“I’m not scared of the drug life. Or have you forgotten my father died in the game?"
"Your father died because he murdered a cop. There is a difference."
"Yeah...He killed a cop to protect me and his family." I put him back in his place. When it came to my father I could be serious. “But he also ran everything that came in and out of DC and I know you know that. For a while your father used to work for mine.”
"Yeah but my pops don’t work for nobody now.” Jace looked out of the window again and turned back to me.
“So what we playing, ‘your father ain’t better than my father’, now?”
“You took it there not me.” He focused on my face for the first time.
"Even when you mad you pretty. That shit be fuckin’ me up ‘bout you.”
"Thank you." I smiled.
"But why you got all that bullshit on your face. I like you better natural."
“Start acting right and you can have my face however you want it.”
“I’ma have your face anyway I want it now.” He said turning me on.
We were still talking until I saw McDonald’s golden arches. Why we have to come here? I got a little nervous because I didn’t feel like seeing Meleny’s ass and she worked here. If I was with Jace that meant I wasn’t at home watching her baby. It wouldn’t matter that I never agreed to babysit.
“Why we comin’ here?” I asked. “Can’t we do Burger King or somethin’? Any place but here.”
“I wanted to take you somewhere else but it ain’t gonna work out tonight. So it’s McDonald’s or nothin’.”
“Well, let it be nothin’.”
“Well I’m hungry.” He said checking his pager. “We ain’t gonna be here long. The line is short anyway.”
When we pulled up in the Drive Thru window and Meleny wasn’t there I exhaled.
“Welcome to McDonald’s how may I help you?” A cute light skin girl asked smiling in his face. If I thought she was pretty I know Jace did, too. “Oh…Ain’t your name, Jace?”
“Why?”
“’Cause you look familiar.” She said smacking her lips after every world. “That’s all.”
“Well don’t worry about who I am. Just take my order.” He carried the shit out of her and I loved it. "You sure you don’t want nothin’?” He asked me again.
The look on the girl’s face turned from conniving to mad when she saw me in his passenger seat. Too bad…So sad, bitch, this rich nigga’s all mine.
"Yeah…You can get me a Big Mac, fries and a strawberry shake.” I said.
“Aight, get her order and give me a Hamburger, no cheese with Big Mac sauce and a large fry. Oh…Add a Coke too.”
“’Ahn…Ahn, you can’t get a Hamburger with Mac Sauce. You gotta get a Big Mac if you want all that.”
“Well I don’t want a Big Mac. Now get me what the fuck I asked for.”
“But I can’t, Jace. That’s not how we make ‘em.”
“I don’t care how they make ‘em for everybody else, put Mac sauce on my shit.”
“I NEED A MANAGER!” She screamed turning around.
She was being so ridiculous and he was too. Just when I thought it couldn’t get any worse, Meleny brings her skinny ass to the window. Her tag said manager and I tried to hide my face.
“Oh…Hey, Jace. I didn’t know…,” she paused, stooped down a little to look further into his car and said, “hold up, where my baby at, Harmony?”
“Bitch, what is you talking about?” I said trying to ignore her.
“My mother said you were watching my baby tonight. So why ain’t she in the car with you?”
Present Day
Green Door – Adult Mental Health Care Clinic
Northwest, Washington DC
“Wait a second, why would you leave a baby in the house by itself?” Christina Zhan asked Harmony.
“Because it wasn’t my kid! Fuck was I supposed to do?” Harmony said raising her voice.
“You don’t see anything wrong with leaving a baby in the house by itself?”
“No.” She said seriously. “If I did I would not have done it.”
“So you were very promiscuous when you were coming up, why?”
“It was one of the first things I was taught. How to have sex. From the time I was a little girl.”
“Just so you know, masturbation is very common in children and I’m sorry you had someone around you, who took advantage of that.”
“I’m sorry I was born.”
Silence.
“But why give yourself to so many people, when it was obvious Jace loved you?”
“I don’t know. I felt like…I felt like if I gave myself to as many people as I could, that they would want me and make me feel good about myself.”
“What was Kalive’s relationship with you about?”
“Me and Kalive were the same. He had a fucked up life and so did I. I think that’s why we were so close. At first anyway.”
“At first?”
“Yeah…Things started to change between me and him pretty quickly.”
“Do you know why?”
“No. Plus I was too busy worrying about my own problems.”
“Where was your uncle during all of this?”
“You know, it would take me a long while to find out where he was. And when I did, it was almost too unbelievable to be true.”
Christina shook her head in disgust and said, “Continue with your story.
Summer of 1988
Southeast, Washington, DC
McDonalds
Harmony
“Bitch, I’m not your babysitter.” I yelled at Meleny who was looking at me like she was crazy. “You betta get outta my face with all that shit and go talk to Lola’s ass!”
“Listen, all this shit you doin’, you can save for another time. Now take your stupid ass in the back and get my food.” Jase yelled.
“NuNu, go make his shit right quick!” Meleny told the light skin cashier. “I’m ‘bout to call my mova and find out what’s going on with my baby. And if I find out you did somethin’ to her, I’ma fuck you up, too!”
“Fuck you and that weed-smellin’ baby!” I yelled as she was walking away.
We waited in the drive thru for two minutes and I could feel my stomach rumble. I hated that if she stepped to me, I would be forced to fight.
“Let’s go to another drive thru, Jace. It ain’t that serious.”
“We can do that if you scared.”
“I’m not hardly scared.”
Five more minutes passed when I glanced in my rear view mirror. Meleny was leading a pack of six girls and they were moving quickly in my direction.
“Jace, we gotta problem.” I told him.
He looked out of his back window and shook his head. “Fuck is wrong with this chick?” He said as the girls approached the passenger side.
“Step out the car, Harmony.”
“Girl you betta get outta my face.”
“My mova said you left my baby in the house by herself!” She said rolling her sleeves up. “Fuck wrong with you? What kind of person would do some shit like that?”
Without waiting on my response, she flung my door open and grabbed me by my hair pulling me outside. I was landing wild blow after wild blow until her friends started hitting and kicking me all over my body. I heard Jace try to get out, but the drive thru-window blocked him in.
“Fuck!” I heard him say. “I don’t have time for this shit!”
Everything happened in a matter of seconds. Then I heard, “Get the fuck off of her.” Jace had eased out through the passenger side door.
I was on the ground, balled up covering my head and face. Suddenly everybody stopped hitting me and then I heard their footsteps go away. When I turned around, I saw the gun in his waist.
“Get the fuck in the car, Harmony.”
I got inside and he did too. The line at the drive thru was backed up but no one cared because of the show.
“Here’s your food, Jace,” NuNu said before we pulled off. “Sorry ‘bout the confusion.”
He shook his head and pulled off. “Please tell me you ain’t do some hateful ass shit like leave a baby in the house by itself.” A cop was to the right of the drive thru and he was giving someone a ticket. “The fuckin’ cops were right there. What if they saw that shit?”
“That bitch lyin’, Jace! What I look like doing something like that?”
We were on our way onto the street when a long black limo blocked our path. When the door opened, I saw an older black man with an orange Hawaiian style shirt and some shades on step out. He looked powerful and threatening all at once. Jace appeared uneasy and gripped the handle of his .45 a little tighter.
When he stepped out, he slowly approached my side of the window and said, “I don’t mean to bother you, but I’m a little lost. Can you tell me where Kennedy Street is?"
After I told him where he needed to go and he got back in his limo, I was finally able to breathe.
"Is somebody trying to kill you?” I said looking at the limo pull off.
“You safe, so leave it at that.” He paused. “Let's go get a room."
"Can we stop and get something to drink first?”
“Yeah…”
Five minutes later we ended up at a cheap motel not too far from McDonald’s. When we walked into room 456 it smelled musty and old. Jace flipped the lights on to look around before looking out the window. Then he drew the curtains closed and sat down on one of the twin beds and gave me my food.
"Sit down." He told me as he sucked down his fries with one breath. Then he started chewing his hamburger.
“They put Mac sauce on it?” I asked eating my food, too.
“Fuck you think?”
I laughed. “It must be nice to always get what you want.”
“I wasn’t even worried about that shit she was spittin’. She was gonna give me my food. She probably was runnin’ all that shit ‘cause she saw you in my car. You know how bitches are.” He paused. “How’s your face?”
“It’s fine.” I said touching the place they hit me. “That bitch is so dumb! She really act like I was her baby father or something.”
He took two more bites of his burger and it was done. “Yeah, she was trippin’ hard but I hate to see chicks fight. It’s not classy.”
“So you saying I don’t have no class?”
“You got to answer that question yourself, Harmony. I’m speaking ‘bout fightin’ in general and I’m tellin’ you what I like. If a dude wanted to see a chick all fucked up in the face, he’d fuck another dude.”
I laughed.
"What?"
"Nothing, you funny.” I said.
He smirked and said, "Take your clothes off and get in the bed."
I love how he was carrying it because after the shit with Meleny, I needed to be fucked badly. I was about to take my clothes off until I felt something oozing in my panties.
"Give me a second, I have to go to the bathroom." I said taking my purse with me.
“Do you.”
When I walked into the bathroom, I was disgusted at how grungy everything looked. Sitting on the toilet, I looked in my pink panties and saw a lot of discharge but no blood. I took one of the hard white washcloths, and ran some warm water on it. Then I softly rubbed the smelly discharge away. After I was done, I dug in my purse for my pint of vodka. Downing most of it, my chest was warm and I was finally able to relax. So much was running through my mind…Paco telling me about Kali, Jace acting weird, Meleny and her weed smelling baby and the possibility that if I fucked Jace tonight, I could possibly burn him. But alcohol is amazing, because after five minutes later, nothing really mattered.
Wider
Jace
Shit was coming down hard on me. I’m doin’ more at seventeen then most niggas do in their forties. When I left my house today, I saw to it that the pool table was gone and Bam’s body was missing. Herb Dayo’s father owns a funeral home, which specializes in disintegration so we were able to get rid of everything with blood on it, including the rug. I already arranged through Kreshon’s people to have new carpet put in the house along with a new pool table. There was no way I could see staying in that house and getting my aunt mixed in my business. I had to move.
With Massive trying to kill me and Kali not answering any of my calls, I had a lot on my plate. What did he do with the girl’s body and was her kidnapping going to be tied back to me somehow?
When she came back into the bedroom from the bathroom, she wasn’t wearing any clothes and my dick got hard. When it came to the sex, she couldn’t be fucked with and she knew it. I wondered how it was possible for her to be so experienced and so young but she never wanted to talk about it. And for real I’m not sure if I wanted to listen.
"Lay down," I demanded, making a spot on the bed next to me. She looked disappointed and I wondered what I said wrong. "Now what’s up?"
"Nothing...I just thought you were gonna tell me how I look." She walked over to me and got in the bed. Throwing her clothes on a chair.
“Harmony, this is how I am and you should know by now that I don’t do a lot of talkin’. But you do look sexy. You know that.”
“I guess I’m feeling this way because I don’t know if we’re back together. You not telling me nothing. It’s like you avoiding me.”