“What was that all about?” Char was a veteran waitress at the diner. Though not as efficient as Sabrina, her affability scored points with the regulars. “He finally making his move?” Her blonde hair had kinked into poodle curls, forecasting the day’s weather.
Sabrina turned and put two slices of bread in the toaster. “Don’t be ridiculous.”
The kitchen bell dinged twice.
“Char, you want to stop your gabbing and come get this food before it turns to rubber?” Gordon called through the window, wiping the back of his hand across his fat jowls.
“Don’t say I didn’t tell you so.” Char winked a wide green eye, the mascara-thickened lashes fluttering.
Sabrina watched her walk away, wondering if Char was right, hoping she was, then hoping she wasn’t. She gave her head a sharp shake. She had five hours and four minutes to get her act together, and suddenly that didn’t seem like nearly enough time.
Sabrina threw her apron in the laundry bin and pulled her bag from the cubby in the break room. At least, Gordon
called
it a break room. It was more of a large closet with a table, two chairs, and enough wattage to light up Main Street at midnight.
The five hours since Tucker left had dragged by. She told herself she was dreading the meeting, but if that were the case, time would’ve raced, wouldn’t it?
She slid the purse onto her shoulder and met her own gaze in the black-speckled mirror Char had perched on a shelf. Bending her knees so she could see her face, Sabrina pulled the rubber band, loosening the ponytail, and freeing her brown hair. She raked her fingers through it, wishing for smooth, glossy strands like her cousins’, but her fingers worked fruitlessly.
Giving up on her hair, she rubbed at a fleck of mystery food that clung to her temple. Maybe she should splash water on her face. She stood back and surveyed her reflection. Her brown eyes gazed back, her best feature, framed with dark lashes thick enough to make Char jealous.
What could Tucker want with her? Her respiration quickened at the thought of him. What if he knew? What if she’d slipped and said something that would ruin everything?
Char’s words tweaked at the corners of her mind.
“He’s finally
making his move . . .”
Oh, for Pete’s sake. He is not making his move.
Sabrina grabbed the rubber band from her pocket and gathered her hair.
He owns a
company. Maybe he’s hosting some event and wants you to serve.
“Better not keep him waiting.” Char’s voice sounded from the doorway.
Her eyes tilted coyly, and Sabrina felt heat flooding her face at being caught primping in the mirror like some pathetic adolescent. How many times had she found Jaylee and Arielle artfully applying makeup in front of their mirrors? Of course, it had paid off for her cousins.
“Oh, no, you don’t.” Char reached behind Sabrina and freed her hair.
“What are you doing?”
“Wear it down. Why do you always wear this infernal ponytail?”
Sabrina shifted as Char fluffed her hair. “We work in the restaurant industry.”
“If I had hair like yours . . .” Char leaned back. “There. Much better. No street clothes, huh? Well, I guess your uniform will have to do. At least you have nice legs. Now, go, before he thinks you chickened out.”
She squeezed past Char.
“Good luck, honey.”
Luck
. She’d need it if she hoped to hold it together. She exited the café, blinking against May’s bright sunlight. Her feet navigated the bumpy brick sidewalk, and she fell in step behind a cluster of tourists. If only she could squeeze into the middle and sneak past Tucker.
The bench was only three stores from the diner and, over the bobbing heads, she saw Tucker sitting there, elbows propped on his knees, staring across the street. There was no backing out now.
When she approached the bench, he stood. The group of tourists deserted her, leaving them alone on the sidewalk. In the distance, the ferry horn sounded, announcing its arrival at the wharf.
“Hi. Thanks for meeting me.” He gestured toward the bench.
She lowered herself onto the wooden seat and set her bag in her lap. “You’re welcome.”
Act normal. This is nothing out of the ordinary.
You are a server and he is your customer. Nothing more.
“I know you have another job to get to, so I’ll make this quick.”
Quick would be good. Merciful. She gripped the leather handles of her purse and pulled it into her stomach.
“I was hoping to hire you for a project.”
A curious mixture of relief and disappointment flooded Sabrina. She told herself it was relief that tightened her stomach.
Now it’s just
a matter of listening to his proposal and saying no. I can say no, then go
home
. She envisioned the cozy loft above Renny’s garage as if she could beam herself there. She pictured her favorite quilt spread across the bed, the built-in shelves brimming with novels, the antique desk in the corner where her computer awaited her.
Focus, Sabrina.
“Go on.” Sabrina crossed her legs. A pedestrian passed with a golden retriever on a pink leash, and she shifted to make room. The movement left her facing Tucker. He had one elbow propped on the back of the bench, his hand curling dangerously close to her shoulder.
“Well, the idea came to me when Renny Hannigan contacted me about a trip to Tuckernuck Island. We started talking about her stories, and she told me you’re the mastermind behind the mysteries she writes—”
Sabrina shook her head. “I just do a little research for her.”
“You’re being modest. Renny told me about the twists you come up with. She raved that the stories are unsolvable because you find fresh angles and innovative ways to confuse the reader.”
If Sabrina were that good, Renny’s stories would be published by now. It wasn’t lack of writing skill that kept her from publication. But what did her work for Renny have to do with Tucker?
“The things Renny said about you, combined with what I already know, made me think you were the perfect person for this project.”
“I already have two jobs. Between the diner and my research for Renny . . .” Her words petered out as he held up his hand.
“I know you’re busy right now, but Renny said in another couple weeks you’d be finished with the book she’s writing now, and that she’d need several weeks of editing time before she’d need your help again with her next story.”
Renny.
Sabrina clenched her teeth together. Why’d the woman have to go and tell Tucker that? Maybe she should close the door on this conversation before it went any further.
“I don’t think—I was looking forward to the time off when I finished the research. I think it would be best if—”
“Just hear me out, okay? If you don’t want to do it, that’s fine.”
His hand spread across his thigh. He had big hands with long fingers that tapered down to squared-off fingertips. He liked working with them. He carved wooden animals in his spare time and gave them as gifts to his family. He’d once wanted to give her a seagull he’d carved, but she’d refused the gift.
“Sabrina?”
She cleared her throat and watched a family of four squeeze into a taxi across the street, the brother and sister fighting over the middle seat. “I’m listening.”
Please just say what you have to say and
let me go home where my heart rate can return to normal.
“Well, as I was saying, I have this project I need help with.”
His voice was so deep it seemed to rumble through her body.
Practice saying no. It’s not my cup of tea. I don’t have time, but thank you
for the offer.
“It’s kind of embarrassing, but here goes.”
Now he had her attention.
“There’s this girl—this woman, I mean.”
Sabrina thought her heart was already in her toes, but it didn’t quite hit the tips until then. She reached for the end of her ponytail but found her hair loose.
“I have feelings for her and—” He pulled off his cap and raked his hands through his curls. “Well, the sad fact is, I don’t know where she is.”
Sabrina looked at him. She couldn’t help it. “What?” A missing person? He wanted help finding his missing girlfriend? But he didn’t have a girlfriend, did he? A seed of pure jealousy, something she’d thought she’d banished from her life long ago, sprang up, twisting, leaving that familiar ache in its path.
“I’m bungling this, aren’t I? Let me start at the beginning and maybe I can explain this better. There’s this woman I’ve been exchanging letters with. Email. We’ve been communicating online for about a year.”
Oh.
“We’ve gotten pretty friendly. Actually, she’s an amazing woman.”
He looked off into the distance, and Sabrina was relieved to have his eyes anywhere but on her.
This is not happening
.
“I want to meet her in person. I know it sounds clichéd and corny, but I have feelings for her.”
He looked at her, and she swore he could see right into her. She clutched the leather purse straps until her short nails dug into the flesh of her palm.
“Yeah, I know. You’re wondering how I could fall for someone I’ve never met, but this is different. It’s not like we set out to date online; it just happened. And you’re probably wondering why we don’t just meet up and live happily ever after.”
Sabrina tried to speak, but her voice had jumped off two exits ago.
“I’d like nothing more, but the problem is, she won’t meet in person. I don’t know why, but it doesn’t matter. I need to find her.”
“Find her?”
His eyes bore into hers. “I need your help.”
“I can’t.”
“You’re the perfect person for the job. I need someone who can string together clues. I have hundreds of letters filled with information, but she’s been careful not to write anything overt about her location. I need someone smart and intuitive. Someone like you.”
“I’m not the right person.”
“Renny thinks you’d be perfect.”
Renny.
She’d wring the woman’s neck! Sabrina needed another tactic. Anything. “This woman—obviously she doesn’t want to be found. Maybe you should leave things alone and continue the relationship as it is.”
“I want to be with her.”
“Maybe—” Could she be so cruel? She pressed her spine to the bench. Desperate needs called for desperate measures. “Maybe she doesn’t want to be with you. Maybe she’s—I don’t know—married or something.”
“She’s not married.”
“How can you know?”
“She’s not. I
know
.”
Sabrina wet her lips. Brushed at a mustard spot on her uniform. “There has to be some reason she won’t meet you.”
He lowered his voice. “I’m sure there is. I think she’s afraid of taking the next step or something, but I don’t think she’ll tell me until I find her.”
She gulped.
What do I say? How do I get out of this?
If she said no, he’d find someone else to help him, and then what?
That would be ten times worse. If someone else helped him—if someone else sifted through the letters and figured out the truth—then he’d discover that the person he’s trying to find is . . .
her
.
Harbormaster: No matter where you are or how long it takes until we can be together, I’ll keep searching for you.
Tucker pulled his eyes from Sabrina’s, and it wasn’t easy. He’d never seen her hair all flowy around her shoulders. He made himself watch a tour van pass slowly, stop for a bicyclist, then continue toward the First Congregational Church.
He pulled his arm from the splintered bench back and clasped his hands between his knees.
“If she doesn’t want to be found,” Sabrina’s voice quivered, “maybe she has a good reason. Maybe you’ll only be hurt or disappointed if you find her.”
He wanted to look at her; he wanted to grasp her shoulders between his hands and tell her that could never be true.
Tone it down,
buddy. You’re going to scare her away.
He sucked in a deep breath, letting the salty air permeate his lungs before he released it on a steady exhale. He wished he could jump inside her head and know what she was thinking. Was she thinking about telling him the truth right now? Was she wishing she’d never started the email relationship to begin with? She clutched her bag to her body like a shield, and he could almost feel the waves of fear rolling off her.