Logan: New Crusaders MC (24 page)

“I left you behind,” she whispered to him.  “I… I’m so sorry.”

“You don’t apologize,” he told her, squeezing her hand.  “Don’t you ever apologize.”  He reached up and cupped her face in his hands.  “I love you, Nicole.  I should have told you that, and I never did.”

She choked on another sob.

“I love you, too.”

He kissed her gently for a quick second, then pulled back a little, his breath warming her lips.

“I need you,” he whispered.  “I know we have a lot to talk about, and I need to explain what happened to me, but I can’t concentrate on that right now.  All I know is that we’re together and I need to feel you.  Please.”

“As if I’d deny you now,” she chastised him.  “My bedroom’s that way.  I want you naked.  Now.”

Nicole was starting to recover.  Bit by bit, she was beginning to accept that this was real.  She had him back, and she was never going to let him go again.

Logan let Nicole escort him into her bedroom.  He stayed still while she undressed him, reacquainting herself with his body.  She slid his shirt off, her hands rubbing his chest and arms.  When she found his new scars, she frowned.  He pulled her face up and kissed her.  Nothing was going to ruin this moment.  He wasn’t going to let her dwell on what had happened to him.  Every hurt had been worth it for this.  He didn’t regret any of it.

Her fingers were gentle as she traced the smooth line of his jaw.  She kissed her way from his ear to his lips.

“You like it?” he asked.  “I had to shave.  Made it harder for certain people to recognize me.”

“I get why you did it, but…”

He smiled and pulled her onto the bed with him, laying her gently beneath him.

“I’m gonna grow the beard back,” he told her.

“Oh.  Good.  I like the beard.”

“Mm…” he murmured, lifting her shirt so he could kiss her protruding stomach.

She sighed in appreciation as he kissed his way up to her breasts.  Judging by her reactions, she was more sensitive there than she’d been before.  He reached underneath her to unclasp her bra, and she helped him remove it with her shirt.  A silver chain was hanging around her neck.  He hadn’t noticed it before, so he guessed it had been underneath her shirt.  He picked it up and looked at the pendant.  It was his name.  Silver and in loopy cursive.

“I wanted to get a tattoo,” Nicole explained.  “But with the pregnancy… it just wasn’t possible.  So Hailey bought me that for my birthday.”

“It’s perfect,” Logan breathed.

He dangled the chain over her breasts, then lowered it to run the metal over her swollen nipples, teasing them.  Nicole sighed happily, her eyes fluttering closed.

Logan quickly lost patience.  He needed to see her again.  All of her.  He wanted to reclaim her body.  Her jeans hit the floor, and his own pants followed seconds later.  He spread her legs wide and looked at her.  Her breathing had picked up, her eyes were full of need.  She was already getting wet for him, her juices glistening at her entrance.  Pushing her thighs further apart, he dipped down to taste her, running his tongue along her slick folds, exploring deeper.  Nicole gasped and thrust gently against him as he swirled his tongue, then sucked gently on her open, sensitive clit.  He could feel her inner walls pulsing along his tongue, her need building.  Her moans became more insistent until finally she came, but he didn’t stop teasing her until her moans had subsided into quiet pants. 

It was time to take her, reclaim her body.  She was more than ready for him.  He crawled up her body and settled himself between her legs, rubbing himself against her.  He dipped his head to take a nipple into his mouth and she cried out, holding his head against her breast and lifting her hips to him.

“Please, Logan.  I need you right now.”

He obliged her.  Guiding himself to her entrance, he watched her face as he thrust inside her.  Nicole gasped in pleasure, her inner walls tightening around him.  He turned his attention to her other breast, lowering his head to flick his tongue over the erect nipple.  He circled it several times, reveling in her reactions to him, then placed a kiss on the tip of her nipple. 

Pushing himself up, he held himself above her as he began thrusting harder against her, watching the blissful expression on her face.  His eyes traveled lower, to her stomach.  His child was growing within her.  It sent all kinds of emotions through him, made him want to be deeper inside her.  He wanted to feel all of her as he made love to her.  As he possessed her.

Nicole looked confused when he pulled out of her, a slight frown marring her serene expression.  He reached down and smoothed it out with his fingers.

“Turn over.”

She relaxed and smiled at him, knowing what he wanted.  She picked herself and turned so she was on her hands and knees.  Logan nearly came just from seeing her in that position.  Not wasting any time, he plunged into her from behind.  Bending over her, he ran his hands up and down her body, caressing her breasts and her stomach.  Nicole’s gasps were timed to the rhythm of his thrusts.  Logan kept one hand on her breast and dragged the other one down to her clit, which was already wet and ready for him.  Nicole nearly screamed when he began to rub it.  He barely touched it and she was putty in his arms.

All Nicole could feel was Logan.  He was in all her senses.  She could hear his panting breaths, smell his familiar scent.  His muscles bunched and flexed around her, his hips slapping against her rear.  From this position, she felt more than full; she felt complete.  There was no other way to look at this.  He belonged here with her, inside her, making love to her.

Now that she knew he was alive, she was somehow even more thrilled to be pregnant with his baby.  She knew he’d be a good father, and the look on his face when he looked at the bump in her stomach made her love him all the more.  She couldn’t wait to meet their child.

But for now they had only each other, and she was determined to make the most of it.  She began pushing back on him as he thrust towards her, and he let loose a guttural growl, picking up the pace.  His hands were everywhere, feeling her, caressing her.  They often came back to her stomach, just resting there as if he needed to feel his baby, needed to reassure himself that she was still carrying his child.

“That’s it, baby,” Nicole breathed, bracing her hands against the headboard.  “You fuck me as hard as you need to.”

He drove himself into her so deeply that she sucked in a surprised breath, and suddenly she could feel another orgasm on the periphery of her senses.

“I’m coming again,” Nicole gasped.

Logan pulled out of her long enough to turn her around again.  He put her on her back and lifted her legs, resting them against his shoulders so that he could have deeper access to her.

“I want to see your face,” he rumbled.  “Come for me so I can watch your pleasure.”

Nicole gasped as his hand found her clit once more.  She wouldn’t have been able to refuse him even if she’d wanted to.  For the third time, she felt her body rippling with pleasure, and she cried out. 

Hearing her come again, watching it happen, pushed Logan over the edge, too.  He thrust himself deep inside her and growled as he found his release.

They collapsed together onto the mattress, a tangle of limbs.  Nicole draped herself over him, resting her head on his chest.  He held her, pressing kisses onto the top of her head, unable to believe how lucky he was to have her in his arms again.

“I love you so much,” he said.

She smiled sleepily up at him.  “I love you more.”

“You want to get into it right now, or do you want to wait?”

“Just give me one minute,” she said.  “I want to be ignorant and happy for a little while longer.”

“I get that.”

They fell silent, reveling in each other’s company.

“The thought of you kept me going,” Logan said finally.  “Ruiz tried to break me by telling me Clay had you, but I refused to believe it.  I knew you and Chuck were too smart to let Clay get what he wanted.”

“He’s still going to be a problem,” Nicole said, sounding tired.

“I know.  Chuck filled me in when I went to see him.”

“You saw my dad?”

“Of course.  I had to tell him I was going to find you.  He told me to tell you that he’s safe, and he loves you.”

Nicole blinked rapidly, holding back tears.  He gave her a moment.  She brushed at her eyes with the back of her arm.

“I cried enough over the past three months to last a lifetime,” she said.  “No more.  Tell me what happened to you.”
 

With Nicole wrapped safely in his arms, Logan told her everything, starting from the moment he’d sent her away on his bike.  Despite her earlier words, she started crying when he talked about his time in the Devil King’s prison.  He tried to soften the blow, leaving out the gruesome details, but it was clear she had guessed the worst of it.

“Hey,” Logan said, brushing the tears off her cheeks.  “None of that matters to me now that I have you.  Ruiz is going to pay for what he did.  Ruiz
and
Clay.”

“I’m with you,” Nicole said.  “I want to watch the Devil Kings fall.”

Logan was shocked to hear her say this.  He’d thought for sure that she’d want to stay behind with her new life.  A part of him had worried that she would ask him to stay with her, leave his old life behind to be with her.  Instead she was asking to jump back into the fray.

“It’s too dangerous,” he said after a pause.  “I can’t let you get in the middle of this.  Especially not pregnant.”

“I don’t want to get into the middle,” Nicole assured him.  “I just want to be there.  I promise you I’ll stay hidden when the shit hits the fan, but this is my fight, too.  My town.  My family.  No way am I missing out on the retaliation.”

Logan didn’t think it was possible to love this woman more, but she proved him wrong.

“Chuck will kill me,” he said.

“I’ll tell Dad exactly what I told you.  Besides, seeing me again will make him so happy that he won’t have room for anger.  Especially when he finds out he’s going to be a grandpa.”

Logan still wasn’t sure.  She sat up and put her hand on his cheek, looking him in the eye.

“I already lost you once,” she said.  “Now that I have you back, there’s no way I’m giving you up again.  I wouldn’t be able to live with myself if I lost you again.”

“Okay,” he said, giving in.  “When I go back to Castillo, you’re with me.”

She smiled and hugged him tight.  “I promise I’ll stay out of sight.”

“First I gotta get a hold of my club.  Once I know where they’re at, I’ll go back to Castillo and find a safe place for us to meet.”

“You need to use Hailey’s cell?”

“No, I don’t want her mixed up in this.  I’ve got a burner.”

Logan made the call to the Arcadia charter’s president from the bed, not wanting to lose the feeling of Nicole’s naked body pressed against his.

“As I live and breathe,” the Arcadia president said when he heard Logan’s voice.  “They told me you were a POW.”

“Friend broke me out,” Logan said.  “So you do have some of my boys there with you?”

“Yep.  We got Yancey, Sam, and Cork.”

Logan closed his eyes and breathed a sigh of relief.  He was still missing some members, but now he knew at least three of them were safe.

“Cork there right now?” he asked.

“Yeah, hold on.”