Newly Exposed (36 page)

Then again, how well did I really know her? I thought I did, but our relationship was one big whirlwind. Was she hesitant about me at first because she was still trying to figure out what to do with Ty?

My mind was spinning from all the possibilities this newfound information brought me when there was a small knock on my door. I could tell from the hesitance in the knock that it was Solo. I didn’t respond; I just looked up at the ceiling. I didn’t know what the fuck to think.
 

“Adam,” her small voice came from the crack of the door that she opened. “Can I come in?”

My throat was tight from anger, so I just kept silent, because I knew if I opened it to say something, I would regret whatever came out.
 

Being brave, she let herself in without my permission and shut the door behind her. Her eyes scoured my body and she licked her lips in appreciation. My libido shot to the sky from the glistening of her little pink lips.
 

No, I chastised myself for being so easily turned on.
 

“What do you want?” I asked, trying not to sound like a bastard, but failing miserably.
 

“Can we talk, Adam?” She pulled on her hands as she fidgeted in front of me.
 

“What happened when I wanted to talk to you earlier and you wouldn’t even let me speak to you? Well, I’m not in the mood right now to fucking talk.”

I saw her step closer, which only ignited the fire burning inside of me.
 

“Is everything okay? Did something happen with your mom?”

“What? Why would you ask that?” I said, looking over at her.
 

“Because, you seem really upset…”

“That’s because my girlfriend shut me out today when I did absolutely nothing wrong, and then, come to find out…” a maniacal laugh escaped my throat as I said, “my girlfriend fucking lied to me and never told me that she used to fuck one of my housemates.”

Just as I suspected, Solo’s eyes widened, and she instantly looked guilty.
 

“Yeah, didn’t think I would find out? Well, I did. Do you still like him?” I could feel myself losing control, being a giant ass, but after everything, I couldn’t stop myself.
 

“No!” she said quickly. “Why would you even think that? You know I love you, Adam.”

“Do you?” I asked, as I got off the bed and started pacing my room. “Because, in my experience, when you love someone, you don’t lie to them.”

“I didn’t lie…”

“You weren’t honest either, Solo. Don’t you think I would have wanted to know that you were with Ty at some point? I mean, fuck,” I raked my hands through my hair, and then looked up at her. “Did you fuck him?”

“Excuse me?” she asked, now letting go of her vulnerability and becoming just as furious as me.
 

“You heard me.”

“You know, I came over here to apologize for the way I acted today, and I thought I would find my kind and caring boyfriend, but I guess not.”

“Answer the question, Solo,” I gritted out.
 

Her face scowled at me and she put her hands on her hips in a defensive position.
 

“Fine, I fucked him. You happy?”

No! I wanted to scream at her, hurt her like she was hurting me, but I didn’t. Instead, I turned away from her and went to my window seat, where I sat down, not really knowing what else to do with my body.
 

Un-fucking-believable. It wasn’t like she fucked him when we were still together, but the mere thought of Ty’s hands all over Solo’s body made me have heart palpitations. I didn’t like it. I didn’t like that he was ever inside of her and touched her in places only I thought I touched her. Now, every side glance and smug look Ty ever gave me made sense; the mother fucker knew I wasn’t the only one who had been with Solo.
 

“Adam…” Solo said as she came closer, seeing that I was in turmoil from the new information.
 

I held up my hand and said, “I can’t, Solo. Please, just go.”

“You can’t, what?” she asked with a shaky tone in her voice.
 

I looked up at her and saw tears rimming her eyes; my heart shattered in a million pieces just from that one look, but my stubbornness held out as I said, “I gave you time this afternoon; give me fucking time now.”

In understanding, she nodded her head and turned around. Just as she was about to shut my door, she turned and said, “I love you, Adam, more than anything.”

With that, she walked away, taking my damn fragile heart with her.
 

Chapter Twenty Seven

Solo

Sobs racked my body from my stupidity as I lay on my bed and thought about how Adam was leaving this morning, and I still have yet to talk to him. It’s been two days and he’s kept his distance.
 

The night I walked out of his room, Nolly slept in my bed with me and held me as I cried myself to sleep. I hated that I was such an idiot and let my crazy mind get to me. It just gutted me, knowing that everyone got to see Adam so intimately. I hated every aspect of it, but like Nolly told me the other night, I needed to grow the fuck up and get over it, because right now, Adam was not in a position to quit his day job, and I knew that.
 

I tried texting him a couple of times, but didn’t get a response. I didn’t think that me being with Ty was really going to bother him that much. Yes, Ty was an ass most of the time, and there was already a little feud between the two, but to stop talking to me altogether didn’t seem fair. Then again, not telling him about Ty was a big mistake on my part.
 

More tears streamed down my face as I struggled to get myself out of bed and ready for work. I didn’t want Adam going to Las Vegas with the ever-clingy Zia while he was still mad at me. I didn’t want him taking his anger out on me by doing something incredibly stupid.
 

Just the thought of something happening in Vegas had me searching for my breath. My chest heaved and my eyes burned as I tried to gather myself. I was going to be late if I didn’t pull myself together.
 

I pulled on an oversized sweater that hung off my shoulder, showing my neon colored bra, and grabbed a pair of black jeggings. Yeah, it was a jeggings day. I threw my hair up in a bun, put a headband on, and brushed my teeth. While I brushed, I looked in the mirror and knew that this was as good as it was going to get today. I looked like a hot mess.
 

I slipped on my sandals and walked out of my room, where I came face to face with Adam. His hair was styled in that perfect fauxhawk of his, he was wearing his black gauged-looking earrings and a tight fitting navy shirt along with his board shorts. He was ready for the party. He carried a backpack in his hand, most likely his overnight bag, since he would be flying home in the morning, and in the other hand was his phone. He didn’t look too happy, but then again, why would he be?
 

“Hi,” I said meekly, as I looked up at him.
 

He removed the gold tinted aviators off of his eyes, which made him dangerously sexy, and looked closely at me. He must have noticed I looked like a zombie trying to pass off as a human on earth, because his eyes softened when he got a closer look.
 

Setting his stuff down, he grabbed my hand and pulled me into his chest. With the touch of his hands on my back, I broke down in an instant. Being in his warm embrace, in his loving arms, shattered me in half. I missed him, more than I thought, if that was possible.
 

“I’m sorry,” I cried into his chest.
 

He rubbed my back and cooed into my ear. He was soothing and comforting, just what I needed before I went to work to face the dreaded social media storm that was going to hit once everyone in Vegas knew Teeg Models were in town. I was dreading the pictures I was going to have to post; I knew it was going to be torture.
 

“Hey,” he pulled away and lifted my chin. “I have to get going, but I just wanted to say bye before I left.”

Wait, what? That was it? His exterior was still a little cold toward me, and I felt helpless; I didn’t know what to do.
 

“Adam, please,” a cry escaped my throat and a tear ran down my cheek, which I quickly wiped away. “Can you please just talk to me for a second? I feel like I can’t breathe knowing you’re mad at me. I’m scared…” I choked on another cry.
 

“Solo, I really have to go…” he grabbed his things and started to walk toward the door.
 

I could feel him slipping away. I couldn’t let that happen, so I chased after him and said, “What can I do? Please tell me what to do to make this better.”

He froze and turned to face me. He shook his head and said, “It’s all me, Solo. I can’t get the thought of you and Ty out of my head; it’s driving me fucking crazy.”

“There was nothing between us, Adam. He was one of the biggest mistakes I’ve ever made, seriously. He made me lose trust in every guy that came my way until you came along. You changed everything, Adam, and knowing that I can’t kiss you and hold you is seriously tearing me apart. I love you,” I cried again, this time unable to control myself. I fell onto the couch and cradled my head in my hands as I cried for the loss I was feeling.
 

“Come here,” Adam said next to me, as he sat down on the couch and pulled me onto his lap. I willingly allowed him to hold me into his chest. “I’m sorry, Solo. I didn’t mean to put so much hurt in your heart; it’s just hard. A part of me understands now what you feel when you read the comments on my Facebook posts. It’s not easy knowing the person that you love, that holds the damn key to your heart, could easily be with someone else.”

“I would never be with him again,” I said quickly. Relief eased my chest from Adam talking to me, only temporary relief, but relief nonetheless.
 

“I know, muffin,” he hugged me closer and kissed the side of my head.
 

A small cry escaped me at hearing his pet name for me; it was the one thing that I knew if he said, then we would be okay. We had hit a little speed bump, but we were going to be okay.
 

“I’m sorry, Adam. I really am. It’s hard for me to deal with you putting yourself out there, but I understand why you have to do it. It’s just going to take me some getting used to, but I promise not to shut you out because that’s not fair to you.”

“Thank you,” he whispered into my ear. “I’m going to get over this Ty thing, I just…fuck I just need to shake it. I don’t like knowing that he’s touched you intimately, Solo. You’re mine, you hear me? You’re fucking mine,” he said with a stern voice.
 

“I’m yours,” I said, as I straddled his lap and looked him in the eyes.
 

He leaned back and planted his hands on my hips; I could feel him start to grow hard under me, but I knew we didn’t have time to take advantage of his arousal.
 

“Fuck,” he said, as he looked me up and down. “The most gorgeous woman I’ve ever seen.”

“I’m such a fucking mess,” I replied, trying to wipe my eyes.
 

“You’re beautiful,” he said, as he cupped my cheek and brought my lips down to his.
 

Like a whisper, his lips danced across mine, never pressing too hard, but giving me just enough that I knew we were going to be okay.
 

I was about to wrap my arms around his neck to deepen our kiss, but he pulled away before I could.

His face looked pained as he sat up straight and cleared his throat. “I really have to go, or else I’m going to miss my flight.”

“I know,” I said, as I got off his lap and grabbed his items from the floor. He straightened and adjusted himself before turning toward me and holding out his arm. I went willingly into his embrace. He walked us both to the door, me with my things for the day and him with his. I hated that we had to part. It was just for a day, but I still hated it.
 

Turning toward me, he said, “I love you, Solo. I’ll be back tomorrow. Please, don’t lose sight of what we have, okay?”

I nodded and he pulled me in for one last kiss.
 

“I’ll text you when I can.”

With that, he put his aviators back on and walked out to his car, while strapping his backpack over his shoulders. I watched his backside flex as he walked away, a sight I would never get tired of.
 

Feeling a little lighter, I grabbed my purse, an apple, and locked up. I had a long torturous day in front of me, but at least I had the knowledge that Adam and I were going to be okay.

***

“I think I’m going to be sick to my stomach,” I said as I buried my face into Nolly’s shoulder.
 

“Solo, you need to settle down.”

My phone beeped, letting me know I’d received a text message. I opened it up and a picture of Adam smiling at me popped up on my phone, making the tension in my chest ease only slightly. I read the attached text to myself.