Pretend (17 page)

             
I wanted to tell her that if she didn't shut up, I would shove it down her throat but instead I picked it up and
 
threw it out of my bedroom window.

             
"Has it gone?" She asked as she crept into my room on her tip toes.

             
"Yes, the big, fat, hairy monster has gone now, you can chill out," I said, sarcastically.

             
"Good," she said as she finally began to compose herself.

             
This chick
 
had some serious issues.
 

             
"So..." She said, now with a smile plastered on her face.

             
"So
,
what?"
I asked looking at her in a state of confusion.

             
"You have a free house and we're alone in your bedroom," she said as she made her way over to me.

             
As I looked down at her cheap red lipstick and her tight clothes, I wanted to run a mile.

             
Without a word her
lips met mine and began to do,
what I can only describe as suffocating me.

             
"Ok, you really need to s
low down," I said as I gently
pushed her back.

             
"I thought
that
this was what you wanted. You did tell me to come over after all," she said as a look of sadness filled her eyes.

Feeling a little guilty, I cleared my throat and looked her in the
 
eyes.

             
"Yeah I did and it is what I wanted
bu
-"

             
"Exactly
, then why are we still talking?" S
he said as she pushed me onto the bed and climbed on top of me.

             
As her lips left a trail of kisses down my neck I couldn't help but wish that they were April's lips. A few months ago I would have been enjoying this and the thought of April wouldn't have even crossed my mind.
I knew that she was with Kyle
back then
and so I got on with it
but
it’s
different now.

             
As I heard her heavy breathing in my ear and felt her hand begin to unbuckle my jeans, I panicked and quickly flipped her around so that I was on top and in control.

             
"
Mmmm
, so you like to play rough," she said as she let out a giggle that made my stomach drop for all the wrong reasons.

             
"Yeah
,
if playing rough is throwing you out of my bedroom window," I mumbled under my breath.

             
"What did you say baby?" She said as her red lips formed into a smile.

             
"Nothing," I lied.

             
I tried to ignore my thoughts and keep my mouth shut as I began to kiss her lips.

             
I had to get April out of my mind, for all I knew
,
her and Kyle were probably doing exactly what Cayce and I were doing right now. The thought made me mad.

             
As I felt the warmth of her hands trail up my back, my body shuddered. I kissed her deeper and harder this time as I grabbed her wrists with my hands and held them down, above her head. The low moans that escaped her lips should have sounded sexy but instead, they left me wishing that
 
I was elsewhere.
 

             
What the hell is
wrong with me?

             
There I was, alone with a chick that most gu
ys would have given up anything
to spend a ni
ght with and what was I doing...
Thinking about someone else.

             
"Do you love me?" She whispered deep into my ear.

             
Suddenly I stopped moving. I lifted myself from off of her and sat up on the bed.

             
"I'm sorry but
I can't do this," I said as I placed my head in my hands.

             
"Why? W
hat's up baby?" She asked as she rubbed my back with her hand.

             
"That's what's wrong," I said as I stood up
,
so that she couldn't touch me anymore.

             
"Th
is just shouldn't have happened.
I shouldn't have ask
ed you to come here. I'm sorry.”

             
"It's probably just nerves baby, has it been a while?" She asked as she stood up and looked into my face.

             
I wanted to scream, no it's you, I'm just not int
erested but then I decided that
that probably wasn't the best way to handle the situation.

             
"
Mmmm
," I finally answered after a few seconds.

             
"
Awww
, don't worry baby
,
we can t
ake all the time that you need.”

             
"No I'm done. S
orry but I'm just going to go to bed now, I'm kind of tired," I replied, hoping that she would get the hint.

             
"Oh, ok. Do
you want me to stay?"

             
"NO!" I screamed in a panic before I even realised what had escaped my mouth.

             
"I mean, no my mom will be back soon so it's probably best that you leave," I quickly, corrected myself.

             
"Ok then, we
ll I'll just let myself out
," she said
,
sounding rather disappointed.

"Ok, sorry," I said as a feeling of guilt swept over me. It wasn't in my nature to hurt people, it's jus
t that tonight was so messed up
that I was making some stupid decisions without thinking about the consequences.

             
"Well, I'll see you at school tomorrow," she said as she kissed me on the cheek and headed towards my bedroom door.

             
"Ok, see you later," I said as I slumped back onto my bed. I listened as her footsteps disappeared down the stairs and the front door slammed shut. Peace at last.

             
I had to admit that I did feel like a bit of a jerk.

             
As if
Mother Nature
decided that now was the perfect time to deal out my punishment, Crystal stormed into my room.

             
"What the he
ll was Cayce Hellman doing here?
Actually
,
the red lips on your face have told me all that I need to know. Aiden, seriously I thought you were through with her, she's like the school bike,
what the hell were you thinking?
" She screamed as she burst through my door.

             
"Ok, so firstly there's this thing that people with manners do and it's called knocking and secondly my life is none of your business," I said as I began to wipe my face off with my hand in a bid to get rid of Cayce's lipstick.

             
"Yeah, whatever!
Anyway did April get in ok?"

             
"I don
't know, why don't you ask Kyle?
" I said as walked past her and went into the bathroom.

             
"Kyle! What the hell are you talking about?" She screeched, in an octave that was way above her
 
normal voice.

"
Well, she was pretty cosy in his arms, outside of her house tonight so I’m pretty sure that he can tell you more than I can,
" I mumbled as I threw some water onto my face.

             
"
In his arms?
At her house?
Oh
my gosh
! I am so going to deal with that girl in the morning, she promised that she would stay away from him," she said as a look of anger filled her face.

             
"Yeah
,
that's great an all but I'm not interested," I said as I dried off my face and walked back into my room.

             
"What's wrong with you? Missing Cayce already?" She said in a sarcastic tone.

             
"I got two words for you good bye," I said as I slammed the door in her face.

             
"Rude! And that's one word actually!" I heard her scream at the door as she stormed off. From the sound of her footsteps she was heading towards her bedroom, I was just glad for the peace and quiet.

I took off my top and
jeans
,
took my phone out of my pocket and turned off the light.
I got into my bed, slid my phone under my pillow and
 
lay on my back and stared at the ceiling until I finally fell asleep.

* * *

             
Getting ready this morning was like a war zone. Crystal felt it necessary to moan about April and Kyle all morning much to my dismay.

             
"I mean
,
can you believe that she would g
o back to Kyle after everything?
I was the one who helped her to pick up the pieces and quite frankly, I don't think
that
I can do it again. If she wants to keep getting her heart broken then that's up to her but I will not be around this time!" She shouted as she stepped into the car.

I’d
had just about enough of her voice and so I turned up the radio. A smile filled my face as I heard Wilson Pickett's version of Mustang Sally playing.

             
"That is so rude Aiden, turn it down," she screamed as I turned
 
it up even more
 
in a bid to drown out her voice.

             
As I sat there ignoring Crystal and listening to the lyrics,
I realised how much they
reminded me of Cayce.

             
After Crystal
had
fin
ally gi
ve
n
up on her rant, I turned the radio back down and we spent the rest of the
journey in silence. I was glad because if I had to hear another thing about April and Kyle, I would scream.

             
"Damn," I mumbled to myself.

             
"What?" Crystal asked in an uninterested tone.

             
"Nothing, I just forgot my phone that's al
l.”

             
“
Oh dear, don't worry I'm sure
that
Cayce will let you know if she tried to call," she said in a sarcastic tone.
I ignored her.

             
As we pulled up at
 
Janeson High
,
 
I heard Crystal let out a dramatic sigh.

             
"What now?" I asked as I began to stare at her strangely.

             
"I cannot believe my freaking eyes. April and that jerk faced moron have actually just pulled up together!" She shrieked as my
eyes were drawn to the Audi TT
parked a few spots from where we were.

             
If I hadn't been so concerned with April and Kyle I might have asked Crystal what the hell a jerk faced moron was. Before I even got the chance to reply, Crystal had already jumped out of the car.

             
"Oh
my gosh
! You have got to be kidding me! Am I seeing what I think I am seeing?" She screamed at April.

             
I could tell that a look of guilt and embarrassment swept over her face as she spotted me, stood behind Crystal. As I took in the situation and looked at her and Kyle, an all too familiar anger started to fill my body.

             
"Crystal, calm down," April replied, in a low voice.

             
"You said that you were staying away. I mean, when Aiden said that
 
HE was outside of your house last night that was one thing but to come in together the next day!"