The Escape (Survivor's Club) (36 page)

“Oh, Tramp.” She collapsed onto the nearest chair, set her arms about him, and wept against his neck. Tramp whined and tried to lick her face.

B
en was down early to breakfast the following morning. Everything was packed, and he was eager to
be on his way as soon as possible. He did not care what direction he took, though he had told his coachman last night that they would return the way they had come. All he really wanted was to put as much distance between him and Fisherman’s Bridge as he possibly could.

He was down early, but someone was earlier. Mr. Bevan rose from his place at a table by the window when Ben appeared, an open watchcase in his hand.

“Is this the time,” he asked, “that the idle rich normally break their fast?”

It was shortly after seven o’clock.

“I believe it is more the time they are going to bed,” Ben said, making his way toward the table and propping his canes against a chair before shaking the man by the hand.

“I have no right in the world to ask this,” Bevan said when they were both seated, “and you have every right in the world to refuse an answer, but here goes anyway. What are your feelings for my granddaughter, Major?”

Ben paused in the act of spreading his napkin across his lap. Here was a man who did not believe in wasting precious time on small talk, it seemed.

“Mrs. McKay,” Ben said, choosing his words with care, “lost her husband less than six months ago, sir. She needs time to recover from that loss. She needs time to adjust her life to her new home and circumstances. As she told you last evening, she needs to be alone. Not necessarily without all company, but without emotional entanglements. It would be presumptuous for me to have feelings for her stronger than respect. Besides, at present I have nothing of value to offer her except a baronet’s title and fortune.”

“At present,” Bevan said. “And in the future?”

“I was wounded six years ago,” Ben told him. “I have been well enough for the past three years to get my life in order and set on a new course, since the old one will
serve no longer. But I have procrastinated. Until now. I am going to go to London. I am going to find something challenging to do.”

“Other than carousing all night?” Bevan smiled.

“That sort of life has never appealed to me,” Ben told him. “I must be doing something useful and meaningful.”

Neither of them spoke while the landlord set their food before them and exchanged a few pleasantries about the weather with them before withdrawing.

Bevan sat back in his chair, ignoring his food for the moment. “Tell me more about the way you used to be,” he said. “Tell me about being a leader of men. That is what you were, is it not? You were a major, which is not quite the same as being a general, of course, but nevertheless it put you in a position of considerable authority over men and actions and events. Tell me about that man.”

Ben picked up his knife and fork and thought a moment before cutting into his food. Where to begin? And
why
begin? Why had Bevan come here this morning?

“That man was happy,” he said.

He was not used to talking about himself. It was something he had never been comfortable doing. Even at Penderris he had talked less than any of the others, more content to listen to his friends’ problems than divulge his own. He had always assumed that he could not possibly be of any great interest to anyone else, that he would merely bore other people by prosing on about himself. But for the next fifteen or twenty minutes he did nothing
but
that, led on by skilled, persistent, probing questions and a look of genuine interest on the other man’s face. He talked about his dreams and ambitions, his war experiences, the feeling he had always had that he had been born to do just what he was doing. He talked about the battle in which he had been wounded,
about his long fight for survival and his longer fight to restore himself to physical wholeness so that he could get back to the only life he knew or had ever wanted for himself. He talked about the past three years and his reasons for not going home, about his growing frustration and restlessness, about his corresponding determination to overcome lethargy and lowness of spirits by finding
something
to replace what he had lost.

“I fought hard enough to live,” he said. “Now I have to prove to myself that the fight was for some purpose.”

“Women?” Bevan asked. “Have there been many?”

“None since I was hurt,” Ben said.

“Until now?”

Ben gave him a long, level look.

“You escorted my granddaughter here from the north of England,” Bevan said, “and you have been a good friend to her. Now you are about to leave, for reasons you have just given me. But you will not pretend to me that she is no more to you than a friend, Harper. Or, if you do, I will not believe you.” He smiled in a not-unfriendly manner.

“I will not pretend, then,” Ben told him curtly. “Yes, I have feelings for her.
Inappropriate
and pointless feelings. And I will be leaving this morning because there is no future for us, because she needs to be left alone to find herself and her place here. I believe she will. And I believe she has a chance for happiness. She has not had much of that in her life. And I will be leaving because I need to find
myself
and my place of belonging. I will do it. You need not fear that I will linger.”

“And I would not believe Samantha,” Bevan said, “if she told me that you are no more to her than a friend.”

“Pardon me,” Ben said stiffly, “but I am not sure you have the right to offer any opinion on this matter, sir.”

The older man’s eyebrows rose, and he picked up his knife and fork and tackled his breakfast. “I like you,
Major,” he said. “You are a man after my own heart. And you are quite correct. I have no right whatsoever.”

He paused to eat, and Ben did likewise. He would excuse himself as soon as his plate was empty and be on his way. He did not know why Bevan had come except, perhaps, to warn him to leave without delay and never to return. He did not need to say it. He really did not have the right, anyway.

“I am sixty-six years old,” Bevan said, picking up the conversation again. “I am not an old man—at least, I do not feel like one—but I am not young either. If I had a son, I would be gradually transferring my responsibilities to his younger shoulders, provided he showed the necessary interest and aptitude, of course. It has been one of the enduring disappointments of my life that I have no son, but that cannot be helped now. I have able and trusted men in charge at the mines and at the ironworks. I have been fortunate in my employees. What I have longed for and actively searched for in the past four or five years, however, is an overseer, a supermanager, if you will, someone with the interest and energy and ability to take charge of all my industrial concerns. Someone I can trust, and someone who trusts me. Someone who is as like a son to me as possible. Someone to replace me, in fact, after I retire and until my death, and to be well compensated afterward. He would have to be a special kind of man, for it is not enough just to understand facts or to have ideas or even to have both together. It is not enough even to have organizational skills, though they are necessary. He would have to be someone who could get work done and ensure profits while not neglecting the safety and well-being of all the workers under him. He would have to inspire trust and loyalty and even liking while at the same time demanding the best efforts of his workers. He would have to take a personal interest in what he does as well as just a
professional one. He would have to be someone rather like me, in fact. He has not been easy to find, Major. Or to find at all, in fact.”

Ben had stopped eating to look fixedly at the other man. “Are you offering me a job?” he asked.

Bevan set down his knife and fork and poured them each another cup of coffee before answering.

“I pride myself upon being a good judge of character,” he said. “I think it is one reason for my success. I sensed something about you as soon as I met you, even though I was predisposed to dislike you, having listened to some of the local gossip—which was not particularly vicious, I must add. I sensed something about you both then and last evening, and you have confirmed that impression this morning. You liked your men, Major? You were not the sort of officer who commanded obedience with a whip?”

“I never ordered or condoned the British army’s practice of whipping its soldiers,” Ben said. “Yes, I liked my men. Apart from a few irredeemable rogues, most soldiers are the salt of the earth and will give their best, even their lives, when called upon to do so.”

He was being offered a
job
. In Wales. Overseeing coal mines and ironworks. Could anything be more bizarre?

“Employment for me has always been about more than just making money,” the older man said. “I could have lived in great luxury on what my father left me. I could have appointed managers for the mines and given them no further thought. Indeed, I did just that during the years when I was drinking and feeling sorry for myself. Fortunately, I was not cut out for idleness of either body or mind, and that fact was perhaps my salvation. I believe that in many ways we are similar, Major.”

“You
are
offering me employment,” Ben said.

“Knowing that you do not need the money,” Bevan said, raising his coffee cup to his lips, “and that some
gentlemen, maybe most, would find it demeaning to work around industry. But you do need to use your gifts and your skills, and you will never again use them in the army. I would rather you than anyone else I have met.”

Ben shook his head and laughed softly. Was he actually tempted? More than tempted?

“Everything I have will be Samantha’s one day,” Bevan said.

Ben sobered instantly. “Are you offering the job on condition that I marry Mrs. McKay?” he asked. Sudden anger curled like a tight ball in his stomach.

“On the contrary, Major,” Bevan said. “I offer the employment on condition that you leave here. An empire is not run from a country estate or even from a seaside cottage. I have homes in Swansea and in Merthyr Tydfil. You would live on site. And I do not offer permanent employment. Not yet. I do not know that you are capable of doing the job well. I do not know that it would suit you. Or if it would suit me to have you. We would need time to discover if we are a good fit for each other. As for my granddaughter, well, I will not deny that I sat up half the night thinking of how convenient it would be if you really did become my right-hand man, as capable and enthusiastic a manager as I have been, perhaps even with new, fresh ideas to bring to the task. And of how convenient it would then be if you were to marry Samantha. For then, eventually, everything would be yours as well as hers. It would be a storybook ending for an elderly man who long ago gave up all hope of happy endings. But I press nothing on you, Major Harper. Or on her. Indeed, I would insist that you leave here immediately.”

“Mrs. McKay might nevertheless feel that pressure was being brought to bear upon her if I were to accept your offer,” Ben said. “She might well believe that you
and I were trying to manipulate her life and interfere with her newfound freedom. I have already taken my leave of her.”

“I cannot speak with her,” Bevan said. “She has not given me the right and perhaps never will. You must do it, then, if you feel you must. And if you accept my offer, which I believe you are inclined to do. But remember that the employment may never be permanent. There would have to be a trial period of several months before any contract can be drawn up or agreed to. When did Captain McKay die?”

“In December sometime,” Ben said.

“Then perhaps we can get together at Cartref sometime just before Christmas,” Bevan said, “to discuss our future association, if we are to have one.”

His meaning was unmistakable. Samantha’s mourning period would be over by then.

They gazed steadily at each other across the table.

Ben reached for his canes abruptly and pulled himself to his feet. “I need to do some thinking,” he said. “And, depending upon the outcome of that, I need to talk with Mrs. McKay. This would
not
be a decision for me alone to make even if I would not be living anywhere close to here. For she may not want anything more to do with you, and my working for you would seem like a betrayal. Even if she
does
wish to have a relationship with you, she may not want me running the businesses that will eventually be hers. It may seem like entrapment to her.”

“I perfectly understand, Major.” Bevan smiled and poured himself another coffee. “You will write to me if you do not come to see me?”

Ben nodded curtly and made his slow way out of the dining room and up the stairs to his room. He felt rather as though he had been bashed over the head and had his brains scrambled.

All his baggage had been taken down to the carriage already, he could see.

S
amantha kept busy through the early part of the morning going through the linen closets with Mrs. Price, sorting out what was good, what was worth mending, and what was only good enough to be consigned to the rag bag. Tomorrow they would go through the china. Mrs. Price reported that all the cupboards were full to overflowing but that some of the pieces were mismatched or chipped or altogether not worth keeping.

She was going to go through simply everything, she decided, until the cottage felt entirely her own, until it felt like home, as Bramble Hall never had. She had not even realized that until now.

She was going to return the call of Mrs. Tudor and her daughter, who had already visited her, and she was going to make an effort to become acquainted with more of her neighbors and to discover ways of becoming active and useful in village life. She was going to ask about the availability of a tutor to teach her Welsh. Not that it was spoken a great deal just here, but she wanted to be able to speak it anyway or at least to understand it and perhaps read it. There were a few Welsh books in the book room, including a Welsh Bible. Perhaps she would even take music lessons. And perhaps …