Sex and Crime: Oliver's Strange Journey (61 page)

Like always when Veronica was in one of her
shallow fake relationships with some girl, she claimed that the
other girl was madly in love with her, she was stalking her, she
was obsessed with her, but Veronica wasn't into her at all. It was
the same story every time. She had told me the same thing about
Miriam, Lola, Shelly, Theresa, Snickers, Nancy, Kim, Nina, Jasmine
and Kathleen.

She always pretended they were chasing after
her, because they were supposedly madly in love with her, but she
didn't want anything from them.

But I, and everyone in jail, knew that it
was really the other way around. She was constantly chasing after
several people at the same time, trying to sell them dreams,
writing them love letters, trying to make out with them, trying to
make them believe that she was in love with them and that she had
never felt that way about anyone else before, while cheating on
them the whole time and telling other people the same thing, often
word for word. It was like she was some sort of escaped mental
patient.

I actually felt bad for her, because I knew
she really did have severe mental problems from the abuse and
abandonment she had to endure as a child, and the years of
traumatizing sex with guys who just used her but didn't care about
her as a human being. She was starving for affection. She
desperately wanted to feel loved, truly loved, but really didn't
know how to accomplish that. So she tried to improve her odds by
throwing herself at a bunch of people at the same time. She really
didn't understand that that behavior ruined her chances of ever
finding real love, and ever having a deep, meaningful bond with
another human being.

Now this latest replay of the same old
story, this time with Wendy, just seemed sad and pathetic. I was
really hurt, but at the same time I couldn't stop thinking about
how much pain Veronica was really in. She had never even known what
it's like to have a normal mother and father. All she had ever
known was people using her to either get sex from her, or drugs, or
snacks in jail. Her sense of selfworth was nonexistent. She felt
she had no value, had nothing to offer, besides sex, drugs or
snacks. So she used those three things to bribe people into
"loving" her.

The more I thought about this stuff, the
more I just wanted to give her a hug and tell her I love her. She
had been cheating on me, and instead of feeling bad for myself, I
felt bad for her. How sick is that?

But it couldn't go on, because her cheating
on me was tearing me apart inside. So I told her: "This shit with
Wendy needs to end RIGHT NOW. I'm serious. This is your last
chance. If you don't stop this shit behind my back, I'm done with
you for good."

She replied that there was nothing going on
with Wendy, and she swore she would be good. She said it was unfair
that I was acting like she was being bad again, because this time
she was really innocent, she was really being good, and she was
really being faithful to me.

The next day Haley called me back and told
me that everyone in jail was talking about how Wendy in dorm 3 was
screaming across the hall at Veronica in dorm 4. Haley said, Wendy
had been calling Veronica a lying piece of shit whore, or something
along those lines. Apparently Wendy had found out that as soon as
she was moved to dorm 3, Veronica was already cheating on her. She
was calling Jasmine in Key West and sending more love letters to
Kathleen.

When Veronica called me, I asked her why
Wendy had been screaming at her across the hall. Obviously that
clearly indicated that they were in a relationship, and Wendy was
jealous, because Veronica was cheating on her.

"No, it's not like that at all. Wendy is
just some silly little girl who is totally in love with me. But I
don't feel that way about her at all. I only want to be with you. I
love you," Veronica said.

Haley wasn't the only one who told me that
everyone in jail knew that Veronica and Wendy were dating. More and
more inmates contacted me to tell me what Veronica was doing behind
my back.

When she had been cheating on me with Kim,
14 people had reached out to me to warn me. Now 9 people told me
that she was cheating on me with Wendy. I told her what each and
every one of those 9 people said. And every time Veronica claimed
they were lying about her, because they supposedly had ulterior
motives. Meanwhile she was bragging in jail that no matter what any
of the other inmates told me about her, I would never leave her,
because she had me wrapped around her little finger.

Then a few people told me Veronica and Wendy
went to court together and were making out in the holding cell.
They were so blatant and over-the-top, some of the other girls in
the cell were offended by it, and when they got back to jail after
court, they told the other inmates how obnoxious Veronica and Wendy
were.

I had a viso with Veronica later that same
day. I asked her again if there was anything going on between her
and Wendy. She swore there wasn't. But I just wouldn't drop it. I
asked her again and again. Finally she gave in and said: "Alright,
fine. Yeah, Wendy and I have been flirting a little. But it's no
big deal."

"I fucking hate you," I said, got up, and
left.

I had it with her. She was obviously never
ever going to change. I was so sick of feeling hurt and betrayed
all the time. I remembered how she reacted when I told her that I
had sex with Anita. I figured the only way to make her understand
how destructive her behavior is, is to do it back to her. I decided
to call a bunch of girls I hadn't talked to in a while.

I hadn't talked to Anita in months, ever
since Veronica had been arrested. Anita was now living with her
grandmother in Cape Coral. I told her about all the crazy stuff
that happened with Veronica since the last time we talked.

Anita replied: "I told you a long time ago,
Veronica will never change. She's a piece of shit. She even stole
money out of my purse when we were roommates. And she's lying about
not tricking. She fucked a bunch of guys before you got there, and
even when you were living with us. Why would you want to waste any
more of your time with a stupid little girl like Veronica, when you
could have a woman like me? I am ready to settle down. I want to
have a normal life and a family. I would love to have a good man
like you in my life."

I picked her up at her grandmother's house
and she spent the night at my place. We had sex a few times. But I
knew I couldn't be in a relationship with her, because she was
still tricking, and doing drugs. She would just be a clone of
Veronica.

The next day, after I dropped Anita off, I
picked up Erin. I hadn't seen her in a few months either. She just
got out of Collier County Jail again. She stayed with me for a
couple of days and we had sex a few times. Then I dropped her off
at her friend Josie's house, because Erin wanted Josie to help her
dye her dark hair blond. I was supposed to pick Erin up afterwards,
because she wanted to live with me and be in a real
relationship.

But since she also used to have a drug
problem in the past, and she asked me to buy her a $50 bag of weed
before she went to Josie's house, I was afraid things with her
would end up being no different than with Veronica or Lucy.

I probably should have given Erin more of a
chance, because even after I ditched her at Josie's house, she kept
calling me every day, to try to get together. She really was
serious about settling down and having a serious, monogamous
relationship. A week or two later, she moved in with some guy in
Port Charlotte, and she has been with him ever since. As far as I
know, she's still clean. Good for her. I regret not picking her up
from Josie's house. But I was still too hung up on Veronica, and
paying her back for all the pain she had caused me for the past 2
years.

A bunch of girls from LCJ, who had heard my
name in jail, contacted me on Facebook once they got out. I'm
really not a player or a pimp. I don't want to have a bunch of
trophy girls. I don't want a girl just for sex. I want one girl in
my life who I can trust and build a future with. So I usually
ignored all these girls who were trying to get with me, just
because they knew I had taken good care of Veronica.

But one girl was very persistent. Her name
was Daisy. She wrote me on Facebook almost every day. She was only
19, and black. I hate gangsta rap and that whole illiterate ghetto
nigger mentality. But Daisy was not a nigger. She was a polite,
articulate, intelligent, hard-working girl. I had been ignoring her
advances for the past few weeks, but now I told her I wanted to
meet her. I picked her up after work. She was a waitress at Culvers
in Naples. We ended up meeting a bunch of times and had sex. She
had been in dorm 2 with Veronica, so she told me how much Veronica
had been cheating on me the whole time, and that she was always
bragging about playing me like a fiddle.

Hussy had moved back from Ocala a few weeks
ago. She lived in LaBelle with her new boyfriend Brian now. He
worked at a bamboo plantation. She told me she'd like to start
seeing me again, because things with her and Brian weren't working
out. She caught him cheating on her. So I met up with her a bunch
of times. We usually had sex at least twice a day, like we used
to.

I told her about meeting Lucy, and
everything that had happened since then. Hussy was not happy at all
about that, and told me to be careful. She said Lucy was a con
artist who had hurt a lot of people. Look who's talking!

Veronica and I weren't talking to each other
since I found out she had been making out with Wendy in court, and
she admitted that there was something going on between them, but
tried to trivialize it.

After I had a whole lot of sex with a bunch
of different girls, I sent Veronica a letter and bragged about it.
I told her how good they were, and how much I enjoyed fucking each
of them. I told her I had so much sex every day, some days with
more than one girl, I was exhausted. I hoped my letter would really
get under her skin, and show her what it's like to be on the
receiving end of that kind of grimey behavior.

She called me and cried: "Why would you do
that to me? Why would you hurt me like that? I hate you!"

"Are you fucking kidding me?" I asked.
"That's the kind of shit you've been doing to me for years. Now I
did it to you for a week or two, and you act like I'm a monster.
All I did was give you a taste of your own medicine for a few
days."

After a while we both calmed down again. She
told me she loved me and still wanted to come home to me, have a
baby and be together. We made up. I told her that this was really,
really her last chance. If she cheated on me with Wendy or anyone
else again, I would be done with her for good. I told her if I hear
one more rumor about her and another girl, I was done. She said
that wasn't fair, because even if she didn't do anything, people
would still accuse her of being with this girl or that girl.

When Haley called me and I told her what
Veronica said, she replied: "Bullshit. Veronica is such a drama
queen. Nobody gives a shit about her. People have better things to
do than to make up stories about her. The only reason people talk
about her is because she's a hot mess. I have a lot of friends in
jail, but you don't ever hear any rumors about me being in a
relationship with some other girl in jail."

After Veronica and Wendy made out in the
court holding cell, they had themselves moved into dorm 2 together.
Just like Veronica had done with Kim the last time she was in jail.
And just like with Kim, Veronica claimed that she and Wendy weren't
even talking to each other anymore, and they were on opposite ends
of the dorm.

"I swear there is nothing going on between
us anymore now," Veronica said. "The corrections officers watch us
like hawks, because they know there used to be something between
Wendy and me, and we were separated into two different dorms.
They're not going to allow us to even talk to each other in the
rehab dorm now."

Later I found out that was all just a bunch
of lies again. They never stopped dating. They were a couple the
whole time they were in dorm 2 together. Veronica never stopped
cheating on me for even one day.

Remember Wigger's girlfriend Abby? He had
been cheating on her with Lucy and a couple of other girls, while
she was in jail. Abby had a sister, Tabby. Both of them were drug
addicted hookers, and occasionally they had threesomes together
with a "client." Nice.

One of the girls Wigger was fucking behind
Abby's back while she was in jail was her own sister, Tabby. Yupp,
Abby's boyfriend was cheating on her with her own sister. Classy.
What a guy, what a guy.

Then Tabby got arrested and ended up being
Veronica's new bunkie in dorm 4, after Wendy had been moved from
dorm 4 back to dorm 3. Veronica started cheating on me, and on
Wendy, with Tabby. Once Veronica was moved to dorm 2, she continued
to write Tabby love letters behind Wendy's back. And she continued
to write love letters to Kathleen, who was in dorm 2 with Veronica
and Wendy. Are you getting a headache yet?

Haley kept telling me that Veronica was
still lying to me. Veronica denied it. Other people told me Haley
was telling me the truth. Veronica claimed they were all just a
bunch of haters. She said if I wanted to know the truth about what
she was doing in dorm 2, I should ask the girls she was hanging out
with, like her friend Cassidy. She would tell me that Veronica was
being good, and that she told everyone she was my girlfriend,
nobody else's, and that she wasn't seeing anyone else behind my
back anymore.