On Becoming His - Lessons Learned (8 page)

Jessie wasn’t surprised at his question. She’d known they’d been moving slowly toward the concept, not that she truly understood many of the
concepts around any level. “I want more. I do. I trust you of course.”

“Do you want more t
o merely please me or is this something you would enjoy?”

When she hesitated, she wasn’t certain what she saw in his eyes. “Both.”

His eyes darting back and forth, he nodded before smiling. “In time we’ll talk. Right now this was just a question.”

She wanted to ask if he was disappointed
, but she had no idea why he would be. BDSM. A heady concept for both of them.

Minutes later he finally released her and after kissing her lips and patting her ass,
he climbed out of the shower.

Jessie had to catch her breath but she wasn’t ready for the beautiful moment to end just yet. Scrambling
onto the bathmat, she was able to grab the bottle of baby oil before he was. The morning ritual, he would massage the oil into his skin, making very inch soft and supple. She loved the scent, fresh and clean, and today she was going to hope he would allow the honor. “May I?”

He seemed surprised but nodded and stood silently with his feet planted apart.

Pouring a generous amount into her hand, she rubbed him down slowly, every move deliberate and loving, caressing. She knew he was enjoying the subtle attention and the moment of her giving to him something that was very intimate. When she was finished, she set the bottle down carefully and kissed his lips. “I love you and will spend the rest of my life showing you how much I do and how much I want to please you in every manner. There is nothing I won’t do for you, nothing you can ask that I won’t be honored to make happen.”

Turning his head, Luke gazed into her eyes. “Oh, kitty, you still me.”

“I…I hope so.” Taking the towel, she dried him off, ending on her knees in front of him. She kissed first one foot then the other, her sign of complete submission, and heard a single moan escape his lips. Taking his cock into her mouth, she gently cleaned any remnants of their sex off with her tongue, ending with sucking his balls.

Shuddering, he placed
his hand on top of her head. “Jezebel, you’re more than I ever expected. Thank you.”

For the first time, Jessie truly believed she’d shown him the true beginnings of her utter devotion, to the man, to her lover.
To her Sir.

****

Jessie groaned and stared at the clock. The week had been dragging like a son of a bitch
. Finally it was Friday. Thank God. Luke had only been gone since Monday morning and she was fit to be tied. Grinning, she checked her email for work, answering everything that was important and then clicked on her personal email, hoping. Sighing, the big blank nothing from Luke was going to drive her insane.

Of course he’
d had meeting after meeting and she knew what he was doing was important to him, but God how she wanted a single email from him. “He’s testing me. That’s it.” Jessie rose from her chair and paced the living room floor, realizing she had to fill her day with something other than boring meetings and employees, who seemed to be getting on her nerves more and more every day. Maybe an unplanned luncheon date with a girlfriend and shopping was in order. She was Vice President of a major company after all.

Shaking her head, she grabbed her cell phone and dialed the one friend who was as wild and wanton as she was. The girl didn’t need an excuse to be a sinful treat.
As she waited for the call to connect, she thought about Luke and perhaps buying something slinky for his return was in order. “Mmm…” Without realizing what she was doing, she slipped her hand inside her robe and pinched her nipple. Instantly her pussy ached for him. God, she could almost feel his cock buried deep inside her wetness.

He went deeper and harder inside and still she wanted more. In their conversations she’d heard him tell her he’d never taken a woman so deep and so roughly and yet she craved more. Yes. She did. There was no doubt in her mind. She would do or try anything he wanted. Luke knew instinctively her pain thresholds and was an excellent gauge at when enough was enough. While they’d only truly begun their exploration into BDSM and what he called heavy handed kink, she longed for more.

“Well, well, my long lost friend.”

“Bad, Tabitha. Very bad.” Yanking out her hand, Jessie admonished herself for even seeking the slightest pleasure.

“So, what do I owe this honor?”

“How about skipping work today and playing? You game?”

Tabitha cooed. “What do you have in mind?”

“Lunch and lingerie shopping.”

“That must mean your sexy man is out of town and you’re on girlfriend if…”

“If?” Laughing, she knew there was always a catch with the very ballsy chick she’d known for over ten years.

“Only if you spill all the sexy details about that man of yours.”

Debating, Jessie
couldn’t resist. ”Deal.”

“Then I’m buying lunch.”

“Jazzie’s in an hour?” Grinning, Jessie knew she was playing with fire spending time with Tabitha. There were so many stories about just how much trouble she’d gotten herself into with the woman, who seemed to have zero boundaries when it came to both men and her raging desires. She could track a man down in a parking lot and end up having a date with him that night. There was no telling what went on behind closed doors. Tabitha was a powerhouse of wicked and wanton. And damn she wanted to share just a tiny bit about how much heat there was between she and Luke. Would her Sir be angry with her?

Purring, Tabitha finally laughed, the tone laced with mischief. “You’re on and be prepared for a two martini lunch before we go shopping. I have a gift card that’s eating up my wallet.”

“I like the way you think, girlfriend.” Feeling a small part of the previous girl returning, she licked her lips and twirled in a circle. There was nothing wrong with a girl’s day out. “See you soon.”

Thirty minutes later Jessie stood in a skin-tight emerald green dress and heels, smiling as she finished up her make-up. She was in a damn good mood and mostly because Luke would be home Sunday night. Thank God. What could she buy for him that he would truly appreciate? While he loved seeing her in all types of lingerie, she wondered whether a new method of discipline would be in order. The thought instantly caught her off guard. My God, she was now going to purchase items for him to whip her with.
Wait. Was he ready to spank her more often? Shivering, she grabbed her purse and headed for the living room to send an email to her employees. They would have to live without her for a day.

Hitting the refresh button. Jessie froze seeing the email from Luke and then her pussy clenched. He simply had that effect on her every time. As she read his email, she couldn’t help but feel like the man had eyes in the back of his head.

You are being very good for me, aren’t you? I’ll give you a call later tonight. I have certain needs that must be met. Nine sharp.

“Shit.” Brushing her fingers across her lips, she couldn’t help but grin. Good, huh? And needs? She had
a delicious idea what those needs were. “Mmm… Don’t worry, my Sir, I won’t be late for our date.”

During the drive, Jessie continued to think about Luke and about the way he’d reacted when she’d dried him off. There had been the most amazing look in his eyes, reserved yet full of an emotion she wasn’t entirely certain of. “I miss you.” She held the phone in her hand and longed for the damn thing to ring. For some reason this trip seemed to be longer than any one before.
She laughed, realizing she’d said the same thing about his last trip. Boy, she was hooked on this man.

As she drove into the shopping center and parked her car, she couldn’t resist sending him a text.
I miss you.
Applying a fresh coat of lipstick, she slid out of the car, ready for a bad girl afternoon.

She made it to the restaurant just as Tabitha did and waved.

“You look amazing girl. Kinda like a bad girl in heat. That hot man of yours must be doing you some good.”

“
Bad girl in heat?”

“You heard me.”

“Well, Luke is amazing indeed.” Sighing, Jessie couldn’t get visions of the heated moment in the shower and the way his cock filled her so completely out of her mind. When they were suddenly seated, she had no clue how they’d made it all the way through the crowded location.

“And you’re flushed. What have you been doing this morning, pleasuring yourself?” Tabitha chuckled as they both sat down.

“No I can’t.” Said quickly, she could see surprise cross her friend’s face.

“What do you mean
you can’t?”

“I am… um…”

“What will you ladies have to drink?” The waiter’s grin was infectious as he looked back and forth between them.

Gulping, Jessie couldn’t help but gaze up at his youthful and very sexy dark skinned face and could easily see a resemblance to Luke. This was going to be some kind of lunch.
Hot, wet and horny. “Vodka martini straight up.”

“You go girl! Make that two.”

“Anything you ladies desire,” he cooed.

And Jessie couldn’t help herself. Giving him her
signature ‘come fuck me’ smile, she leaned forward, exposing her cleavage.

“Incorrigible.” Tabitha slapped Jessie on the arm.
Waving the waiter off, she leaned over the table. “So spill it. Why can’t you pleasure yourself?”

“Um.
Well…”

“Spill it or I shout to the rafters you can’t shove a toy inside your pussy.”

“You wench!” Jessie hissed through clenched teeth.

Raising a single eyebrow, Tabitha gave her a wry smile. “Yes, I am.”

“Fine. It’s… Luke won’t allow me to indulge. I’m not allowed.”

“What do you mean not allowed?
Really?”

Her little voice issuing
a tsking sound, she knew this might start a firestorm with her friend but she certainly wasn’t embarrassed about the facts. “I was given strict orders not to pleasure myself while Luke is gone on business.” The look of near shock forced her to glance away. Several seconds passed.

“
I ask you again, you are kidding, right?” Tabitha snorted.

“Not at all. That’s what a D/s relationship is about. I obey his every command. He owns me, Tabitha.”

Sitting back in her seat, she exhaled slowly then shook her head. “You’re not kidding me, are you?”

“Not at all. I have strict edicts
that I abide by and that’s the way it is. I accepted his rules when Luke and I entered into this lifestyle and I don’t disobey, at least on purpose.” Her legs were trembling and Jessie now wasn’t certain lunch was a good idea. She didn’t mind getting into debates, but Tabitha never let anything go. Nor did she try and understand the change in her.

“
Edicts? This isn’t a contract.”

“It is like a contract.” Several more seconds ticked by.

“Jesus. I can’t believe it. You, the strong woman I’ve known for years suddenly a big wimp and allowing a man to control you. My God, I hope to hell he’s damn good in bed with the cock the size of a fucking bull!” Tabitha snapped, her voice loud enough several customers looked in their direction.

While she was certainly used to Tabitha’s outbursts, this time Jessie was mortified. Out of the corner of her eye she could see the waiter returning. Huffing, she folded her arms and simply waited. Now she needed a drink.

“Here you are, ladies. I’m Matt and I’ll be taking care of you. Are you ready to order yet?” As Matt set the drinks in front of the women, he gave Jessie more than a once over.

“Not yet,
Matt
, but we’ll call you when we are ready for something very hot.” Over emphasizing his name, Tabitha undressed him with her eyes and then tilted her head, staring at Jessie. “Give us a little time to catch up.”

“Of course. Enjoy your drinks.”

“At least you haven’t lost your touch with men totally, Jessie.”

“What’s that supposed to mean?”

“Why should it mean anything?”

“You know, I realize you don’t understand the lifestyle and that’s fine, but don’t criticize me because this is what I want. Okay? Luke and I have spent a hell of a long time trying to figure this out, talking and learning. We’ve been honest about our fears and worries, our hungers and desires. And you know what? I have a hell of a lot of needs that I didn’t know existed including having this man, my Sir, by the way, discipline me in the manne
r in which he not only sees fit. This man is the only who has ever understood what I need as a woman. I give him my body and soul willingly, and if he wants to deny me pleasure as well as whip my ass with a belt, then fucking so be it. And you know what? The fact I can be completely and totally uninhibited in finally telling someone
exactly
what I want makes me one hell of a strong woman, period. You got it?” As a few gasps followed by a sudden quietness filled the restaurant, Jessie realized her voice level had gone up quite a few decibels. She kept her harsh gaze pinned on her friend until Tabitha finally looked away.