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Still Mine

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Praise for

STILL MINE

“Twisty and swift, Amy Stuart’s
Still Mine
is a darkly entertaining mystery machine. But what will really surprise you is the emotional foundation on which it has been built.”

—Andrew Pyper, bestselling author of
The Demonologist
and
The Damned


Still Mine
delivers all the nail-biting moments of a fast-paced thriller. . . . You’ll find yourself turning the pages faster and faster.”

—Elisabeth de Mariaffi, author of
The Devil You Know

“An intricately woven thriller. . . . A vivid and haunting debut.”

—Holly LeCraw, author of
The Swimming Pool

“A haunting treasure of a book that burrowed its way into my psyche. . . . Not since
The Silent Wife
have I been rendered so powerlessly riveted by a psychological thriller.”

—Marissa Stapley, author of
Mating for Life

“A tense and absorbing read. . . . Stuart paints a vivid picture of the stark mountain town, Blackmore, and the cast of shadowy characters who inhabit it.”

—Lucy Clarke, author of
The Blue

For

(I could never have done this without)

Ian

Sometimes I dream of my escape. In my sleep I conjure a way out, another life waiting for me beyond this one. Sometimes I am climbing, or driving, or falling through a void with no clear place to land. But most often I am running, sprinting through the field and into the trees, my clip too fast for you to catch me.

Even in the version where I’m falling there’s this relief at having finally shed it all, these people, this place, you. The shame is gone, just like that. Replaced by a perfect calm. And do you know the strangest part? It feels good. I am free of your anger, and I don’t care how long it will take for you to notice I’ve disappeared. The dream doesn’t halt at the door to consider these things, because by the time it begins I am already gone.

WEDNESDAY

W
ith the moonless sky, Clare doesn’t see the mountains closing in. But then the road begins to rise and she knows she’s driving through the foothills, then come the switchbacks and the hum and pop in her ears, and finally the peaks and shadows, blank spots in the ceiling of stars. By dawn the mountains crowd the long vista of her rearview mirror, she is deep among them, and Clare guesses she’s covered nearly six hundred miles since sunset.

Drive west into the mountains, Malcolm said. Then cut north to Blackmore.

Clare climbs one last hairpin turn before signs of life pepper the roadside, peeling billboards first, then a scattering of ramshackle buildings. Her car lurches and revs, the ascent of this narrow road too much for its old engine. She passes a sign hammered right into rock: W
ELCOME TO
B
LACKMORE:
P
OPULATION
2500, the word
zero
spray-painted across it in black. The road flattens out and Clare reaches the row of storefronts that marks the town proper. Most of them are shuttered with plywood, the main strip devoid of cars and people.

Beyond the lone stoplight Clare finds the motel. She turns in and parks. Weeds grow through cracks in the asphalt, the motel L-shaped and bent around an empty swimming pool, its neon sign unlit. The barrenness washes over Clare, eerie and surreal, like a movie set built and then abandoned. Panic cuts through her, a grip tight around her chest, the coffee she’d picked up at a gas station hours ago still whirring through her veins.

The folder Malcolm gave Clare sits on the passenger seat. She flips it open. On top is a news article dated ten days ago: “Blackmore Woman Missing Since Tuesday.” Next to the text is a grainy photograph of a gaunt and unsmiling woman named Shayna Fowles. Clare examines the photo. They are roughly the same age, their hair the same deep brown, their skin fair, alike in certain features only. Is she imagining the resemblance, imposing herself on this woman?

This is your job, Malcolm said. You will go to Blackmore. See what you can find.

The car fills with the dampness of the outside air. Clare leans back against the headrest and closes her eyes. She thinks of Malcolm across from her in that diner booth, sliding the folder over to her, his own meal untouched. She had wanted only to get away from him, and Blackmore was the option on offer. Now she must gather herself up, muster the nerve to introduce herself to strangers, tell them her name, or at least the name Malcolm chose for her. Clare grips the dewy handle of the car door and lifts her backpack. Though she hasn’t worn her wedding ring in months, her finger still bears its dent.

Time to go.

At the motel reception Clare rings the bell once, then again when no one comes. She can hear the muffled din of a TV. Behind the desk the room keys hang in a neat row. Black mold snakes around the windows and patches the carpet in the corners.

“Hello?” Clare’s voice barely rises above a whisper.

Nothing. In her exhaustion, Clare cannot decide what to do next. At dawn, she’d pulled in to a lakeside rest area, walking straight past the picnic tables and the outhouse, wading thigh deep into the lake, catatonic, transfixed by the vast, jagged landscape of snow-peaked mountains. A foreign land. She’d hoped to take a warm shower. Malcolm told her about this motel. Clare slams her hand down hard on the bell.

The door at the far end of the office opens. A man in his sixties peers through, wiping his mouth with a napkin.

“We look open to you?” He tosses the napkin over his shoulder.

“The door was unlocked.”

“We’re closed.”

The man is gray haired and rosy cheeked. An old family portrait hangs on the wall to his right, a younger version of him the beaming father to two red-haired boys, his hand resting proudly on his pretty wife’s shoulder.

“If the rooms are still standing,” Clare says, “maybe I could just—”

“I’m closed.”

Clare nods.

“I’ve never seen you before,” he says.

“I’ve never been here before.”

“You a reporter?”

“No.”

“A cop?”

“No. I’m not a cop. I’m just here to see the mountains.”

“Huh. Right.”

“I take pictures.”

“Pictures. Of what?”

“Landscapes, mostly. Anything off the beaten track.”

“No one around here likes getting their picture taken,” he says, his voice flat.

“Like I said. Landscapes. Not people.” Clare pauses. “Is there another place in town I could stay?”

“No.”

Clare gropes through her bag for her car keys. Just arrived and already she’s failed at her first task. This motel might have been busy once, when Blackmore was still a bustling mining town, when there were jobs for everyone, money to go around, people to visit. Maybe this man’s sons had been miners. Maybe they were underground five years ago when the mine blew up and killed three dozen of Blackmore’s men. Clare detects a slight softening in the motel owner, his shoulders relaxing. He peels himself off the wall and approaches the desk.

“We had a bad melt in the spring,” he says. “All twenty rooms flooded. I’ve barely had a customer in months. Even if I wanted to, I couldn’t help you.”

“It’s okay,” Clare says. “I’ll figure something out.”

“There are plenty of mountain towns. You could pick another one.”

“I could,” Clare says.

Already her story feels like too much of a ruse, arriving in Blackmore alone and unannounced. On the drive she’d anticipated the questions the attendant just asked of her. Who are you? Why are you here? She’d rehearsed her answers. She and Malcolm had been hasty in picking photography as her cover, the one skill in her thin repertoire now ringing false on delivery. The attendant walks around and props the door open to usher her out.

“Turn around,” he says. “Drive back down the hill. That’s my advice.”

Clare retraces her steps to the car. The mountains are cloaked in low clouds, Blackmore’s main road fogged from view. She hears the bolt of the office door behind her. Clare knew full well the reception here would be cold. She grew up in a small town beset by the same woes as Blackmore. She remembers the way her neighbors closed rank when strangers turned up, all prying eyes unwelcome. Who knows what the motel owner sees when he looks at Clare? Maybe he knew Shayna Fowles, maybe his sons were friends with her. Maybe it rattles him, one woman gone missing and another turning up out of nowhere, a stranger in his midst.

T
his is what she dreams. Clare lies on the floor among shards of broken glass, her palms cut open. She looks up at him. When she opens her mouth to speak, the beer bottle hits her square between the eyes. She falls back to the cellar floor and the bottle smashes next to her. He punches the lightbulb and Clare feels its glass rain down. Then he slams the door and locks her in. She can’t hear any footsteps overhead.

If you leave,
he says, his voice muffled by the closed door,
I’ll find you. You know that, right? I’ll find you and I’ll kill you.

Clare jerks awake. The car is dark and sticky and she cannot breathe. In the black of the rearview mirror she spots movement. She fumbles with the door and drops to the wet ground, then scrambles to her feet, spinning in a circle. No one else is here. It takes a full minute before she is able to orient herself. Blackmore. The parking lot of the old hardware store. She’d driven here from the motel and climbed into the backseat to rest. That was early afternoon, and now it’s dark outside.

Clare knew the bad dreams would come back, the ache of withdrawal.

The air has thinned and cooled. Clare gets back into the car and flips down the visor mirror. Her face is flushed, her hairline rimmed with sweat, her chest tight. For months she’d been spared, but she knew. Clare knew it was a reprieve only, his shadow trailing ever behind, the willpower only carrying her so far. It took Clare six months to let down her guard. Then she met Malcolm Boon.

Wrappers and soda cans litter the floor of the car, relics from her long drive. In the glove compartment Clare finds the cell phone Malcolm gave her. The brightness of the screen blinds her. No messages.

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