TWO DAYS AGO SHE had dreamed of such a visit to the City of Jewels. Then, Solcintra had gone past the car-window in a dazzle of possibility, and she had imagined walking the wide streets safe on Er Thom's arm, enclosed by his melant'i, guided by his care.
Today, she stared, sand-eyed, at a city gone gray, and listened to the cold, back-brain planner make its cold and necessary plans.
Tomorrow and today were her last on Liad. On the morning after Er Thom's betrothal party, she and her son would be gone. That was the plan.
The plan called for precise timing. It called for the ingenuity to forestall Er Thom immediately petitioning the Delm to acknowledge lifemates. It called for pulling a few strands of wool across the eyes of an unsuspecting yos'Galan driver. It required the fortitude to leave everything—
every
thing—behind, save her son and what could be carried in her briefcase.
Necessity existed. These things could be done.
It required sufficient funds to book passage for herself and her child on the first available ship.
Cash was the sticking point: She had a little, in Terran bits, which enjoyed an—unequal—exchange rate on Liad.
Of course, she would sell her jewelry, paltry stuff that it was. Er Thom's good-bye gift would fetch the most of the lot, but she was not fool enough to suppose it would cover even a tenth of the passage price to New Dublin.
For it was to New Dublin she had determined to go, where laws were sane and where she would have her brother's staunch and stubborn support.
From Liad to New Dublin the price will be dear,
she told herself wearily, as she had told herself all last night, pacing, exhausted and shivering, through the luxurious, alien apartment.
She wondered if she dared ask Er Thom how to access the trust fund he had set up for her.
While she was weighing that question, the car pulled into a parking slot and stopped.
"We arrive," Er Thom said softly, and turned to look at her. "Are you well, Anne?"
He had asked her that once already, this morning at breakfast. Anne had a moment of despair, that a whole day in her company would reveal to him that she was sick with fright, bloated with deception. She would lose—
I will not lose,
she thought firmly.
Clan Korval does not own Shan. My son is not for sale.
Resolutely, she summoned the best smile stiff face muscles could provide.
"I'm fine," she lied. "Just—tired. I didn't sleep very well."
"Ah." He touched the back of her hand with light fingertips. "When we are lifemated, perhaps . . . The clan keeps a house by the southern sea. We might go there, if you like it, to rest and—grow closer."
Pain twisted, a mere flicker of agony in the larger pain of his betrayal. Anne smiled again.
"That sounds wonderful," she said, and it was true. "I'd like that very much, Er Thom."
If it all was different. If you hadn't lied. If you hadn't schemed and connived. If I could dare even pretend that this might be true . . .
"Then it is done." He smiled. "Come and let us put you into Eyla's hands."
EYLA DEA'LORN STOOD back, gray head cocked to a side, lined face impish.
"So, Your Lordship brings me a challenge," she said to Er Thom, and rubbed her clever hands together. "Good."
To Anne, she bowed slightly, eyes gleaming.
"Ah, but you will provide such opportunity, Lady—I give you thanks! Nothing usual for you, eh? Nothing the same as so-and-so had it at Lord Whomever's rout. Hah! No, for you, everything must be new, original!" She shot a gleaming glance aside to Er Thom.
"An original. There is no possible comparison between this lady and any other lady in the world. In this, the world has failed us, but the lady shall be accepted on the terms of her own possibility. I accurately reflect Your Lordship's thought?"
"As always," Er Thom told her, lips twitching, "you are a perfect mirror, Eyla."
"Flattery! Recall who made your first cloak, sir, and speak with respect!" She beckoned Anne. "Come with me if you please, Lady. I must have measurements—ah, she walks as a pilot! Good, good. Put yourself entirely in my hands. We shall send you off in a fashion the world has rarely seen! Such proportions! So tall! The bosom, so proud! The neck—Ah, you are a gift from the gods, Lady, and I about to expire of boredom, or strangle the next same-as who walked through my door!"
The little woman's eagerness pierced even the iron-gray dreariness that enclosed Anne. She smiled.
"I fear I may prove a little too far out of the common way for such a debut as that," she murmured as she was led back to the measuring room.
"Never think it!" Eyla told her energetically. "The world is a great coward. Merely keep a level gaze and a courteous face and the world will bow to you. Some will scoff, certainly, but you needn't mind those. An original is a Code unto herself. And you have the advantage of sponsorship by Korval, which has elevated originality to an art form." She rubbed her hands together, looking Anne up and down with eager appraisal.
"And now," she said, going over to a discreet console. "If I may ask you to disrobe . . . "
THE GOWN WOULD BE brought to Trealla Fantrol no later than mid-morning, tomorrow. The color was to be antique gold, to "show that delightful brown skin." Eyla gave Er Thom a patch of fabric, which he solemnly placed in his pocket.
"We shall be going along to Master Moonel presently," he murmured. "When the design is fixed, perhaps you might call and allow him to name a suitable jeweler."
"He'll want the work himself," Eyla predicted with a smile. "Only show her to him. The deadline will mean nothing to Moonel, with such a showcase for his craft." She clasped her hands together and bowed them out with energy.
"And to think that only last evening I was considering retirement!"
"YOU AND EYLA ARE good friends?" Anne asked, because it was necessary to say something. It was imperative that Er Thom think everything was just the same between them, and to put down any oddness in her behavior to the effects of a restless night.
"dea'Lorn and Korval are old allies," he murmured, guiding her along the flower-scented street with a gentle hand on her elbow. "Eyla will want to make your entire wardrobe."
"Would that be wrong?"
"Not—wrong. Indeed, it might well be prudent. Eyla has the gift of seeing exactly what is before her, rather than what she believes is there." He smiled up at her. "It has in the past been considered—expedient—to engage the services of several tailors, so Korval's patronage may not be used to undue advantage."
"But if your Houses are allied—"
"Not allied. Not—precisely—that. Doubtless my Terran falls short. It is—in the time of my fourth-great-grandfather—the youngest of dea'Lorn, who had just finished his apprenticeship, came with a proposal for trade. The dea'Lorn would undertake to make whatever clothes Korval required at cost, in return for materials at cost."
Anne frowned. "That sounds rather audacious."
"Indeed it was. But audacity amused my grandfather. He inspected those items the dea'Lorn offered as samples of his work, and made a counter-offer. He would provide shop space in one of Korval's Upper Port warehouses and a very favorable discount on materials, as well as options on certain—exotic—fabrics. These things would constitute his buy-in and make him one-half partner in the dea'Lorn's business, which would indeed make Korval's clothes. Free of charge."
"But in return he got free advertising," Anne said, "and the opportunity for his clothes to be seen at society functions . . . "
"And so he prospered," Er Thom concluded. "The dea'Lorn's daughter was able to move the shop to its present location and to retire Korval's partnership. The trade agreements remain in place—and dea'Lorn from time to time makes Korval's clothes. At cost." He sent her a glance from beneath his lashes.
"Anne?"
She drew a careful breath, willing her face to be neutral. "Yes?"
"I wish," Er Thom said, very softly, "that you will tell me what troubles you."
Oh, gods . . .
She swallowed, glanced aside, groping for a lie—
"I—it's foolish, I know," she heard herself saying distractedly, "but I can't seem to get it out of my mind."
Annie Davis,
she demanded in internal bewilderment,
what are ye nattering about?
"Ah." The pressure of Er Thom's fingers on her elbow changed, guiding her to the edge of the sidewalk and a bench beneath a flowering tree.
"Tell me," he murmured.
The bench was not particularly roomy. Er Thom's thigh against hers woke a storm of emotion, of which lust and anguish were foremost. Anne bit her lip and almost cried out when he took her hand in his.
"Anne? Perhaps I may aid you, if I can but understand the difficulty."
Well, and what will you tell him?
she asked herself with interest.
But the back-brain planner had been busy.
"It's probably nothing," she heard her voice say uncertainly. "But—I took Shannie with me yesterday to Doctor yo'Kera's office. I was doing an inventory of his research computer, and it took longer than I had expected—I sent you a note."
"Yes, so you did," Er Thom murmured, apparently not at all put out by this rather rattle-brained narrative.
"Yes. Well, it was late when we finally did leave—the night lamps had come on in the hallway. I made sure the office door was locked, and when I turned around there was—a man. He startled me rather badly, though of course—" She shook her head, half in wonderment at herself, half in remembered consternation.
"A Liaden man?" Er Thom wondered softly.
"Oh. Yes. Very ordinary-looking. He spoke to me in Trade at first—I'm afraid I was pretty sharp in setting him straight. He was polite after that—offered to carry my case—and of course he had a perfect right to be there, since he's a grad student . . . "
"Do you recall his name?"
"Fil Tor Kinrae," she recited out of memory, "Linguistic Technician and Student of Advanced Studies."
"Ah. And his clan?"
Anne frowned. "He didn't say."
"Did he not?" Er Thom's glance was sharp.
"No," she said defensively, "he didn't. Why should he? It was more important for me to know that he was a linguistics student with a perfectly legitimate right to be where he was."
"Yes, certainly." Er Thom squeezed her hand gently. "What disturbed you, then?"
"It was Shan," she said and shivered, recalling her son's fright. "He's never—you know he's never afraid of anyone! But he was afraid of Fil Tor Kinrae. Demanded to go home
now
." She looked down into Er Thom's eyes.
"In the car, I asked him what had happened. And he said—
no sparkles
—and hid his face . . . "
Er Thom's eyes darkened. "
No
sparkles?" He glanced aside, chewing his lip.
"There is—a thought," he said after a moment. "My grandmother had been a Healer, you know. I recall she once said that no one holds the key to all rooms. That those who are locked and dark to one Healer may be open and full of light to another." He looked up into her face.
"Shan is young. If this is the first person he has met who does not—broadcast on the same frequency, Daav would say—he may well have been frightened." His gaze sharpened, a little.
"It might be wise, were we to ask the delm to call a Healer to our child. He is very young to be experiencing these things. There is perhaps something that may be done to alleviate such distress as was occasioned last evening."
And only another Healer would know what to do,
she thought, suddenly cold.
Whatever are ye about, Annie Davis, to be taking the laddie away from such aid? How will he learn what to do with his sparkles, when there's no one who's Terran can teach him?
She snatched at his hand. "Er Thom!"
"Yes, denubia." His voice was soothing, his fingers firm. "What else troubles you?"
Almost, she told him. It hovered on the tip of her tongue, the rollygig of loss and love, hope, denial and confusion. She was a heartbeat away from burying her face in his shoulder and sobbing out the whole.
Down the walkway beyond the tree came a couple, very fine in their day-clothes and jewels. The woman turned her head and met Anne's eyes. Disgust washed over her perfect Liaden features; she clutched her companion's arm, leaning close to whisper.
He turned his head, face and eyes cold.
They walked on.
Anne cleared her throat.
"It's nothing," she said, and could not meet Er Thom's eyes. "I—Thank you, Er Thom—for listening."
There was a long silence, and still she could not bring herself to raise her face to his. Finally, she felt him move, coming smoothly to his feet, his hand still firmly holding hers.
"I shall listen whenever you wish," he said gently. "Will you come with me now to Port?"
"Yes," she said numbly and stood, and let him lead her back to the car.
MASTER JEWELER MOONEL was as taciturn as Eyla dea'Lorn was voluble. He took the bit of fabric from Er Thom's hand and glared at it as if he suspected it held a flaw.
"Tomorrow?" he snapped and moved his eyes to Anne. "This the lady for whom the items are destined?"
"Scholar Anne Davis," Er Thom murmured, "guest of Korval. Please feel free to give Eyla another name, Master, if the deadline is too near."
"Yes, very likely." Moonel spun on his stool, showing them his back as he reached for his tools. "I'll send them 'round by mid-day. Good morning."
"Good morning, Master Moonel," Er Thom said, bowing to the older man's back. He smiled at Anne and held out his hand.
Hand-in-hand they came out into the narrow Avenue of Jewels.
"Would you care for luncheon?" Er Thom asked as they turned down a slightly wider side street.
"Good-day to you, Captain yos'Galan!" The passerby who gave the greeting had close-cropped gray hair and a multitude of earrings. She raised a hand from across the way and the sunlight gleamed on her master trader's ring.
"I've yet to hear from the Guild, sir!" the little woman added gaily. Her sharp eyes swept once over Anne's face and then she was gone, swallowed in the crowd.