ROMANCE : PARANORMAL ROMANCE: Alpha's heart(BBW Pregnancy Werebear Shifter Romance) (New Adult Paranormal Romance) (40 page)

Judith found out too soon that it had to do with the only family she had left in the world.  Her Uncle John and Aunt Sally had died.  Their little son, 2 –year old John Jr. was still alive but just barely. 

Judith had cried for hours sitting beside his bed and praying for him to be saved.  She sat by his bed off and on for most of the two weeks.  Judith didn’t want him to see a stranger when he first woke up.  At least if he saw Judith he would feel a little safer.

She didn’t know if he was aware that his mom and dad hadn’t made it or not.  The paramedics said he had been awake for a few seconds at the crash site.  But what he might know they really couldn’t tell her.

At two-years old he had just barely begun to talk.  He could say ‘love ya’ and ‘mama’ and a few other words. 

He work up crying out “mama.”  Sally’s heart had broken at the news she might have to tell him.

              “Little John I don’t know if you’ll even understand me or not.  But mama and papa will not be coming back.  I’m sorry, but you have me now.  I’ll raise you for them.  I’ll keep their memory alive in your heart and mind.”  She had told him.

She really tried the best she could to keep it all together for them both.  But she knew that she was going to have to take off work again.  They had given her a tough time the last month.  “Judith you’ve called off too many times.  You’ve used all your sick days.  If you call off anymore we won’t be able to pay you.  We may have to fire you and find someone who will work.”  Her manager had told her.

Even when she tried to explain her new responsibilities he hadn’t listened.  Instead he had rolled his eyes and looked at her and said.  “That’s not my problem.”  He had said.

              “What happened to the days of compassion?”  She had said as she walked out the door. 

Colin wasn’t able to get back to sleep when he went home.  He kept thinking about Judith next door and how attracted he had been to her.  It had felt like an electrical current ran between them.  He had been taken aback at first.

But now that she was over there and he was her, he wanted to go back and visit her.  She had made it clear that it was not a day she would accept visitors.

              “She’s so geeky though.  And I’m not the age to take on a baby.”  Colin plopped down on the couch and turned on the television.

He wanted to get his mind off of her and this feeling of strong attraction he had.  Maybe some good old bike racing will help cure that!  He turned on ESPN and hoped they would be running a good program.

After several minutes it was obvious that none of the channels kept the thoughts of Judith out of his mind.  “Hell with this I’ll go for a ride!”  He went and put on his leather jacket and boots. 

Going out the door with the thoughts of the wind hitting his face he felt better.  He always loved getting out on the highway and just opening up a bit.  A nice long ride might be a good idea today. 

Colin opened the throttle and worked his way smoothly through the traffic.  He had to concentrate, one thought that was off, and he would be under a car. But soon enough he was through all of it and on his way to the open road.

He smiled as he opened the throttle all the way and his bike took off.  As long as there were no pigs hiding out he would be good.  His mind would be perfectly clear when he decided to stop.

Colin loved the air as it pummeled his face and body.  At 24 years old he still felt like he was just out of college.  Well that was if he had gone to college.  

He had attended a few classes, but found that studying just wasn’t for him.  He would much rather spend his time in the biker bar and fighting.  Too many times he had carried the hangover he’d gotten the night before to his class room.

It didn’t take long for Colin to get kicked out of the college.  He might have been able to talk his folks into another college.  But he decided it wasn’t worth it.  The same things would happen at any other school.

Instead he had searched out the biker gangs in the area and visited them.  He liked the Portland Pistols.  The name sounded a little gay at first, but they had been the best fit for him right away.  Colin had found the leader one who would listen to new ideas.  He had plenty of them on how to make this club the best one in the area. 

              “All it takes is dealing in the right goods.”  Colin had told Dave one night.  “Take it from me if we get the right things to sell, the demand will come.” 

He knew they handled weapons and drugs at times.  At least that is what he learned from watching television.  He’d also heard a few of the bikers he met tell some great stories.  They may have been adding to the tales they wove.  But Colin really thought that his ideas would be able to get the Pistols the power they need to run Portland.

Judith moved back and forth as she tried to comfort Little John just a bit more.  He had almost been back to sleep when he must have felt intense pain.  She had watched as his face had gone from serene and both eyes just closing.  Now he was a little boy who was howling out in pain.

              “I might have to get you something for that pain.”  She stated.  The baby orajel just wasn’t working as well as she had hoped.

The last thing she really felt like was doing was taking the screaming Little John to the store though.  She already knew the looks she would get from them all.  “People are so condescending anymore.”  She stated to Little John.

He looked up a moment without pain and then wailed out again.  “Oh Shh, Little John, I’ll get you something else.”

Packing up a diaper bag, she hoped that she had something that would at least help him while they went out.  But looking around she saw there was nothing.  The baby aspirin was all out.  “Maybe that with the Orajel will work for him?” 

Judith was wondering if she might have to take him to the doctor.  “I hope not Little John I don’t think they’ll be happy with me if I have to call off.”

Remembering again how her boss had been so mean about it last time.  “Did he think I made this happen?  If it was up to me they would still be alive and taking care of you right now.”  She stated to Little John.

Walking out she ran into Colin, almost running him over in the hall.  “I’m so sorry.  I wasn’t watching where I was going.”  She had been looking in the diaper bag for the Orajel to put some more on Little John’s gums.

              “Going out?”  He asked curious.

              “I have to go and get baby aspirin for Little John.  It may help him get some sleep.”  She told him.

              “Tell me what to get and I’ll go pick it up.  I don’t think he’s too interested in going outside!”  Colin chuckled.

Judith laughed at his joke.  “No neither of us really feel like going out.  If you could do it for me I would appreciate it so much!”  She smiled.

              “Sure tell me what you need.” 

She told him and gave him the money for the item.

              “Right, I’ll be back in a jiffy!”  Colin took off.

Colin went back out to his bike.  He had run into Judith on the way out.  She was carrying cranky Little John with her.  He knew that she needed help.  Most times Colin would have just ignored anyone else.  But for some reason looking at her it pulled his chains.

              “But why am I reacting this way to her?”  He asked no one.   Colin finally figured it had to do with the fact he hadn’t been laid in sometime.  It’s just those good old juices working themselves up into frenzy about any hot woman I see!

He went to the store and picked up the baby aspirin Judith had told him to get.   Going up to the cash register he put it on the counter. 

              “Oh you have a sick little one?”  The old lady behind the register asked.

              “It’s for a friend, but yeah he’s been crying a lot.”  Colin stated, thinking back to being woke up that very morning.

              “Poor little one, how old do you know?”  She asked.

              “I think she said he was 3 or 4.”  Colin tried to remember.  He hadn’t really been paying much attention to the words coming from her mouth.   He had instead being studying the way it might look around his member.

              “Oh that’s a tough age; he’s probably counting some teeth still.”  The lady commented.

Colin shook his head and paid for the aspirin and left.  He didn’t know a thing about babies, and really didn’t want to know more.  The idea of being tied down with a kid at any age, especially his?  No thank you.  He thought as hopped back on his bike to take the aspirin to Judith.

He wondered along the way if she would at least invite him in now.  Why did it matter?  He just felt like he wanted to get to know her more.  But his mind was scampering to the dark places of his mind. 

If he was thinking he was in love that would just be bullshit.  “I’m not the type who would fall so easily for anyone.  I have to get to know them before I develop feelings of any kind.  Right now it’s just lust.”  He said to himself.  It sounded as if he was trying to convince himself of something.

Getting back he knocked on her door and waited for her answer.  It had actually been quiet when he’d come in, he was shocked.

She didn’t come to the door right away and he was getting worried.  Finally she opened the door; she had that just woke up look.

              “I’m sorry I feel asleep when Little John passed out.”  She yawned.  “Did I give you enough money for it?”  She asked, as she grabbed the bag from him.

              “Yeah there’s change in the bag too.”  He watched as the door began to close.

              “Thanks so much.”  She said as shut the door.

Colin would swear her eyes were already half closed as she was falling back to sleep.  He was upset for a minute, then thought how selfish of him.  She’d stated she was up almost all night with Little John.  Colin knew she needed the sleep. 

              “Plus it’s a good thing you didn’t go in; you would only grow more attached to her!”  His mind chuckled.

Colin was not pleased with the thoughts he had.  But he needed to get some more rest too.  So he took this opportunity to catch up on his own sleep.  Little did he know his dreams would be plagued by Judith?

              “Thank you very much.”  She said to Colin as he ran out to get Little John’s aspirin for him. 

Going back into her apartment she sat heavily on the couch, rocking Little John in her arms.  “Hush sweetheart, the pain will soon be a bit less.  Just let our nice neighbor for going out and getting it.”  She sighed.

Little John for the most part seemed to be a bit better are the last application of baby Orajel she had placed on his gums. 

Judith wished there was a magical button you could push on a baby to get all their teeth in quickly.  “While we’re at it let’s get a button for no pain while this is happening!”  She pleaded to her ceiling.

              “Oh Little John I wish your mom and dad were here.”  Judith let the tears take over.

It felt good to let the pain out once in a while.  So often she would hold it in, and it would just seem to build up and get worse.  Depressing her for days or even weeks at a time, this time though she let it out.

The next thing she remembered was hearing a knocking at the door and the doorbell.  She sat up quickly, checking to see if Little John had stirred.  Judith saw he was still sleeping.  “Oh thank you God.  If he just stays asleep while I answer the door I can go back to sleep too!”

She answered the door and saw Colin standing there.  His hair had that windblown look of being on a bike.  Judith thought it made him really sexy. 

Shaking her head she composed her thoughts and apologized that she had fallen asleep.  She asked if she had given him enough money.  He had said something about change being in the bag, she wasn’t sure.

As she stood there listening to him all she could think of was sex and sleep.  For a second she was far too awake for having too little sleep lately.  “Why did I think sex?”  She asked herself quickly.

Judith had thanked him and closed the door.  Those last thoughts she’d had of Colin and how much she would like to jump him right now.

Judith hoped she hadn’t sent off any type of smell to show her attraction.  It would be embarrassing needless to say, and she wasn’t really sure about bringing someone into her and Little John’s lives.

She liked the fact it was just the two of them.  Plus she would have to be careful with the type of man she dated.  Judith knew there were bad people out there who touched kids.  How devastating that thought was to her, she had been through the same thing as a child.  It was hard to think of even now. 

The idea of taking a chance and having that happen to Little John just wasn’t acceptable.  She had even considered becoming celibate until Little John was older.

Now with those thoughts of Colin and the look of his hair and those eyes, and he had a decent body.  Yes she had checked it out, she had to admit it. 

              “Plus he was such a sweetheart, running to the store for me and everything.  I mean he doesn’t even know me and he still helped me out.  She liked those types of guys.  However, there was something else she had noticed about him.  He had been wearing a biker gang jacket.  “It said The Portland Pistols on it.”  She said out loud.