Shifter’s Baby (Alpha Fantasy Paranormal Billionaire Shifter BBW Romance) (108 page)

Apparently, he’d been going to find keys for the bedroom door to unlock it. When he walked in and grabbed me, he looked absolutely furious. I’d never seen such a dark expression on his face and I wasn’t sure if I was aroused, or scared. Or both.

I wonder if you could get so turned on and scared at the same time. Where you could cum just from the sheer physical strength of the man standing in front of you. My knees grew weak and I held my breath. Staring at his face, flushed full of anger. I was waiting to see what he’d do next.
              I didn’t have to wait for long.

“Lara, this is childish behavior and I cannot believe you locked me out of my own bedroom.” Rupert hissed at me and he gave me a slight shake as he gripped my arms.

“Well, if you want to go let every whore grope you, maybe I don’t want to share a bedroom with you.” I told him and then did something completely out of character for me. I burst into tears and started to sob. It had upset me a lot more than I thought and it wasn’t just anger I felt, he had hurt my feelings.

“Lara, you don’t seem to realize that I couldn’t make a scene? She was a Duchess, and if I had done anything to stop her or thwart her. She would have gone straight to the King.” Rupert told me as he let me go in shock when I started to cry. “I wasn’t enjoying it the way you think I was. I was putting on a show of congeniality, and surviving until it was over. It has been the same for me, ever since I have been old enough to be married. Believe me, I don’t like having strangers touch me, or women throw themselves at me. Especially, ones whom would be so disrespectful they would just ignore that I was with another woman at the party.”

“You were smiling.” I said sniffing and sat down on the floor. I wrapped my arms around my knees and put my head on my crossed arms. I didn’t know what was wrong with me, but for a moment, I was a total emotional wreck. I was just going to sit here feeling sorry for myself.

“What was I supposed to do? Spit on them? Punch them in the face, like you tried with the paparazzi?” Rupert asked me. He then knelt down by me and took my hand in his. “Lara, listen to me. I don’t know why you are being so sensitive today. Can you just relax? Talk to me if you need to, but don’t take it out on me.”

“I’m not trying too; I can’t seem to figure out what’s going on with me right now.” I told him, feeling confused. I wasn’t sure why I was having such a hard time right now, but everything felt off to me. I was being temperamental and very grumpy. I wanted to blame it on the hangover, but for some reason I wasn’t sure that was it. Considering my hangover had been gone for a while now.

“Lara?” Rupert began as I stood up and stopped pouting. Quietly he asked me, “Why don’t we go for a walk?”

“Sure, some fresh air might be helpful.” I told him and realized I wasn’t really mad at him. I was just upset that women threw themselves at the man I had given my heart to. That thought made me blink. The implications being that I was completely in love with him. I nearly had a panic attack at the idea of him being able to hurt me. A broken heart is never fun and is also the main reason I was hesitant to say yes to him.

Rupert took me out into the back pasture for a walk. We went past the barn where the horses were stabled. It was also where we had our first sexual encounter. Rupert always smiled when he passed the barn. He’d never forget the way I had looked all tied up in the tack and supply room. Wet, horny, and a little nervous, I was still willing to take whatever he could throw at me. They were evenly matched when it came to sexual desires.

“I’m sorry, I’m acting so weird. Something is wrong with me; I just feel funny.” I finally told him as we walked in the pasture together. I bent down to pick up a purple flower and tucked it behind my ear. “Will you forgive my tantrum?” my voice was quiet and I couldn’t quite meet his eyes. I was ashamed at my reaction after hearing his explanation.

“Of course, Lara. I can tell that it’s unusual for you. If you think there is something wrong with you, then why don’t you see our family doctor just to make sure everything’s okay?” Rupert asked her, concerned. Watching her tuck the flower behind her ear, he got distracted and leaned down to kiss her. He never got tired of being with her, spending time with her, talking to her, or having sex with her.

“I think that I will do that,” I said, whispering against his mouth as he kissed me. His tongue shoved between my lips and he brought his hand up to grab my hair. He curled his hand into a fist against my head as he tangled the hair between his fingers. He held me tight against him and within his arms I felt safe. His arms were a haven for me and it was hard to describe, but they always seemed to arouse turn me on as well.  It didn’t matter how many times, nor how often we had sex. The minute he started touching and kissing me, I grew wet with desire for him.

Forgetting about everything else that had happened, I lost herself in his arms. I had this love/hate thing going on still. I hated how badly Rupert made me want him. However, I loved the way it always ended up playing out. His dominance, his control, and his ability to say the right things at the right time. He always made time for me and no matter what family obligations came up, he included her. I appreciated that.

I was in love with him and sometimes I almost hated him for it. If he broke my heart, she didn’t know what she was going to do. I had never let anyone get close enough to myself before, to put her heart on the line. He kept pestering me about getting married. He wanted her to make a bigger commitment, but I was still scared.

What if he changes his mind? What if after a few months, or years together he decided he lost interest? Lara decided she needed to talk to her mother about working through these fears, because her mother obviously had or she wouldn’t have remarried. Lara just couldn’t see a way around them, and she had never even been in love.

Rupert tucked a strand of hair behind her ear, opposite of where she’d tucked the flower. “Lara…”

“What?” I asked and looked up at him.

“Kiss me,” Rupert ordered her and touched her chin guiding her face the direction of his mouth. He pressed his lips to hers, being gentle. Normally he was hot, hard and demanding. For the moment, he was being sweet and gentle and it threw Lara for a loop.

He brought his hands up to cradle my head gently and pulled me into his arms. He didn’t know why she was being so emotional, but he just felt like the right thing to do was going slow, for the time being.  Hugging her close, he put his chin on her head and just held her out in the sunlit grassy field.

“Lara, Marry me?” Rupert asked her again. “Please? I want to spend my life with you. I'm not going to keep asking you forever, I can't play these games like this. I know what I want in my life and that includes you. I want to move forward.”

“I just need more time, Rupert. I promise I’ll give you an answer soon, okay?” I told him and felt panic constrict my chest. I really wanted to talk to my mom before making any promises. I wasn’t sure I could handle this. I was sure I loved Rupert, but was it enough to make a relationship work?

“Lara, I’ve given you control in this area, because you need it to feel safe. What else can I do to prove my seriousness to you?” Rupert was frustrated. He put his hands through his hair and started pacing in the field. He didn’t know how to overcome her fears of commitment. Everything else was perfect, except that. She always held back.

“I appreciate that Rupert, really I do. I’ll tell you what. Give me two days, please? I’ll have an answer for you then.” I touched his cheek and promised him an answer. I hoped I could give him the answer he wanted, but I just wasn’t sure.

“You had better, or I’ll spank your ass. This time there will be more than one swat.” He muttered and then pulled her roughly into his arms again and kissed her. This time a punishing kiss to show her how much he had been holding back. He was frustrated, but he still wanted her even when she was acting odd.

I went to see the royal family doctors. They did blood tests, checked my vitals, and completed a thorough physical exam. Nothing, on the surface, appeared to be wrong with her. They told her they’d get back to her in a few days with whatever the lab work showed, but they expected her results to be normal.  Feeling frustrated, I walked outside to where my mother was waiting for me.

My mother picked me up from the doctors’ office and sat in the back of the limo with me.

“Mom, how did you get over what Dad did to you and remarry?” I asked my mom bluntly as the limo moved off. We had the kind of relationship where they could talk freely and I was grateful. This was one of those times, where I needed my mother to be completely candid.

“I had to make a choice. Let one man ruin all chances of happiness with another man, or be willing to have faith and believe that some men aren’t like that.” My mother smiled at me and reached out, squeezing my hand gently. “You like Rupert, I know you do. I can see the chemistry between you two, every time you lock eyes. It’s been there from the moment you met. Don’t let what your father did to me, hold you back Lara, that’s not fair to Rupert. Or yourself.”

“But it’s so public. Every tiny thing we will ever do together, or that others try to do, or whatever else. The threat of everything being everyone’s business will always be there. If he does screw around on me, there’s no way he can hide it. I would find out about it. I don’t know if I can handle it. I got so jealous, Mom.” Confiding in my mother and then ducked my head down for a minute while I thought about things. “The way women threw themselves at him. I know now that he wasn’t interested in them, but I just lost it after the party. I totally took it out on him even though I knew I didn’t really believe it.”

“You know, the only time I was that irrational, was when I was pregnant.” Musing out loud, my mother gave me a funny look. “Did they do a pregnancy test?”

“That’s not possible,” I gasped and then considered the possibility. It had been a few weeks since they had started having sex. I couldn’t remember my last period, but still. “No, they didn’t. The doctors would be able to tell though, right?”

“Did they do a blood or urine test?” Her mother asked her shrugging.

“A blood test, I think. I don’t know if that was on the list of things they were doing or not.” I wondered and then decided I would need to call my doctor back when I got home and see if they’d tested for that. I needed to know for sure. If that was what was wrong with her, it would take everything Rupert had been asking of her to a whole new level.

“Don’t panic until you know for sure, one way or another, Lara. It’s going to be okay.” Her mother leaned closer and placed a hand on her knee. “I can see that look on your face. You need to remember to breathe. Rupert and you will be fine. I have faith the two of you are meant to be together, at this point.”

“I just don’t understand how after everything Dad did, you could be so willing to believe that a relationship can work, and be trusting.” I said and shook my head. “It didn’t even happen to me, but I saw what it did to you, to our family. It was painful.”

“Yes, it was. I knew when I married your father he was a womanizer. I just thought I could change him. Rupert isn’t a womanizer despite what everyone says about him. You have been with him for weeks and you should know better by now. He may have had his share of women, but he is honorable and the kind of man who once he makes his mind up about something, he will stick with it. Like his father.” Her mother smiled softly at the mention of her husband, the King. “We could do a lot worse for partners in life, Lara. You need to appreciate what he offers you. He’s a good man, with a good heart and he will treat you well.”

“I know he will mom, but I just… I am just afraid, I guess. I wish I knew how to be brave and just push through it. He keeps asking me to marry him, and part of me wants to say yes more than anything. The other part of me is terrified. What if he changes his mind down the road? What if he finds someone he likes more? What if…?”

“Stop, right there, Lara.” My mother interrupted me, stopping her by putting her hand up. “No more what if games. You need to make a decision. Either, put your heart on the line, or let Rupert go so he can find someone who deserves his heart the way he’s offering it to you.”

“Well, when you put it like that,” I muttered. I was a selfish person. I most definitely did not want any other woman to have him. Realizing her mother was right, I needed to make a commitment to him and give their relationship a real chance.

“You know I’m right,” Her mother chuckled and patted her leg. “Now tell Rupert you’ll marry him. Finally put us all out of our misery of sitting on the edges of our seat, waiting to see if you finally give in.”

“I promised him an answer. I guess I’ll give him the one he wants, and hope for the best.” I gave a half smile, and then looked out the window for the rest of the drive home. I  had a lot to think about. If I married him, I would be a princess. I had never wanted to be royalty, but that came with the territory if she wanted to be Rupert’s wife.

Which came to the second question, why did I have to marry him? Why was marriage so important to this man? I decided that was a question I needed him to answer before I walked down the aisle in that white dress, in front of everyone.

When I got back to the palace, I found Rupert in his office with his father. I nodded at him from the doorway, and then left him alone to finish up his business.. I went back to our room and picked up the phone to call the doctors office. I asked what kind of test they were doing and if they had completed a pregnancy test.

They had not, but she was informed they could do it with the samples that they already had. The office told her that she would get the results of the pregnancy test along with her other results. Hanging up the phone I sprawled across the bed thinking about the conversation that I needed to have with Rupert.

I didn't mean to fall asleep waiting for him, but I fell asleep. I woke up to Rupert coming into the room.

“Hi,” I said sleepily, smiling at him thinking he looked gorgeous in my half-sleep state.

“An afternoon nap is unusual for you; did I keep you up too late last night?” He asked me curiously.

“No, I just sat down to shut my eyes for a minute, then you were waking me up.” I sat up and yawned, stretching my arms out. “I should hear back from my doctors tomorrow about the labs, but so far there’s nothing wrong with me. Looks like I’m healthy as a horse.”

“Well, that’s good.” Rupert said, chuckling. “I like healthy horses. I have a barn full of them.”

“I bet you do.” I said and sat up and then looked at him. “Why is marriage so important to you Rupert?”

I blurted it out, it was bad timing, but he just blinked for a moment and considered his answer. Another reason to add why I loved him to the list. He never got too upset by whatever came out of my mouth, even if the timing wasn't always perfect.

“Why?” Rupert furrowed his brows together as he considered her question. “That’s a different question to ask. I suppose because I believe that a man and woman should be united for life, and marriage is the ultimate commitment for me.”

“But why the commitment to me? You have women all over that would love to marry you.” I wished I had his faith in humanity.

“Because I love you, isn’t that enough?” Rupert looked genuinely confused at this point. “Lara, I want to spend my life with you. I don’t know how to even express the magnitude of what I feel half the time. Marrying you, waking up to you each morning, and going to bed with you each night. That’s what I want.”

“You make it sound so simple,” I said, and smiled. I stretched and rolled my shoulders as I woke up.

Rupert climbed into bed with me, holding me in his arms. “Since you had a nap, you mind if I keep you up half the night?”

“Since when do you ask me?” I said, raising a brow.

“I’ll take that as a yes.” Rupert said with a grin on his face. Rolling up on top of me, he lowered his head and kissed me firmly. He kissed every inch of my face while I wrapped my arms around him and held him close. He returned to kissing me and nibbled on me lower lip before licking it. I opened my mouth and gave him access. I trailed my tongue over his before sucking on it kind of like I suck on his cock. I reached behind his head and tangled my fingers in his hair. Pulling firmly, I heard him growl and that just turned me on even more.

He reached under my shirt and slowly drug his fingers over my skin. It felt amazing and ticklish all at the same time. Gripping the bottom of my shirt he slowly lifted it and helped me sit up so he could pull it over my head. It went flying somewhere in the room. When I turned my head back towards him, his eyes were filled with a hunger that had me laying back down quickly. He reached down and tugged my pants off quickly, and they too went flying elsewhere. I looked up at him and smiled.

I laid before him completely naked and he just sat there watching me quietly. He reached his hands up and began undoing the buttons on his shirt, all the while watching my reactions. I wiggled a little bit as each of the buttons came undone and whimpered when he stopped to tease me by not undoing one at the same pace. He chuckled and continued. Soon after the shirt was undone and then tossed somewhere I couldn’t see. All my eyes wanted to see was right in front of me. He undid the button on his pant and both those and his underwear disappeared.

He was now kneeling before me completely naked. I reached up to touch his chest and gently dragged my nails down his chest. He leaned over me to capture my lips again. As he kissed me he moved closer and was soon between my legs. One hand came to wrap under my neck and hold my lips firmly against his. His other hand grabbed his cock and slowly, teasingly rubbed the head between the folds of my lower lips. He stopped after a few more passes up and down and pressed against my opening. He slid in very easily as I was completely and utterly aroused.

My hips lifted from the bed to meet his downward thrust which had him seated fully in me. A loud moan escaped my lips as my back arched up off the bed. He moved mischievously slow enjoying the way my inner walls wrapped around his cock each time he moved in and out of me. The smile he had watching himself enter me over and over this way let me know how much he enjoyed teasing me this way.

He began moving within me faster and faster. With each strong thrust, I felt my juices squirt out of me and slide down my thighs. He sat back and lifted my legs holding the wide and pressing down just behind my knees. Now this was a position I could learn to love. He went deeper than I ever remember and I was moaning loudly. He picked up his speed even more after the moans started until he was pounding into me.

I felt my body heat up as I moved closer to the edge of the cliff I wanted to be slung off of. My inner walls started squeezing and contracting around his cock. I reached out and grabbed his arms that were holding my knees and held on tightly as I fell off the cliff. I screamed softly and my walls started milking his cock harder. He moaned loudly and slammed his cock into me over and over before crying out. I felt his warm cum fill my insides and moaned softly. He soon collapsed against my body and I just held him while we both caught our breath. He soon rolled both of us over and held me close to his chest. We laid there quietly. I drew small designs on his chest and he drew them on my back.

There was so much we had to talk about. The pregnancy, our parents, the marriage that I was going to tell him I'd be willing to do. There was so much on my plate, and I felt a little overwhelmed. But right now, I'd focus on him.

“I love you, Rupert.” I whispered quietly to the dark.

I awoke before he did in the morning. I lay curled in his arms feeling very warm and protected. I looked up at him and watched the morning sunlight play across his face. He really was a handsome man, and I loved the way he treated me. I loved this man, and had finally decide to tell him yes. I just needed to tell him, and of course. We also needed to get around to the pregnancy conversation, if that test result came back positive.... That was a huge conversation we needed to have and it wasn’t even breakfast yet. I sighed contentedly and snuggled deeper into his arms. He squeezed me with his arm, as his sleep addled mind drifted closer to being awake.  

I was getting impatient for him to wake up on his own, so I took matters into my own hands, literally. I gently gripped his cock in my hand, and slowly stroked it. He was already hard when I touched him. He moaned softly as his eyes fluttered open, and he focused on me with a sleepy grin. “You didn’t get enough last night?” he rasped. The sleep still heavy in his voice. He sounded so sexy in the mornings when he talked.

“Yes, I was well satisfied last night, as you well know. It’s just that we need to talk, before we go down to breakfast. I needed you awake, and it seemed like a good way.” I said. He groaned as I let my hand fall away. “Now sit up. This is serious.”

He expression changed to seriousness, as he lifted himself up. Leaning against the headboard, he looked me in the eye and said, “You have my full attention. What is it that you need to discuss with me?”

“Well,” I took a deep breath and steadied my nerves, “it’s about our marriage.”

His eyebrows shot up in surprise.

“Our marriage?” he asked. The surprise must be to the way I referred to it as ours. “Does that mean that you are going to marry me?”