turned, and strode back to his car. She
dropped the gas cap in her haste to screw it back in.
Finally getting it secured, she rounded her car and got in. She started her motor; his car pulled up beside
hers.
He looked at her as though to make certain that she
was as resolute as he, that she wasn't going to bolt
and disappear the first chance she got.
Which she knew was what she should do. But she
knew with just as much certainty that she wouldn't.
Not now.
Hammond didn't take an easy breath until her car
came to a full stop beside his. He got out and went to
open her door for her. "Watch your step, it's dark."
Taking her hand, he led her up a crushed-shell path
toward the cabin. A small porch fixture provided just
enough light for him to see to open the lock with the
key he had brought with him from Charleston.
He pushed the door open and ushered her inside. A
local lady cleaned the place whenever needed. He
had scheduled her to come earlier that day. Rather
than smelling musty, like an empty, infrequently used
dwelling, the cabin smelled clean, like freshly laundered
linens. Per Hammond's request, the air conditioner
had also been left on, so it was pleasantly cool.
He closed the front door, separating them from the
porch light and plunging them into complete darkness.
He had every intention of being a good host and
gentleman, of showing her around the cabin, of offering
her something to drink, of telling her more
about himself and giving her time to adjust to being
alone with him only hours after their meeting. Instead,
he reached for her.
She came willingly into his arms, seemingly as
eager for his kiss as he was for hers. Her mouth responded
warmly to the thrusts of his tongue that
stroked and tested and tasted her until he had to pause
to catch his breath. Lowering his head, he pressed his
face into her neck, while her hands closed around the
back of his head and her fingers combed through his
hair.
He kissed his way up to her ear. "This is crazy," he
whispered.
"Very."
"Are you afraid?"
"Yes."
"Of me?"
"No."
"You should be."
"I know, but I'm not."
His lips rubbed against hers in a not-quite kiss.
"Afraid of the situation?"
"Terrified," she said as her mouth dissolved
against his.
Finally ending the kiss, he said, "This is rash and
reckless and--"
"Totally irresponsible."
"But I can't help it."
"Neither can I."
"I want so much to--"
"I want you to," she sighed as his hands slipped
beneath her top and covered her breasts.
Any misgivings he had that the desire was onesided
vanished when her head fell back, offering her
throat to his lips while he caressed her. Her breath
caught and held when he fumbled with the front clasp
of her brassiere, but she released a soft murmur of
pleasure when his fingertips brushed her bare skin.
Her hands moved over his back. He felt all ten of
her fingers kneading muscle and exploring ribs and
spine. Her palms skimmed over his belt, settled on
his butt, pulled him into her.
They kissed once more, a long, deep, provocative
kiss.
Then he took her hand again and pulled her along
behind him as he felt his way across the living area
into the bedroom. The cabin wasn't luxurious by any
means, but he hadn't sacrificed all creature comforts.
Into a room too small for one, he had crammed a
king-size bed.
It was across this that they fell, coming together in
its center and twining around one another with the
blind, mindless craving of new lovers.
She lay on her side facing away from him.
Hammond tried to think of something appropriate
to say, but he discarded possibilities before they were
fully formed. Everything that came to mind sounded
either false, corny, cliched, or a combination thereof.
He even thought about telling her the truth.
My God, that was incredible.
You are incredible.
I've never felt like this in my life.
I don't want this night ever to end.
But he knew she wouldn't believe any of it, so he
said none of it. The long, strained silence became
even longer and more strained. Eventually he rolled
to his side and switched on the nightstand lamp. She
reacted to the light by pulling her knees up closer to
her chest, if anything becoming more withdrawn and
untouchable.
Discouraged, he sat up. His shirt was twisted and
unbuttoned, his pants unzipped, but he was still wearing
both. Getting up, he removed everything except
his boxers. When he looked up again toward the bed, she had rolled onto her back and was watching him,
her eyes wide and apprehensive.
"This is an awkward moment. That's fair to say,
isn't it?"
Hammond gingerly sat down on the edge of the
bed. "It's fair, yes."
She wet her lips, rolled them inward, averted her
eyes from his, and nodded. "Are you trying to think
of a graceful way to get rid of me now?"
"What?" he exclaimed softly. "No. No." He extended
his hand to touch her hair, but let it fall before
it reached her. "I was trying to think of a way to get
you to stay the night without making a complete fool
of myself."
He could tell that pleased her. Her eyes found his
again. She smiled shyly. Still sex-flushed, her lips
slightly swollen from hard kissing, her hair tousled
around her face, clothes in more disarray than his had
been, she looked incredibly seductive. Her breasts,
freed from her brassiere, lay softly against her chest
beneath her top. But her nipples were distinct against
the weave. He started getting hard again.
"I'm a mess." Self-consciously she tugged her
skirt down over her thighs. Both of them ignored the
pair of panties lying on top of the bedspread at the
foot of the bed. "May I use your bathroom?"
"Right through that door." He stood to leave so she
would have more privacy. "I'll get us something to
drink. Are you hungry?"
"After eating all that junk food at the fair?"
He returned her smile. "How about some water?
Juice? Tea? Soft drink? Beer?"
"Water's fine."
He hitched his chin toward the connecting bathroom
door. "If you need anything, just ask."
"Thank you."
She seemed reluctant to get off the bed while he
was still in the room, so he smiled at her again and
left her alone. Thankfully the cleaning lady had
stocked the fridge with bottled drinks, including
water. While there, he took an inventory of staples. A
half dozen eggs. A pound of bacon. English muffins.
Coffee. Cream? No. He hoped she drank her coffee
black. Orange juice? Yes. A six-ounce can of concentrate
in the freezer.
He rarely ate breakfast unless it was a business
meeting. But in the country, where the weekend
mornings were longer and lazier, he liked to indulge
in a hearty late breakfast. He was an okay cook, especially
something as basic as bacon and eggs.
Maybe they would cook breakfast together, dividing
the chores, bumping into one another as they went
about them. Laughing. Kissing. Then they could
carry their plates out onto the porch to eat. He smiled
at the thought of tomorrow morning.
"This morning," he corrected, checking the clock
and realizing that it was well after midnight.
Yesterday had been a bitch. He had left Charleston
upset and angry, frustrated on many levels. Nothing
in his life had been right. Never in a million years
would he have guessed that such a sour day would
end with his making love to a woman he hadn't
known existed a few hours ago. Nor that it would be
such a meaningful experience.
He continued marveling over the caprice of fate
until he heard the water in the bathroom shut off. He
forced himself to wait two minutes more, not wanting
to reappear too quickly or at an inopportune time.
Then he grabbed two bottles of water and made his
way back to the bedroom.
"By the way," he said as he pushed open the door
with his bare foot, "I think it's time we properly introduced
--"
He stopped when she turned quickly from the
dresser, the telephone receiver in her hand. She hung
up immediately and blurted out, "I hope you don't
mind."
Actually, he did mind. He minded one hell of a lot.
Not that she had used his telephone without asking
first. But that she had someone in her life who was
important enough to call in the wee hours of the
morning within minutes of making love to him. It
stunned him how much he minded.
He'd dallied in the kitchen, fantasizing about having
breakfast with her, counting the minutes until he
could return with propriety. Now he was standing
here with a dumb expression on his face and a semi-erection
poking against his undershorts. And all this
while she was placing a phone call to somebody else.
He set the bottles of water on the nightstand.
He felt stupid and ridiculous, alien feelings for
Hammond Cross. Usually self-confident and on top
of any given situation, he felt like a real dumb-ass,
and he disliked the feeling intensely.
"Would you like some privacy?" he asked woodenly.
"No, it's all right." She replaced the receiver. "I
couldn't get through."
"Sorry."
"It wasn't important." She folded her arms across
her waist, then nervously dropped them to her sides.
If it wasn't important, then why in hell were you
trying to place a call at this time of night? he wanted
to ask, but didn't.
"Is it okay if I wear this?"
"What?" he asked distractedly.
She ran her hand down the front of the old, faded
T-shirt. He recognized it as a fraternity party shirt
from college days; it caught her mid thigh "Oh. Sure.
It's fine."
"I found it in the chest of drawers in the bathroom.
I wasn't snooping. I just--"
"Don't mention it." His curt tone spoke volumes.
Her hands formed fists at her sides, then she shook
them loose. "Look, maybe it would be better if I left
now. We both got a little carried away. Maybe the
ride on the Ferris wheel went to our heads." Her stab
at humor fell flat. "Anyway, this was ..." Her words
trailed off as she glanced at the bed.
Her gaze lingered there probably longer than she
intended it to. The jumbled linens were a poignant reminder
of what had taken place on them, and how in
volving and satisfying it had been. Words whispered
with unrestraint seemed to echo back to them now.
While in the bathroom, she had washed. Hammond
could smell soap and water on her skin. But he
hadn't washed. He smelled like sex. He smelled like
her.
So when she said hastily, "I'll just change back
into my clothes and be on my way," and made to
move past him, his arm shot out and caught her waist.
She came to a standstill, but she didn't turn toward
him. She stared straight ahead. "Whatever else you
may think about me, I want you to know that... that
this isn't something I do casually or routinely."
Softly he said, "It doesn't matter."
She looked at him then, turning only her head. "It
matters to me. It matters to me that you know that."
Moving carefully, he rested his hands on her
shoulders and brought her around to face him. "Do
you honestly think it was just a ride on the Ferris
wheel that brought us to this?"
As though to keep her lower lip from trembling,
she pulled it through her teeth and shook her head no.
Placing his arms around her, he drew her close and
hugged her. Just that. And he held her for a long time,
with his cheek resting on the crown of her head, toes
touching, sharing body heat. Barefoot, swaddled in
his T-shirt, she seemed smaller and daintier than before.
Embracing her like this made him feel virile and
protective. In fact, since meeting her, he had felt like
goddamn Conan.
He chuckled at the thought. She raised her head
from his chest and looked up at him. "What?"
"Nothing. Just thinking how good you make me
feel." Then his smile was replaced by a worried
frown. "What about you? Are you all right?"
She tilted her head in puzzlement. "Yes."
"I mean . . . with . . . you know."
"Oh." Her gaze dropped to his Adam's apple.
"Yes. Thank you for doing the responsible thing."
He kept a box of condoms in the nightstand
drawer. But never had one been so difficult to open
and put on. Embarrassed now by his clumsy
wrestling match with the stubborn thing, at a time