall door, he scratched along the base of Houdini’s mane and stroked his velvet muzzle. “Females,” he muttered. “Can’t live with ’em, can’t live without ’em.”

Houdini snorted.

“I should probably be grateful, though. I still get to have sex the old-fashioned way, but once you’re in the stud program, you’ll be mounting a dummy instead of a mare. I can’t believe that’s much fun.”

Houdini gazed at him with his liquid brown eyes.

“Yeah, you don’t know what I’m talking about yet, but you will soon enough. Today might be the day, in fact. I was hired primarily so that you’d become the proud papa of a bunch of registered Paints, so you and I need to see if you’ll be cooperative and mount that dummy.”

Houdini pawed the floor of his stall.

“Don’t get too excited, yet. I’ll have to discuss it with Emmett.”

“Did I hear my name mentioned?” The foreman walked through the open doorway of the barn.

“Just the man I need to talk to,” Matthew said.

Emmett touched his hat in greeting. “You’re up early.” He came toward Matthew with a slightly bow-legged stride.

“Lots to do today.”

“Always.” Tall and lean, Emmett was the quintessential seasoned cowboy, his face lined from years of working with horses out in the elements. His neatly trimmed mustache, which was starting to gray along with his dark hair, made him look even more authentic. “What did you need to discuss with me?”

“Houdini’s made good progress with his training in the corral, but considering that he’s destined to be a stud, we should probably find out if he’s mellowed enough that we can get him to mount a dummy.”

“As a matter of fact, Clay asked me about that yesterday, and I promised him a progress report.”

“I’ve never seen the collection process, although I have a fair idea of what goes on. Do you think Houdini’s ready?”

“One way to find out. I can see if Clay’s available this morning.”

“That would be great.” Matthew had first met Clay Whitaker, who ran the stud program for the Last Chance, during his first morning on the ranch. Since then Clay had been busy dealing with semen shipments and they’d had no chance for a conversation. Clay was also Emmett’s son-in-law following a spring wedding to Emmett’s daughter Emily.

“Even if Clay’s busy, he’ll probably make time,” Emmett said. “He’s eager to get Houdini into the program. The horse has excellent bloodlines.”

“But this will be one portion of Houdini’s training that the kids don’t need to be part of. If they find out about it, they might want to, though. Houdini’s become almost like a pet to them.”

“Let’s just avoid the problem,” Emmett said. “I’ll get a couple of the hands to take those boys on a fence-mending detail this morning. Then you can let them ride Houdini this afternoon.”

“That’ll work. I’m going to take a turn on him, myself. Now that he’s familiar with a bridle and a Western saddle, having me topside shouldn’t faze him. It’s about time to put the finishing touches on this project.”

Emmett gave him a speculative glance. “I didn’t think you were in that much of a hurry.”

“You mean because of Aurelia?” No point in pretending not to know what Emmett was talking about.

“Yep. I thought you’d want to stay on here until she left for Nebraska.”

“I’m not sure that’s a good idea anymore.”

“You two have a spat?”

“Not exactly. We just…I dunno.” Matthew tilted his hat back with his thumb and looked at Emmett. “Our sticking point seems to be travel. I’m going to guess you’re not much of a traveler yourself.”

“That’d be a good guess.”

“And why is that?”

“No point in it. Everything I want is right here.” He stroked a finger over his mustache. “That’s where you and I are different. You have a hankering for faraway places. I like my regular routine and my familiar surroundings.”

“And I get that. For you, it makes perfect sense, because working on a ranch is your dream. But I can’t figure that working in a bank is Aurelia’s dream. She’s never once talked about her job.”

The foreman paused as if weighing Matthew’s comment. “She strikes me as a girl who likes security,” he said finally. “Her job could make her feel secure.”

“Hell, I could give her all the security she wants. If she’d travel with me, she could search out recipes from around the world, and then collect them into an international cookbook. Or two cookbooks. A whole damned series of cookbooks! You’ve seen how creative she is. Doesn’t that seem like something she’d be happy doing?”

“She might, but if she’s spent her whole life in the same place, going on some grand adventure with you could feel like jumping off a cliff.”

“But I’d be there to catch her.”

Emmett’s gaze was sympathetic. “You know that, but she may not believe it, at least not yet. It takes time, son, just like with horses. People can’t change their ways overnight any more than a horse can.”

“But I thought by now she’d trust me more.” He gestured toward Houdini. “He does.”

“Of course he does. You haven’t asked him to leave everything he’s used to.”

Matthew sighed. “Damn it all, you’re right. I pushed her and she pushed back. I guess I should have expected that instead of thinking she’d grab hold of the idea and run with it.”

“Maybe if you back off she’ll come around.”

“Maybe.”

“Or not. You don’t want to force a relationship with a woman if it’s wrong. I did that with my ex, and Jack’s dad, Jonathan, did the same with Diana.”

“Yeah, I picked up on that story. Where is Jack’s half brother, by the way? Am I going to get to meet him?”

“Probably not. Summer’s busy for wilderness guides, and he wants to earn as much as he can now that he’s going to be a married man.”

Matthew nodded. “Marriage. It’s quite a step, isn’t it?”

“Oh, yeah.”

“Thanks for the advice. You obviously understand women better than I do.”

“I wouldn’t say that.” Emmett’s smile was rueful. “And Pam Mulholland
definitely
wouldn’t say that. She’s nearly lost patience with me.”

Matthew remembered listening to the cowhands talk about that ongoing drama. Pam owned the bed-and-breakfast down the road, and she’d had her eye on Emmett for years. Because she had more money in the bank than Emmett, he resisted any suggestion of marriage. He was willing to carry on an affair, but apparently tying the knot would make him feel like a kept man.

Matthew’s issues with Aurelia made him prone to side with Pam, the person with the money. He’d bet Pam was as eager to share her wealth with Emmett as Matthew was to share his with Aurelia. “The hands all say she’s crazy about you.”

“Don’t know why.” Emmett’s voice was gruff. “I’m just an old saddle tramp. She could do a whole lot better.”

From Matthew’s standpoint, any woman would be lucky to hook up with a guy like Emmett. He was kind, generous and principled. “For what it’s worth, I think you’re selling yourself short.” He smiled. “But hey, considering how messed up my love life is right now, I have no business meddling in anyone else’s.”

Emmett chuckled. “Are you saying we’re the blind leading the blind?”

“Could be. Maybe we should concentrate on matters we do know something about, like horses. Much simpler.”

“Ain’t that the truth.”

But as the morning progressed, Matthew had trouble following his own orders. No matter how hard he tried to shove thoughts of Aurelia to the back of his mind, they kept intruding. Maybe it was partly because he was in the semen-collection shed, and a guy faced with that procedure couldn’t help thinking of sex. After the past week and a half, Matthew couldn’t think of sex without thinking of Aurelia.

Clay Whitaker, a conscientious guy who knew horses and the science of semen collection, gave his complete attention to convincing Houdini he should mount the cloth dummy.

“I can see why he’s not going for it,” Matthew said. “It’s like the equine version of a blow-up doll.”

“While a hot babe waits in the next room behind a locked door,” Clay added.

Matthew laughed. “Exactly.” A teaser mare in season was tethered in a wooden pen at the back of the shed where Houdini could smell her but couldn’t get to her.

“At least he’s excited by the mare, which is helpful,” Clay said. “Houdini wants her with the heat of a thousand suns.”

“But he’s not buying the cloth-dummy aspect,” Matthew said. “Frankly, in his place, neither would I.”

Clay laughed. “There are many times while I’m doing this job that I want to turn the stallion loose and let him have some real fun.”

“Don’t blame you.”

“But if I did, I’d get fired, and rightly so. That mare is not the one who’s supposed to get Houdini’s semen. We have customers who are willing to pay a good amount of money so that Houdini impregnates their mare and not ours.”

Matthew wiped his forehead on his sleeve. “How long should we keep this up?”

“Truthfully? I think at this point we might be wasting our time. Besides, it’s nearly noon and Aurelia will be serving lunch. Let’s try him again tomorrow morning. He might have a change of heart between now and then.”

“Works for me.” Timing and patience seemed to be the order of the day. “Sorry we couldn’t get him up there.”

“No worries. He’s a thousand percent easier to handle than he was two weeks ago. I would have been amazed if we’d succeeded the first time. But once we convince him, then it’ll get a lot easier. Some satisfaction is better than none.”

“I’ll take your word for it.” Matthew had always been an all-or-nothing kind of guy.

“I’ll lead the mare out the side door if you’ll lead Houdini out the front.”

“Sure thing.” But Houdini planted his feet when Matthew tried to coax him out of the shed. He didn’t want to give up when he thought he might still get a shot at the mare. Matthew decided to wait until Clay and the mare were out of the shed.

As the pretty little brown and white Paint mare left, Houdini trumpeted his disappointment.

“I feel your pain, my friend,” Matthew said. “It sucks to have the doors of paradise slammed in your face.”

* * *

F
OR THE FIRST TIME
since Matthew had arrived at the Last Chance, Aurelia dreaded seeing him come into the dining room for lunch. Sure, her heart beat faster as it always did, but bubbles of happiness no longer fizzed in her veins. When his gaze met hers, his expression was guarded.

She hated that, but didn’t know how to fix it short of leaping on the bandwagon he’d rolled out for her this morning. Because she wasn’t planning to do that, their relationship was bound to be strained. She served the meal, a rice-and-chicken dish with roots in a Creole recipe she’d found and he’d helped her modify.

Usually she could hardly wait to get his reaction when he finally tasted the results of his consultation and her cooking skills. But today, any comments on her food would remind them both of their discussion this morning. She wished she could erase it from her memory and return to the easy camaraderie they’d enjoyed before he’d come up with his suggestion to completely alter her life.

Still, she couldn’t bear not to speak to him. She’d figured out from snatches of conversation that the boys had been sent out to repair the fence line while Matthew did some additional work with Houdini that didn’t include the kids.

As she was clearing the plates, she paused beside his chair. “Did your morning go well with Houdini?”

“Not as well as Clay and I had hoped.”

Then she understood. Clay was in charge of the semen operation for the ranch, so if he’d been working with Matthew, the two of them must have tried unsuccessfully to collect some from Houdini. “I’m sorry to hear that.”

As she imagined two big strapping cowboys trying to milk semen from a stallion, she had to press her lips together to keep from laughing. No doubt they weren’t amused by their lack of success. She was liable to insult them if she wasn’t careful.

“We’ll try again tomorrow morning.”

“Good.” She hurried away before he could tell she was struggling to control herself.

Later, after the dining room emptied, she came out of the kitchen with a damp cloth to wipe down the tables. Matthew stood there, the only person left. Apparently he wasn’t going to walk into the bedroom and check his email as he usually did, and neither would he quietly leave the house and avoid the conversation completely.

She shouldn’t be surprised that he’d choose to deal with her in a straightforward way. He was that kind of man, someone who faced things head-on. He said what he thought and asked questions when he needed an answer. She admired that.

His first comment had nothing to do with email. He went straight to the heart of the matter. “I thought I’d better check and find out if you still want me to come up after dinner.”