Authors: Susan Krinard
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He could feel them all watching—his men, Weylin, Randall who held him prisoner, even the
bitch Rowena— watching and waiting for him to falter. They heard this girl call him afraid.
Afraid of the truth.
What was the truth? That he'd bent fate as he wished, grasped opportunities that allowed him
to take what he deserved? The girl called them lies, but they were the necessities of survival.
Survival built on absolute, ruthless conviction. Who were these creatures that surrounded him,
with their petty concerns? Did they truly think they could defeat him? They had no conception
of his power. He could destroy them, every one, with a gesture of his hand.
He laughed. "So you think you know what I am," he said to the girl. "You know all my thoughts.
Very well. Why don't you tell everyone this great truth of yours? Come inside, little señorita.
What do you see?"
She was silent for a long time, and all at once he felt memories surge up within him, memories
he hadn't bothered with in years. His childhood, on a small ranch in Texas—a ranch that had
grown into an empire.
"I see a boy," the girl said. "A boy with two brothers, one elder and one younger. A boy full of
anger. He hates his elder brother because he is his father's favorite, his chosen heir. But the boy
knows he is stronger and more worthy. His father… fears him, fears his strength even when the
boy is very young. He tries to crush his son, but the boy only grows more determined."
Cole suppressed a shiver. "My dear father," he said scornfully. "Was he so afraid of me?"
She didn't answer. "The family grows rich and powerful in their country. The boy's father is glad
to see him go to the East for schooling. The boy is very clever and comes home a man of great
knowledge. But the War changes everything. The father and his two eldest sons join the side of
the South. In Nuevo Mejico they meet an old enemy and the brothers are captured. They plan
escape. But Cole kills his guards and leaves his brother behind to be blamed. He feels no
sorrow, because now he is the heir. Now his father will know…"
Weylin crouched at Cole's side. "You did run away. You left Kenneth to be killed—"
"Kenneth was weak," Cole said. He stared at Weylin, seeing the judgment in his brother's eyes.
Weylin, as weak as Kenneth ever was, daring to judge him. "He brought it on himself with his
puerile concepts of human honor, trying to make a truce with Randall. He forgot what we are.
He didn't deserve to inherit what our father built."
"You wanted Kenneth to die."
"I wanted what was mine."
"You told Father that Randall shot Kenneth in the back, unprovoked—"
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" You went with Father and me to find Randall after the War. You said you wanted revenge as
much as we did, but you lost your nerve. You ran away even before we had Randall in our
hands. You couldn't do a man's work, a MacLean's duty." He sneered. "You're a coward. Father
knew it, even though he tried to protect you and made you his heir. You weren't there when he
died. You've been trying to make up for that ever since, haven't you, little brother?"
The corner of Weylin's mouth twitched. "Yes," he said. He looked at the girl. "What happened
the day Cole killed Fergus Randall?"
She closed her eyes and tightened her grip on Cole's hand. "He and his father… track their
enemy to Mexico. Frank MacLean wants to kill Fergus Randall himself, with his own hands. He
sets an ambush, and sends Cole to draw Fergus in. But Cole warns Fergus and makes his own
bargain. He—" She sucked in a sharp breath. "He says that if Fergus kills Frank, he will not take
vengeance."
Cole struck out at the girl with such force that he sent her tumbling into a heap. Rowena
gathered her up, a look of pure fury contorting her face. In an instant Cole was on his back,
Tomás Randall crouched over him with bared teeth. He caught Cole's lapels between his fists
and slammed his head against the ground.
"Tomás!" The girl sat up in Rowena's arms, her nose running with blood. "It is not finished." She
tried to rise and fell back, boneless as a puppet. "You think you are powerful, Cole MacLean,"
she whispered, "but you are dead in your heart."
"When this is over, I'll be the only one left alive," he said.
She shook her head. Weylin stood over them all like a figure carved of stone, unmoved. "You
wanted Father to die," he said.
"You believe them?" Cole said, struggling up. "Our enemies? You aren't even fit to lick MacLean
boots."
"Can you make him tell the truth?" Weylin asked the girl.
"No. I cannot make him do anything. I can only see what he remembers. What he feels." She
wiped the blood from her nose and stared at her hand in a daze. "I will try—"
"She's had enough," Rowena said. She squeezed the girl's arm and laid her back on the ground.
She advanced on Cole, head low, brown eyes limned by golden fire. "We are the same, you and
I. I won't deny it any longer. You will speak—"
"Stay back, Rowena," Tomás said. He bent low over Cole, and for the first time Cole truly felt
the threat of the outlaw's reckless despair. For the first time he felt the battering of Randall's
will against his own, the most deadly and unpredictable of challenges.
"Weylin!" he cried.
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"Stop, Randall," Weylin said. "I can't let you hurt him. He's my brother."
"Prove your loyalty," Cole said. "Kill Randall now. I'll deal with the girl and Rowena—"
"You wanted Fergus Randall to kill your father," Esperanza said, her soft voice effortlessly
drowning out Cole's. She crawled to his side. "Fergus told you that he did not wish to kill Frank
MacLean. He said that he came to believe that you killed the men who guarded you in the
camp, and left your brother to take the blame. He said he would fight you, instead. If you did
not, he would tell your father of your betrayals. You pretended to agree, but then you fell upon
him when he was not prepared. He took your arm before he died." Tears ran down her cheeks.
"When you recovered, you told your father that Fergus Randall planned to kill you both in your
sleep, and you stopped him. It should have made you a hero in your father's eyes."
"A hero?" Cole said. "He always hated me because he was afraid, because he knew I was
stronger than he was, and I'd take his power from him when he showed the slightest weakness.
When I lost my arm, he thought I was safe. He told me how he was going to give everything to
Weylin, and I could go back to New York and live like half a man, with all my luxuries and fancy
friends. He thought he was rid of me."
"And that's why you hated him," Weylin said. The stern stoicism of his expression melted into
grief. "I didn't want to see it. You and Father—you were family. MacLeans. We were supposed
to stick together, but you only wanted him out of the way."
"And that is why," the girl whispered, "you killed your own father."
Twenty-one
Racked by nausea and horror, Weylin nearly let the gun fall from his hand. He was vaguely
aware of Rowena's shock, Randall's disbelief, the mutterings of Cole's men on the sidelines.
He knew in his soul that what the girl said was true.
He waited numbly for Cole to defend himself, to spin some new web of deceit with his smooth,
educated tongue. But Cole, lying on his back with Randall crouched over him and the lady
staring her contempt, began to laugh.
He laughed in the way Cole supposed an Eastern gentleman did, a measured chuckle that
sounded crazier than the loudest guffaw or most hysterical bellow. He laughed and dabbed at
his eyes and ended with a pleasant smile for all of them, as if they were guests at one of his
fancy parties.
"The story has been left incomplete," he said. "Shall I finish it for you?" He gazed up at Weylin.
"Father made you his heir, because he knew he could make you do exactly what he wanted.
You were never a threat to him, any more than Kenneth. You stayed behind and looked after
the ranches like any dutiful peon. But I was the one who made us what we are today. Father
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didn't bother to concede that the money I'd made in New York increased our holdings a
thousand fold, that my influence, not his, got us more land and power in the Territory than
anyone but the governor himself. He thought he was receiving his rightful tribute as the head of
our clan.
"But Father was getting old and weak. He'd lost the ambition he once had, to conquer and hold.
I came back to the Territory to make him remember. I was the one who convinced him to join
with Hittson and the other big Texas cattlemen to replevin our stolen cattle from the New
Mexicans and Comancheros, hitting Los Valerosos along the way to eliminate the Randall
influence for all time.
"I was there when he and his men left Randall's place in ruins. I saw Randall's mother, the half-
Apache bitch the peones called Dona Adelina, tracking them as a wolf. I was the one who shot
her and gave her pelt to one of my father's men."
Tomás made a low sound of mourning deep in his throat, and Weylin wondered if he would
have to drag the gun up and keep the outlaw from killing Cole. But Tomás only closed his eyes
and tucked his chin into his chest while Rowena rested her hand on his back in a gesture of
helpless sympathy.
Cole continued in the same conversational tone, unmoved. "I knew when Randall followed his
mother's scent, caught up to Father, and accused him of killing her. He was half crazy. Father
didn't have a chance against him. But Randall didn't finish the job. He left Father still alive. I
rectified his error."
"God," Weylin said.
"Sim Kavanagh told me that you hunted Tomás down," Rowena said, her face bleak and pale.
"You tried to cover what you'd done by trying to kill him—"
"And Randall survived. But once he started attacking our property, no one questioned that El
Lobo was the murderer of Frank MacLean. He built his reputation better than I could have
done, robbing and stealing from us and our allies.
He made himself the hero of the small ranchers and peasants, but he had formidable enemies
among the rich." He looked at Weylin. "You, with your obsession with 'justice'— it was easy to
keep you busy hunting Randall. I assumed that Randall would kill you sooner or later, and all the
property Father willed to you would come to me. And if you killed him—well, I knew you
wouldn't stop me from running things the way I wanted. I'd shape the new MacLean dynasty,
the way it was meant to be."
Weylin looked away quickly. Cole's men couldn't see the moisture in his eyes; they were too
busy milling about, trying to decide what to do about Cole's revelations. They were all
cutthroats themselves, but he had a feeling that they knew Cole was headed for a fall, and they
didn't want to fall with him.
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Was Cole too sick, too crazy to see what he'd done?
Justice. The only justice now was to take in the real criminal, the real murderer, the man
directly responsible for three deaths and probably a dozen more. Weylin swallowed the bile in
his throat and put his hand on Tomás's shoulder.
"Move aside," he said.
Tomás stared up at him, and their gazes locked. "You want me to let him go?" he said in a rasp.
"I can't let you kill him."
"Do you think I could?" He laughed brokenly. Rowena reached out to touch him. He glanced at
her, and she dropped her hand.
"We are not so different, you and I," he said to Weylin. "Our family names left us a great
burden we did not wish to bear. But you have borne yours with far greater honor and courage
than I." He got to his feet and turned to Rowena, his mouth distorted in a smile of self-
contempt. "And you, my Lady of Fire. You've been brave and true to one who does not deserve
it, who used you only as an amusing diversion on the path to oblivion."
She said nothing. Weylin pitied her, little as he knew her, for he saw what lay in her eyes.
"When I was a boy," Tomás said, "my father told me about the great Randall-MacLean feud. It
sounded so full of heroism and adventure to me then, coming from an ancient land in olden
days of swords and shields and vows made in blood.
"My father was naive in believing he could escape the feud's curse by coming west. He knew it
would not end with Kenneth MacLean's death. So he told me that if anything happened to him,
it must be my charge to preserve the Randall honor, no matter what it took or what I must do.
He made me swear never to rest until the feud was ended for all time.
"I was young, and very proud. But I did not believe it was real. I discovered that Cole MacLean