Poor Tom Is Cold

S
INCE THE BOY HAD DIED
, she didn’t sleep and many nights she prowled around the house, searching. She was quiet so as not to wake any of the others, but they knew and talked about it when she wasn’t there. This night was particularly bad. It was long past midnight and she had heard the grandfather clock in the hall chime. She counted out the number of gongs, not wanting the sound to die away as it was comforting, like a voice. After a while the snuffles and groans of her sleeping husband were insufferable and she got out of bed. She didn’t put on her dressing gown or slippers, even though the room was chill. She went out to the landing. A slit of light was showing beneath the door opposite and she knew he was not yet in bed. She walked over and went in without knocking. He was seated at his desk, writing, and turned quickly when he heard her enter. She was glad she had startled him. She smiled, a false smile, hiding her fear. He regarded her
coldly. He didn’t get up, didn’t exclaim in concern or bewilderment; he merely sat and waited for her to say something.

She moved closer. “You are up late,” she said.

“And you.”

“You must be cold.”

“Not at all.”

He indicated the fire, which was still burning in the hearth, and the woollen shawl that was around his shoulders.

She wanted to flee, to run from that icy stare, but she knew this might be her only chance.

“I have seen the looks you give me. They burn my skin like the hot sun.”

“I must disillusion you. I have no such desire.”

Some of her earliest memories were of witnessing the power her mother could exercise over the many men who visited her, and Peg knew she had no other recourse. She slipped her arms out of her nightgown, letting it fall to her ankles. She tried to take a bold stance, feet apart, the way she had long ago seen her mother do. But her legs were quivering and she couldn’t force herself to stand other than with her knees pressed together. Cupping her small breasts in her hands, she pushed them up.

“I ache for your suck,” she said. She tried to make her voice coy and sweet, but even to her own ears, she sounded unconvincing.

He scanned her thin body, studying her dispassionately, critically, making it clear how much the choice was his. Then he took the candleholder from his desk and came over to her. She tried not to flinch but she couldn’t help herself. He bent down and pulled up the nightgown.

“Allow me to take you back to your room,” he said.

I
T WAS STILL DARK OUT
, not yet dawn, and the flickering street lamps made little dint in the sodden November darkness. Acting Detective William Murdoch pulled his astrakhan hat tighter over his ears, thrust his bare hands deep into his pockets, and shoulders hunched against the cold driving rain, plodded up Ontario Street toward the police station. Pain from an infected tooth had sent him from his bed, and in an attempt to distract himself, he had dressed and set out for work well ahead of his duty time.

He turned onto Wilton just as a cab was going by and stepped back to avoid being splashed. The cabbie slowed his horse in case Murdoch was a potential fare, realised he wasn’t, and tipped his whip in acknowledgment as he passed by. He was wrapped in a voluminous black oiled slicker, the high collar masking his lower face and the hood pulled down so low over his forehead
that only his eyes were visible. The horse had no such protection and its coat was dark from the rain. Like a lot of cab horses, the beast looked underfed, as if it had barely a trot left in it, but the driver snapped the reins and they heaved into a faster clip. Murdoch watched the rear lamp swaying, warm and bright in the gloom, until the carriage turned south on Parliament, leaving him alone on the dark street.

What if I am the last man on the earth? he thought. What if I’m really dead and in purgatory? Is this what it is?
Physical pain and loneliness melding together until he couldn’t separate one from the other. Suddenly, somebody, probably a servant, lit a lamp in the upstairs room of one of the houses he was passing and the light winked out through a crack in the curtain. Murdoch was somewhat embarrassed at the relief he felt and he grinned at his own nonsense. He shook his head to clear out the morbid thoughts and was rewarded by a current of white-hot pain along his jaw, so severe he yelped. Trying to move cautiously to avoid aggravating matters, he continued on his way. He was heartily glad to reach the steps of the station. The outside lamp was burning and the windows were bright.

He pushed open the door, greeted by the familiar smell of woodstove, sawdust, and a lingering sourness from the old clothes and unwashed bodies of the local constituents. The fourth division served Toronto from the working-class streets of River and Sackville in the
east, to the nobs who lived in grand houses on Jarvis and Church streets in the west. The east-siders were the ones whose backsides polished the wooden benches in the station hall.

The night-duty sergeant, Gardiner, was seated on a high stool behind the counter, entering his report in the register. He glanced up in surprise to see Murdoch.

“Gawdelpus, you’re the early bird.”

The detective grunted, not feeling up to a long-winded explanation. His tooth had started hurting about a week ago, but he’d managed to ignore it until yesterday, when the pain had worsened. His landlady, Mrs. Kitchen, sent him to bed with a brown paper and vinegar poultice to hold to his face and had padded his gum with some cotton wool soaked in carbolic. That had helped for a while, but at five o’clock he had been dragged to consciousness with the sensation that every nerve in his body had gathered at a point on his lower jaw and was pulsing there.

He took off his fur hat and shook the rain out of it.

“What’s up?” asked the sergeant.

Gardiner was regarding him curiously and Murdoch knew he must look like a pauper’s pal.

“Got a toothache,” he mumbled. He tried to talk without moving his mouth very much.

“Awful things them toothaches. Keep you up, don’t they?”

Murdoch blinked in agreement.

“Better get yourself into the dentist. There’s a fellow right at the corner. You could drop in on him.”

Murdoch grunted. Not if he could help it. George Crabtree had been forced to visit Dr. Brodie last year and, big and tough as a moose though he might be, the constable had almost fainted when he staggered out of the chair. His face was swollen for weeks.

“My landlady’s good,” said Murdoch. “Knows a lot … carbolic …”

“Wondered what it was I could smell. Helped, did it?”

“Hm.”

The sergeant sniffed. “Or is it fish? Did the cat bring something in?”

Murdoch shrugged. The smell was from his sealskin coat, which developed a distinctive odour when it was wet. He’d got it from an old lag a couple of years ago, in exchange for some tobacco, and he considered it a good bargain in spite of the pong.

He started to head for the sanctuary of his office, which was a tiny cubicle across from the cells.

“While you’re over there, put some more coal in, will you?” called out Gardiner.

Murdoch opened the stove door, picked up a pair of tongs, seized a large piece of coal and dropped it into the red maw. The action hurt.

There was a waft of chill air as the hall door opened and Ed Hales, the patrol sergeant, came in. He hung his dark lantern on a hook.

“Perishing cold out there.”

“It’s nothing to what it will be,” said Gardiner. “Wait till we get winter.”

“You’re early this morning, Will.”

“He’s got toothache,” Gardiner answered for him. “Kept him up. He’s going to have to have it pulled.”

“Hey, I don’t know that yet,” protested Murdoch.

The sergeant grinned at him. “That kind of pain means abscess. If you don’t look after it you could be in bad trouble. Second cousin of the wife’s nearly died from an abscess. Poison got into her blood. She was bad for months after, still not right. It affected her mentally. She cries all the time.”

“Glad to know that, Gardiner. Lifted my spirits no end did that little tale.”

The duty sergeant shrugged, undaunted. “It’s the truth, I tell you.”

“How about I brew up a pot of tea, Will?” interjected Hales. “Cheer us both up. Come on.”

Murdoch was about to refuse but Hales, out of sight of the duty sergeant, nodded warningly. He had something to say.

“I wouldn’t mind a mug myself,” Gardiner called after them. “I’m parched.”

Murdoch followed Hales through to the small back room where the officers ate their meals. The morning shift hadn’t arrived yet and the fire was low in the grate, the room chilly.

“Why don’t I look after the pot and you see to the fire; you’re better at it than me,” he said.

“All right,” said Hales but he didn’t move. He pulled at the ends of his moustache. He was a tall man, ruddy-faced. He was invariably pleasant and even-tempered, qualities that made him popular in the station, but this morning he was visibly distressed.

“Need your ear a minute, Will … I didn’t want to say anything in front of Gardiner, he’s got a sniffer for trouble like a rat on offal but,” he hesitated, reluctant to admit the bad news, “fact is, young Wicken seems to have gone missing.”

“Missing?”

“Well, he don’t seem to be on his beat.” He rubbed at his moustache. “I did my first check on him at twenty-five minutes past eight. All correct. Did the second at a quarter past ten like normal. Again all correct. But when I went to check in on him at a quarter past two, he was nowhere to be seen. Supposed to be up at River and Gerrard. I thought maybe he’d stepped into a laneway to have a piss, even though he shouldn’t, and I waited a bit. No sign of him. I walked back along Gerrard. Not a whisker. I put pebbles on the doorknobs. You know that little trick.”

Murdoch nodded. The constable on the beat was supposed to check the doors of the vacant houses to make sure they were secure, no vagrants camping out. The patrol sergeant sometimes tested the officers with
a small stone or piece of dirt. If it was still there at the next round, heaven help the constable on duty.

“When he wasn’t at the four o’clock checkpoint, I walked his entire beat in reverse but he was nowhere to be seen. All of the pebbles were still there.”

Murdoch frowned. “That’s bloody strange. Is he playing up, d’you think? Hiding?”

The younger constables sometimes teased the good-natured patrol sergeant by hiding out until he went by, then innocently meeting him on the return route. It was childish but it relieved the boredom. Murdoch had done it himself when he was on the beat.

Hales shook his head. “He’s never done it before and it’s past a joke by now. If he isn’t here at changeover he could be put on a charge.”

“Ill then? Could he have been taken ill? Gone home?”

Even as he said it, Murdoch knew how unlikely that was. Wicken would have gone to the closest alarm box and telephoned in to headquarters.

“He looked healthy as a doctor when I saw him last. He wasn’t drunk neither.”

The two men looked at each other, mirroring each other’s uneasiness.

Murdoch reached for his hat. “I’ll go and have another gander. You’ve got your report to do.”

“Thanks, Will. If he is just acting batchy, I’ll overlook it as long as he’s back on the beat when the next shift
comes in. But if he’s not there without a damn good reason, it’ll be dire.”

“Where should he be right now?”

“Coming down River Street from Gerrard. Maybe you could try going the reverse way.”

Murdoch stood up. “Save me some tea.”