Ruby (30 page)

She knocked twice and waited. Then she knocked again.

‘There’s nobody in.’

She looked around and realised the voice was coming from next door. Nosy Norah.

‘Well, knock me down and call me Charlie, it’s young Ruby, I’d recognise that hair anywhere. How are you, lovey? Long time no see, eh?’

Ruby smiled. ‘I’m fine, thank you, and it’s nice to see you too. Do you know where everyone is?’

‘Probably at Whipps Cross. Elsie was carted off in the ambulance a couple of weeks ago.’

‘What happened to her?’ Ruby asked. ‘Is she all right?’

‘She had a fall and broke something – her leg or her hip. It’s afternoon visiting today so that’s where they’ll be.’

Ruby started to walk back down the short path but Norah had no intention of letting her get away that easily.

‘You look smashing, a right proper lady. Best thing you did was to get away from those brothers of yours, your nan used to say. Mind you, your mother’s done all right for herself. Really nice man she’s married, always passes the time of day and even tends my bit of back yard at the same time as your mother’s. And she doesn’t have Ray and Bobbie there no more, which is probably a blessing.’

Ruby smiled. ‘Thanks, Norah. I’ll try again later.’

‘Why don’t you go down to Whipps? Elsie really missed you; always talking about you. She’d be chuffed to see you.’

‘I might just do that.’

With that she turned and started walking to her car, which she’d left away from the house for fear of them thinking she was showing off. As she got to it she tried to talk herself out of doing what she was thinking, but it didn’t work so she walked down the road to Betty and Roger Dalton’s house.

‘Ruby Blakeley,’ Betty said as she opened the door. It was a statement rather than a welcome.

‘Hello, Betty. I came to visit my family but no one’s in so I thought I’d knock and see how you are …’

‘Johnnie doesn’t live here any more.’

‘I know that, I know he’s married …’

Betty smiled. ‘I thought you might! It’s probably not the wisest thing, but would you like to come in?’

‘I would, I really would,’ Ruby said, puzzled by the less-than-enthusiastic reception. As far as she was concerned, Betty knew nothing about her and Johnnie except that they were friends.

Betty stood back and gestured her in.

It seemed strange walking down the familiar hallway to the back room. Everything looked exactly the same: the wallpaper, the carpet runner, the hallstand by the door.

‘So what have you been doing, Ruby? You left a bit sharpish, leaving everyone wondering …’

‘I’d had enough so I just went. I live down in Southend now.’

‘I know.’

‘How do you know? Did Ray say something? I know he works for Johnnie now.’

‘Do you now …’ she said, more as a loaded statement than a question before continuing, ‘No, it wasn’t your brother. A postcard came here for Johnnie telling him where to find you. But he’s married now, lives in Wanstead with his wife and two children. He married Sadie who used to work with him at the Black Dog. He’s got a good job, a nice car, he’s settled and doing well.’

‘I’m so pleased for him. He was destined to do well, with all his ambitions,’ Ruby said as lightly as she could.

Suddenly it all fell into place.

Sadie. Ruby had never met her but she’d heard all about her from Johnnie. She was the barmaid he worked alongside at the Black Dog, the one he said wouldn’t leave him alone, the one he said had pursued him so relentlessly but he had dismissed categorically. And now he was married to her …

‘I’m pleased he’s happy. He was nice to me when I was having such a bad time, and I remember him fondly … I’m engaged now.’ Ruby held her hand out across the table to show Betty the ring. ‘My life is finally together so I thought it time to see Ma and Nan and make the peace.’

‘Congratulations, Ruby. I hope you’ll both be very happy,’ Betty said, her manner thawing slightly. ‘I’ll put the kettle on. Do you still like cake?’

Ruby laughed. ‘You remembered.’

Once the conversation started to flow Ruby told Betty about her life after she’d left. Selectively, of course. She didn’t tell her that she’d had a baby that she’d had to give up – Johnnie’s baby – or that she had inherited the hotel where she worked. It was all very general and light.

‘Betty, can you tell me anything about the postcard you said Johnnie got? Only Ray got one as well, and he came and found me. No bad thing, as it happens – it broke the ice – but I don’t think it was meant to be a good thing. I think someone is stirring something but I don’t know who or why.’

‘Hmm. Plain postcard which just said your name and the address of a hotel. Posted in Southend …’ As she said the words so Ruby could see Betty’s brain furiously clicking away. ‘Johnnie went to Southend recently, took Sadie and the boys for a day out. Did he go and see you?’

‘No. I haven’t spoken to Johnnie since before I left,’ Ruby answered confidently. ‘We weren’t friends of long standing, there was no need to keep in touch.’

‘No, of course there wasn’t,’ Betty said with a hint of a smile.

The two women made some light conversation about her husband and the children for a while longer before Ruby decided it was the polite time to leave. She could see she was making Betty feel uncomfortable.

‘It’s been nice to see you again, Betty. Maybe we can catch up again next time I visit.’

Betty smiled as she held the front door open but she didn’t answer.

As Ruby left the house she noticed a green Ford Consul parked just up the road. As she got closer she looked at the registration plate and was sure it was the same car she’d seen Johnnie and his family driving away in. She was so busy looking at the car itself she didn’t notice the man in the driving seat until she was right beside it.

‘Hello, Ruby Red.’

‘Hello, Johnnie from down the street,’ she replied, feeling the familiar thump start up in her chest

‘I don’t want Betty to see us. Cut through the alley and I’ll pick you up by the High Street.’

Before she could answer he quickly drove away without a backward glance.

She stood stock-still watching the car disappear down the road. There was no question in her mind that she should just go back to her own car, get in it and drive away. That was the right thing to do. Johnnie Riordan was a married man with two children, and she was newly engaged to Tony Alfredo. Her head told her to carry on going but her heart said otherwise, and her legs took her straight to the familiar alley.

Johnnie Riordan leaned over and opened the passenger door from the inside and Ruby got in. He quickly pulled away and, without saying anything, drove to the edge of Epping Forest, pulled off the road and tucked the car out of sight of passing traffic under the cover of the trees.

He turned to face her. ‘Well, Red … what can I say? Long time no see.’

‘How about saying that we shouldn’t be here? That you’re a married man with two children and I’m engaged to be married?’

Mentioning the children was hard for Ruby. She wanted to tell him all about Maggie, the beautiful little girl they had made together, but of course she didn’t.

‘You could say that, but …’ he trailed off.

She twisted in her seat to look at him and was surprised to see him looking so very sad.

‘How did you know I was here?’

‘I didn’t. I pulled up as you turned into Betty’s gate. Nearly had a heart attack. But anyway, tell me all about yourself,’ he continued. ‘It’s been so long, I’ve often wondered about you.’

‘It’s not been that long … A few days back you were sat on the beach outside my hotel.’

‘That was a stupid thing to do. Crazy. I shocked myself afterwards but it had seemed like a good idea at the time,’ he laughed. ‘I thought I might get a glimpse of you, see how you were doing. I never expected you to all but climb over my legs to get to the bloody water. Dancing in the mud … what were you girls playing at? That was so crazy, I couldn’t believe it was happening.’

Ruby smiled. He still had the ability to make a good joke out of anything. ‘The joy of living at the seaside. I love it there so much. Your wife didn’t take too kindly to it, though.’

‘How did you end up in Southend?’ he asked, but Ruby ignored the question.

‘I came back today for the first time, I was looking for the family but no-one was in. Nosy Norah said Nan’s in Whipps Cross. I was all fired up to walk into the lion’s den and it was empty.’ She laughed.

‘I didn’t know that. Your brothers never said anything.’

‘Why should they?’

‘Come on, stop snapping like a crocodile. I’m not the one in the wrong here. You came to see me however long ago it was to borrow your train fare and that was it. Gone. You were never seen again, not even a postcard. You just disappeared.’

‘You’re right. I’m sorry. I never paid you back.’ She laughed, feeling the old easiness of his company again. ‘And speaking of postcards, Betty told me you got one. Whoever sent it to you, sent one to Ray as well. It can’t be someone who actually knows you because neither of you lives at the old address any longer; it must be someone who knows me and is stirring it.’

‘Did Ray cause a problem?’

‘Long story! He turned up by coincidence at the funeral reception of a very close friend. But it was all smoothed over. A bit of a shadow of himself really.’ She stared at him. ‘Just like you, in fact. Where’s the “I’m going to rule the world” Johnnie gone? Surely marriage can’t be that bad?’

Johnnie Riordan didn’t answer. He simply looked miserable and shook his head.

‘You said you’re engaged?’

‘You didn’t answer my question. Where’s Johnnie Riordan?’

‘I think he died a little when Ruby Red left without a word and never came back and he had to settle for something else that he didn’t want.’ He sighed. ‘I can’t complain though because it was all my own fault. I made an idiot of myself, Ruby Red. I did what Bill Morgan wanted instead of what I wanted. Now he owns me and my life. He chose Sadie and I married her, I work for him, live in one of his houses and drive one of his cars. I don’t have anything that’s mine.’

He leaned across and pulled her towards him gently. She relaxed and let herself fall into his arms as he kissed her fiercely with a passion that ignited everything in her again. She responded eagerly – she just couldn’t help herself – but when he tried to take it further she pushed him away.

‘No … we can’t. You’re married, I’m engaged.’

Reluctantly he pulled away. ‘I know. You can’t imagine how much I wish we weren’t.’

‘There’s no going back, Johnnie, and we shouldn’t be trying. It’s wrong – you know it is – and neither of us is like that.’

He loosened his tie and rolled the window down, and for a few minutes neither of them said anything.

‘We’d better go back,’ Ruby whispered gently. ‘If you could drop me somewhere nearby. My car’s back in Elsmere.’

‘What car have you got?’

‘Morris Minor’.

‘Hmm, not bad for a woman.’

Ruby picked up her handbag and playfully swung at him with it. The heat of the moment had passed.

‘Can I see you again? Just so that we can catch up.’

‘I’ve already said, you’re bloody well married; I’m engaged to be married. It’s playing with fire …’

‘I know. Next Friday, I’ve got to go see someone up in Essex to collect some rents for Bill Morgan. I’ll be with you at lunchtime. Shall I come to the hotel?’

‘OK.’ The word was out of her mouth without her even realising it.

Ruby looked at her watch and decided she still had enough time to go and see if her mother was back, so when Johnnie dropped her off she walked through the alleyway. But just as she went to turn onto the street she saw her mother and a man walking down towards the house. He had his arm around her and she was leaning her head on his shoulder. She was just about to say something when she noticed that her mother was crying. Big fat tears rolled down her cheeks as she sobbed loudly. As they got to the house Nosy Norah came out of her gate.

‘What’s happened, Sarah? Is it Elsie?’

‘Yes. She passed away this morning,’ the man said. ‘We didn’t know until we got there.’

‘Oh, I’m so sorry, my love. Come on in and I’ll make you a nice sweet cuppa for the shock. Your Ruby was here just now looking for you,’ she heard Norah say.

‘Ruby? Do you mean my Ruby?’

‘Yes, dear. Very elegant, she looked, all grown up and driving a car. I saw her getting out of it. Mind, I didn’t know it was her until she came knocking.’

‘What did she want?’ the man beside Sarah asked, his strong Scottish accent telling Ruby he was indeed Donald the new husband. Her stepfather.

‘She said she was looking for you,’ Norah said. ‘I told her you were visiting at Whipps with Elsie. I thought she might go there.’

‘Well, she left it too sodding late if she did,’ Sarah cried.

Ruby took a step back, unsure what to do. It was an all-or-nothing moment; she knew if she turned away she would never go back there again.

She stepped out and walked towards them.

‘Mum.’

Sarah, Donald and Norah all turned towards her.

‘If you want me to go I will. I’m so sorry about Nan …’ She felt her eyes prickling and then suddenly two big fat tears rolled slowly down her cheeks. ‘I’m sorry, I didn’t know, I’m sorry …’ she sobbed.

‘And so you should be,’ her mother said without moving.

It was Norah who made the first move. She stepped forward and put her arm around Ruby’s waist.

‘Come on now, dearie, no need for that. Elsie wouldn’t want you crying over her any more than she’d want you all fighting.’ She looked directly at Sarah.

‘Shall we all go inside?’ the man beside Sarah said calmly.

The deep timbre of his voice suited him perfectly. He was tall and broad, with tanned leathery skin that told of a life working outdoors. His hair was mottled black and grey, as was the full beard and moustache that framed his jaw. At first glance the man looked intimidating but Ruby had already noticed the kindly dark green eyes that looked at her sympathetically. She took to him immediately.

As Sarah turned on her heel and walked up to the front door, so Donald McIver stood back and motioned for Ruby to follow, leaving Norah standing alone on the pavement. Ruby turned and smiled and mouthed ‘Thank you’ before walking cautiously into the once-familiar house that used to be her home.