The Gifting (22 page)

“I was going to send him away, but he seems very desperate to see you.”

“Give me a minute.” I swing my legs over the bed. My feet hit the floor and I hurry into the bathroom, ignoring the spots dancing in my vision from standing so fast. I pull my hair up into a messy knot, splash cold water over my face, gargle mouth wash, one-leg hop into a pair of wrinkled jeans and throw a sweatshirt over my tank top. When I come out into my room, I shove the mess on my floor under my bed. Just as I’m tossing a book into my closet, Mom comes up with Luka. I close my closet door behind me.

Mom gives me an odd look, then leaves the room.

Luka stands in the doorway. I can’t tell whether he looks miserable or nervous. After last night’s dream, I decide on miserable. I was in the dream after all. By now, he has to realize what I saw. What I heard. Summer foiled his plans, whatever they were. I sit down on the edge of my bed. My legs are too shaky to stand.

“I was going to go on a hike.” He walks over to the bed. “I was thinking you might want to come?”

I pick at a fray in the thigh of my jeans. Does he really think I don’t know?

“You okay?”

“I remember the dream, Luka.”

He sticks his hands in his back pockets and cocks his head. “Dream?”

“From last night. With Summer.”

“Summer?” He pulls his chin back, his brow furrowing.

“You don’t remember?” Is it possible that he really didn’t see me? Or is he just putting on a good act again?

“
Remember
? I have no idea what you’re talking about.”

“We met up last night. We shared a dream.”

“No, we didn’t.”

“Yes, we did. We were at Bobbi’s. You and Summer were there and …” Heat flushes up my neck. I can’t bring myself to remind him that they were making out.

“And what?”

“She told me you were using me to get information.”

“Tess, I don’t know how this dream-thing works, but trust me, I didn’t have a dream about Summer last night.” His cheeks turn red. It’s the first time I’ve ever seen him blush. It leaves me wondering who he did dream about last night. He sits beside me on the edge of my bed. “It had to be a regular dream.”

I want to believe him, but just because I want to doesn’t mean I should. Pressing my fingers against my hairline, I glance at my untouched dream journal. I should have written everything down last night so I’d remember the details. There was something about a mother and her kids and a garage, maybe? I close my eyes against the pain throbbing in my temples and a picture of a tow-headed boy swims into focus. My eyes fly open. I stand from the bed.

Luka stands with me. “What is it?”

I hurry over to my desk, plop down on the chair, and open the internet browser.

“What’s going on?” Luka asks, leaning over my shoulder.

“I’m not sure.” I type words into the search box.

“Why are you searching for carbon monoxide poisoning?”

“It’s something from my dream last night.” My heart pounds in my ears as a news result pops up on the screen, in a town not more than fifteen minutes from Thornsdale. I click on the link, praying it’s not what I think. My dad might think prayers are nothing but a waste of energy, but if angels are real, then God is real. And if God is real, then maybe he’s a God who listens to prayer.

A picture fills the screen and my prayer curdles.

“Please tell me what’s going on.”

“It’s them.”

“Who’s them?” Luka leans further over my shoulder. “Were they in your dream?”

I set my hand on top of my head and lean back in the chair. If the scene in the garage was real, then doesn’t that mean Luka and Summer were real too?

“Woman found dead from carbon monoxide poisoning,” Luka reads out loud. “Survived by her two children, who were in the car with her. Amazingly, they survived, though doctors do not understand how. The children have no brain damage and no trace of monoxide in their blood system. Doctors are declaring their survival an anomaly.”

“I dreamt about them.” My voice shakes worse than my hands. “That same man from the pep rally was there and he had the woman in some sort of trance. I grabbed the children and got them out, but I woke up before I could help the woman. And now she’s dead.” The shaking has taken over my entire body. It clamps onto my jaw, making my teeth chatter. I couldn’t control it if I tried.

Luka swivels my chair around and places his hands on the arm rests. “Tess.”

“This is crazy. This is so freaking crazy.”

“Tess.”

“I did not save those children. Because if I saved them, then that means …” I picture the mother, sitting behind the wheel, unblinking. I think about those children growing up without her. I think about the guy who shot himself and the two people who died at the fetal modification clinic. Tears spring to my eyes. Could I have saved them too? Are their deaths on my hands?

“Tess, look at me.”

His voice cuts through my rising hysteria. I swallow and look up into his eyes, as if he has the power to save me from a truth that is determined to suck me into darkness. “This isn’t your fault. Do you understand me? You had nothing to do with that woman’s death.”

“Then how do you explain the dream?”

He looks at me, long and searching and worried. He has no answer.

*

I have no desire to go to school the next day. I don’t want to face Summer or Jennalee or anybody else who’s talking about whatever Pete said about my freak-out at the séance in Jude. As soon as I reach my locker, Leela is there. She looks to have rebounded from Saturday night’s party. If only I were as resilient, but then I doubt Leela is being haunted by prophetic dreams or awful headaches or unexplainable white-eyed men.

“I called you twice yesterday, but your mom said you weren’t feeling well.”

I enter the combination for my locker and shove my books inside. Three girls stand not too far away, whispering and laughing. One of them keeps looking at me. “I had a really awful headache.”

“You get a lot of those, don’t you?”

“Unfortunately.”

“Okay, so,” Leela grabs my arm, “Did you hear the rumor circulating about your brother and Jennalee?”

I shut my locker and come face-to-face with her excitement. Her cheeks are rosy and her eyes are bright. “No.”

“He rejected her.”

“Jennalee?”

Leela bobs her head. “She must not be his type.”

“It’s Monday morning. Isn’t that a little fast for anybody to know anything?” Even for small-town high school?

“I guess somebody saw Jennalee waiting at his locker this morning and he totally blew her off. She walked away looking really upset.”

“Good. Pete can do a lot better than Jennalee.” At least the old Pete. I’m not so sure about this new Pete. Someone like Jennalee might be this new Pete’s perfect match.

Leela’s eyes dim.

More laughter from the three girls. More stares. I force my attention away from them and onto my friend. “Leela,
you
are a lot better than Jennalee.”

The brightness floods back and her ears turn pink. I’m not sure if it’s from embarrassment or pleasure. She fiddles with the edge of one of the folders tucked beneath her arm. “There’s something else that’s going around and I want you to know, I don’t care. I understand.”

Dread taps me on the shoulder. “What?”

“Jennalee told a bunch of people that your brother said you freaked out about some séance Ouija board stuff in Florida.”

I try to swallow, but my throat is too dry.

“That stuff gives me the creeps too. It always has.”

“Yeah. The creeps.” If only that’s all it was. If only I was a little
creeped out
over the thought of the supernatural instead of actually
seeing
the supernatural.

“And you know what? Who cares if Jennalee thinks it’s funny? Her sense of humor has never been kind. You aren’t her first target. If you ignore it, people will forget by tomorrow.”

I wonder if by
people
, she means the three girls off to the side who aren’t even trying to hide the fact that they’re talking about me. Sighing, I grab a folder from my locker as a gust of frigid air blows at my back. The hair on my neck prickles. I whirl around and the man from my dream is standing right behind Leela. I gasp and rear back into the locker, but as quickly as he appeared, he vanishes.

“Oh my gosh! What?” Leela darts a quick look over her shoulder.

My heart careens, wild and out of control.

Leela sets her hand against her chest. “You gave me a heart attack, Tess. What was that about?”

“I-I’m not sure.” My attention zips around the locker bay. Kids mill around in clumps. The three girls have gone from staring to gawking because they witnessed my freak-out along with Leela. And beyond them, Luka walks toward us, the epitome of perfection with his dark gray V-neck and mussed hair.

Leela spots him too, and understanding erases the concern on her face. “Wow. You sure have a strong reaction to him, don’t you?”

“Yeah. I guess.”

“I don’t blame you. So, are we sitting by each other at lunch?”

“Yes. For sure.”

“Are you positive? You’re not going to sit with—?”

“We’ll sit together Leela, I promise.”

“All right, see you at class then.” She gives me a wink and a smirk, then leaves as Luka arrives. He leans his shoulder casually against the lockers, standing close, almost protectively so. An onlooker would see him and think him relaxed, but I don’t miss the tension in his jaw.

“Please tell me you saw that,” I whisper.

He gives a curt nod, then scans the crowd in the locker bay, as if expecting the man to reappear. When his attention lands on the three girls, they quickly look away, their faces red. “I don’t understand why he goaded you like that.”

“Not exactly a good start to the day,” I mutter.

“That’s three times now.”

“Three times?”

“Three times something …”—he leans closer, so much so that I see each one of his long, dark lashes and the flecks of darker green in his eyes—“supernatural has tried interacting with you. First in Lotsam’s class, then in Ceramics, and now this. It’s like they are purposefully trying to get your attention.” He squints at the floor, as if the answer to this horrid riddle might be found in the fibers of the carpet. “I don’t get it.”

“They’ve never tried to interact with you?”

“Never. I see them, but they don’t seem to notice me. With you though …” He shakes his head, the tension in his jaw growing more pronounced. “Maybe it’s because you have such a strong reaction. Maybe the answer is learning how to ignore them.”

“I’m not sure I know how.”

“I can help.”

“What about the dreams? Can you help with those?”

“I think you need to figure out a way to ignore those too. Shut them out.”

A thread of doubt winds itself around my heart. “What if they’re real?”

He shakes his head, resolute. “Even if they are, there’s nothing you can do about them.”

The thread pulls tight. I’m not sure Luka understands. He hasn’t had the dreams I’ve had. He doesn’t know what it’s like to lunge at that man on the bridge and the next day, discover the girl survived. He doesn’t know what it’s like to grab those babies from the back seat of a car and find out they survived too. What if the decisions I make in my dreams have a real, profound impact on what happens in real life? How can I possibly shut them out if lives are at stake?

“All this stuff? It’s like it’s purposefully trying to make you go insane.”

I think about Leela’s reaction to my mini freak-out moments before. I think about the three girls’ reactions too. “Or look that way.”

“Neither of those options is safe.”

The bell rings. Luka scans the crowd again, then he walks us to class. In first period, I sit in between him and Leela. Across the classroom, Summer is not at all discreet about her staring. Or maybe studying is the better word. She looks at me like she’s trying to figure something out. I keep replaying the things she said in our dream and the more I do, the more I second-guess Luka.

Leela bumps her knee against mine beneath the table. “Stop,” she mutters.

I blink several times, as if coming out of a trance. “She was staring first.”

“Yeah, well, you’re both making me nervous. And by the looks of it, Mr. Lotsam too.”

I glance at our teacher, up at the board, and a foreboding drop in temperature settles over my skin. The greasy-haired man is back, standing so close to Mr. Lotsam I jerk in my chair. Luka clamps his hand over my knee, steadying me in place. I close my eyes. I take deep, steadying breaths and tell myself this is not real. When I’m brave enough to look, nothing is behind Mr. Lotsam but a chalkboard. The man is gone.

But the coldness remains.

After Ceramics, Luka walks me to third period and waits with me until the bell rings. As soon as third period ends, he’s already out in the hallway. Part of me wonders if he ever left. By the time lunch rolls around, I am exhausted. Turns out, ignoring something takes a lot more effort than a person might think, even if that something is just a coldness only I can feel. Leela waves from our table as I come out of the line with my tray.

“I told Leela I’d sit by her,” I tell Luka.