Loving Lily (13 page)

He rubbed her
temples soothingly.
 
"A panic attack
. "

"Yeah.
 
I hate it.
" She
took a deep breath, let it out.
 
"You promise you're sure? I'm not your
responsibility.
 
I'm a grown woman.
 
I'll be all right. "

He
smiled,
eyes bright even in the dark.
 
"I'm positive.
 
I'm a grown man.
 
I know what I want.
"
He
ran a thumb over her lips.
 
"I want you.
 
And I know you'll be all right, because you'll
be right next to me where I can make sure that anyone who tries to hurt you
pays for it. "

Oh my God,
did he really just say that?
she
thought faintly.
 
It was nearly a
declaration of love, and they'd just met a little over a week ago.
 
She remembered what her mother used to say
though:
When it comes to people, Lily, sometimes you just know who's good
and who's not
.
 
From the moment she'd
met Matt, she'd known he was a good man.
 
She'd seen it in his face with his first smile.
 
She experienced it every time he touched
her.

She closed her
eyes and leaned into his hands, trusting that he'd support her.
 
He kissed her forehead, then her lips.
 
Lily's heart tripped again, this time as
arousal began its slow burn through her senses.
 
"God, Matt, don't stop
.
"

He growled.
 
"I won't
. "
He undid his seatbelt, then hers, and hauled her across the bench seat until
she was sprawled in his lap.
 
The
steering wheel dug into her spine, but Lily didn't care.
 
She kissed him frantically, no longer tired.
 
She needed more.
 
She wanted to crawl inside him and never come
up for air.

"Lily—"
he gasped, sliding his hands up under her tank top.
 
She felt her bra go,
then
he pulled off her shirt.
 
He latched onto
a nipple and sucked hard.
 
She groaned
,
scrabbling at the shirt he'd borrowed from his brother.

"Off,"
she said, yanking it out of his pants.
 
"Take this off
. "

He obeyed,
tossing it across the dash.
 
Lily
attacked his jeans, unzipping them almost savagely.
 
When his cock sprang out, she slid down to the
floor and took him into her mouth before he could stop her.

"Holy
fuck," he muttered, hands clenching in her hair.

Lily smiled
around his erection, loving that she could make him so crazy.
 
She licked around the crown, over and over
until his hips jerked.
 
He was so
big,
she had trouble fitting him inside, so instead she used
her hands to jack him slowly as she scrubbed her tongue along the skin.
 
She fondled his balls and he tried to open his
legs wider, but his jeans trapped him.

"Lily,
God, you're killing me.
 
Come back up
here," he said, dragging her up until she was perched on his lap.
 
"You're overdressed
. "
He pulled at the rest of her clothes until she wiggled out of them.
 
"You're so fucking wet," he
murmured, slipping a finger down to play with her clit.

Lily squirmed,
needing more.
 
"Matt, please.
 
Don't fool around, not now. "

He chuckled and
lifted her up.
 
The moment his cock
touched her pussy they both froze.

"Shit, no
condom," he said, still not moving.
 
His hands were like iron bands on her waist.

Lily bit her
lip and relaxed a little, just enough to slip the head of his shaft inside.
 
"I don't care
. "
Strangely, the thought of getting pregnant with his child didn't bother her at
all.
 
She'd never wanted kids, and Jack
knew that and never pushed for it, but now, suddenly, she felt a weird ache in
the pit of her gut when she thought about never having a family again.
 
If she had a child, though, she wouldn’t be
alone anymore.

"Are you
sure?" Matt asked her.

She swallowed.
 
"Only if you are
. "
She couldn’t make this decision without his agreement.
 
That wouldn’t be right.
 
She eased up a little, preparing to climb off
of him.

His face went
through so many different expressions she couldn't figure out what he was
thinking, but then he smiled, slow and steady.
 
"I’m sure
. "
He thrust gently and she gasped as her body accommodated his girth.
 
He was still huge, but she was very, very wet
and she wanted him very, very badly.
 
She
grabbed his shoulders and forced herself down, savoring the heat of him as he
rubbed against her throbbing clit.

"Yeah,
that's it, baby," he said, hands moving to cup her ass.

She looked
down, shocked at how much the sight of their bodies joined aroused her.
 
In a split second she went from deeply aroused
right to the edge of orgasm.
 
"Matt,
I'm so close
. "

"Let
go," he murmured, kissing up her neck.

She shuddered
and he put a hand on her mound, thumb slipping over all the right places just
right.
 
She cried out as pleasure rushed
through her, hot and crazy.
 
She
climaxed, and Matt's hips jerked, sensing it.
 
He thrust once, twice, then he came, too, face
twisted into a harsh grimace.
 
She hung
on as he arched his spine, grinding his dick into her so hard she knew the hand
on her ass would leave bruises.
 
She
didn't care.

When they finally
stopped panting, Lily chuckled.

"What?"
he asked, arms coiled around her waist.
 
He cradled her against his body.

"I can't
believe we did that," she said, kissing his shoulder.
 
"We're in your brother's truck
. "

He laughed.
 
"Alex won't mind.
 
Especially if we never tell
him.
 
Which we
won’t.
"

She grinned and
kissed him again, this time on the lips.
 
"Never ever.
 
My lips are sealed. "

Matt snorted,
then
the smile slipped from his face.
 
"No condoms
. "

Lily's heart
gave a sick thump.
 
She hoped he wasn't
upset about it now.
 
She instinctively
clenched her inner muscles, trying to hold onto him.
 
She wanted his child.
 
She buried her face in his neck, not wanting
to see the regret in his eyes.

Matt shivered
under her touch, still semi-erect and firmly lodged inside her.
 
"No, don't worry, Lily.
 
I’m not upset.
 
Not at all.
" He
hugged her, hips beginning to move again as his
cock hardened again.
 
"I want this.
 
I want you.
" He
tipped her head up.
 
"And I know
it's insane, but I'd love it if you had our child
. "

He's serious
, Lily thought, examining his expression.
 
His eyes were dark with emotion.
 
"You mean it
. "

He smiled
suddenly.
 
"I do.
 
I'm forty-three and I'm not getting any
younger.
 
I want you to stay here with
me, Lily. "

"Jesus,
Matt, you sure know how to just go for it, don't you?" She
laughed,
heart suddenly light.

He leisurely
fucked into her, kissing the side of her breast.
 
"I'm an ex-SEAL, remember? I once jumped
out of planes for a living. "

"Yeah,"
she gasped as his groin bumped into hers.
 
"I remember.
 
No way to forget that.
"
She
ran her hands over his well-developed muscles, enjoying the
smoothness of his skin.
 
"Fuck me,
Matt.
 
Come on. "

He shifted in
the seat,
then
abruptly lifted her off of him.

"What? No,
come back," she said, reaching out.

"These
jeans have got to go," he said, shoving them down over his hips.

Lily trailed
her hands over his back, admiring the view.
 
When he was naked, he turned to her and
grabbed her hand.

"Come with
me," he said.

"What?
We're stark naked," she cried as he pulled her out of the truck.
 
"And I have no shoes on," she
muttered, gingerly stepping onto the dirt track.

"That’s
okay," he said, swinging her into his arms.

"Oh my
God, Matt, put me down! I weigh a ton. "

"Don't be
silly," he said, easily carrying her.
 
"You're not heavy at all
. "
The muscles in his biceps flexed gorgeously.

Holy shit,
he's strong
, she thought, not for the first time.
 
She wound her arms around his neck.
 
"Where are we going?"

"You'll
see," he said, taking off down a path she could hardly even tell was there.

A minute later,
he walked out onto a deck that looked out over a deep valley.
 
The sun was just peeping over the horizon,
painting the view with a lovely pink luminescence.
 
When Lily looked up, she gasped.
 
"That's your house?"

He nodded,
still not putting her down.
 
"Yes.
 
This is the lower deck.
"
He
walked to a bench and set her down on the cushion.
 
"I'm going to make love to you right
here, as the sun rises
. "

Lily sank into
the soft pillow and blinked back tears.
 
"I must be dreaming
. "

"Oh baby,
I promise, I’m real.
 
You’re really here.
 
I know you've had it rough.
 
You deserve better.
"
He
went down on his knees, propping her up against some more pillows.
 
"I want to make you so happy you can't
remember what it was like to be sad
. "

Before Lily
could respond to that incredible statement, he dipped his head in between her
legs and kissed her right on her clit.
 
Matt teased her until she couldn't sit still,
couldn't think.
 
She twined her hands in
his hair and hung on, not even flinching when he slipped a finger into her
pussy.

"This
okay?" he asked.

Is he
joking?
she
wondered,
shivering as he wrung waves of pleasure from her body.
 
Of course it was okay! "Yes," she
managed, and he slipped his finger from her pussy and teased at her asshole
until she thought she'd go mad.
 
When he
slipped in her anus, she moaned, caught between wanting more and feeling
completely overwhelmed.
 
He mouthed at
her clit some more, and then he knelt up on the bench, fingers still working.

"Yeah,
that's it, Lily.
 
You're mine," he
murmured.

She clung to
him, hips moving.
 
"Matt,
please—"

"Please,
what?"

She forced her
eyes open.
 
The rising sun painted his
face with gold.
 
Lily'd never seen anyone
so beautiful—golden eyes, golden skin, muscles taut and rippling above her.
 
"Please fuck me," she said, digging
her fingers into his biceps.
 
"Matt,
please.
 
I need you. "

He pressed his
forehead to hers.
 
"You've got
me," he said, and took himself in hand, pressing his cock-head against her.
 
"Ready?"

She nodded,
fluttering her internal muscles around the finger in her ass.
 
He flexed his hips and slid inside her pussy
with one, swift stroke.
 
He began to fuck
her, hard and fast, one hand on her hip, the other still working her ass.
 
She wasn't sure she could stand it—everything
felt so good.
 
So
intense.
 
When the sun finally hit
her face, she climaxed, unable to hold back against the pounding of his body
into hers.
 
He was big and strong and
knew exactly what to do to drive her insane.
 
She thought she screamed, but he didn't seem
to care.
 
She curled her legs around his
hips and held on.
 
Matt froze, then
fucked her even harder until he came, too: head thrown back, teeth clenched.
 
When he finally collapsed on top of her,
breathing hard, Lily gently ran her hands along his back.