Letters for a Spy (34 page)

“But, sir, are you aware that he entered this country under a false name and on a forged passport—?”

“Sergeant, have you read those papers yet? Are you now prepared to sign his release form?”

I felt sorry for the sergeant. I sent him a small, apologetic smile—although he probably didn’t see it. Even as I gave it, he turned to ask his subordinate to fetch my suitcase from the cell.

And, at the same time, was pulling a fountain pen from his tunic pocket. Less than a minute later, we were out on the pavement.

Parked at the kerb side—and receiving a good deal of interest from a growing cluster of pedestrians—was a grey Rolls Royce. In the front of it sat a chauffeur in rating’s uniform.

Immediately behind him sat Sybella.

Yet I scarcely had time to take my place beside her, and Leighton scarcely had time to close the rear door after myself, and the front one after Montagu, before we were already moving away from the kerb and beeping at people to get out of our path. Then we were purring along the centre of the road, with two of the motorcyclists several yards in front, and the other two bringing up the rear. The early afternoon was shrill with the sound of sirens.

Montagu sat for the most part in silence. I felt grateful, both for this and for the fact he wasn’t sitting next to me. No last-ditch bids for cooperation; no eleventh-hour form of emotional blackmail, subtly involving Sybella. Whenever he did speak it was only to the driver, and pertained to consideration of detours we could take in order to avoid possible holdups; advice on how best to circumvent a flock of Welsh sheep that at one point was herded across our route; and questions and comments as to whether we might be keeping to our target regarding speed. He was more often occupied in gazing out of his nearside window and didn’t appear to be listening to any of the murmurings which took place behind him. As a matter of fact even
we
, Sybella and I, weren’t talking all that much. We were content merely to be sitting close to one another; to be discreetly holding hands.

But I still hadn’t come yet—not
completely
—to tolerate loose ends.

“How did you get into Shrewsbury this morning? Did Gramps bring you?”

“No, I cycled.”

“Cycled!”

I paused in the act of rethreading my shoelaces.

“Yes! It may surprise you, Liebchen, but I couldn’t sleep. So I finally gave up trying—and for an hour or two just sat in the kitchen with the back door open, flicking through magazines and waiting for that storm to finish. It was light by the time it did. Then I set out practically at once.”

“I hope you had some breakfast.”

“You sound like my mother. No, good heavens, I did not have any breakfast—couldn’t have felt
less
like having any breakfast! But your grandfather had come down after my third or fourth
Picture Post
and we drank two cups of coffee together. As a matter of fact, he did want to drive me into Shrewsbury; seemed disappointed when I decided against it. Yet the thing was—their little Austin hasn’t any roof rack and there wouldn’t have been room for even one of the bikes inside, let alone two. So eventually we worked it out that Gramps could cycle in later, riding yours, at the right sort of time to catch the bus back after he’d spent an hour or so in paying you a visit—though fat chance of
that
ever happening, judging from my own experience! But in the end I was really glad to have the bike ride. It made me feel as if I was actually
doing
something. The air was wonderfully fresh after the storm, and instead of choosing the Watling Street route, I even decided to take a sentimental journey, along those very same roads the two of us had travelled yesterday.”

“And were you able to remember the way, even without signposts?”

“Yes, you patronizing man! Even without signposts.”

“No, I didn’t mean to sound patronizing. I meant to sound incredibly admiring.”

“Although if you
must
know, damn it, I did have to ask directions from one very charming old gentleman who was out walking his dog. But in fact I almost enjoyed the journey … I mean, insofar as I could have enjoyed
anything
. Except, of course, for that long uphill trudge near the beginning which—well, just exactly as you predicted—I do have to admit wasn’t
too
much fun. You must be thrilled, delighted, to be told you nearly rank with Nostradamus.”

“That is—you’re implying?—more so than
some
people.”

I said this totally without rancour. Sybella nudged me in smiling reproof (even if, despite her bravery, her smile was growing gradually more tremulous—her voice, as well). But when I glanced at the back of Montagu’s head it seemed clear he was still more intent on looking out for landmarks than on listening to anything which she and I might be discussing.

It appeared that our driver was making good progress.

By ten past one we were racing through Oswestry.

Half an hour later, we were awakening all those sleepy hills and valleys round Llangollen.

Another twenty-five minutes and we were passing down the main street of greystone cottages that was Betws-y-Coed.

And at two-thirty on the dot we were just departing from Bangor and about to drive along the wooded shoreline of the Menai Strait. We were now only minutes away from the suspension bridge, where, at its entrance, we should leave behind our four outriders. No further need of their path-clearing duties or the barrier of protection they bestowed (the mark of honour they conferred, Sybella now explained it, jokily—jerkily), services which must have been more essential on the road up from Whitehall than they were on the road on from Shrewsbury. I waved goodbye to them, a gesture I felt to be slightly farcical, practically a royal acknowledgment—yet it also expressed a depth of gratitude I knew they couldn’t be aware of.

Sybella and Ewen would shortly pick them up again … as somewhat needless escorts for their rather more leisurely return.

We crossed the bridge and saw Parys Mountain rising up before us. And at last we knew we could relax—not least of all the young and fresh-faced sailor at the wheel. We had completed the journey in just under two hours and were nearly in sight of our objective.

At Amlwch we stopped behind a man-made hillock: a reminder of the days when—in consequence of copper ore, discovered in the mountain—this little place had been a boom town.

The time was barely a quarter to three.

Plainly I should now need to travel the rest of the way on my own. I shook hands with the driver—again, I thought, one of the many ships that maybe only passed in the night but made both the night and the sea-lanes much better worth the passage—and then walked to the other side of the car, where the lieutenant commander was standing.

“Well, anyway,” he said, “no matter how this turns out, I’m glad you and Sybella are going to marry. And when I say that, I know I’m speaking very much for your future parents-in-law, also.”

Here, I thought, there
might
have been just a glimmer of emotional blackmail. Yet, if so, it was assuredly the kind to which I couldn’t take objection.

“Actually,” he said, “this possibility only occurred to me in the car, but I think we’ll presently be seeing Sybella’s parents. Making a short detour—well, not exactly
short
—that’ll enable me to drop her off for a day or two of well-deserved rest if she feels like it, and a day or two of hard-to-beat home cooking. We should both envy her. Nothing like the tranquillity of Ogbourne St George!”

“And, besides that, such an irresistible address,” I murmured, drily.

“Strange,” he smiled, “I always thought the same.”

“So please give them my regards,” I said. I didn’t believe—not for an instant—that Sybella’s parents would yet know the first thing about their daughter’s engagement, but it was nice of him to imply they did and that they actually felt happy about it. “And thank you, sir. Thank you for everything.”

“Thank
you
, Erich.”

We shook hands and I turned away.

But then immediately turned back.

“Sir … why do you think Admiral Canaris sent somebody like me?”

He hesitated. “You mean—somebody still reasonably new to all this kind of thing?”

I nodded.

Montagu spoke slowly. “I really think you’d have to ask
him
that.”

It was an exchange which might have sounded utterly banal to practically anyone else, but I’d been taking a chance that it wouldn’t do so to him.

And I realized that it hadn’t.

“Yes, I really think you
should
ask him,” he said. “In fact, I know I have no right to do this … but I ask you very humbly to make it your priority.”

I nodded again and said goodbye. If I’d been in a mood to find anything even remotely comic, I might have felt mildly diverted by the notion of placing ‘very humbly’ alongside Lieutenant Commander Ewen Montagu.

Then I rejoined Sybella—who, for the past three or four minutes, had been standing out of earshot.

While the lieutenant commander got back in the car she and I walked a short distance from where it was parked. Only a dozen yards or so, but there was a bend in the track which conveniently hid us from view.

“Oh, darling,” she said. “I can’t stand it! Not being able to write. Not having any idea, ever, of what may be happening to you.”

Up until now her voice, her manner, had both appeared more under control.

“I know, I know, my sweetheart! Oh, God,
how
I know! I can’t stand it, either.”

“A week ago, I’d never met you. Now my whole life has been turned upside down; there’ll never be a waking moment when you aren’t in my thoughts. I ought to be sending you off with a cheery smile—I know I should—and I don’t want you remembering me all tear-stained and red-eyed and ugly. But I can’t go on pretending.”

“Listen, Sybella. You
must
go on pretending. Both of us must. For if we don’t, what can I possibly tell the captain of the submarine when he looks at me and says, ‘But why are you all tear-stained and red-eyed and ugly?
Achtung
! What is the meaning of such blotchiness?’”

“Darling, you are…” She was having difficulty. “Oh, you are … you’re such a…”

“Fool? That’s very true but even so. What if the captain reports back to his superiors?
He loves that country so much he blubbers when he has to leave it
.”

Her screwed-up handkerchief was already in her hand.

“Yes, you’re right,” she said. “You—are—absolutely—and definitely—”

She wiped away her tears and blew her nose.

“There’s something else,” I told her. “Will you apologize to my grandmother for me? And my granddad? I was childish and I behaved badly. Will you phone them for me?”

“Yes … yes … but nobody thought that you … behaved badly.” She wiped her eyes again.

“I can see exactly why she did it. Will you try to make her understand that?”

She nodded.

“And one last thing. Sergeant Leighton. I wish you’d write to him for me … or telephone … tell him how much I appreciated all his kindness.”

She gave another silent nod.

“In fact, weren’t you supposed to be seeing him today? He spoke about needing to interview you.”

“I’ll … I’ll telephone him, then.”

“Oh—and here—I haven’t paid you yet for the hotel!”

But she pulled back my hand even as I was reaching for my wallet and—as she did so—the car horn sounded.

Only a gentle beep. Reminding; apologetic. But it made us hold on to one another all the more fiercely.

“We’ve still got a minute!” I said.

“Oh, yes—please—we’ve still got a minute!”

“But then I walk away, my darling—and when I do I shan’t look back. Only remember that we love each other and that we’re going to have a marvellous life together. Twelve or fifteen children, at the very least. Only hold onto that, Sybella! And remember, too, that not for nothing do they call me Nostradamus.”

But my voice caught slightly on those final four syllables.

So for that final minute—
two
minutes—we struggled to draw whatever comfort we could from each other’s closeness.

But naturally it wasn’t as easy as I’d said … just to break away. I forced myself to think about the awfulness of what had happened in Guernica, and of what had happened in the London Blitz, and of what was still happening everywhere about us. I had to ask myself what comment anyone caught up in the physical agony and mental anguish inseparable from maiming, say, or torture or bereavement, what comment they’d have made on the sadness of two lovers merely faced with saying goodbye.

Did this seem exploitative? Yet I knew I had to do something to try to put it into context, the way I felt, if only for the sake of the impression I should soon be making on the oarsman in the rowing boat, the crew of the submarine and—well, yes, of course—that all-too-readily suspicious captain.

But inevitably—
inevitably
—I did look back.

Just couldn’t help it.

And she was continuing to stand there, arm upraised, hair blown back by the stiff breeze coming in off the sea.

Yet at last I came to the dunes and to the steep and bracken-bordered path descending to the beach. And in one sense, when I sank below her line of vision, it was almost a relief. But I found I’d been gripping my suitcase so tightly that my fingers and the handle felt practically welded. I transferred the suitcase to my other side.

It was two minutes to three.

I saw the man waiting by the shoreline, with his rowing boat drawn up a short way on the sand.

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