ââThe zombies would run if they got a look at her.''
Michael spooned extra coffee into the fresh filter. He looked good, she thought. Strong, tall, confident. He had on a nice blue shirt and some not-so-ratty blue jeans, and he was wearing shoes. Running shoes, sure, but shoes. Claire stared at his feet. ââYou're going out,'' she said.
ââGot a job,'' Michael said. ââWorking at JT's Music over on Third Street, ten to close. Mostly I'll be demoing guitars and selling them, but JT said he'd let me do some private lessons if I wanted.''
That was so . . . normal.
Really
normal. And he sounded happy, too. Claire bit her lip and tried to organize the explosion of questions in her brain. ââAhâwhat about the sun?'' she asked. Because that seemed to be the first hurdle.
ââThey issued me a car,'' Michael said. ââIt's in the garage. Fully sunproofed. And there's underground parking at JT's. There is most places.''
ââIssuedâwho issued you a car?'' He shot her a
you're not stupid
look. ââThe town? Amelie?''
He didn't answer directly as he slid the filter compartment shut and turned on the
brew
switch. The machine began wheezing and trickling into the pot. ââThey tell me it's standard procedure,'' he said. ââFor new vampires.''
ââNot that there have been any for fifty years, right?''
He shrugged. It was obvious that she was making him uncomfortable with the questions, but Claire couldn't help herself. ââDid you ever find out whyâ why there haven't been any in so long?''
ââI don't think it's a great idea to be too curious right now.''
She understood thatâand understood he meant it for her as wellâbut she couldn't stop asking questions, somehow. ââMichaelâdid they get you the job, too?''
ââNo. I know JT. I got the job all by myself. They offeredâ'' He stopped, clearly thinking he'd already said too much.
Claire finished it out, guessing. ââThey offered you some kind of job in the vampire community. Right? Orâ'' Oh God. ââOr they offered to make you a Protector?''
ââNot right off the bat,'' he said, still staring at the coffeemaker. ââYou have to work up to that. So they say.''
Michael. Owning people. Skimming off their wages like some Mafia don. She tried not to let him see how sick that idea made her feel, that he'd ever really consider doing it.
His eyes suddenly cut toward her, as if he'd read her mind. ââI didn't do it. I found the job at JT's, Claire,'' Michael said, and suddenly moved toward her. She flinched, and he took a deep breath and held out his hand in clear apology. ââSorry. I forget sometimesâit's hard, okay, learning how to move around people when I can go so much faster. But I wouldn't hurt you, Claire. No way.''
ââShane thinksâ''
Light caught and flared in Michael's eyes, eerie and frightening, and then he blinked and it was gone. He obviously made a real effort to keep his voice quiet. ââShane's wrong,'' he said. ââI'm not changing, Claire.
I'm still your friend. I'll look after you. All of you. Even Shane.''
She didn't answer him. Truthfully, as much as she liked himâand it verged on loveâshe felt something different about him today. Something complicated and agitated and strange.
Was he . . . hungry? He was staring at her. No, he was staring at the thin skin of her neck, wasn't he? Claire put her hand to it, involuntary but irresistible, and Michael got a very slight pink flush in his pale cheeks and looked away.
ââI wouldn't,'' he said, in a far different tone than before. It almost sounded scared to her. ââI wouldn't, Claire. You have to believe me. Butâthis is hard. It's so hard.''
She did believe him, mostly because she could hear all the heartbreak and sorrow in his voice. She took a breath, stepped forward, and hugged him. He was tall; the top of her head only brushed his chin. His arms felt strong and comforting, and she told herself that he wasn't warm because it was chilly in the kitchen. It wasn't really true, but that helped.
ââI wouldn't hurt you,'' he murmured. ââBut I've got to admit, I want to. I spent all my life hating vampires, and nowânow look at me.''
ââYou had to,'' Claire said. ââYou didn't have a choice.''
She felt his sigh go through both of them. ââNot true,'' he said. ââShane's rightâI did have a choice. But this is the choice I made, and now I have to live with it.''
He let go when she stepped back. Neither of them knew what to say, so Claire busied herself by opening kitchen cabinets to get down the four mismatched cups they used in the morning. Michael's was plain chunky stoneware, oversized, like a diner cup on steroids. Eve's was a petite black thing with a yawning cartoon vampire on it. Shane's had a happy face with a bloody bullet hole in the center of its forehead. Claire had taken one with Goofy and Mickey on it.
ââHow's school?'' Michael asked. Neutral subjects. He didn't want to talk it out; he wanted to keep it inside. She wasn't too surprised. Michael had always been too self-contained for his own good, as far as she could tell.
ââToo easy,'' she sighed, and poured coffee.
They were sitting down and sipping from their mugs when the kitchen door opened, and Shaneâwearing pajama bottoms and a ratty old faded T-shirtâcame into the kitchen. He avoided Michael, picked up his cup off the counter, and filled it to the brim. He left without a word.
Michael watched him go, face set and hard.
Claire felt the need to apologize. ââHe's justâ''
ââI know,'' Michael said. ââBelieve me. I know exactly how Shane is. Doesn't mean I have to like it right now.''
Â
I really need to stop being the Glass Goodwill Ambassador,
Claire thought, but she knew she'd keep on doing it. Somebody had to, after all. So after she'd finished her coffee, she went to talk to Shane.
Shane's door was unlocked and slightly open. Claire pushed it and stepped inside, then stopped short. All her carefully prepared speeches flew right out of her head, because Shane was getting dressed.
The sight of him short-circuited her thought processes and completely grounded her better judgment. He'd already hauled on his blue jeans, and his back was to her. No shirt yet. She was spellbound by the ripples of muscles on his back, the gorgeous smoothness of his skin, the way his shaggy hair brushed the tops of his shoulders and begged to be smoothed back. . . .
The sound of his zipper being pulled up snapped her back to sanity. She stepped hastily back, out into the hall, and pulled the door almost shut, then knocked.
ââWhat?'' It wasn't a friendly response.
ââIt's me,'' she said. ââCan I come in?''
She heard something halfway between a grunt and a sigh, and opened the door to find him dragging a dark gray, form-fitting shirt over his head. It looked very good on him. Not as good as the no-shirt thing, but she was trying hard not to think about that. It had made her warm and fluttery inside.
ââIs that a new shirt?'' she asked, desperate to get her mind off the vivid mental pictures that kept bubbling up. That got another indefinite grunt. ââIt looks nice.''
Shane gave her an ironic look. ââWe're talking clothes now? Wait, let me get my
Fashion for Dummies
book.''
ââIânever mind. About Michaelâ''
ââStop.'' Shane stepped forward and kissed her on the forehead. ââI know, you don't want me ripping him, but I can't help it. Give me some time, okay? I need to figure some things out.''
Claire tipped her head back, and this time he found her lips. It was, she thought, supposed to be a fast and sweet little kiss, but somehow it slowed down, got warmer and deeper. His lips were damp and soft as silk, and that was such a contrast to the hard lines of his body pressed against her, the strength of his hands sliding around her waist and pulling her even closer. She heard him growl low in his throat, a wild and hungry sound that made her go weak and faint.
He broke the kiss and leaned against her, breathing hard. ââGood morning to you, too. Man, I just can't stay mad when you do that.''
ââDo what?'' she asked innocently. She didn't feel innocent. She also didn't feel sixteen-nearly-seventeen, not at all. Shane always made her feel older. Much older. Ready for anything. It was a good thing Shane wasn't as dumb as her hormones seemed to be.
ââUnless you want to stay home and cut class, we don't really have time to talk about it,'' he said, and waggled his eyebrows. ââSo. Wanna cut class and make out?''
She socked him on the arm. ââNo.''
ââYou are such a strange girl. Ow,'' he said, in the way that meant he hadn't felt it at all. ââYou riding with Eve?''
ââWhen she passes the snarling cannibal phase, yeah. Another two cups of coffee, probably.''
ââYou sure you don't want a bodyguard?'' He meant it. Shane didn't have a jobâshe wasn't really sure he could get one, after what his dad had been up to in Morganville recently. Probably better he kept it low profile for a while. The fewer vampiresâand vampire loyalistsâhe came in contact with right now, the better. He was still thought of as an unindicted coconspirator to his dad's revenge rampage, and even though the mayor had officially signed his pardon, nobody had much liked it.
Accidents happened.
ââI don't need a bodyguard,'' Claire said. ââNobody's out to get me. Even Monica's gotten all friends-making with me.''
That earned her a too-sharp look, which didn't go well with his reddened, kissable lips. ââYeah. Why is that?''
She shrugged and avoided his eyes. ââI don't know.'' He tipped her chin up with one finger. ââSo, are we at the lying part of the relationship already? Usually that comes after the exciting, hot and sexy honeymoon period.''
She stuck out her tongue at him, and he leaned forward andâto her horrorâlicked it. ââEwwww!''
ââThen don't stick it out.'' Shane smiled. ââIf you're going to hang out in my room and tempt me, there's a penalty. One item of clothing per minute comes off.''
ââPerv.''
He pointed to himself. ââMale and eighteen. What's your point?''
ââYou are
soâ
''
ââSay, you got any pleated miniskirts and kneesocks? I really get off onâ''
She squealed and dodged his grabby hands, then checked her watch. ââOh, crapâI really do have to go. I'm sorry. Look, you'll beâyou're okay, right?''
The smile disappeared, leaving only a trace in his dark, secretive eyes. ââYeah,'' Shane said. ââI'll be okay. Watch your back, Claire.''
ââYou too.'' Claire started for the door, but she heard his footsteps behind her and turned; he moved her back to the wall, tipped up her chin, and kissed her so thoroughly that she felt her head fill with light and her knees turn to rubber.
When she could breathe again, and he pulled back to give her just an inch or so of space between their lips, she gasped, ââWas that a good-bye?''
ââThat was a come-home-soon,'' he said, and pushed off from the wall. ââSeriously, Claire. Watch yourself. I worry.''
ââI know,'' she said, and smiled. Her knees were still weak, and the chorusing light in her head just didn't seem to be fading. ââBest kiss so far, by the way.''
His eyebrows rose. ââYou're keeping score?''
ââHey, you raised the bar. I don't grade on a curve.''
She left him, reluctantly, to grab her backpack and see if Eve was in the mood to eat brains, or to give her a ride to school.
3
Morning classes went pretty well, and Claire spent her breaks hanging at the coffee bar at the University Center, where Eve barista'd her way through the day. Eve was good at itâcalm, efficient, seemingly impervious to the pissy demands and bitchiness of a lot of the students. Claire had figured out that the rude ones were mostly Protected, so it was a class thing; Eve had elected not to sign up with a vampire for protection, and those who had looked down on her.
Or else they were just bitchy. Which was equally possible. People didn't have to have a vampire connection to be arrogant jerks.
Eve was working today with another girl, somebody Claire didn't know; she had long, straight brown hair that shimmered like a curtain when she moved. She wore it loose around her shoulders, which Claire guessed was okay because she wasn't working directly with the drinks or anything, just taking orders and cash. Her name tag said AMY, and she looked cheerful and sweet. She and Eve were talking like friends, which was good; Eve needed that. Claire killed time between classes by skimming through her English Litâboringâand reading a book she'd checked out from the library on advanced string theoryânot boring. She liked the whole idea of vibrating strings being the basis of everything, that there were all kinds of surfaces that vibrated. It made the world more . . . exciting. Always in motion.
Her watch beeped to let her know she was going to be late for class if she didn't hurry, so she packed it up, waved to Amy and Eve, and jogged out of the UC and into the warm afternoon sunshine.
As she was blinking in the glare, she ran into Monica. Literally, as Monica was coming up the steps while she was going down. Claire automatically reached out to steady the other girl when she wavered, and then thought,
What am I doing?
Because Monica had once laughed as Claire tumbled down the stairs and cracked her head halfway open.