Parade's End (76 page)

He burst out, looking at Tietjens with a peculiar goggle-eyed intentness:

‘If you think I’d care about losing my command over Sylvia or any other damned Society woman… .’ He said: ‘I beg your pardon …’ and continued reasoningly:

‘It’s the men that have to be considered. They think – and they’ve every right to think it if they wish to – that a man who’s a wrong ’un over women isn’t the man they can trust their lives in the hands of… .’ He added: ‘And
they’re
probably right… . A man who’s a real wrong ’un… . I don’t mean who sets up a gal in a tea-shop… . But one who sells his wife, or … At any rate, in
our
army… . The French may be different! … Well, a man like that usually has a yellow streak when it comes to fighting… . Mind, I’m not saying always… . Usually… . There was a fellow called …’

He went off into an anecdote… .

Tietjens recognised the pathos of his trying to get away from the agonising present moment, back to an India where it was all real soldiering and good leather and parades that had been parades. But he did not feel called upon to follow. He could not follow. He was going up the line… .

He occupied himself with his mind. What was it going to do? He cast back along his military history: what had his mind done in similar moments before? … But there had never been a similar moment! There had been the sinister or repulsive business of going up, getting over, standing to – even of the casualty clearing-station! But he had always been physically keener, he had never been so depressed or overwhelmed.

He said to the general:

‘I recognise that I cannot stop in this command. I regret it, for I have enjoyed having this unit… . But does it necessarily mean the VIth Battalion?’

He wondered what was his own motive at the moment. Why had he asked the general that! … The thing presented itself as pictures: getting down bulkily from a high French train, at dawn. The light picked out for you the white of large hunks of bread – half-loaves – being handed out to troops themselves duskily invisible… . The ovals of light on the hats of English troops; they were mostly West Countrymen. They did not seem to want the bread much… . A long ridge of light above a wooded bank, then suddenly, pervasively, a sound! … For all the world as, sheltering from rain in a cottager’s washhouse on the moors, you hear the cottager’s clothes boiling in a copper … Bubble … bubble … bubbubbub … bubble … Not terribly loud – but terribly demanding attention! … The Great Strafe! …

The general had said:

‘If I could think of anything else to do with you, I’d do it… . But all the extraordinary rows you’ve got into… . They block me everywhere… . Do you realise that I have requested General O’Hara to suspend his functions until now? …’

It was amazing to Tietjens how the general mistrusted his subordinates – as well as how he trusted them! … It was probably that that made him so successful an officer. Be worked for by men that you trust: but distrust them all the time – along certain lines of frailty; liquor, women, money! … Well, he had long knowledge of men!

He said:

‘I admit, sir, that I misjudged General O’Hara. I have said as much to Colonel Levin and explained why.’

The general said with a gloating irony:

‘A damn pretty pass to come to… . You put a general officer under arrest … Then you say you had misjudged him! … I am not saying you were not performing a duty… .’ He went on to recount the classical case of a subaltern, cited in King’s Regulations, temp. William IV, who was court martialled and broken for not putting under arrest his colonel who came drunk on to parade… . He was exhibiting his sensuous delight in misplaced erudition.

Tietjens heard himself say with great slowness:

‘I absolutely deny, sir, that I put General O’Hara under arrest! I have gone into the matter very minutely with Colonel Levin.’

The general burst out:

‘By God! I had taken that woman to be a saint… . I swear she is a saint… .’

Tietjens said:

‘There is no accusation against Mrs. Tietjens, sir!’

The general said:

‘By God, there is!’

Tietjens said:

‘I am prepared to take all the blame, sir.’

The general said:

‘You shan’t… . I am determined to get to the bottom of all this… . You have treated your wife damn badly… . You admit that… .’

Tietjens said:

‘With great want of consideration, sir… .’

The general said:

‘You have been living practically on terms of separation from her for a number of years? You don’t deny that that was on account of your own misbehaviour. For how many years?’

Tietjens said:

‘I don’t know, sir… . Six or seven!’

The general said sharply:

‘Think, then… . It began when you admitted to me that you had been sold up because you kept a girl in a tobacco-shop? That was at Rye in 1912… .’

Tietjens said:

‘We have not been on terms since 1912, sir.’

The general said:

‘But why? … She’s a most beautiful woman. She’s adorable. What could you want better? … She’s the mother of your child… .’

Tietjens said:

‘Is it necessary to go into all this, sir? … Our differences were caused by … by differences of temperament. She, as you say, is a beautiful and reckless woman… . Reckless in an admirable way. I, on the other hand …’

The general exclaimed:

‘Yes! that’s just it… . What the hell are you? … You’re not a soldier. You’ve got the makings of a damn good soldier. You amaze me at times. Yet you’re a disaster; you are a disaster to everyone who has to do with you. You are as conceited as a hog; you are as obstinate as a bullock… . You drive me mad… . And you have ruined the life of that beautiful woman… . For I maintain she once had the disposition of a saint… . Now! I’m waiting for your explanation!’

Tietjens said:

‘In civilian life, sir, I was a statistician. Second secretary to the Department of Statistics… .’

The general exclaimed convictingly:

‘And they’ve thrown you out of that! Because of the mysterious rows you made… .’

Tietjens said:

‘Because, sir, I was in favour of the single command… .’

The general began a long wrangle: ‘But why were you? What the hell had it got to do with you?’ Couldn’t Tietjens have given the Department the statistics they
wanted
– even if it meant faking them? What was discipline for if subordinates were to act on their consciences? The home Government had wanted statistics faked in order to dish the Allies… . Well … Was Tietjens French or English? Every damn thing Tietjens did … every
damn
thing, made it more impossible to do anything for him! With his attainments he ought to be attached to the staff of the French Commander-in-Chief. But that was forbidden in his, Tietjens’, confidential report. There was an underlined note in it to that effect. Where else, then, in Heaven’s name, could Tietjens be sent to? He looked at Tietjens with intent blue eyes:

‘Where else, in God’s name … I am not using the Almighty’s name blasphemously …
can
you be sent to? I
know
it’s probably death to send you up the line – in your condition of health. And to poor Perry’s Army. The Germans will be through it the minute the weather breaks.’

He began again: ‘You understand: I’m not the War Office. I can’t send any officer anywhere. I can’t send you to Malta or India. Or to other commands in France. I can send you home – in disgrace. I can send you to your own battalion. On promotion! … Do you understand my situation? … I have no alternative.’

Tietjens said:

‘Not altogether, sir.’

The general swallowed and wavered from side to side. He said:

‘For God’s sake, try to … I am genuinely concerned for you. I won’t – I’m damned if I will! – let it appear that you’re disgraced… . If you were McKechnie himself I wouldn’t! The only really good jobs I’ve got to give away are on my own staff. I can’t have you there. Because of the men. At the same time …’

He paused and said with a ponderous shyness:

‘I believe there’s a God… . I believe that, though wrong may flourish, right will triumph in the end! … If a man is innocent, his innocence will one day appear… . In a humble way I want to … help Providence… . I want someone to be able one day to say: “
General Campion, who knew the ins and outs of the affair
…” promoted you! In the middle of it… .’ He said: ‘It isn’t much. But it’s not nepotism. I would do as much for any man in your position.’

Tietjens said:

‘It’s at least the act of a Christian gentleman!’

A certain lack-lustre joy appeared in the general’s eyes. He said:

‘I’m not used to this sort of situation… . I hope I’ve always tried to help my junior officers… . But a case like this …’ He said:

‘Damn it… . The general commanding the 9th French Army is an intimate friend of mine… . But in face of your confidential report – I
can’t
ask him to ask for you. That’s blocked!’

Tietjens said:

‘I do not propose, sir, at any rate in your eyes, to pass as putting the interests of any power before those of my own country. If you examine my confidential report you will find that the unfavourable insertions are initialled
G. D
… . They are the initials of a Major Drake… .’

The general said bewilderingly:

‘Drake … Drake … I’ve heard the name.’

Tietjens said:

‘It doesn’t matter, sir… . Major Drake’s a gentleman who doesn’t like me… .’

The general said:

‘There are so many. You don’t try to make yourself popular, I must say!’

Tietjens said to himself:

‘The old fellow feels it! … But he can hardly expect me to tell him that Sylvia thinks Drake was the father of my own son, and desires my ruin!’ But of course the old man
would
feel it. He, Tietjens, and his wife Sylvia, were as near a son and daughter as the old man had. The obvious answer to make to the old man’s query as to where he, Tietjens, ought to be sent was to remind him that his brother Mark had had an order put through to the effect that Tietjens was to be put in command of divisional transport… .
Could
he remind the old man of that? Was it a thing one could do?

Yet the idea of commanding divisional transport was like a vision of Paradise to Tietjens. For two reasons: it was relatively safe, being concerned with a lot of horses … and the knowledge that he had that employment would put Valentine Wannop’s mind at rest.

Paradise! … But
could
one wangle out of a hard into a soft job? Some other poor devil very likely wanted it. On the other hand – think of Valentine Wannop! He imagined her torture of mind, wandering about London, thinking of him in the very worst spot of a doomed army. She would get to hear of that. Sylvia would tell her! He would bet Sylvia would ring her up and tell her. Imagine, then, writing to Mark to say that he was with the transport! Mark would pass it on to the girl within half a minute. Why … he, Tietjens, would wire. He imagined himself scribbling the wire while the general talked and giving it to an orderly the moment the talk was over… . But
could
he put the idea into the old man’s head?
Is
it done? … Would, say … say, an Anglican saint do it?

And then … was he up to the job? What about the accursed obsession of O Nine Morgan that intermittently jumped on him? All the while he had been riding Schomburg the day before, O Nine Morgan had seemed to be just before the coffin-headed brute’s off-shoulder. The animal must fall! … He had had the passionate impulse to pull up the horse. And all the time a dreadful depression! A weight! In the hotel last night he had nearly fainted over the thought that Morgan might have been the man whose life he had spared at Noircourt… . It was getting to be a serious matter! It might mean that there was a crack in his, Tietjens’, brain. A lesion! If that was to go on … O Nine Morgan, dirty as he always was, and with the mystified eyes of the subject races on his face, rising up before his horse’s off-shoulder! But alive, not with half his head cut away… . If that was to go on he would not be fit to deal with transport, which meant a great deal of riding.

But he would chance that… . Besides, some damn fool of a literary civilian had been writing passionate letters to the papers insisting that all horses and mules must be abolished in the army… . Because of their pestilence-spreading dung! … It might be decreed by A.C.I. that no more horses were to be used! … Imagine taking battalion supplies down by night with motor lorries, which was what that genius desired to see done! …

He remembered once or twice – it must have been in September, ’16 – having had the job of taking battalion transport down from Locre to B.H.Q., which were in the
Château
of Kemmell village… . You muffled every bit of metal you could think of: bits, trace-chains, axles … and
yet
, whilst you hardly breathed, in the thick darkness some damn thing would always chink and jolt, beef tins made a noise of old iron… . And
bang
, after the long whine, would come the German shell, registered exactly on to the corner of the road where it went down by the shoulder of the hill; where the placards were ordering you not to go more than two men together… . Imagine doing it with lorries, that could be heard five miles away! … The battalion would go pretty short of rations! … The same anti-chevaline genius had emitted the sentiment that he had rather the Allies lost the war than that cavalry should distinguish themselves in any engagement! … A wonderful passion for the extermination of dung …! Or perhaps this hatred of the horse was social… . Because the cavalry wear long moustaches dripping with Macassar oil and breakfast off caviare, chocolate and Pommery Greno they must be abolished! … Something like that… . He exclaimed: ‘By God! How my mind wanders! How long will it go on?’ He said: ‘I am at the end of my tether.’ He had missed what the general had said for some time.

The general said:

‘Well. Has he?’

Tietjens said:

‘I didn’t catch, sir?’

‘Are you deaf?’ the general asked. ‘I’m sure I speak plain enough. You’ve just said there are no horses attached to this camp. I asked you if there is not a horse for the colonel commanding the depot… . A German horse, I understand!’