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FURTHER PRAISE FOR
THE RAPTURE OF CANAAN ...
“Ms. Reynolds’s poetic gifts are uncommonly powerful. In The Rapture of Canaan, she tells a truly rapturous love story and presents two unforgettable characters: the teenage heroine and her skeptical but stalwart grandmother, from whom she learns about the acceptance of loss, the pragmatism that must underlie any abiding love, and the place in every heart where God resides, waiting to reveal himself.”

The New York Times Book Review
 
“A worthy successor (to Reynolds’s debut] ... gracefully written.”

The Virginian-Pilot
 
CRITICAL ACCLAIM FOR SHERI REYNOLDS’S
BITTERROOT LANDING
...
“Sheri Reynolds’s haunting voice will stay with you long after you have finished her scary and brilliant first novel. An auspicious debut for a very talented writer.”—Lee Smith
 
“An original, lyrically written tale ... a beautifully realized character ... Reynolds aims high and just about hits the bull’s-eye, displaying a self-assurance and a taste for moral and social issues that make her debut a most welcome one.”
—Publishers Weekly
 
“A wonderfully compelling, powerful, moving, and complex coming-of-age story.”
—Booklist
 
“A powerful new voice among Southern writers ... Jael is captivating; she is bright, strong-willed, and very believable.”—
Raleigh Spectator
 
“The book opens with a rush of pure poetry that begs to be read aloud; it’s laced with the sort of language that can lift you off your feet ... a first novel that will be tough to top.”—
Richmond Times-Dispatch
 
“While
Bitterroot Landing
is a candid depiction of the acts and scars of abuse, it’s also the unsentimental story of a young woman who reconstructs her defiled youth ... Reynolds brings a fresh look, her prose clear and distinct, to the prospect of reinventing one’s life.”
—San Francisco Chronicle Book Review
 
“Disturbing ... full of haunting imagery ... a story for our times.”
—Creative Loafing
 
“Close the pages of
Bitterroot Landing,
and the smell of swamp water and red earth remains. In her remarkable first novel, Sheri Reynolds tells a lyrical tale of abuse, abandonment and self-awareness ... at once gentle and gripping ... a tale of wrenching sorrow and spiritual renewal.” —
The Virginian-Pilot/Ledger-Star
 
“Sexual abuse has become such a familiar staple of mysteries and other fiction that its central place in this slender first novel is no surprise. What is surprising is how it becomes a spiritual catalyst for Jael, a victim whose search for peace leads her beyond the comfort of professional therapy ... Reynolds transforms an abased and self-mutilating girl into a mystical avatar able to radiate her godly attributes. This transformation is achieved without romanticizing the gritty realness of her life. She is poor and rough, and her harsh life is accurately portrayed. Yet, in her thoughts and actions, Jael is given a lyrical and convincing expressiveness.”
—Library Journal
ALSO BY SHERI REYNOLDS
Bitterroot Landing
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This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents either are the product of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously, and any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, business establishments, events, or locales is entirely coincidental. The publisher does not have any control over and does not assume any responsibility for author or third-party websites or their content.
 
THE RAPTURE OF CANAAN
 
Copyright © 1995 by Sheri Reynolds
 
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PRINTING HISTORY
G. P. Putnam’s Sons edition / January 1996
Berkley mass-market edition / November 1996
Berkley trade paperback edition /April 1997
 
eISBN : 978-1-440-67378-8
 
 

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For Mary Smith Cannon
Thanks to Joy Humphrey for critiquing this book through the mail, to Allyson Rainer for giving me page-by-page feedback, and to Amy Tudor for listening patiently to the sections I read aloud and still agreeing to edit it. Thanks also to my family for answering so many farming and pregnancy questions. And thanks to Candice Fuhrman, my agent, for keeping me going.
I
’ VE SPENT A LOT OF TIME WEAVING, BUT YOU’D never know it from my hands.
With threads, hair, and twisted fabric, I weave in fragments of myself, bits of other people. I weave in lies, and I weave in love, and in the end, it’s hard to know if one keeps me warmer than the other.
And when I’m done, I lift the rug from the loom and study it in my fingers. When I back away five feet, it’s bluer or more knotted than I’d remembered. And from twenty feet, it grins at me when all along, I’d thought it pouty. I ask myself, “Is that
my
rug?” But like anything I make, the rug is never mine. I tell my eyes not to see so much at one time. I flip it over, and from the back, it weeps like someone lost.
Like all lies, loves, stories, it is imperfect, but I could walk on it. I could fold it over the edge of my bed and use it for a blanket or hang it on the wall. Instead, I wrap it over my shoulders, wear it like a shield, covering myself with a tapestry of views.
 
 
 
T
ell me the story
,
Nanna, ”
I used to beg my grandma, leaning
against her in the porch swing, my head nuzzling into the space where her long arm connected to her shoulder, and she’d wrap that arm around me and rub my thigh as though it were a wrinkled napkin that she could straighten out if she worked on it long enough.
Afternoons in summer, with lima beans simmering just inside and the saltiness drifting out through the screen door, with curing tobacco sweetly ambering on the edge of a breeze and my Nanna holding onto me and waving the gnats away from my face, the ones that kept flying to the corners of my eyes, those were the afternoons that made me love my Nanna best, even though she admitted to being a liar.
“You don’t want to hear that old story,” she’d protest. “Herman shouldn’ta never put it in that sermon. You’d think the man would know better, with little children listening....”
“Please tell it,” I’d plead. “You tell it better than Grandpa,” and she’d pat my thigh a few times in the loving way that almost stings, but doesn’t.
“I was just about your size, maybe a year or two older, living in Virginia with my mamma and pappa, in a big old house where we roomed in the upstairs and ran the grocery store in the downstairs.”
“Where’s Virginia?” I asked, taking her hand in mine and running my fingers along the routes of her veins that protruded like groundhog trails in the garden.
“North. Way up north. We owned the biggest house in the neighborhood, and all the families around loved my pappa because he’d give the children candy when they came in and he’d sell things on credit to people who didn’t have much money.
“He had the biggest old heart in the world. When the men from the ironworks would come home on Fridays and blow all their money on liquor and then pass out on the street, he’d haul them inside. Had a little cot in the back, in a storeroom, and he’d let them sober up considerable before he’d send them home.”
“Grandpa says drinking’s a sin,” I’d remind her.
“Your grandpa committed that one many a time before he got religion,” she remarked. “Don’t you tell him I said that. Anyway, my pappa was the gentlest man in the world, and I reckon that’s why he let my mamma do whatever she wanted.”
“Tell me what she looked like, Nanna.”
“She had big eyes that she painted up and lips so pink that she left color on the edges of her cigarettes. Always had a cigarette hanging out of her mouth. And she didn’t put up her hair the way other women did. Left it hanging down her back all the way to her tail,” and Nanna’d reach behind me and tickle at the bones at the base of my spine, and I’d giggle.
“She was a
whore
,” I’d yell out the way I’d heard my grandpa yell out in church meeting.
“Your grandpa has a name for everything, but he ain’t always right,” Nanna’d insist. “Don’t you tell him I said so.”
“She was a
wicked woman,
” I’d yell again, and laugh and kick my feet that stuck out just past the edge of the swing.
“Weren’t never wicked to me,” Nanna’d say. “I wish to goodness Herman hadn’t put that story in his sermon. Little child like you saying such things.”
“I’m just teasing, Nanna,” I promised, burying my face in her breast. “There’s good whores. We learned in Sunday school. Like Mary who was Jesus’ friend.”
“She weren’t no whore. She was a woman of passion.”
“I might be a whore when I get big,” I told Nanna to make her feel better, and she grabbed me right by the hair of my head and yanked me up.
“Don’t you never let me hear you say that again,” she said. “I will whip your ass righteously if I ever hear you say that again.”
I held my mouth wide open at the sound of Nanna cursing, because while it was okay for men to say words like ass, it wasn’t okay for women. But before I could tell her she’d have to say special prayers to be forgiven for defiling her lips, I was crying and Nanna was hugging me again.
That was the way things were with Nanna. For years and years, we’d sit together in the swing and she’d tell me the story, the same sad story in a hundred different ways. And when my legs grew long enough to dangle down near hers, and when I couldn’t fit my head beneath her arm anymore and had to lean it against her shoulder instead, I began to finally understand the story differently, to understand it in the way Nanna might have—if she hadn’t been the one who had to live it.
 
 
 
L
eila
,”
I imagined her pappa calling. ”Come help me
straighten out the paper sacks under the counter.”
My Nanna, just past nine and already lanky like me, her hair pulled back into a tight ponytail like the one I wore, climbed out from her hiding place, a dark corner of the store where the edge of the grain bin almost met the edge of a cluttered shelf of plastic combs and soaps and yellowed magazines. She had to squeeze to get through. She’d been growing so fast that she worried that by the time she’d finished helping her pappa, she wouldn’t be able to fit back inside to fetch her crayons and papers.
When I told myself this story, I always gave Nanna my worries, whatever they were.
“How much will you pay me?” she’d tease him, romping across the wooden slats of floor and behind the counter where he was waiting for a customer making her way to the register.
“How much will I
owe
you?”
“Hmmm,” she pondered. Sometimes I saw her scratching her chin the way she still does when I ask her a question.
“How about two hard candies?” he offered, and kissed the top of her head.
“Let me think about it,” she said, and went to work.
There were bags in three sizes. The smallest size held only a cup of washing powders or rice, but it’d hold a whole handful of Mary Janes. The next size was big enough for a bag of beans or a whole bottle of beer. But the big ones were Nanna’s favorite. She could fit those bags over her head, cut out eyes and a mouth, and then decorate masks to wear to scare her mamma.
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