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REACTION

(Book 1)

 

 

JESSICA ROBERTS

Copyright 2012 Jessica Roberts

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This is a work of fiction. The names, characters, places, incidents, and dialogue are either products of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual events or locales or people, living or dead, is entirely coincidental.

 

EBook Edition: November 2012

ISBN 978-0-615-71092-1

For my family ~

 

Kassidy, my bestest friend

Chase, my strength

Trey, my smile generator

Jo, my muse

And Kyle, my three final words…

Chapter 1

Harmony…

I’d previously had that in my life, but only once, briefly, three years ago. It was during the time I’d started my first year of college. My own apartment, a new old car, a life free of deadbeat stepfathers, all of which was fulfilling enough. But if it wasn’t, I also had a best friend, soul mate, and boyfriend all in one.

Yes, life had been near perfect.

With the wistful thoughts, chills scattered down my spine, which I assured myself was a result of the cap-sleeved shirt I’d chosen to wear this morning before packing up the rest of my stuff in the hospital room.

“It won’t be the same here without you,” my favorite Nurse Kathy interrupted my thoughts as her heavy-set wobble took us slowly toward the hospital’s main entry—and exit—doors. “What am I going to do every day at ten and two?”

I laughed. “Anything will be an improvement to rubbing a stranger’s feet.”

“Excuse me, did you just refer to me as a stranger?” She gave me a reproving glance. “After all we’ve been through?”

My smile deepened.

“But you have to admit,” Dr. Adams said from behind us, “she’s right about the foot massage part. Anything would be an improvement to that.”

Her face crooked sideways. “Quiet, you!” And once again, the motherly rebukes made me giggle…for probably the last time.

I glanced toward Doc and caught his wink.

“Regardless,” her look challenged him to interrupt, and then turned back to me, “I’m going to miss you.”

“You too.” I spread my arms to catch her hug. Before I had a chance to thank her for thousands of rubdowns and two weeks of personal conversation and diligently taking care of me as if I were a daughter, she walked away, giving Doc and I some privacy. And just like that, she was out of my life. Weird, I’d probably never see her again.

Doc and I stepped forward, passing through the automatic glass exit into the great outdoors.

“As I said before,” Doc spoke, “give me a call for anything, especially anything unusual or out of the ordinary, as we talked about. Otherwise, I’ll see you at your first follow-up appointment in a few weeks.” He patted my back—his goodbye hug—and walked back inside.

Behind me was the careful cradle of the hospital; in front of me, a warm September rain. I wasn’t sure why I paused, but I was sure the more I waited, the harder it would get. So I hugged my arms, took a reassuring breath, and stepped into the downpour.

The sun shower was temperate, and thankfully gentle. A beam of warmth pressed through me. The peak of sunlight and the misty smell of wet, St. Louis earth brought back a tumble of memories. Nothing too detailed. Nothing about that long ago stormy night when everything changed. Nothing about the car slipping off the wet road, hitting me, and then landing me in a prolonged sleep, fighting for my life. Well, more than just
fighting
for it, also
dreaming
of it. Dreaming of
him
.

My car was exactly where Creed said it would be in the visitor’s parking lot. I put the key in the lock of my brown, boxy old car—Penny, as I used to call her, opened her stiff door, and then with little sprinkles on my hair and shoulders, relaxed in the driver’s seat as if it hadn’t been a long time since I’d driven her. Three years had passed in a blink, almost as if I’d spontaneously traveled into this new future of mine.

When I was younger I would have given my sticker collection to travel a few years into the future. But now that I very literally had, a few years into my future didn’t feel very different. Sure, little things change, like fashion trends and movies, but as far as life goes, unless you make changes (and of course I hadn’t, given that I’d been lying in a coma all that time), nothing really changes.

As I turned out of the parking lot and drove Penny down the road, I pondered on my time at the hospital, two years and seven months to be exact. And yet, the wild part was that it felt like a mere six months, due to the fact that while I rested in my coma I dreamt about a favorable period in my past—a six-month courtship with a guy who quite literally knocked me off my running shoes. The beginning in History class, our first kiss on the beach, the time he told me he loved me….

But what stuck out most in my mind were the little things that made me fall for Nick. Like how he’d enter a room and steal everyone’s attention. Or the way he’d temper his amusement with that easy half smile. Or how his strong, protective arms seemed to defend me from the world. Yes, all the subtle nuances of his personality were what kept him so real and current. In fact, I could hardly stand thinking about him when the real him was just down the road.

Turning off the windshield wipers, I peered out the front window and up toward the grey sky, hopeful the clouds would take a break for the rest of the day.

I knew where he’d be with the rain on hold. It was harvest time.

 

*******

 

The cool, misty streets were as familiar as yesterday. Even more familiar, the red brick apartment complex I hadn’t planned on pulling into. Bob the boss, owner and manager of the building, had hired me on as his helper when I’d first moved to St. Louis for college. If I wasn’t at school or with Nick, I was in the little office helping the old man who coughed incessantly. Filing papers, answering the phone, writing out contracts, delivering those reviled, pink, tardy-rent notices every month to over half the tenants—that was the worst part of the job. But what I remembered most was
Bob
.

Once in a while, when I’d work late, he’d bring me dinner from his favorite Chinese restaurant. On a few rare occasions the subtlest compliment would surface about my penmanship or accuracy with the rental logbooks. A simple man, but one I’d learned to care about and respect.

And the memories of him were surfacing so swiftly. Dr. Adams warned me this would happen. That when surrounded by people or places from my past, recollections would automatically emerge in my mind.

Doc also suggested I set one goal every morning to work on for the day. Today’s was to keep my nerves at bay, which, in the comfort of my hospital room earlier, seemed a manageable goal. But as I drove by the door to my former apartment on the second floor of building three, a little knot settled in the lower part of my stomach, causing my nerves to flair and my car to land several stalls away from the front office. Eagerness nerves; that’s all they were. Who wouldn’t feel a little edgy when reuniting with an old past and an old friend after three years? Even if it was my kind boss, Bob.

The white peeling paint falling off the old office door brought on a crack of a smile. A hundred times I’d arranged to strip and repaint the old thing, but I’d obviously never gotten around to it. Intending and doing were two very different things. Yet at the moment I was relieved it looked exactly as I remembered it.

The first thing I heard when I pushed on the rigid door was Bob’s familiar hacking cough. It took all of two seconds to find my nerve, dash past the swamp cooler and around the front desk, and squeeze the old man from the side. I didn’t even give him a chance to turn forward and see who had attacked him. Mixed into my flowing emotions was distinct relief that he and the small office hadn’t changed. And I couldn’t help but feel a little satisfied at how naturally my nerves had settled. Today was here and happening.

“Bob! It’s me, Heather.” I let go and allowed him to see for himself. “How are you?” My hand was still on his shoulder and my face was aglow with gladness, but Bob’s face didn’t change its bland expression in the slightest. It was as if his mind was still filing papers in the large silver cabinet he stood in front of. “I left without saying goodbye. I’m so sorry.” My hand remained on his arm, not only to drive home the sincerity of my words, but also to secure my reality, as if my touch alone could somehow make my uncertain memories a bit more certain.

To gather his thoughts, Bob glanced to the floor for a time, something I recalled he used to do regularly. “Well, just thought you’d left is all,” he finally decided to say with that scraggly, patient voice I’d grown to love. “With your apartment cleaned out and such.”

A distinct breath released from my chest, but in the next moment my eyebrows drew in. “Didn’t my friend tell you what happened to me?”

Creed told me he’d moved all my stuff out of the apartment a few days after the accident, and he also mentioned that the basement apartment of the duplex he lived in on the other side of town was ready for me to move into. What he hadn’t mentioned was the part about leaving my landlord/boss high and dry.

Guilt hit first, which quickly turned into a small feeling of concern as I stood there in the hub of my old life, in my new life, unable to fully explain to Bob how I’d gotten from A to B. And then uncertainty came because nothing really meshed. Yes, I was back, but not really. It wasn’t the same. Things
had
changed. Not me, not my surroundings, but the relationships. And I couldn’t seem to work out how I was going to change in order to fit back in.

Plus, my thoughts, which weren’t certain about much of anything yet, were still a little clumsy from the coma. I couldn’t remember several large chunks of my life. And much of my childhood was gone. The dramatic events were there, though: my mother’s death, my step-father’s drinking, the fun times with Creed while growing up in the little town of Nevada City together, and of course the last six months leading up to the accident, as clear as Bob moseying past me and slowly steadying himself into the chair behind his faded old desk in the corner of the room.

All of a sudden, my stomach rolled at the thought of Nick; the consideration of seeing him again, in person, being in the same room with him, standing next to him, talking to him like I was talking to Bob.

“I’d see that blue truck of your friend’s parked outside once in a while,” Bob said as if reading my thoughts, gradually stowing away a few office supplies into a side drawer. “I think he thought the same thing I did, that you’d come back sooner or later.”

“Really? You’d see his truck?”

“He came by for weeks, park out yonder.” He pointed out the open door and down the road a ways. “Waiting for you, I suppose.”

Now my nerves were definitely flared as I thought of Nick, sitting in his car, waiting for me, mulling over our relationship, dealing with what surely must have seemed the cruelest of betrayals.

Nick had a surplus of patience; it was one of his gifts, innately in him. He also had an immense amount of discipline—another character trait that completely melted me to him. Rather than being instinctive or automatic, his discipline was acquired through experience and over time, and took effort on his part. The reason I knew this was because I’d learned how to push those deeply buried discipline buttons. In fact, I wasn’t above admitting that I reveled in it. On occasion, there was nothing more titillating than pushing a few and watching his controlled grin loosen or his calm eyes turn feisty.

I knew enough to stay away from the temper button. I’d seen it set off twice: once by his father, and the scene wasn’t pretty; then once by me, at the hospital two weeks ago. Yes, I avoided that button at all costs. But sitting in his car by my apartment watching for me? Oh, he must have been furious! Buttons must’ve been buzzing and beeping all over the place!

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