New Leaves, No Strings (17 page)

‘How did you find it? Did it gross
you out? Lots of woman hate giving oral.’

‘Really? I loved it. It gave me a
feeling of complete control and power over him. He was making all the right
noises and his face when he came was … wow. I even swallowed.’

‘On a first date? You’re taking
this new venture very seriously. Did he reciprocate?’

‘A number of times. I have to admit
it was a very weird feeling at first, I felt so undignified until …’ I blushed,
even talking to Lexi I was embarrassed.

‘You came? Yeah that tends to take
away any worries of what he may be thinking or how you look. So better than
your toys or masturbating?’

‘
So
much better Lexi, I mean
I won’t be giving up either in the near future, but they pale into comparison.’

‘So what happened after I left you?’

‘My feet were killing me in those
bloody boots, so he swooped me up and carried me to the taxi and then up here.’

‘All the way up those bloody stairs?
Jesus poor sod.’

‘Hey,’ I retorted throwing a
cushion at her head. ‘He’s fit, it was a good work out for him.’

‘That and the other things he was
doing to you. So was he all gentle and can I put it in now? Or did he take you
roughly doggy style?’

‘Can I put it in now? Men really
ask that?’ I asked surprised.

‘One guy I went with did. “
Can I
kiss you? Can I touch your breasts? Can I put it in now?”
I was like just
man up and fuck me already, I don’t need a running commentary.’

‘He was neither,’ I laughed. ‘We
were just in the moment and it happened, it was very hot and heavy and
boy
does he know what he’s doing.’

‘On the bed?’

‘No, not in bed. Up against the
wall and I’m really feeling the burn in my thighs today.’

‘Wow I’m impressed. Did you tell
him it was your first time?’

 ‘I didn’t have to Lex, I started
bleeding which pretty much gave it away.’

‘Did he freak? Some guys hate
seeing blood down there.’

‘Not in that way. He was just
really upset that I hadn’t told him I was a virgin. He said he’d have been gentler
with me if he’d known. In his words he fucked me quite hard, so he was really
concerned that he’d hurt me or put me off trying again. I don’t understand why
I bled though. I’ve had smears and used toys, why now?’

‘Judging by the size of his hard on
in his underwear commercial shot, he obviously got further in.’

‘Lex he was so sweet about it. He
wrapped me up in my dressing gown, sat me down and ran a bubble bath for me, climbed
in with me and washed me all over.’

‘You did it in the bath as well?’

‘No, we went to bed and I fell asleep
on his chest. When I woke up he was gone and I was like shit. I really thought
he’d left, but he’d only gone around the corner to get a Starbucks.’

‘We have a Starbucks here?’ she
exclaimed looking amazed.

‘I know right?’

‘So did you do it again this
morning?’

‘No,’ I sighed. ‘He refused as he
wanted me to have some time to get over it, I do feel a bit tender down there
if I’m honest.’

‘Christ, are you dating mother
bloody Teresa?’ I looked up at her and saw that despite the sarcasm she was impressed,
he’d scored some major brownie points with her on that one. ‘So what was your
favourite bit?’ she asked.

‘Orgasms aside?’

‘Well yeah, they’re a given,’ she
grinned.

‘Either when he held my face and
kissed me, I love when guys do that, it’s so tender. Or when he told me how he
would’ve done it with me if he’d known it was my first time.’

‘Shit Mia, are you falling for him?
This was supposed to be all about sex.’

‘Lex. I know it’s supposed to be
all about having sex and fun, but I really like him. I don’t want it to just be
a few nights of sex and it’s over, but I’m also scared of getting attached to
someone I like again.’

‘Mia I know you got burned by Alex,
but you were 14 and he was a jerk. Any guy that dumps his girlfriend for not
having sex, underage sex at that, is a bloody jerk.’

‘He was the first guy I ever dated Lexi.
I was so mad about him, it really hurt.’

‘I know and that’s why you’ve never
let a guy dump you since Mia. Now you always pick shit heads, keep them at
arm’s length and dump them if they get serious.’

‘I really trusted him Lexi, it’s
not something you just get over. Not with my dad letting me down all the time
too.’

‘Do you think you can trust Gabe?’

‘I don’t know do I? It’s not even
been a week since we first met.’

‘How do you feel about him?’

‘I really fancy him, I mean who
wouldn’t right? He’s so damn hot. I’m trying to hold back, but for the first
time with anyone since Alex, I really don’t want to. He could’ve just tried to
have sex with me again, at any time last night or this morning, but he refused
and was so gentlemanly about it. I really think he’s a good guy. Part of me
thinks I’d like to try the whole boyfriend girlfriend thing again, with him,
but I’m so scared of getting hurt again.’

‘Well he’s really into you Mia, seriously
into you. I could tell you liked him so I gave him full barrels this morning
and he took it. He said something along the lines of I think she’s amazing, she
brings out the protector in me and I’ve no intention of ever letting anyone
hurt her.’

‘He really said that?’

‘There was more but I forget it all.
Mia it’s good to see you with a daft big grin on your face, over a guy. You’re
actually happy. So don’t just hump and dump, try it for real and see how it
goes.’

‘Hmmm.’

‘Hmmm what?’

‘I just don’t want to get my hopes
up.’

‘He’s not Alex or your dad, don’t
ruin something before you’ve given it a chance. I can tell you want to try this.’

‘It’s scary Lex. Things fall apart
and people get hurt.’

‘Yes they do, but I thought we were
both going to man up and deal with that? We can’t keep avoiding things for fear
of getting hurt again, or we’ll end up with just each other. Much as I love
you, I’d like more.’

‘So what about you and Andrew? You didn’t
have to dash back this morning.’

‘I thought Gabe was the typical one
night stand kind of guy. You know, get up, get out before she wakes up. I knew
you liked him so I wanted to be here for you, I thought it’d hit you hard if he
legged it. He’s surprised me.’

‘Thanks Lex, you’re the best, but
what about you?

‘Well I made it to two nights with
a guy, a 100% improvement which is not bad going, even if I do say so myself.’

‘Am I sensing it won’t be three
times?’

‘No. He’s ok, but maybe I want more
than ok too. Maybe I want someone who ignites me with just a look. Not saying I’m
holding out for Mr Perfect and never shagging anyone again until he turns up,
but like we knew this was our apartment without even visiting it, I just think that
there’s someone for everyone.’

‘Lexi Clarke, you’re an old
romantic under that hard arsed exterior. Well usually hard arsed, I’m really having
the most difficult time taking you seriously in that bloody outfit.’

‘Tell anyone I’m soft or about this
outfit and I’ll kick your ass,’ she smiled.

‘Your secret’s safe with me.’

‘So when are you seeing Mr
Sensitive again?’

‘He wants to come over tomorrow at
ten and take me on a tour of the area and have lunch.’

‘How civilised, I thought you’d be
fucking all night tonight and was going to dig out my headphones.’

‘No, I told him from the start I didn’t
want to be suffocated, so he’s giving me some space and time to recuperate, but
I warned him to bring protection with him tomorrow. Is it ok for him to come
back with me? I really want sex with him again.’

‘Mate as long as you’re smiling
like that he can come as many times as he wants,’ she winked.

‘You’re so rude. Seriously Lexi, this
is our place, he won’t be here all the time. I’ll still want to spend quality
time with my best bud.’

‘Bet your arse you will but you
know me, I never know my social schedule, so spend as much time with him as you
want.’

‘Tuesday movie nights are off
limits Lex, I’ll make that perfectly clear.’

She grinned at me. ‘I was hoping
you’d say that, it’s my fav part of the week. So how are you feeling about sex
now?’

‘Good I guess. He told me it was
really good and he was amazed I’d not done it before, but much as I want it
again I still feel kind of nervous about it.’

‘How so? If he wants to do it with
you again, that’s a good sign.’

‘I get the impression he’s been
with
lots
of girls Lexi. I’ve got a lot to live up to. I guess I feel a
bit inadequate and inexperienced, so I tried to counteract that, like you said,
by pretending to be all confident and sexy. I’m worried it won’t be enough.’

‘Mia you told him it was sex no
strings. If sex was all he was after, given how he looks, he could just go and pick
up any girl he wanted to shag couldn’t he? He’s not doing that is he? He still
wants to have sex with you, so you must be stacking up just fine. Keep doing
what you’re doing, channel that inner sex vixen and if you need to know
anything else you ask me ok?’

We settled in for an hour’s
discussion on sex and what I could do to build up my confidence and please an
experienced guy. Some of Lexi’s ideas had me cringing and some left me in
hysterics.

‘Mia just try dating him. You already
know the worst that could happen and you have me to fall back on.’

‘I’ll just stick to sex for now
thanks. I’ve met my end of the deal, you need to meet yours Lex.’

‘I know. Just not sure if I want to
try it with Andrew that’s all.’

‘Thanks Lex, I really appreciate
the advice. Right, I really need to get a hustle on. I’ve got some studying to
catch up on. Are you up to date?’

‘Nag nag nag, it’s like bloody
college all over again,’ she grumbled.

‘You’re behind already aren’t you?’

‘Maybe a little.’

‘Well I need to do my English catch
up first, then I’ll help you with whatever you’ve not done. You really need to
pull your finger out Lex, this is a step up from college and you could do it if
you applied yourself.’

‘Teacher Page eh? Bet Gabe’s going
to love you getting all strict with him, taking his control away.’

‘Lexi seriously, study now.’

It was past five o’clock by the
time we’d caught up on our notes and I realised how hungry I was.

‘Ok, which take out are we dialling
tonight?’ I asked her.

‘Curry?’

‘Hmmm not sure if I want to stink of
garlic when I plan on getting up close and personal with him again.’

‘That rules out Thai too then. So Chinese
or pizza it is. You choose.’

‘I had pizza Wednesday with Milo,
so let’s go for Chinese. Your usual?’ I asked and she nodded. ‘I’ll dial, you
grab some beer Lexi.’

I went in search of my mobile. It
seemed pointless paying for a landline when I had unlimited minutes and texts
on my iPhone. As I grabbed it from my room, I realised I hadn’t checked it all
day and there was a message from Gabe.

Back home but finding
it very hard to focus on studying. I keep thinking about you and what I want to
do to you. Tried a cold shower, but that didn’t help so just got myself off
again looking at that picture of you in the bath. You’re a very bad influence
on me. I really enjoyed my time with you last night and this morning. I’m looking
forward to spending more time with you tomorrow. Hope you’re not having any
regrets? Gabe x

Regrets? Jesus, he was as fucked up
as me if he was questioning whether I was happy about our time together. I sent
him a reply.
No regrets, other than not being able to repeat the sex portion
of the night again. And it’s you who are the bad influence, taking poor virgins
and making them come in all manner of public places. Shame on you Gabe. See you
tomorrow

I hesitated, did I put a kiss on
the end or not? I never had with anyone but Lex, Georgie and mum and it felt
kind of weird to do with him, but what if he thought it was weird I hadn’t put
one and he had? I stared at the phone for a while and decided to end with a smiley
face instead. Christ it was so much easier when you didn’t give a shit I
thought as I dialled up Mr Chan’s for our order.

After eating and watching some
rubbish TV, I was surprised at how tired I felt and left Lexi in the lounge as
I sloped off for a shower before bed. I closed my eyes and let the hot water
hit the back of my neck and shoulders and gently moved my head from side to
side. It felt so good, just like when Gabe had massaged my neck in the bath. I
poured some baby wash onto my hands and ran them over my body imagining they
were his hands touching my stomach, breasts and nipples and I felt a familiar
swell below.