Chloe felt exhaustion tick through her body. She now had a greater appreciation for actors who directed and starred in their own productions. While she might not be directing, she was producing and making sure all went smoothly. She also missed her father. It was amazing to think how much the short time they had spent together had meant to her. She missed coming home and him asking about her day, how that eased the tension. She even missed his constant desire to fix things around the house. Did he miss her, too? Would he be glad to get back from Ruidoso when all this was over? Or would this give him the courage to return to a life on his own? Chloe focused on the task at hand. The show. The Roses alone were enough to make her want to pull her hair out. But the behind-the-scenes machinations between the women was the icing on the cake of frustration. Regardless, she had to persevere. The whole thing would be over at the end of the following week. Which is why when the Roses sat around the breakfast table, waiting for the day's taping to begin, alternately supporting one another and trying to find out how the other was planning to win Trey, Chloe didn't get up and go to the other room. "I wonder what we're doing next," Mindy stated. "I hear it's group dates," Jo Beth added. Mindy groaned, and Chloe knew that she was thinking about how in a group, each of the women would be looking out for herself. Competition would be fierce. What surprised Chloe about this was that while the women were in direct competition, they also seemed desperate to form bonds with one another, as if somehow the bond would keep them from being dragged too deep through the mud of competition. It also seemed like a way for each of them to get additional information that could help her get ahead in the quest to win the bachelor's heart. "I'm so not good in a crowd," Mindy lamented. Chloe believed her, having seen how awkward the nurse was in social settings. Chloe shuddered to think what it would be like in a hospital with her if she was that uncomfortable with syringes and heart monitors. "Once I was applying for a flight attendant job with a major airline," Mindy continued. "We all sat around in a circle, and the interviewer would ask a question. She just put the questions out there, and she wouldn't call on us to respond. We had to jump in so she could see things like how assertive we were, how polite, how confident. Ugh. It was horrible because really, think about it... If you're too assertive, you're rude, but if you're not assertive enough, you're a wimp. So you have to time it just right. I was so unbelievably stressed that I was sweating, not to mention that not only do you have to get your answer in there in just the right way, you have to come up with an answer to put out there!" "I'd hate that," Kacey conceded. "I'd kick ass," Jo Beth preened, and no one there doubted that she would. Leticia took a sip of her coffee. "What kind of questions did they ask?" Mindy wrinkled her nose. "The woman asked about politics. And each of us had to tell our most embarrassing moment. But the worst questionâat least the worst for me, because clearly I am a moronâwas: Who, living or dead, do you admire the most?" A traditional question, but all the women mmmed and ahhhed and considered their own answers. Mindy chewed her lip as she remembered, then sighed dismally. "Most of the candidates came up with some of the most amazing responses. One lady said Jesus Christ. Jesus Christ! She was so impressive when she added that regardless of your religion, he's had an effect on just about every aspect of life around the world. Another said Hillary Clinton because she didn't let a twerp like Bill bring her down. Then this one guy, really cute and no doubt gay, said Cher because she didn't let Sonny bring her down. Everyone laughed, and I was burning up with mortification because I couldn't think of a single person living, dead, or even made up, whom I admired. How pathetic is that?!" Mindy ran her finger along the rim of her coffee cup as if she wasn't going to go on. "You can't leave us hanging!" Jo Beth exclaimed. "What did you say?" Leticia prompted. Closing her eyes for a second, Mindy sighed, then uttered two words. "Martha Washington." "Martha Washington?" the group demanded. "Who is Martha Washington?" Jo Beth wanted to know. "Our first president's wife," Chloe supplied. "As in the guy who supposedly chopped down the cherry tree. The first George." "Oh." Everyone turned back to Mindy. "Why in the world did you say Martha Washington?" Kacey asked. Mindy scrunched her hair in her hands. "I don't know. I was desperate, really desperate, and out of nowhere her name popped into my head. One minute I hadn't a clue who to say, then the next her name was just there." "Oh, my gosh!" Leticia exclaimed. "And you know the worst of it? When everyone else gave their answers, you could tell that the others in the group were busy composing their own responses, timing themselves, hardly giving a thought to what anyone else said. When I tossed out old Martha, everyone there, including the interviewer, stopped everything, turned to look at me, and asked, 'Why? " By now every one of the Roses was leaning forward, staring at her, and wanting to know the exact same thing. "What did you say?" Leticia demanded on a gasping laugh. Mindy groaned her misery. "I said, 'Because she was so helpful to George.' " After a single, silent heartbeat, the group burst out laughing until even Mindy saw how ridiculous it was. Somehow the remembered mortification was mitigated and she felt very much a part of this group. She joined in and laughed. "Okay, everyone," Chloe said, breaking into the fun. "We only have thirty minutes before we start taping. The crew will be here any second. So we'd better hurry." "Come on, Mindy," Nina said with surprising kindness, "let's get ready for today's shoot. The other day I was thinking of a way that your hair would look awesome." "Really?" "Yeah, really." Mindy beamed. "Thank you." She bit her lip. "It seems like Trey thinks I'm a dork. I would love for him to see me differently." The Roses piled out of the kitchen just as Julia walked in. Chloe was the only one who stayed behind. "Aren't they chipper this morning," Julia said. Standing, Chloe came over to Julia, hugged her tight, then set her at arm's length. "What's that about?" Julia asked. "I haven't told you often enough how much I love your friendship." "Great, what's happened now?" "Nothing." Chloe studied her fingernails. "It's just that I realized that while we don't choose our families, we choose our friends. And I'm glad you chose me." Then she headed upstairs to get ready with the rest of the Roses.
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The group date consisted of a pool party in Julia's backyard swimming pool, which was built inside a huge glass atrium. It was a beautiful Indian summer day, a bright and sunny sixty-nine degrees. The station planned to shoot the episode in two parts to make it look like two separate parties. It wasn't the sort of big budget extravaganza that the major networks were able to stage for their bachelor-type shows. This was local television. The cast grilled hot dogs, drank wine, and showed off lots of bare skin. The last thing Chloe wanted to do was get into a bathing suit. Though the others weren't having the same problem. That is, if tiny scraps of material could be considered bathing suits. When Pete called action and started taping the party, Chloe stood on the sidelines. She debated her plan, but decided that: One, she wanted off the show, and Two, making herself look less than great on television wasn't such a bad idea, since she wasn't interested in attracting any more Albert Cummingses. She decided plunging in was the best plan of action on all counts. The second she stepped out of the shadows, it was as if there was some cosmic signal to the Catch, because he turned around and saw her despite the circle of women around him as he grilled hot dogs. Chloe had the unexpected thought that while he clearly was a fish out of water in the regular pursuits of life, once he decided to do something, he actually did it quite well. Which didn't endear him to her. Couldn't he do anything badly? Chloe? he mouthed. "Chloe?" Jo Beth blurted. Chloe appeared poolside in a red, white, and blue one-piece bathing suit that had a flag skirt fluttering around her thighs. Chloe's suit used more fabric than all the other suits combined. "You look ... great," Mindy tried to enthuse. Trey looked at her as if she had lost her mind. And she did think of him as Treyâor rather, she forced herself to continue thinking of him as Trey so she wouldn't screw up on the show and call him Sterling. "Hiya!" she called out with a wave. Hiya? No one ever would have accused her of being perky in the past, but she'd seen enough of it in these Roses to have learned a thing or two from some pros. "Hi, hi, hi!" she added with a smile that made her cheeks hurt. "What do you think?" She twirled, the skirt swirling around her hips like she was a skater on ice. "Wow," they said, their faces scrunched in false cheer. "What are we having? Hot dogs! Yummy!" She marched right up to Trey and took his free hand. "You look yummy, too!" Trey grimaced. Perfect! They taped for hours. They played water volleyball in the pool, all the women doing their best to keep their hair dry. Chloe dunked herself immediately and left her hair plastered to her head. She oooed and gooed over Trey in her flat hair and 1950s bathing suit, and by the time they were wrapping up the party segments, Trey looked like he didn't know what had hit him. Finally, her plan was working. He'd seen the light that she was the plain-looking, too-sensible-for-fun sort of woman that she was. She would be ejected from the show before day's end, and she hadn't even had to lower herself and incorporate the more idiotic and certainly archaic aspects of Sid's suggestions. Being less elusive was goodâshe admitted that. But have sex, then act all clingy? Ha! She was bigger than that, smarter than that! She'd be leaving the rose ceremony without a rose and she hadn't even had to show much skin.
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They had only an hour to tape the rose ceremony because Chloe had forgotten that after the pool party eight Roses would have to take baths, do their hair, and dress, seven of them hoping to receive one of the remaining six positions. But finally they were ready to begin. The women wore formal eveningwear, this time compliments of Adriana's Accents. Jewels sparkled in the bright lights, makeup glittering on smiling faces. Chloe wore a tweed skirt and blouse, just to be on the safe side. Standing in a half circle, the Roses waited for Trey to appear. In real time, handing out the roses wouldn't take long. Later this afternoon, she, Julia, Pete, and Trey would edit the piece, drawing the moment out to create anticipation for the viewers. Plus they would add music, which would peak each time just before he offered a rose. "Is everyone ready?" Pete called out. "Then ... action." Trey entered the room, causing each woman to sigh, including Chloe, even though she managed to swallow it back. He looked more dashing than she wanted him to. He stopped next to the tray of yellow Texas roses. Then he looked at each of the women, smiling. "This is the hardest part for me," he began, his deep timbered voice running through the room, along each woman's senses. Chloe had the disconnected observation that this segment was going to make great television. "But unfortunately," he continued, "I have only six roses left. I wish I could choose each and every one of you because I have enjoyed your company. But because that isn't possible, I must begin." That seemed a little much, but still good TV. "Mindy," he said first, "will you accept this rose?" With a scrunch of shoulders and pert little nose, she hurried up to him and threw her arms around his shoulders. "Yes!" The other girls waited nervously, looking at one another, then away. Next came Nina. After that Leticia. A woman named Marnie, who had been in the background most of the time, strutted up and winked at him when he called her name, as if there had never been any doubt. Chloe fleetingly wondered what had gone on between the two of them that she hadn't seen. Not that she cared. She didn't, she told herself firmly. He moved on to Jo Beth. Then all too quickly, he had only one rose left. He played it out beautifully, and part of Chloe thought how well the show was going. She also felt certain that the rose wouldn't be for her. She was relieved. Happy. Though a strange twist in her heart made her flinch. And then he did the horribly impossible thing. "Chloe." Just that. Just her name. He had picked her! Her mood instantly plummeting like a ride on a roller coaster, it was all she could do not to launch herself at him and demand that he explain himself. He couldn't choose her. She should have run him off by now. But all thoughts for her own dismal situation were lost when she realized that Kacey stood next to her, crying. Kacey was crushed, along with Jessica, who sat there fighting back tears. Which was crazy, since she had snuck out each night to meet her new boyfriend. "Why, Trey?" Kacey choked out. The girls who had been chosen were relieved that they weren't the ones kicked off the show. They'd made it through another cut. Trey looked ill at ease in a way that Chloe never would have believed if she hadn't seen it firsthand. Plus, she felt horrible for Kacey. When he walked over to her, Chloe grabbed his arm. "Pick Kacey instead of me," she implored him. He looked down at her. Really looked. Then cupped her cheek, an intense emotion burning in his eyes, along with what she was sure was regret for hurting the other woman. "I wish I could." Then he stepped away and went over to Kacey and said something that made her smile. As much as Chloe didn't want to believe it, deep down, maybe, just maybe, there might be a bit of kindness in this coldly callous man.