Struggle (10 page)
Authors: P.A. Jones
The
night was sleepless, and my phone kept ringing. It must been Nathan. I didn't answer it because I was emotionally drained. I kept staring at the ceiling and, after some time, my eyes closed.
I wanted to throw my mobile
at the wall. That was the 135th text, and she hasn’t replied to any of them yet. I couldn't remember how many times I actually called her phone. Two days after that night, I was still unable to get a hold of her. I tried calling Chloe, but even she wasn't answering.
Why is she doing this?
After Samantha, she was the only one with whom I was becoming close, and now she’s thrown me off without saying anything. How could she do this to me? The questions were rolling around in my brain. I couldn't concentrate, I wanted to hurt somebody, I wanted to run away. Why the hell was she avoiding me? I was about to open up to her and she does this? The whole thing made my head hurt.
I thought of going to her house, but my ego
got in the way. After all, she hadn't given me a reason for anything. She just ditched me at the club. She just ran away. When I punched that bastard and left him on the ground, I turned back to where I left Eva, but she was gone. I called her again and again, but she was not answering. After a few hours, it went straight to voicemail so I knew her cell was off. I finally did get a text from Chloe saying that she was safe and to give her some time. I asked Chloe what was wrong, but she didn't answer. What was I supposed to make of that one text?
I was going out of my mind
. I didn't want to do anything else but drink, drink, and drink again. Whenever I wasn't drinking, I called or texted Eva, but got no answer. She kept ignoring me so I kept drinking.
Damn, did I lose her? It’s killing me
. The thought of losing her was cutting my heart out. Even the alcohol couldn't stop my sorrow. My heart kept crying only one name…Eva.
***
My phone rang again. Nathan. I was ignoring him
, but he was persistent. I didn't know what I wanted, but I knew it wasn’t him… at least right now. My jaw was hurting where Jacob hit me, but my heart was hurting more. I really liked him, but he turned out to be a jackass. I tried stopping him, but I could tell that he enjoyed the violence. I hated him for that, I hated the violence, and I hated Jacob. He ruined my life yet again.
I spent two days
in bed. Chloe tried to get me to go out, but I kept saying no. She knew something happened, but she also knew that I’d tell her what when I was ready. But after two days, she barged into my room and sat on my bed. “What are you doing to yourself, Eva?”
"Nothing, Chloe. Not now, please.”
"
Nathan texted me everything so I know that Jacob was at the restaurant. I also know that he has been calling and texting you, but that you are not answering. I am not going to advise you on your relationship with Nathan, but if you’re only rethinking things with him because of Jacob, you’ll never be happy.”
"It's not Ja
cob, Chloe. Nathan acted the same way Jacob did when we were dating. He started the fight. I know he is a boxer, but he should only be one
inside
the ring. I begged him to stop.”
"He
wanted to protect you, Eva. You are forgetting that Jacob hit you. You are forgetting all the bruises you got from Jacob when he was your boyfriend. You are forgetting the pain he gave you. You are forgetting the suffering and the doctor you had to see. You are forgetting he went to jail for beating you in public. And, most of all, you are forgetting how much Nathan likes you.”
I
knew she was right and I started crying.
Chloe came
over and took me in her arms. "Come on, sweetheart. He is a good guy. He protected you. You know that Jacob would have searched for you and started troubling you again. You have a strong man with you now.”
"You are right
, Chloe, but I’m afraid that Nathan will end up being a jerk, too. I don't want that."
"You can't really say that until you give him a chance
, Eva. He deserves better than this. Have you forgotten what he’s done for you? Remember the training? Also, he didn't take advantage of you when you were vulnerable. He stopped here to drop you off and made sure you were safe."
"You are right
, Chloe. Maybe I should give him a chance. Thanks for being there for me, sweetheart. You are the sister I never had…maybe more than a sister."
Chloe smiled a little.
“Now, pick up your cell and call him.”
I
picked up my phone and saw the message count… 138.
Damn, this man really likes me. Who am I to neglect him like this
? Before I could check the messages, the doorbell rang. Chloe headed to answer it.
"Sweetheart, someone is here for you."
Who would be at my door around 9 PM? I stood and slipped on my slippers as I headed out of my room. To my surprise, it was Nathan. He looked awful. His eyes were sunken in, he desperately needed a shave, and his clothes were all rumpled. But I wasn't in the mood to check my own clothes, either.
"How are you
, Nathan?" I was trying to be civil.
"Can you come out
here for a second?"
He
looked drunk, but he didn’t smell like alcohol. “I came here to say one thing.”
I opened my mouth, but he held his hand up.
"Let me finish first." He looked around. “The last two days were bad for me. I thought about you, I thought about the moments we spent together, I thought about our kiss, I thought about our training. Then I thought about the fight with Jacob, and I realized what I did wrong." He took my hand in his. "I just wanted to say that I love you, Eva.” He squeezed my hand. "You don't have to love me back or anything, but now I know that I truly love you. I just wanted to let you know.”
I was so stunned that I couldn't say anything. I went into his arms. "I love you, too." I started sobbing. "Just don't be violent outside the ring because I can't take it."
"I won't be
, sweet…,” he started, then fell down to the ground. This was the second time he passed out within the last week. I had to get him to the hospital.
“Chloe!!”
I called out. I was completely panicked. Why does he keep passing out? I knelt down, and tried to shake him awake. “Nathan! Can you hear me?!” Chloe came running in and said that Martin was going to be here any second to take her out. With his help, we could get him to the hospital.
***
Dr. Gore was the doctor in charge at the hospital. He ran some tests and gave him an injection. “How many days hasn’t he eaten anything?"
"What
?" I asked.
"This man seems to be living on
nothing but alcohol for the last few days. I don’t see how he had the strength to stand. Any normal being would have collapsed long before he did. Right now, he’s awake and asking for Eva.”
"I am Eva
, doctor. I’m his girlfriend.” The word girlfriend sounded very sweet, but I couldn’t think about that now. I went in to see Nathan.
He was smiling faintly.
“Why, Nathan?” I knew why, but I wanted to hear it from him.
"I am all right
, Eva. Don’t worry,” he said, as he drifted off to sleep.
The doctor
walked in. "I have given him a sedative and some liquid food. The ambulance will take him home, but it will be better if someone remains with him for one or two days.”
"I will do that
, doctor." I knew that I had to do it. After all, I was responsible for his condition.
When I woke up, I was in my own bedroom. The last thing I remembered was saying “I love you” to Eva. Then… I couldn't remember anything after that.
What the hell happened
? I tried to get up, but my leg hurt. I was weak, but I had to do something. Maybe I’ll try and get something to eat. With the help of my bed, I stood up and slowly walked into the hall.
Eva was sleeping on
the couch. I smiled and walked over to her, covering her with a blanket. I looked at her face. Her hair was framing it, and she was wearing my shirt. I walked to the refrigerator and opened it. I grabbed some apple juice to quench my thirst.
I sat on the dining
room chair and drank it slowly. Eva's phone rang and she suddenly sat up. She looked around, kind of like she forgot why she was at my place. She looked confused and sexy, and I wanted to kiss her. I really didn't have the strength, though.
"Hi
, Eva. How are you feeling?"
She looked at me with wide
eyes. She rubbed the back of her neck. "Why are you up? You could have called me to get you something.
"It's ok
ay, sugar. I can walk.”
"I know that
. You walked to my dorm. We’ll definitely discuss that once you’re better. Until then, no roaming around. I am staying here to help you with everything."
"I am so thankful to have you in my life
, Eva."
"Don't talk
, Nathan. Let’s get you back to bed. I will cook something for you." She got up and helped me back to my room. Before leaving, she kissed my forehead and whispered, "Sleep now, my baby." I just smiled and closed my eyes.
***
When I woke up after a few hours, lunch was ready. Having her in my home made me so happy. I wanted to do something to help her in everything she was doing, but my body needed rest so we watched some movies and laughed like crazy.
In the evening
, she made me tomato soup and chicken sausage. It tasted awesome. "These are the best sausages I have ever eaten…besides my mother’s,” I said, with a smile.
Her
cheeks became pink. She bit her lower lip. "Thanks for the compliment."
"I love you
, Eva."
"I love you
, too, Nathan. That’s the hundredth time you have said that to me today.” She laughed.
"I won't stop until the count reach
es into the thousands, Eva."
She stayed
with me for the next two days while I regained my strength. Her daily routine was the same… she got up early, did a round of running, then came back and woke me up for breakfast. We shared the happy moments, the sad moments, and what we thought when we met each other.
On the third
day when she was cooking breakfast for me, I walked up behind her and kissed her on the neck, the way I’ve wanted to kiss her for a long time. Maybe she is the girl I’ve waited so long for. Slowly but surely, she was pushing Samantha out of my head. The hatred in me was melting like ice on a sunny afternoon. I was finally finding peace.
I kissed her again
. "You have made my life meaningful again, Eva. I just can't tell you how much peace you have bought into my life. I am loving it."
"Same here
, Nathan, but it would be an even more peaceful breakfast if you just let me cook it."
“I want to eat you for breakfast."
"What?"
“You heard me.”
"But you don't have the strength."
"I can lift you and put you on my bed,” I said with a wicked smile.
***
Nathan
was touching me everywhere. He started at my forehead, trailing his finger down until he reached my lips. I took his finger in my mouth. “You cute little puppy,” he moaned.
I started sucking on his finger, but he pulled it out and moved it down my neck. I was getting aroused. He kept going, stopping near my cleavage. He pushed his other hand around my back and pulled my top up over my head. The next moment I was in my bra and he was looking at me like a kid looks at presents.
"Haven't you seen a women's
breasts before?” I giggled.
He smiled, moving his finger around the corner of my bra and lowering the right strap, then he lowered the left.
I shivered when his finger touched my right nipple. It wasn't
because he was the first man in my life, but it was his first touch. The way he was touching me made me shudder. I wanted to feel my skin on his skin, but he was making sure that I thoroughly enjoyed everything. He slowly took my bra off and I could see the desire in his eyes. I knew I had the same desire in mine. I covered my nipples with my hands. “So you think you can cover them?”
"Isn't it your job to
uncover
them?
His
finger trailed along the cleavage to my belly. He started caressing it.
Waves of passion were
flaming my belly and I could feel the wetness between my thighs. My head tilted back and my eyes closed, enjoying the magic that he was making with my body.
His finger slowly
trailed up until it reached my left nipple catching it between his two fingers.
Damn, this man is making me crazy.
“What are you doing to me, Nathan?”
"Just making sure that you enjoy everything.” He winked. "Do you want me to stop?"
He was making me a
beggar, but what the hell? He was good at what he was doing. "No, damn, don't stop." His other hand started caressing my back.
I couldn't believe
how wet I was. Nathan was still wearing his shirt so I knew that I had to do something about that. I snatched his shirt and pulled, buttons flying everywhere. I pushed it off of his shoulders, and put my hand on his chest so I could feel his muscles. I could feel his heart and that was more exciting to me than anything. I moved my hand down his sexy abs. This is exactly how I dreamed that his muscles would feel under my hands. I moved past his belly to his waistline. He was wearing shorts. I moved my hand down under his shorts, then his underwear to search for his bulge. He jumped when I touched it, then I wrapped my hand around it.
Nathan relaxed
as I took his manhood out. I could see the first drop of pre-cum on the head. I slowly lowered my head, licking it. I wrapped my lips around the tip of it, then slowly took it in.
His one hand was holding my
hair, and the other hand was gripping the corner of the bed. "Oh, baby. That feels awesome.”
I
took him deeper, listening to him moan. I moved up and down slowly, making sure that he got the taste of the action and not the full course.
His hand was firm on my neck
, and he pulled my head up. "I don't want to end up there yet. We can save it for later.”
He got up
, pulling the shorts back up. “What are you doing?”
"I am making
it romantic.” He turned on the music and held his hand out for me. I went to grab my top before I stood up, but he stopped me. “Let’s do it like this.”
He pulled me to him and wrapped me in his arms, and we started to dance. My bare nipples were pressed on his hard chest, and his cologne was slowly making its way into my skin.
I put my head on his shoulder and
clung tightly to him. We danced like that for almost five minutes, then he started caressing my spine again. I closed my eyes to enjoy the sensation and feel the waves of pleasure emerging in my belly.
Both his
hands went to my skirt and pushed it down. It fell to the floor, which left me standing in my lace G-string.
He stopped dancing and
picked me up. I wrapped my legs around his waist and looked into his eyes to see dark desire. He grabbed my neck and pulled my mouth to his, biting my lip with his teeth. His tongue slowly entered my mouth. He was searching for my tongue, but I was in a playful mood so I rolled it away from his. He forced his tongue deep inside and found mine. He tasted like a dark chocolate dipped in white cream.
Slow music, wrapped around the body of a strong man
… what else would I need to make me fully aroused? He withdrew his tongue and looked at my breasts. “These are marvelous, Eva.”
"Aren't you
going to taste them?" I whispered in his ear.
"Oh
, yes, baby." He put one inside his mouth.
He was holding my right breast inside his mouth and circling his tongue around my nipple. It felt so
wonderful. I was getting wet again. "Nathan, suck them hard." I couldn't control myself.
He
drew my nipple further into his mouth, biting it, then licking it to soothe the pain. His other hand was on my hips, squeezing them tightly. I wanted his hardness inside me, but he was holding me in such a way that I couldn't do anything but hold onto him and push my nails into his shoulder.
He focused on
the other breast, leaving my right one sore and wanting more. “Nathan, I can't wait anymore." It was getting harder for me to control my urges. I wanted him badly, and he was making me more and more exited. "Please, Nathan…" I was begging him, but he wasn't listening. Finally, he laid me on the bed.
He removed my
panties and looked at the treasure hidden beneath them. Moaning, he kissed my labia, flipped me over, and pulled down his underwear the rest of the way. From behind, he put the tip of his manhood on my entrance, holding my hips.
“What
are you waiting for, Nathan?”
"Your smile
, sweetheart." He pushed himself inside, making me complete. He inserted it slowly because I was very tight. Almost a year without sex made me tighter than normal. I looked over my shoulder at him.
I could
feel his manhood fill me completely. It was the sweetest moment of my life. Pain and pleasure were starting and I was enjoying both. “Mmmm,” I moaned.
His grip on my
shoulder tightened and he started pumping faster. The whole bed was vibrating with my body. I couldn't take it anymore. I cried in excitement and wrapped him inside.
"I am coming
, baby!" he exclaimed and increased his speed.
My heart was racing and I was getting
closer to my second orgasm. "I am coming again!”
In the
next moment, we came together. He fell down by my side, and I kissed him on his chest. "Thanks for that, Nathan."