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My heart starts pounding and my breathing picks up. Calm the fuck down dude she’s here again. Don’t fuck it up! I take a few deep breaths and look into her gorgeous eyes.

Chapter Six — Part Two — Jade

“I love you too baby, so fucking much and I’m so fucking sorry,” he mumbles against my lips. It’s that moment I finally believe him. Believe he’s sorry for hurting me so deeply.

             
“I know baby I know you are,” I pull back to look at him. He’s crying again, the first time we dated I never seen this man cry. But now this makes twice in a few days.

             
“Baby don’t cry,” I wipe his eyes.

             
“Fuck what is wrong with me,” he laughs.

I need to try and lighten the mood this past couple of days has been a damn roller coaster ride.

“You know what Lay,” I whisper staring into those deep coal eyes of his.

             
“That coal black stare of yours sucks me in so deep you can always get your way. You just need to learn how to use it on me all the time,” I laugh.

             
His thumb caresses my bottom lip. “Sometimes baby only sometimes. When you make up your mind you stick to it no matter what. Deep stare or not you’re a stubborn one.”

Maybe. Maybe not I think to myself.

              “Lay will you stay with me tonight and just cuddle with me? I really just need to be cuddled.”

I finally let Layden back in. And like I knew it wouldn’t take long. Like I said he owns my heart and soul.
He’s like a love grim reaper or something. He just takes that shit and doesn’t give it back.

             
“Yeah I’ll stay with you,” he shuts the door.

My body and mind are so worn down all I remember is crawling into bed, hitting the pillow and falling asleep soundly. I’m awoken by my screaming alarm and I immediately think about Dean bitching about it that puts a smile on my face. I slam my hand down on the off button as I feel a large arm wrap around my waist.  I look over at Layden he’s grinning ear to ear.

             
“Whats the grin for?”

He shrugs “It just feels good to wake up next to you again.”

This newly found Layden scares me. He’s never shared his feelings so openly before and that freaks me out.

I need space from these three men and I need to patch things up with Nate so I bring up the elephant in the room.

              “You need to go and speak with Tyson and I need to mend things up with Nate.” I climb out of my bed and grab my phone to text Nate.

             
Me: Want 2 talk? Breakfast?

Not even a few seconds go by before I hear back.

Nate: Yeah usual place? Old time?

Me: Yep

Nate: K

I place my phone on my dresser and pull out a pair of jean shorts and a simple halter top shirt. I want casual with flip flops I want Nate to take me seriously. Layden gets up sighing.

             
“I hate that you’re going to meet up with him just voicing my opinion.”

             
“Well he’s my best friend and you know better so don’t push me Lay please.”

He throws his hands up in surrender because he knows not to push me on Nate and he better not start now; especially with me dealing with the whole entire Ty situation.

              “Alright baby, meet after the noon classes?” He asks while throwing on his shoes.

             
“Yeah sounds good and be nice to Tyson I may not like her but she can drag us into hell if you’re not careful,” I warn him.

Layden looks momentarily stunned by my adultness and I giggle at him.

              “What?” I tease him with a carefree shrug.

             
He shakes his head with a smile and then turns those hypnotic coal eyes on me. “I love you baby,” he walks up to me throwing his arms around me. And yes I melt right into him sighing like a little love sick teenager. “I love you too Layden,” I mumble into his shirt. He kisses the the top of my head and it feels so fresh so new. Like everything might be different this time. I actually feel very content and I haven’t felt that way in a long time.

             
“Bye baby,” he pulls away and walks quietly out of my room.

I need to write in my diary it’s the only thing that will clear my head right now.

Dear College Diary,

              I know I haven’t written in you for a while and there is so much to write. So Layden and I are back together and I’m also dating his brothers Dean and Brayden. My feelings on that — not to sure right now. My head is fucking everywhere. I love Layden he owns my damn soul. I am falling in love with Dean he’s so good to me. But Brayden he’s so deep about everything. Just the few conversations we’ve had have sucked me into him. I’m screwed. I know I’m young and living a fun free life, but I mean isn’t unconventional to be semi in love with three guys? Oh and Layden might be the father of a girl named Tyson’s baby! And as much as it pains me that he might have a baby with someone else I can’t be upset it was while we were split up.  And Nate I’m still not sure what is going on I hope I have something nice to write about him later. I fucking wanted him forever and he didn’t want me. And now that I don’t want him he wants me. How fucked up is that? I don’t want to lose one of my best friends. I can’t. I won’t.

             
Sheila also slept with him and I think I felt a stab of jealousy and I need to get rid of that somehow. Of course I already love Nate he’s been my best friend for over two years so I don’t know what that pain is in my chest when I think of him and Sheila together. Let’s not forget Amber has always had the hots for Nate too. I also caught her checking Sheila out and she wants to have lunch on that topic tonight. Everything is such a fucking mess. Well I gotta go and meet up with Nate.

             
—Jade

Chapter Seven — Part One — Jade

              I walk slowly to the coffee shop I’m definitely not in a hurry now that I’ve thought about it. This might be one awkward conversation. It needs to happen though there is no way around it. The campus is already buzzing everyone scampering around. I’m losing my ice cold bitchness and I don’t like that. All these guys are breaking through my walls that I’ve fucking maintained for so many damn years. Even before Layden couldn’t get through and now all of a sudden my exterior is breaking down? What the fuck is up with that?

             
As soon as I pull the door open for the coffee shop the aroma hits me and I smile. Espresso’s make me happy. I see Nate flagging me down he of course already has my drink order. I stroll over while the students stare at me. I feel like screaming ‘what’ at the top of my lungs but then that would really give them something to talk about. Instead I just smile and park my happy ass down across from my best friend.

             
“Hey Nate,” I smile while I pick up my espresso blowing on it trying to cool it off.

             
“Hey babe.”

“So want to patch things up shrug this shit behind us,” I tease him trying to lighten the mood. He falls for it that gorgeous face lights up shaking his head yes so fast his blonde bangs flop into his eyes.

Fucking gorgeous son of a bitch!

Gah!

“Good because I miss you,” I say honestly.

“I miss you too Jade and I’m sorry I was a complete fucking asshole. You didn’t deserve any of that shit. I crossed a huge line and I’m sorry but I still don’t regret having sex with you.”

I can’t breathe. Back up repeat that shit!

“Nate I do because we wouldn’t have fought and none of this would have happened.”

He rolls his eyes and blows out a breathe forcing his bangs out of his eyes. Damn that stupid blonde shaggy hair it’s so hot.

“I don’t regret it babe nothing you say or do is going to make me change my mind. It happened if I can’t have you that way at least I have you as my friend. I love you so if friendship is what I get so fucking be it.”

He makes it sound so simple and it’s fucking not I’m going to agree with him though save us another stupid argument.

“Okay so fucking be it,” I agree.

              “Great so what’s going on with Amber?”

Oh hell no
! I haven’t even talked to her no way am I spilling her beans. It’s not my life it’s hers.

             
“No way Nate you know how I feel about sharing others secrets. I’m a bitch but not that big of one. Not my secret to share please don’t ask me again,” I plead.

             
I have to plead because Nate has a way of getting shit out of me when I don’t wanna talk. The only thing he can’t get out of me is my past or my feelings.

             
Nate smiles that sexy ass smile showing a full frontal glow of naturally white teeth.

Swoon!

See I have a weakness for this man. Must remind myself I am taking not once, twice but three times over and over again.

He explains to me what happened between him and Sheila he also tells me it wasn’t that great. The chemistry just wasn’t there and they both agreed to never talk about it again. I was under the impression it happened more than once but guess not.

—Nate’s Thoughts

Damn her and her fucking freckles. Why the fuck did I have to be so damn stupid? I mean seriously my best friend handed herself to me on a silver platter! And what do I do? I fuck it up just like I always do when it comes to her. I’ve always loved her. She’s Jade. That’s all there is to say she’s just Jade. My best friend. My confidant. My beautiful, sexy and smart Jade. Sleeping with her was…blissful. Yeah blissful. It was extremely hot and blissful. Dammit! It was fucking great! And I push her away? What the fuck is wrong with me? She’s smiling at me and my heart is pounding in my damn chest just from that one smile. FUCK! I run my fingers through my hair and mutter a string of curses under my breath.

             
I thought telling her about Sheila was going to be hard. No — letting her go — only having her as a friend that’s fucking hard.

Chapter Seven — Part Two — Jade

I’m smiling at him it’s forced I’m shocked he doesn’t notice that fact. I mean he’s running his fingers through his hair and mutter curses to himself. I just want my best friend back so I am choosing to ignore this.  I mean what else is there to say? I have three boyfriends and one of them might me a father soon. My life is a complete and utter fucking mess but I couldn’t be happier with it. Dammit my mind is all over the fucking place I’m sadistic that’s what I am. I enjoy doing this shit to myself. We chat a little while longer before saying goodbye. I head to my morning lectures and find Brayden waiting for me at the door. This will be strange having him with me instead of him being surrounded by a shit ton of girls.

             
“Hey sexy,” he grins at me.

I’m knocked back two steps in my mind. One being he looks fucking so damn edible I can’t focus. Two being we still haven’t had our talk. He’s leaning one foot on the wall and the other on the ground. His light blue jeans with holes in them not from being warn down. No — these were bought like this. They fit him so perfectly. His black motorcycle books with not one spec or scuff on them. His white tee hugging his biceps and chest tightly. His tattoo sleeve teasing me. I look back up to his coal black stare his eyes gleaming at me..

Shit! Totally busted checking him out. Oh who cares he’s my boyfriend right? Yeah that’s how I justify this. 

             
“Checking me out,” he groans pushing off the wall stalking towards me his fingers fist through my hair. My mouth drops open to protest. Hell I don’t know why. Before I can utter a single word his mouth smashes down to mine causing me to whimper. Damn his lips are soft. His tongue teases my bottom lip begging for entrance and I gladly admit him in.  Our tongues tangle. Every lap his tongue makes feels like were doing the tango. It’s precision. Brayden fucking kisses with expertise. Oh god my pussy tightens what if he fucks with expertise too?

             
“I don’t feel like going to class now,” I pant pulling away from his grinning beautiful mouth.

             
“No,” he teases.

“No — I really don’t,” I take his hand and start dragging him down the hallways.

              “Where are we off too,” he chuckles with his deep baron laugh.