The Book of Disquiet (74 page)

offspring of the stiff furniture
: ‘offspring of dead things’ (alternate version)

84
[3/42, typed] 25 April 1930.

Sigismund, King of Rome
: The Holy Roman Emperor from 1411 to 1437.

The title is royal, and the reason for it is imperial
: ‘The title isn’t bad, and it belongs to the man who can “is himself”’ (alternate version)

85
[2/3, typed]

86
[2/3, ms.]

the Romanization of Hellenism through Judaism
: ‘the Judaization of Hellenism through Rome’ (alternate version)

our age – senile and carcinogenic
: ‘our age – an illiterate’s bibliophilia’ (alternate version)

gave rise to all the negations we use to affirm ourselves
: ‘gave rise to the era that brought their fall’ (alternate version)

with sociologies such as these?
: ‘with all these civilizations?’ (alternate version)

87
[3/39, ms.] Dated 6 May 1930.

thereby shoving it up against the wall
: ‘thereby letting it flow like a river, the slave of its own bed’ (alternate version)

88
[5/60, ms.]

89
†[133F/95, ms.]

90
[3/34, typed] Dated 14 May 1930.

91
[3/35, typed] Dated 15 May 1930.

92
[5/42–4, ms.] The text carries the following heading, in English:
(our childhood’s playing with cotton reels, etc.)

my inner life
: ‘my inner stage setting’ (alternate version)

window on to the street of my dreams
: ‘window that looks inside me’ (alternate version)

93
[5/19, ms.]

94
[3/33, ms.] Dated 18 May 1930.

95
[2/78, typed] Dated 18 May 1930. Published in
Presença
, June–July 1930.

96
[3/16, typed]

97
[4/84, ms.]

98
[1/56, typed]

99
[3/32, typed] Dated 12 June 1930.

100
[3/29, ms.] Dated 13 June 1930.

101
[5/1, ms.]

102
[3/27, typed] Dated 27 June 1930.

103
[144X/29, ms.]

104
†[133F/79, typed]

105
†[20/50, typed]

106
[1/89, typed]
Cesário Verde
: See note for Text
3
.

107
[7/14, ms.]

Terreiro do Paço
: ‘Palace Square’, so called because of the royal palace that stood there from the sixteenth to the eighteenth centuries. When the palace was destroyed by the 1755 earthquake, the large and elegantly redesigned square was renamed Praça do Comércio.

108
[2/80, typed] Dated 16 July 1930.

the poet
: José de Espronceda (1808–42). The two verses, taken from a long narrative poem titled
El Estudiante de Salamanca
, were cited by Pessoa in the original:
languidez, mareo
/
y angustioso afá n
. Pessoa left an incomplete English translation of the work, which he titled
The Student of Salamanca
and credited to heteronym Charles James Search, brother of Alexander.

109
[2/16, typed] The parenthetical heading is in English in the original.

110
[2/29, typed] Dated 20 July 1930.

111
[5/49, typed]

112
[2/83, ms.] Dated 25 July 1930.

113
[5/78, ms.]

114
[4/85, ms.]

115
[4/82, ms.]

116
[7/30, typed]

117
[2/82, typed] Dated 27 July 1930.

118
[3/2, ms.]

119
[5/46, ms.]

Amiel’s diary
: See the note for Text
72
.

Scherer
: Edmond Scherer (1815–89), a well-known French literary critic, was a friend of Amiel’s and wrote the Preface to his posthumously published
Fragments d’un journal intime
. Pessoa’s memory of the passage alluded to was inaccurate. The journal records that Scherer, in a conversation, spoke of ‘
l’intelligence de la conscience
’; it was Amiel himself who spoke of ‘
la conscience de la conscience
’.

120
[4/67, typed]

121
[1/16 a, ms.]

122
[2/50, ms.]

I live, all of it equally condemned to change
: ‘I live which, because it moves, is passing’ (alternate version)
cross the river… from the Terreiro do Paço to Cacilhas
: Ferries still make frequent crossings from several points in Lisbon to the former fishing village of Cacilhas, from where many buses proceed to surrounding towns. See note for Text
107
.

123
[4/40, typed]

Santa Justa Lift
: Built in 1902, it connects the lower and upper parts of Lisbon’s centre.

124
[7/20, typed] The parenthetical heading is in English in the original.

The argonauts said
: Pessoa often used the word ‘argonauts’ to mean ancient navigators in general (cf. Text 125 and ‘Symphony of the Restless Night’), and the phrase he cites was in fact not the motto of the Argonauts led by Jason. It was uttered, according to Plutarch, by Pompey the Great when, in spite of a heavy storm, he ordered his ships to set sail for Rome with the grain they had loaded in Sicily, Sardinia and North Africa.

125
†[28/12, ms.]

argonauts
: See note for Text
124
.

126
[2/84, typed] Dated 10 December 1930.

127
†[8/9, ms.]

128
[3/49, ms.]

129
[3/14, ms.]

130
[3/44, typed]

Cesário Verde
: See the note for Text
3
.

131
[3/12, ms.]

Vieira
: See note for Text
30
.

like the Fate of us all
: ‘like this note I’ve been writing’ (alternate version)

132
[5/30, typed]

133
[2/58–9, mixed]

134
[5/41, ms.]

135
[2/21, ms.]

136
[3/48, ms.]

137
[4/21, typed]

138
[4/37, typed]

Benfica
: Once an outlying suburb and now a fully integrated neighbourhood of Lisbon.

‘Any road,’ said Carlyle
: In Thomas Carlyle’s
Sartor Resartus: The Life and Opinions of Herr Teufelsdröckh
.

Condillac begins his celebrated book
: Etienne de Condillac (1715–80) begins his
Essai sur l’origine des connaissances humaines
(1746) not by saying that we never escape our sensations but that we never escape our own selves (which is also what Pessoa says in his next sentence, after the inaccurate citation). Further on in the
Essai
, however, Condillac affirms that everything we know depends on our sensations. Pessoa seems to have crunched several ideas into one, without after all being unfaithful to the French philosopher’s thought.

139
[2/87, typed] Dated 8 January 1931.

140
[2/1, mixed]

141
[7/31, ms.]

142
[1/17, typed]

143
[1/33, typed]

144
[3/7, ms.] Dated 1 February 1931. The manuscript ends with the following paragraph, crossed out by the author:
What do I know? What do I seek? What do I feel? What would I ask for if I had to ask?

145
[4/12, typed] Dated 2 February 1931.

146
[3/1, ms.]

147
[1/70, typed]

148
[9/17, ms.]

149
[3/87–8, typed] Dated 3 March 1931. Published in
Presença
, November 1931–February 1932.

Haeckel
: Ernst Heinrich Haeckel (1834–1919), a German biologist and philosopher. Pessoa had four books by Haeckel in his personal library (in French translations), including
Riddle of the Universe
(1899), which propounds a materialist view of the world.

Loures
: Located about ten miles north-west of Lisbon.

Sanches
: Francisco Sanches (1551–1623) was a Portuguese doctor and philosopher who spent most of his life in France. His most important work,
Quod nihil scitur
(1581), systematically employs doubt to argue that nothing can be known with certainty.

150
[1/67, typed]

151
[6/14, typed]

152
[1/14, typed]

153
[6/9, typed]

154
[2/65, ms.]

155
[4/30, typed] Dated 10 March 1931.

156
[7/15, ms.]

157
[5/52, typed]

158
[4/20, ms.]

159
[5/50, typed]

160
[2/33, typed] Dated 8 April 1931.

to be beyond repair
: ‘to lack the soul to be’ (alternate version)

161
[2/46, typed]

162
[2/24, ms.]

Horace said
: In the third ode of his third book of odes.

163
[2/38, ms.]

164
[7/28–28a, ms.]

165
[1/12, typed]

166
[2/54, typed] Dated 18 June 1931.

167
[2/56, typed] Dated 20 June 1931.

168
[1/35, typed]

who timidly hate life, fear death with fascination
: ‘between life which I grudgingly love and death which I fear with fascination’ (alternate version)

169
[2/64, typed]

170
[2/55, typed] Dated 30 June 1931.

171
[1/74–5, typed]

Rotunda
: Refers to the Praça Marquês de Pombal, a large roundabout.

Benfica
: See note for Text
138
.

Sintra
: Located north-west of Lisbon, this ancient town has long been famous
for its agreeable climate, its setting among lush green hills, and the various palaces built by Moorish and Portuguese kings.

His reality won’t let him feel
: ‘won’t let him exist’ (alternate version)

172
[4/44a, ms.]

173
[15
¹
/73, ms.]

174
[2/35, typed] Dated 2 July 1931.

175
[5/36, typed] Preceded by the heading
1st article
(in English).

176
†[138A/27, ms.]

177
†[15
⁵
/13, typed]

178
[2/60, mixed]

179
[7/2, ms.]

180
[1/60, typed]

181
[2/37, typed] Dated 13 July 1931.

182
[138A/5, ms.]

183
[1/50, typed]

Benfica
: See note for Text
138
.

the Avenida
: Presumably the Avenida da Liberdade, in central Lisbon.

184
[2/36, mixed] Dated 22 August 1931.

what nostalgia for the future
: ‘what regret that I’m not someone else’ (alternate version)

incipient self-unawareness
: ‘incipient impatience with myself’ (alternate version)

185
[9/27, ms.]

186
†[94/100, ms.]

187
[1/83–4, mixed]

188
[1/43, typed]

189
[5/62, ms.]

190
[1/51, typed]

191
[2/20, ms.]

192
[2/28, typed]

193
[2/42, typed] Dated 2 September 1931.

194
†[94/83, ms.]

195
[5/66, ms.]

196
[2/43, typed] Dated 3 September 1931.

197
[5/76–7, ms.]

198
[1/55, typed]

199
[7/11, typed]

200
[3/23, typed]

201
[4/10, mixed] Dated 10– 11 September 1931. Notation at the top of the text:
(alternate passages like these with the longer ones?)
.

202
[4/11, typed] Dated 14 September 1931.

203
[4/31, typed] Dated 15 September 1931.

204
[4/8, typed] Dated 15 September 1931. Published in
Descobrimento.

Revista de Cultura
, no. 3, 1931.