One more time. Just tell me one more time. G. I. Hasuikes eyes were so bloodshot that they looked like red marbles. Mas didnt know who else to call at midnight. G. I. wasnt the best, but he, at least right now, was their only shot.
Akemi, sitting on Mass couch, took another breath. They came saying that they had a warrant for Yukis arrest. That lady died in the hospital. They have a witness now, saying he did it.
A witness, G. I. muttered. Mas hadnt noticed the first time, and now saw that his hair, fastened in a ponytail, reached his waist. Who?
Akemi shook her head. I dont know. But you got to get him out of jail.
G. I. nodded. Hell have to stay there overnight. The arraignment will be scheduled probably during the next few days, and then theyll move the case from municipal to superior court. Thats what they do in felony cases.
Akemi pulled a pillow from the couch and squeezed it hard. Someone was knocking on the door, and Mas looked through the side window to check. It was just Haruo. Mas had called him; Haruo was attached to the boy and would want to be informed. Now, with four of them in the living room, G. I. kept going about first- and second-degree murder, involuntary manslaughter, continuances, and setting bail. Mas had little idea about the meaning behind the terms, but G. I. apparently did.
Theyll assign him a PD, but then I can come in. That is, if you want me to represent your grandson.
Akemi nodded again.
G. I. stood up and then clutched Akemis shoulder. Itll be all right,
Obasan
.
Gam-BA-re,
he said in broken Japanese. His pronunciation was terrible, but it didnt matter. They were all in this together.
Mas couldnt sleep that night. Even some two hours after G. I. and Haruo left McNally Street, Mas wandered the rooms of his house like a ghost. This was his fault. Why had he given Yuki directions to the mistresss house that morning at the hospital? And how could the mistress have just died like that? She had had all the answers, and Mas had been planning to get them from her in time. But now the time was gone.
Mas wanted to make this whole thing right. Somehow. He knew how to play the game in dingy rooms in Little Tokyo and other places across the country, and even Hiroshima circa the 1940s. But the police and courts those were way out of his league. That was a world G. I. and other Sansei understood. They could swim in those waters. If they were any good, they could avoid becoming someones next meal. If they were real good, they could pop out of a rock and bite unsuspecting prey right in the face. The next few days would reveal just how good or bad G. I. Hasuike was.
As Mas wandered to the kitchen, he noticed a sliver of light under Maris old bedroom door. Akemi was still up, like him. He softly rapped on the door.
Come in, Masao-
san,
she said.
She was wearing slacks and a nice blouse, as if she were ready to go to the courthouse with G. I. at three oclock in the morning. She gestured for Mas to sit on the bed. He complied.
Cant sleep, she said. Every time I lie down, I picture Yuki there, alone. It must be cold in that jail.
Heezu tough. He be
orai
. Mas put his hands on his knees and studied the looped rug on the floor of Maris old bedroom. The rug had been from one of his customers. A widow who had been cleaning her attic. Mari had immediately fallen in love with it, remembered Mas. Shed said it reminded her of the pioneer days. What pioneer days, she didnt say.
Hes all I have, Masao-
san
. I still cant believe that his father is dead. The cancer just spread through Hikaris body in a matter of months. Its like that shadow that was following us for fifty years had finally caught up.
Mas regretted knocking on Akemis door. This was the last thing he wanted to talk about now.
Before he died, I wanted to tell Hikari the truth. About his father. But I didnt know his first name. Just the last. Sato.
Mas was jolted from his daydreams. Sato, he said aloud.
I know, Akemi continued. There are thousands of Satos out there. I dont think you knew him. He was older. Part of the military police, at the time you three were working at the train station.
The MPs. They had come to the Hanedas almost once a week.
You know they questioned us, right? My mother, Joji, even the maid. They wanted to know about our ties to America. If we kept in touch with my father in Los Angeles. You remember, Masao-
san
? You gave me the coals so that I could burn my English books one morning.
Mas nodded. He could still feel the coldness of that winter morning and feel the chalky charcoal on his face.
He was just one among many. They accused me of horrible things. Sato wasnt as cruel, but he seemed as though he knew a secret. That he was above all of them. They poked me with their batons, and then began to jeer me. Is it true what they say about
gaijin
women? they said. Akemis voice remained steady but was softer, as if a volume knob inside of her had been turned down to low. They did nothing the first time. But they kept calling me back in. I couldnt sleep at nights, Masao-
san
. I still cant.
Mas felt his blood stir. Those sonafubitchi MPs what had they done to Akemi?
Akemi must have sensed Mass anger, but she shook her head. No, no, Masao-
san,
she said. Thats the thing. They said awful, terrible things, even slapped me once. But they didnt go as far as . . . You see, I ran into Sato one evening on my way to the bathhouse from my aunts house. I lived at her place for a short time to be close to the factory. He must have lived downtown, I guess. I was afraid. I immediately put my head down, hoping that he would not recognize me, but he did. He wasnt wearing his uniform. Just simply a cotton
yukata,
and
geta
on his feet. Haneda-
san,
he called out. And we talked. I thought in the beginning that it was a trick, so I said nothing. But then the next evening I met him again, and the next night and then the next.
Mas bit down on his gums. His dentures were still floating in some water in the bathroom, but he didnt care. There was no vanity between him and Akemi.
I began to trust him. I know it sounds crazy. Akemi brought her freckled hands to her face. I was so lonely, Mas, you have to understand. Before I knew it, it had happened. Later on, it was almost worse than a physical rape. He ignored me, Masao-
san
. Like I was a piece of trash, or an animal. Like it was my job to service him.
I tried to pretend that I wasnt pregnant. I denied it to myself. I tried to work especially hard in the factory, hoping that the baby would just dissolve and leave me. Just the stupid thinking of a nineteen-year-old. How could I tell my mother? She had suffered so much. But Joji knew. He told me not to worry. That he would take care of us. He had a plan, he said, but he never told me what.
Even after the
pikadon
fell, I still expected that Joji would come back. I know that it sounds stupid, but I thought that my brother was more powerful than any bomb. We even went down to the train station, or at least where the train station used to be. We searched underneath every burnt limb, every piece of broken concrete. After hours and hours of searching, we finally ate the rice balls we had packed. Like a picnic in the woods only this picnic was in the middle of a nightmare.
Mas continued clutching his knees. He felt dizzy, and now the loops in the rug seemed to swirl.
I needed something, Masao-
san
. I needed some proof. Later on, they sent us a bone and said it was Jojis. We knew that it was the bone of a horse. But it helped Mama, at least. There was something she could bury. Akemi stared at Maris wall full of high school mementos and photos of
hakujin
boys with long hair.
I wanted to talk to you, but you were too weak, I guess. Within days, Mama finally noticed the obvious. I was at least three months pregnant. Mama didnt ask questions, but she didnt speak of me to the neighbors, and told me not to go outside. I guess everyone assumed that I was dead. She took me away to our relatives in the countryside. We made up a lie, that I had married. My husband had been a soldier in the war. When they asked me his name, I just said Riki Kimura. I dont know why. I barely knew him. But what I knew, I liked.
Mas let out a funny hacking noise, and Akemi caught on immediately. Mas, you didnt have it as bad as us, she said, almost angry. You didnt know. Riki Kimura yes, he was a troublemaker. But he also fought for us.
Heezu just out for himself. Like a big shot.
Maybe. Maybe for some reason he felt like an outsider, too. Akemi folded her hands together, and Mas kept his mouth shut. When I came back to Hiroshima, when Hikari was only two, I heard that Riki Kimura had disappeared. That his familys house had been destroyed. It was so convenient cant you see? Riki Kimura could officially be my sons father. I could even claim we were married. The records were all gone.
So Yuki thinks Riki Kimura is his grandfather? Mas remembered the square name tag that Yuki had proudly shown them that day of the medical exams.
Akemi nodded. It all started with my son, Hikari. Having no father, no brothers, no sisters, he was lonely. I filled his emptiness with stories about Riki Kimura. Even in my eyes, Riki became bigger than life. I could say anything about him. That he was Japanese not
Kibei,
like us but he still stood up for us. That he was brave and good. I couldnt tell my son the truth. That I had had sex with a man I knew only as Sato. That he was a
rokudemonai hito,
a worthless person. And that I was even more contemptible, because I was so weak.
It was wartime. Thatsu the past, Akemi. We all do things back then.
And Yuki, he heard all the stories from his father. He cant know what really happened. Akemi dabbed at the wetness around her eyes with her fingers. They were bent, like crooked nails from arthritis, no doubt.
Akemi-
san
. Mas had to explain. Akemi had a right to know how her brother had died.
But once again Akemi stopped him. Im very tired, Masao-
san,
she said.
Mas himself was exhausted. He felt that he could sleep for days or even weeks. He rose to leave.
Masao-
san
.
Mas waited.
This is not your fault. If I didnt have that stupid hope that Joji was somehow alive, Yuki would have never come here.
Mas closed the door behind him and then checked the dead bolt on the front door. Then he remembered. The pink box. Tripping over the torn-up driveway in his bare feet, he opened up the Jeep. The dome light revealed nothing. Mas fervently traced the car floor with his fingers. But it was no use. The pink box and thirty thousand dollars were gone.
