The Earl's Scandalous Wife (12 page)

“You weren’t hurt.  You were angry.”

“And I had every right to be.  Swindled me out of a good monetary arrangement with that one, you did.  Now, just be glad that I’m willing to keep silent about your past.”

He turned his attention back to the missive and she let out a long sigh, not sure what recourse she had available to her now.  If he wasn’t going to let her take Perry’s inkwell, what could she do?  She examined the gold inkwell in her hands and thought over her options.  After a few tense moments, she decided she’d return this to the store and search for one that looked just like Perry’s inkwell.  Then she’d buy it and replace it.  That would work.  At this point, it was her best option.

A knock at the door made her jump.

Laughing, Stewart stood up and shook his head.  “You need to relax, Paula.  You’re much too skittish.  It’s not like I can marry you off to the Duke of Leavenshire.”

As he went to the door, she closed her eyes and thought over what she’d tell the merchant when she returned the gold inkwell.  If she told him her husband wasn’t happy with it, he’d probably be willing to let her exchange it for another—one that would hopefully be the exact duplicate of what her brother now owned.  She should have looked for a replacement one.  If it wasn’t for the fact that Nate and Claire gave Perry that specific one, she would have done that instead.  And now she had no choice.

“Lord Clement,” Stewart exclaimed, “come on in!”

Paula’s eyes flew open and she nearly dropped the inkwell when she saw her husband in the doorway, being welcomed by her brother.  Her gaze darted to the inkwell on his desk and the ink on the quill resting beside it.

“Bring us some tea,” Stewart told the butler.  “My brother-in-law has decided to pay me a visit.  And just in time, too.  I was about to extend an invitation.”

Paula glanced between Perry and the desk and
noted Perry couldn’t see the inkwell from where he was standing.

“Paula, my dear sister, what are you doing all the way over there?” her brother asked, waving her over.  “Don’t you want to sit with your husband?”

Realizing her brother was gesturing to the settee that would force Perry to turn his back to the desk, she hurried over to them.  “Perry, what are you doing here?” She gulped and forced herself not to look back at the desk.

“I could ask you the same thing,” Perry replied, his eyebrows furrowed in concern.  “Is everything all right?”

It took all of her effort to smile.  “Yes, everything’s fine.”

His gaze lowered and he motioned to the inkwell in her hands.  “What’s this?”

“Oh,” her brother began and took it from her, “it’s a gift.  She’s such a sweet thing.  She felt guilty for running off to marry you without my permission and thought to make amends.”

“I don’t really think she has anything to be sorry for,” Perry said.

Her brother’s eyebrows rose in surprise.  “Well, I suppose it doesn’t look that way to you, but ours is a long and complicated past, isn’t it, Paula?”

“He’s right,” she told Perry.  “We weren’t getting along.” She studied her brother’s expression to try to get an idea of how much—if anything—her
brother was hoping to reveal.  “But I figured that it might be a good idea if I came by with…with,” she motioned to the inkwell in his hands, “that.” She gulped.  “To make amends.”

To her surprise, Perry directed his full attention to her.  “Is that true, Paula?” he softly asked, his eyes seeking out the truth.  “Or have you been forced to come here?”

She caught the way her brother glowered at her before she let out an uneasy chuckle.  “It’s true.  I came here of my own free will.”

Her brother relaxed and turned in time to thank the butler for bringing them their tea.  She took Perry by the elbow and encouraged him to sit beside her, thankful he had his back to the desk.  As long as he didn’t
look behind him, they should be all right.

Her brother handed them their tea then sat in the chair across from them.  “I can’t tell you how sorry I am for misjudging you, my lord.” He crossed his legs and sipped some tea.

“Oh?” Perry asked, still hesitant.

“I thought,” he laughed, “that
you knew I had arranged for her to marry someone else and meant to thwart me.  Now I understand she never cared for the gentleman I had in mind and wished to escape marriage to him by engaging in a scandal with you.  My grievous error was in thinking you would do anything deceitful.  Your wife has assured me that you are a gentleman of impeccable character.  I had no idea a titled gentleman could be so incredibly noble and pure of heart.”

She shot her brother a silent plea to stop.  This wasn’t making anything easier.  In some ways, it was making things worse.  What if Perry saw right through the flattery?

Perry shifted so that he was closer to her and set the cane beside him.  “I know the reputation of some gentlemen leave a lot to be desired, but I always thought if I was going to teach my ward how to behave—to be worthy of lady’s hand—then I should live the life I’d want him to lead.”

“Practicing what you preach.” Her brother’s eyes widened and he shot her a meaningful look.  “How very noble.  One would swear you were perfect.”

“No, I’m not perfect.  I never claimed to be.”

“From where I’m sitting, you’re perfect.” Smirking at her, he added, “Very perfect indeed.  It’s no wonder my sister wanted to marry you instead of the duke.”
Directing his gaze back to Perry, he lifted his cup.  “I heartily approve the match.  May you two have many happy years and children together.”

Perry glanced at her, still not seeming to believe what he was hearing.

Knowing she had to do something to appease her brother, she lifted her cup and smiled at her brother.  “Thank you, Stewart.”

He drank his tea then slapped his forehead.  “Silly me.  I forgot that I’m supposed to leave.  I’m sorry I have to end this wonderful family reunion.  I hope we
can all meet again soon.”

Paula prayed that was another lie her brother was saying because she had no desire to have her brother and Perry in the same room again.

After they exchanged polite, albeit tense, good-byes, Perry escorted her out of the townhouse where two carriages waited for them—one for her and one for him.

“Is it true that you went to see your brother to make amends?” Perry softly asked
as he led her to her carriage.

Paula was afraid he’d ask that question.  She thought he’d wait until they got home, though.  Her gaze turned to the footman who waited by
the carriage door.  Try as she might, she couldn’t bring herself to make eye contact with Perry.

“Paula?” he whispered, gently touching her elbow.

“I did what I had to do, and this is the only way I could think of to work things out with him so he won’t interfere in our lives,” she finally replied then looked at him.  “I know my brother better than you do.  The course I chose is the best one.” She took a deep breath.  “Can we go home, please?”

For a moment, she thought he was going to argue with her.  But then, he nodded.  “All right.”

***

Perry gave her hand an affectionate squeeze then encouraged her to enter the carriage.  Afterwards, he went to tell the other coachman to head on home and returned to Paula’s carriage.

He resisted the urge to look behind him to see if the fox was watching them.  If he looked back, her brother would know he knew something was going on.  There was much more to the story than either of them were saying, and he suspected her brother had somehow coerced her into being silent on the matter.

“Where to, my lord?”
the coachman asked.

“Is there somewhere else you need to go to?” Perry asked Paula who was staring out the small carriage window.  When she didn’t look at him, he softly called, “Paula?”

With a jerk, she finally turned her gaze to him.

The poor thing was scared.  Perry had a mind to go right back into her brother’s townhouse and demand to know what he was doing to frighten her, but he knew better than to do that.  Her brother would never tell him the truth.  Hoping a smile might relax her, the corners of his lips curled up.  “I was just asking if you have anywhere else you need to go today?  I’ll be more than happy to accompany you on any errand.”

He couldn’t be sure, but he thought she blinked some tears away.  “No, I don’t need to go anywhere else.  Thank you.” Then she looked back out the window.

Sighing, he indicated that they’d be going home.  He slipped in next to her but waited until the carriage moved forward before he leaned closer to her and brushed her cheek with his finger.  “Paula, what’s wrong?”

She shut her eyes and took a deep breath.  “I’m sorry,” she whispered so softly that he had to strain to hear her.

“Sorry for what, my love?”

“I don’t deserve you.”

Was that what her brother told her?  Was that what scared her?  Did she think he regretted marrying her?  “Paula,” he clasped her gloved hand around his, “I don’t know why you said that, but it’s not true.  Who cares what your brother thinks?  What we have has nothing to do with him.”

“I want to be a good wife.”

“You are.” He brought her into his arms.  “Whatever he’s telling you, don’t listen to him.”

When it was apparent that she wasn’t going to say anything else, he decided to relent.  Maybe stopping at the townhouse and interrupting their conversation had been a bad idea.  He thought he was helping her, but maybe he wasn’t.  He released his breath and decided he wouldn’t push her.  In time, the matter would resolve itself.  Sooner or later, all things came to light.  And when this matter did, he and Paula would work through it.

Chapter Twelve

That evening Paula tried to eat her dinner, but she could only manage a few bites before it became nearly impossible to swallow anything else. 
Across from her, Perry was talking and as much as she tried to listen, her mind kept drifting off to the inkwell.  Tomorrow.  Maybe tomorrow she could get him an inkwell that matched the one she gave her brother.

“Paula?”

Blinking away her thoughts, she looked up from her half-eaten meal and saw that he was studying her with the same worried frown he’d had when he entered her brother’s drawing room.  “What?” she asked, running her thumb along the cool handle of the fork.

He settled back into his seat, his gaze intense. 
“Are you feeling all right?”

“I’m fine.  It’s just been a long day, that’s all.”

After a moment, he motioned to her plate.  “Would you like to eat anything else?”

“No, I’m full.” She pushed her plate away.  “You?”

“I’m done.”

Grabbing his cane, he rose to his feet then went over to her.  She accepted his hand and
let him escort her to the drawing room, forcing herself to remain by his side.  As much as she wanted to run up the stairs and hide under the safety of her bedcovers, she knew she’d have to face him sooner or later.  So she might as well do it now.  He undoubtedly had more questions about her brother and had been waiting until they were alone to ask them.  While she appreciated his consideration in keeping the matter private, she wished they didn’t have to discuss the matter at all.

But he closed the door to the drawing
room and turned to face her.  With a long sigh, his gaze met hers before he stepped over to her.  “I’m sorry.”

Surprised, she asked, “What for?”

“I hope you don’t think I’m following you around.  I wasn’t planning to stop by your brother’s townhouse today, but on my way back from White’s, I saw your carriage out front—”

“You don’t need to explain, Perry.  I know you weren’t spying on me.”

He relaxed.  “I only went in because I thought he might be giving you a difficult time.  I remembered that before we left for Gretna Green, you didn’t want to see him and thought he somehow coerced you to go over there.”

She’d been selfish in marrying him.  Her brother had known it and had challenged her on it.  Daring a look at him, she asked,
“Perry…you love me, don’t you?”

“Of course
I do.”

She wrapped her arms around his neck and kissed him
, needing to be physically close to him, needing more than words to be assured that he still wanted her.

He cupped the side of her face with one hand
and brushed a tear from her cheek.  “You can tell me anything, Paula.  If your brother has done something to upset you, I’ll—”

“I don’t want to talk about him. 
I just want to think about you and how wonderful you are.”

He seemed as if he was going to argue with her, so she cupped the back of his neck and brought his lips to hers.  She wanted him to make
love to her, to make her forget everything but him because when they were together, the rest of the world ceased to exist.  She left a trail of kisses down his neck, taking in the familiar scent of him that made her feel safe and protected.

“Will you make love to me?” she asked, pressing her body against his
in silent encouragement.

“We should go upstairs,” he murmured.

“We can do it down here.”

He let out a slight gasp. 
“We can’t do it in a drawing room.”

Surprised,
she giggled and pulled slightly away from him so that she could look at him.  “Who says we can’t do it here?”

His reddening face didn’t go unnoticed.  “Well, it’s just…” He glanced around the room.  “There’s no bed here.”

“You can do it in more places than a bed.” She took his hand and led him over to the settee.  After she sat him down and put his cane aside, she moved on top of him and grinned in a playful manner.  “What do you think?”

“It’s unusual.”

“Unusual can be fun.” She kissed him and wiggled intimately against him.  “I had no idea you could be so bashful.  It’s just you and me.”

“Well, I know, but…”

When he didn’t finish, she loosened the cravat around his neck then slipped it off.  “There’s no harm in trying something new.”

She proceeded to undo the buttons in his
waistcoat, followed by his shirt.  She noticed the slight increase in his breathing and the way his hands hesitated just below her breasts.  Surprised when he didn’t move them further up, she whispered, “You can touch them when we’re not in bed.” Then to ease the tension when she saw him shyly glance away from her, she teased, “Though I wouldn’t suggest doing so while at a dinner party or ball. At least not at a moment when others can see us.”

He let out an uneasy chuckle.  “Surely, you don’t
want me to touch them at those places.”

She shrugged as she got off of him so she could continue to remove his clothes.  “It might be fun.  But you need to be discreet.  It’d be easy to do
it in a carriage or if no one was looking.  A light brush can be exciting.” To emphasize her point, she let her fingers trace his male hardness as she unbuttoned his trousers.

He let out a low moan, rewarding her for touching
him.  She thought it was both odd and cute that he always let her initiate their lovemaking.  Why he did so, she could only guess, but she suspected it was mostly because he was the type of gentleman who would never do anything unless he had her permission.

She removed her clothes, very much aware that
he watched her with intense interest.  A glance at his erection notified her that he enjoyed the slow and methodical pace she was moving at.  Perhaps she should have blushed and hurried through the process, but she rather liked the way she could hold his attention.  It made her feel as if she was the only one he cared about, the only lady he ever had and ever would desire.  Undoubtedly, her brother would laugh at her foolish thinking, but she couldn’t help it.  When Perry looked at her with a mixture of passion and adoration, the past melted away.  And only the present and their future mattered.

Once she discarded the last of her clothing, she returned to him, straddling him again and wrapping her arms around his neck.  She lowered her head to kiss him.
The kiss started out softly, almost a whisper across his lips.  But then he responded to her and she parted her lips and encouraged him to open his mouth.  He did and her tongue brushed his.  There were times when they made love that she had the urge to be more assertive, to give herself fully to the moment, but he was usually so reserved—even in their lovemaking—that she was reluctant to do it.

Whether it was the fact that she needed him to make love
to her without any inhibitions or the fact that they were in the drawing room where it seemed to be a wicked place to be intimate, she disregarded her inhibitions.  Judging by the way he hungrily kissed her, she knew he felt the same way.  He wanted to be as consumed by her as she was by him.  He just didn’t know how to do it.

Her body crying out for release, she rubbed her sensitive nub against his shaft.  How often when they made lo
ve had she wanted to experience such heightened pleasure and now that she’d finally given herself permission to do it, she couldn’t slow down.  Her hips rocked faster, developing a rhythm that matched the pace her tongue sparred with his.  He brought his hands up to her breasts and cupped them in his palms then lightly squeezed her nipples.  The action sent a spark straight to her core that brought her to the peak.  Gasping, she dug her fingernails into his shoulders and stilled.  He left a trail of kisses down her neck as she rode out each wave of pleasure.

“
Paula?” he whispered, seeming hesitant.

Lightheaded, she pressed her forehead to his and waited until she could catch her breath before answering him.  “I love you.”

“I love you, too,” he replied and kissed her earlobe.

When her head cleared, she took him inside her and rocked her hips once more, this time for the purpose of his pleasure.  His hands were still on her breasts, his fingers still teasing her nipples in a very pleasant way that made her clench around him.  S
he didn’t notice the tension building in her core until she was moving faster without his leading.  Biting her lower lip, she focused on the way he was stroking her deep in her core.  She murmured that she needed to keep going, that she needed to find her release once more.  He prompted her to do whatever she had to do to get there.

She nudged him to lean back and established a rhythm in her movements that enabled her to take him as deep into her as she could.  Whispering over and over that he felt good inside her, she continued until she was over the edge once more.  This time she called out his name.  He joined her, calling out her name in return as he grew taut and spilled his seed into her.

Together, they remained suspended in their state of bliss until she collapsed in his arms.  “That was…that was…”

She couldn’t think of how to describe it, except that she had no idea such physical pleasure was possible twice
in a row or that she could fully let herself go and know he would still love her tomorrow, even after she’d satisfied him.  It was wonderfully freeing to lose herself to someone like Perry.

Her lips met his in a lingering kiss.  “I’m glad we’re married.”

“Good,” he replied, his voice soft as he hugged her.  “I am, too.”

“Why don’t we get dressed and continue this in bed?” she suggested, a mischievous grin on her face.

“I’d be a fool to say no.”

“Good thing for me you’re not a fool.” She gave him another kiss before she got off of him so they could dress.

***

“I’m sorry but we don’t have any inkwells that match what you’re looking for,” the merchant told Paula the next day.

She scanned the shelves full of inkwells and tried to figure out how that could be when she’d checked every other place that sold them.  This store had been her last hope.

“Perhaps there is something else that will suit your needs?”

With a sigh, she shook her head.  “No.  It’s the only kind I want.”

“If something like that comes in, would you like me to send you a message?”

“No.” She couldn’t afford that in case the message got to Perry before it got to her.  “Thank you for your assistance.”

She left the store and scanned the businesses.  There was nowhere she could go.  Her mission was a lost cause.  She didn’t know what to do now.  Her brother would never give it back, and if she stole it, he’d run straight to Perry and tell him everything.

She considered her options as she trudged down the street.  She could keep pretending she had no idea where the inkwell was if Perry mentioned it.  She could make up some story about losing it.  She could even come out and tell him she gave it to her brother.  But then he’d want to know why she’d give her brother something that was a gift from his friend.  And what could she tell him?  Because her brother would tell him he made a mistake in marrying her?  She couldn’t bear the disappointment he was bound to feel.

So telling him the truth was not an option.  That left her with the choice of acting like she had no idea what happened to it or telling him she misplaced it.  Either way, she’d be lying, and she honestly didn’t see how those options were any better than the first.

As she crossed a street, she caught sight of the townhouses and paused when she recognized Nate and Claire’s.  The only reason she knew it was theirs was because Perry had pointed it out to her during one of their walks.  She slowed her steps and bit her lower lip.  If she could ask Claire where she and Nate got the inkwell, then she’d know where to go to get it.  But she couldn’t just go right up to the door and arrive unannounced.  The best thing to do was to ask Claire if she could visit her.

She turned away from the steps leading to the townhouse when a carriage pulled up next to her.  Surprised, she looked up in time to see Claire and Lord Edon’s wife—Cathe
rine, if she remembered right—wave at her from the small window.  She offered a tentative wave back.  She wasn’t sure what she had in common with ladies who never did anything wrong.  From the dinner party, she got the impression they were perfect.  Perfect in their manners.  Perfect in their past.  Perfect on their wedding night.  She hadn’t known what to say as they talked in the drawing room and had been relieved when Perry asked her if they could leave.