McCarthys of Gansett Island Boxed Set Books 1-3 (50 page)

“Don’t say another word,” he said with a playful scowl. “I will not loan you the money. I will gladly and happily
give
it to you. It would give me great pleasure to see my daughter become a veterinarian. Allow me to do this for you. Please.”

Janey smiled at him, knowing she could argue all day and he wouldn’t budge. “You’re sure you can swing it?”

“I might have to switch to hamburger instead of steak,” he said with a teasing grin, “but I’ve got you covered, Princess.”

She hugged him again. “Thank you.”

“Now I’m even more proud than I was before. This is the best news since your brother’s engagement.”

“Don’t say anything about it yet. I still have to get in.”

“My lips are sealed.”

Janey eyed him skeptically. The news would be all over the docks in the morning, and they both knew it. “Sure they are.”

They shared a laugh, but Janey’s smile faded when David strolled into the yard.
 

“What’s he doing here?” Big Mac asked, scowling again.

“Good question.” Janey squeezed her father’s arm and went to stop David from progressing into the party.
 

Chapter 16

“What do you think you’re doing?”

“I need to see you, Janey.”

In the faint twilight, she could see that his bruises had turned yellow overnight, and his face was even more swollen than it had been the day before. And was that alcohol she smelled on him? “You have no business here, David. This is my brother’s home, and I’m asking you to leave.”

“Not until I talk to you.”

“I’m not talking to you. Not now, not ever.” Even though her back was to the party, Janey sensed her father and brother approaching them. “Please leave.”

“You are so full of it, you know that?” he hissed, staggering as he closed the distance between them. “I saw you, too.”

“What are you talking about?” she asked, as a twinge of fear trickled down her spine.

“You and
Joe
. How long has he been keeping you warm at night while I was in Boston?”

Janey heard her father and Mac gasp but didn’t take her eyes off David. “Joe is my
friend
. You know that.”

“Friend with
benefits
.”

“Believe whatever you want. I’m done.” She started to walk away, but he grabbed her arm.

“You’re making me feel like shit when you’re doing the same thing! No wonder why he hit me. He’s always wanted you for himself! I’m sure he was more than happy to pick up the pieces of Janey’s poor shattered heart.”

Janey saw red, and somewhere deep inside, a switch was flipped. “So what? You’re the only one who’s allowed to have cheap, meaningless sex?” The instant the words were out of her mouth, she regretted them.

More gasps sounded from behind her, but one was different. One sounded an awful lot like. . . Janey broke free of David’s grasp and spun around to find Joe staring at her, shock all but reverberating off him.
 

He turned and disappeared into the darkness.

“Joe!” Janey cried, intending to go after him.

As Mac followed his friend, David grabbed her arm again. “Janey, wait!”

She all but growled at him. “Let me go.
Now!
”

“I have cancer.”

The world seemed to tilt on its axis as she stared at him. Later she would be ashamed that her first thought was that he would literally say anything to get her back.

Joe wanted to run as far away as he could get. Nothing in his life had ever hurt more than hearing Janey refer to what they’d shared as cheap and meaningless, even though he was fairly certain she didn’t think of it that way. David had pushed her buttons, and she’d pushed back. But damn if those words hadn’t hit Joe right where he lived.

“Joe! Wait!”

God, could this get any worse? Now he had to face Mac, too?

“Joe!”

Hands on hips, jaw set with tension, Joe turned, preparing himself for anything from a fist to the face to yet another arrow to the heart. “What do you want, Mac?”

“Is it true?”

Joe stared at his oldest friend and couldn’t lie to him. He just couldn’t. “Yes, but it was neither cheap nor meaningless.”

Mac raised his hands, and for a second, Joe thought Mac was going to hit him. But instead Mac gripped his hair, as if he was trying to occupy his hands so he wouldn’t punch Joe. “
Since when?
”

“Since the night she caught David with someone else.”

“Are you
serious
? The
same day
? You told me I could trust you. ‘Who better than me?’ That’s what you said!”

“It was entirely and completely consensual, Mac.”

“She was crushed! Devastated! How could you take advantage of her like that?”

“I did
not
take advantage of her. I love her. You know I do.”

“God, Joe, I can’t
believe
this! Why didn’t you tell me?”

Joe snorted. “Right. So you could accuse me of taking advantage of her? So you could freak out and run me out of your life right before I’m supposed to be the best man in your wedding? None of us thought that was a good idea.”

“None of who?”

Oh, shit
. “Janey and me.”

“And who else?”

“No one.”

“
Who else?
”

Joe sighed. “Maddie.”
 

Mac recoiled in shock. “No way she knew this and kept it from me.”

“Janey confided in her, but she didn’t want to upset you any more than we did. We all knew how you’d see this, and it didn’t happen the way you think.”

“Great, so you all conspired to keep me in the dark.”

“It wasn’t like that. We were going to tell you after the wedding.”

Shaking his head, Mac looked down at the ground. “Three of the people I’m closest to in the world decided to keep something this big from me. I have no idea how I’m supposed to take that.”

“We were thinking about you.”

“Were you? While you were screwing my devastated baby sister, were you really thinking of me?”

“That’s not fair. It wasn’t like that.” Although after hearing Janey’s description of what had transpired between them, he had cause to wonder.

“I can’t believe this.”

“To be honest, it’s really none of your business.”

“
None of my business?
She’s my
sister
! It’s absolutely my business! And you know that, which is why you didn’t tell me.”

“She’s also a full-grown adult, in case you haven’t noticed.”

“She’ll
always
be my baby sister.”

As Mac growled those words, the first of the fireworks exploded overhead.

“I’m going,” Joe said. “If you’re still interested, I’ll see you at the bachelor party tomorrow night.” Without giving Mac a chance to reply, Joe turned and walked away, hoping he could grab a cab back to town. Whatever it took to get the hell out of there.

Janey had never been more torn in her life. As the fireworks lit up the night sky, she dodged her concerned parents and loaded David, half drunk and sobbing, into her car to drive him to his mother’s house. All she could think about was the look of utter shock on Joe’s face when he’d heard her call what they’d shared cheap and meaningless. He had to know she didn’t really think that, didn’t he?

She wanted to go after to him, to tell him she’d just been reacting to David, that she didn’t mean it. But first she had to deal with David and the bomb he’d dropped on her.
 

 
“I’m sorry,” he said as they drove away from Mac’s. “I should’ve told you sooner. I know that, but it all happened so fast.”

“How long have you known?”

“A month.”

Janey gasped and looked over at him, wondering if she’d ever really known him. “And you didn’t think your fiancée needed to know you have
cancer
?”

“There was never a good time to tell you. I didn’t want to just call you out of the blue and drop it on you.”

“Instead, you kept it from me. Were you hoping I wouldn’t find out?”

“I was going to tell you, but I wanted to see how I responded to the first round of chemo.”

“You’ve had chemo.”

“Yes.”

“Jesus, David.”

“It’s Non-Hodgkin’s lymphoma. Stage two. After I had strep last year, I had a raised node in my neck that never went away. I finally got around to getting it checked, and voila. Cancer. But the prognosis is pretty good. The chemo seems to be working, but I feel like total shit.”

As Janey tried to process what he was telling her, she felt strangely removed, as if none of this was happening to her. Only a few weeks ago, this news would have devastated her. It was further proof of just how separate their lives had become during the long years they’d spent apart. That he could keep something of this magnitude from her while they were engaged told her a lot about what kind of husband he might have been.

“I need you, Janey.” He reached for her hand and held it between both of his. “I can’t go through this without you.”

She tugged her hand free. “That is so incredibly unfair! You keep this from me for weeks, you sleep with someone else and then you
still
expect me to support you?”

“I love you, Janey. That hasn’t changed.”

Her eyes flooded with tears, making it difficult to see, so she pulled the car off the road and turned to him. “I’m not in love with you anymore. I’m sorry if that hurts you, but it’s the truth. I don’t want you to be sick, and I hate that you have to go through this, but it doesn’t change how I feel.”

“We can get through it together, like we’ve gotten through everything.”

She shook her head. “I can’t. You have your mother, your sisters, your friends. You won’t be alone.”

“Janey, please. I’m begging you.
You’re
the one I need. You can’t do this to me in the midst of everything else I’m dealing with right now. I even had to take a leave from my internship while I’m in treatment.”

“You should’ve thought about how much you needed me before you slept with someone else.”

“She means nothing to me! She’s an oncology nurse who I met during my treatment. It was a one-time thing. I was scared and freaked out. It was comfort. That’s all.”

Surely, Janey thought, her head would explode any minute. “I need you to listen to me. Can you do that?”

His eyes bright with new tears, he nodded.

“I loved you so much. There was absolutely nothing I wouldn’t have done for you. I gave up my dreams of being a vet to accommodate you. I waited for you. I was faithful to you—always.”

“Until recently,” he muttered.

“I never went near another man until I saw you screwing a big-breasted blonde!”

“Janey—”

“Wait, I’m not finished. Anything and everything I ever felt for you died the minute I saw you with her. And now I find out that you’ve had this huge thing going on in your life and never saw fit to tell me. I should’ve been your first phone call, David. I should’ve been there when you got the diagnosis. I should’ve been there when you settled on a treatment plan and when you decided to take a leave of absence. That’s what people in committed relationships do—they include each other in big decisions. But I was denied all that because you chose to keep me in the dark—about this and God knows what else.”

“I didn’t mean to.”

“The minute you chose not to pick up the phone and tell me you were being tested for cancer is the minute you made a decision about our entire relationship. The minute you decided to bring that woman home to
our
bed, you made another decision. I suspect you’ve probably made a few others I don’t know about. Either way, this isn’t how I want to live.”

“I’ll make it up to you. This is just a bump in the road, honey. I’ve learned a valuable lesson, and it won’t happen again. I promise you that. You were right all along. You should’ve moved to Boston to live with me while I was in school. If we’d done that, none of this would be happening now.”

“Or it might’ve happened a lot sooner.”

“I don’t believe that.”

“Here’s what I think happened—we got complacent. We went along for years on autopilot and began to take each other for granted.”

“That’s not true!”

“If it wasn’t true, David, you never would’ve felt the need to sleep with someone else.”

He shook his head. “I never took you for granted.”

“Yes, you did. And I did the same. We assumed our relationship would be fine even if we never put any real effort into it.”

“How can you say we didn’t put effort into it when we were together for thirteen years?”

“Can I ask you something? And will you tell me the swear-to-God truth?”

“Yeah.”

“Swear to God?”

“Yes!”

“When you. . . had sex. . . with her, was it better? Than it was with me?”