Legacy of Desire (18 page)

Jay’s eyes were hard. ‘What’s the matter? You’re not afraid of me, are you?’

The truth was, she did feel a little afraid. She enjoyed mild S&M in a group but right now she had no protection. She suddenly recognised how powerful Jay was and was about to tell him to stop when his hands started to caress her bare breasts and she realised that she was already excited. He stroked the soft flesh lightly, almost tenderly and she felt her fear ease. Her head fell back against the bedpost and her eyelids closed. Just as she started to murmur with pleasure he flicked sharply at each of her erect nipples and she squealed with pain. ‘That hurt.’

‘It turned you on though,’ he muttered, thrusting a hand between her thighs, and almost immediately she felt him push two fingers inside her while his other hand continued to pinch and flick at her throbbing breasts. The result was an extraordinary mixture of pain and pleasure that rapidly aroused her. ‘You see, fear can be an aphrodisiac,’ said Jay, and she knew that he was right.

When he knelt on the floor and roughly parted her legs she tensed as his mouth moved hungrily over the delicate area between. His tongue stabbed at her tender flesh and she felt his teeth grazing the very tip of her
throbbing clitoris. With a cry she was racked by a sharp, intense orgasm. Her body tried to jack-knife forward but the belt cut into her flesh and she hastily straightened up.

For half an hour he kept her there, alternating tender caresses with harsher touches, occasionally slapping at her bare flesh with the backs of his fingers, causing her skin to redden and a strange hot, dark pleasure to course through her veins. She lost count of how many times she came, but she knew that the pleasure was different because it continued to be tinged with fear.

Finally he unfastened the belt and threw her onto the bed, but although she begged for him to untie her hands he refused. Instead he turned her roughly onto her stomach, pulled her hips into the air, parted the cheeks of her bottom and as she stiffened in protest he spread lubricating jelly around the tiny opening. Then he thrust hard inside her, while with his free hand he reached beneath her so that as he invaded the forbidden entrance he distracted her from the initial discomfort by massaging her clitoris in the way that she liked best.

She was whimpering and crying now, but to her shame she didn’t want him to stop. The whole experience was
mind-blowing and when he finally came she fell forward onto the bed as he allowed her to take almost his full weight. For a few moments they lay in silence. His mouth was resting on the nape of her neck and to her astonishment she heard him murmur, ‘Davina.’

Eventually she managed to wriggle away from beneath him. ‘Please untie me now, Jay,’ she said firmly. ‘My shoulders are aching.’

He looked at her in surprise. ‘Sure, I forgot.’ She felt his hands fumbling at the sash and then, at last, her wrists were free and he carefully massaged them as the blood returned. ‘You weren’t too uncomfortable, were you?’ he asked.

‘Some of the time,’ she confessed. ‘But it made for brilliant sex.’

He nodded grimly. ‘Yeah, I guess it did.’

‘You know, Jay, that’s the first time that I’ve felt you weren’t really thinking of me when we were having sex together,’ said Tanya. ‘It was as though you were angry, as though you were forcing climaxes from me as a kind of punishment.’

Jay shook his head. ‘Why would I be angry with you?’

‘I don’t think you were. I don’t think it had anything to do with me.’

‘Look, if you didn’t like it I’m sorry,’ he said shortly. ‘I imagined it would make a change. If I stepped out of line I apologise.’

Tanya stroked the side of his face in a tender caress. ‘You didn’t step out of line and I’m not complaining, but be honest with me, Jay. You weren’t thinking of me, were you?’

‘Maybe not.’

‘Who were you thinking of?’

He gave a short laugh. ‘Myself, of course.’

Tanya shook her head. ‘You were thinking about Davina.’

‘Why the hell should I be thinking about Davina?’

‘Because you were turned on watching her with Pattie and me. You’d have liked to bring her in here and do all the things to her that you did to me. You want her, but you want to punish her for making you want her. Why do you think it’s wrong for you to fancy her?’

Jay’s voice was low. ‘I can’t understand myself. When I took her to London we spent the night together. It was
good, in fact I’d go so far as to say it was great. The problem is she’s the kind of girl who expects commitment and I haven’t got time for that. I just want to get her out of my system. Maybe then I can stop thinking about her.’

‘Why not live with her for a while?’ suggested Tanya. ‘I take it you’re bored with Pattie?’

‘We’re bored with each other. She thinks I don’t know that she’s been screwing Phil at every possible opportunity. Talk about an insult. You’d think she’d find someone with more intelligence.’

‘Maybe it’s because he’s so different from you,’ suggested Tanya. ‘Perhaps she wants commitment as well.’

‘No, she wants to be a good Bostonian wife. Can you imagine it? I’d be a laughing stock with her at my side.’

‘Then perhaps it’s time you told her that,’ said Tanya quietly. ‘Not that Todd married me because he thought I’d fit in to Bostonian society, quite the opposite I should imagine.’

‘That was different,’ said Jay, with one of his rare smiles. ‘He fell in love with you.’

‘Suppose you fell in love with Davina? Would that be such a dreadful thing?’

Jay looked horrified. ‘I haven’t fallen in love with her. I’m obsessed with her, but I guess that’s because she’s a Brit and different. I want to break through that cool exterior, show her that she’s no different from the rest of us. Once I’ve done that there’ll be no mystery left and I’ll be free.’

‘So you want to destroy her in order to concentrate on your work, is that it?’

Jay pulled a face. ‘You make me sound pretty damn selfish.’

‘I think you are selfish,’ said Tanya. ‘I suppose you’ve had to be in order to get on as fast as you have, but maybe it’s time to slow down a little.’

‘At thirty? I’ll think about it in another ten years.’

‘Davina won’t be around in another ten years,’ Tanya pointed out.

‘Why do you keep on about her?’ he asked irritably. ‘Like I said, I just want her out of my system and to get my life back on track again.’

‘Perhaps you’ll find that even if you succeed in making her more like yourself you still won’t be free of her. Maybe possession will increase your obsession, what then?’

‘I’ll have to make damn sure she leaves the cottage so I won’t have to see her again.’

‘How do you propose to do that?’

‘I’m sure I can come up with some demand that she’ll refuse. Luckily the wording of the will gives me the scope to do that.’

Tanya curled herself up into a small ball and lay with her naked back against Jay’s bare chest. He flung one large left arm over her and she felt a little of the tension drain out of him. ‘You don’t think much of me, do you?’ he asked quietly.

‘That’s where you’re wrong,’ said Tanya seriously. ‘I like you a lot, Jay. That’s why I don’t want you to mess up your life.’

‘Then help me,’ Jay urged her.

‘How?’

‘I’ve been thinking about it and while I was watching you girls tonight I realised that although Davina’s always initially reluctant to reveal her sexuality, once she gets going she’s pretty abandoned. I want to really tear the veil away, show her the unvarnished truth about herself. It’ll be exciting as hell to watch and afterwards she’ll probably be so ashamed she’ll
want to get away from me, which will solve the problem.’

‘And how do you intend to do this?’ asked Tanya, intrigued.

‘I thought the four of us would use her for our entertainment,’ he said softly, his breath ruffling Tanya’s hair.

She wriggled slightly, her buttocks pressing into his stomach and she felt his penis start to stir. ‘You know, that sounds exciting but I can’t imagine how you’d get her to take part.’

‘That’s where you come in,’ he explained. ‘You’ll have to go over to the cottage, say Thursday night, and ask her to do a drawing for you from a photograph that you’ve brought. Then, when she asks to see the photograph, you’ll have to say that you’ve left it back at the house. Offer to go and get it, that would be the natural thing to do, but knowing Davina she’ll offer to come back here with you and save you the trip. Then, when she follows you in through the front door, Todd and I will grab her.’

All the time he was talking Tanya could feel his erection growing, pressing between her buttocks, and she
realised that just the thought of it was exciting him. ‘You can’t force her to take part,’ she protested.

‘Gee, what kind of a guy do you think I am? I won’t have to force her, you wait and see. Sure she’ll be frightened at first but once we get her going she won’t leave even when I offer her the door.’

‘Are you sure of that?’ asked Tanya.

‘You’re goddam right I’m sure.’

‘Have you discussed this with Todd?’

Jay sighed. ‘Can’t you make a decision for yourself, Tanya? You’re a big girl now, or at least a grown-up,’ he added, as his hands travelled over her slight body.

‘I’m happy to do it,’ she assured him. ‘I only wondered what Todd thought of the idea.’

‘I’ll ask him later tonight. I don’t see why he won’t go along with it. As long as he knows Davina can go if she likes he’ll probably think it sounds like fun. It’ll make a change for all of us, not just Davina.’

‘In the meantime, what are you going to do with that?’ asked Tanya mischievously, reaching behind her back and running her fingers up and down his shaft.

‘What would you like me to do with it?’

‘Do you really need to ask?’ laughed Tanya, and
turning towards Jay she pushed him onto his back before straddling his body, balancing herself so that his glans was just touching her clitoris. She moved her hips back and forth, feeling the first tremulous stirrings of excitement deep within her.

Jay looked up at her, his hazel eyes gleaming, and reaching up he caressed her small breasts, only this time his touch was light against the previously abused flesh. ‘Touch yourself,’ he urged as she felt her climax approaching. ‘Lick your finger and then run it in circles around your clitoris. I love the expression on your face when you do that.’

Tanya was trembling violently, her orgasm drawing nearer and nearer, and she could hardly bear it because her nerve endings were still so sensitive. Obeying him only increased her pleasure and she obediently licked the middle finger of her right hand and then leant back slightly on his erection, so that he could see her masturbating herself.

The moment she started tracing the circle around her clitoris the contractions started deep within her and she felt her whole body tighten. ‘I’m coming,’ she warned him.

Jay watched. ‘Keep looking at me as you come,’ he commanded her.

Normally Tanya closed her eyes at the height of ecstasy and it felt extraordinary to force herself to keep them open, to stare into the depths of Jay’s eyes and watch his excitement grow as her movements became more and more frantic until finally she was coming, her whole body shaking. Still their eyes remained locked together until his body jerked beneath her and she felt him come once more, spilling his hot seed deep inside her in an unexpected second climax.

‘Fantastic!’ he murmured as she slid off him, and for a moment his hand wandered down her spine before he tapped her lightly on the bottom. ‘Time to get back to the other two.’

‘And you still want to go through with your plan, do you?’ she asked, wondering why it was that her body still seemed to want further stimulation.

‘You bet I do.’

When they reached the door to the master bedroom where Todd and Pattie were still busy, Tanya turned to Jay. ‘You’re the most incredible lover I’ve ever had, Jay. If only you were a warmer person you’d be a helluva catch.’

‘That’s the whole point, isn’t it?’ he said lightly. ‘I don’t want to be caught.’

Late that night Tanya told Todd everything that had occurred between her and Jay. To her surprise he didn’t make any protest about Jay’s plan for Thursday night. In fact, he seemed quite turned on by it. He was even more turned on by what she told him Jay had done to her and as soon as she’d finished talking he took her swiftly and urgently, and this time after she’d climaxed and was lying in his arms she felt totally relaxed and ready for sleep. She realised then that like most women she needed more than Jay was able to offer. No matter how great the sexual pleasure he gave, he left an emotional void, a void that men like Todd were able to fill.

‘We’ll have to help Davina,’ she murmured sleepily.

‘To catch Jay you mean?’ asked Todd.

‘No, of course not. To get through Thursday night.’

‘Sure,’ agreed Todd. ‘I’m looking forward to it. The way I see it Jay’s right. We’re all going to have one helluva time.’

Davina was surprised to open the door of her cottage and find Tanya standing on the doorstep several days later. Surprised, and also embarrassed because immediately memories of the things that Tanya had done to her came flooding back. Clearly though Todd’s wife didn’t share her embarrassment. She looked very relaxed and smiled warmly at Davina. ‘I hope you don’t mind me calling. I’ve come to ask you a favour.’

‘Of course, come in.’

‘Hey, this cottage is fabulous. Jay wasn’t exaggerating when he described it. May I see your studio?’

Davina nodded, hoping that Tanya didn’t know the things that had gone on there between her and Jay. ‘I
had it built on,’ she explained to the American girl. ‘Once it was clear that I was settling here, Uncle David suggested I used some of the money from my divorce to build myself a decent studio.’

‘No wonder you don’t want to move.’

‘It’s my home.’

‘Your art work’s incredibly good,’ murmured Tanya, looking at various framed drawings and jacket covers from books that Davina had worked on. ‘Actually, that’s really why I’m here. I want you to do a drawing for me.’

‘What kind of drawing?’