The Hanging Tree (34 page)

I sat down on some boxes of paper napkins. A Hungry River Rats calendar hung on the wall behind my head. The February picture showed Taylor Haskell in full legs-splayed flop, snagging a puck out of the air with his catching glove.

Soupy propped himself against his griddle. He undid his ponytail and his blond hair fell around his face. He pulled it back onto his head and nodded toward the calendar and said, “What do you think of the messiah?”

I glanced at the calendar. “Ha. Yeah. Watched him last night. Good glove, good on his feet. Gotta keep his head in the game.”

“Don’t we all.”

We sat and sipped our beers for a minute. “Yeah,” Soupy said. “Grace used to say, ‘That kid doesn’t even want to be here.’ ”

“Gracie said that?”

“She’d surprise you, man. Surprised me. She knew some hockey. I don’t know a lot of chicks who understand the two-line pass.”

“Loved the Wings, eh?”

“Yeah. Fedorov was her man.”

Soupy unscrewed the cap of the schnapps bottle, set the glasses down, and filled each halfway. He handed me one, clinked it with the other.

“To Grace,” he said.

“Gracie.”

We gulped them down.

“Jesus, Soup,” I said, grimacing. “Peach schnapps?”

He capped the bottle and set it aside. “Yeah,” he said. “I’d prefer Jack Black. But Grace hated this shit.”

“You mean she loved it.”

“No. Despised it. That’s why she drank it.”

“You’re not making any sense. And what’s with the ‘Grace’ instead of ‘Gracie’?”

Soupy grabbed his beer and took a sip. He cradled the bottle against his chest and looked up at the ceiling.

“She liked ‘Grace’ better,” he said. “I wish I’d called her that before.
Maybe” … He waved his bottle around in front of his face. “Ah, nah, fuck it, man. She liked ‘Grace’ better. Enough said.”

“What about the schnapps? Why’d she drink it if she hated it? Whenever I saw her, she was parked behind a gin and Squirt.”

“No,” Soupy said. “Hang on.”

He set his beer down and went back out to the bar. He came back holding a half-filled bottle of Gordon’s gin. The label was marked with a big black “G.” He shoved it toward me. “Try it.”

“No thanks. I know what gin tastes like.”

“Trust me, Trap. Just take a sip.”

I took it, uncapped it, and raised it to my lips, expecting the smell of alcohol. There wasn’t any. I took a sip, swished it around, took another.

“This is not gin,” I said.

“Remember the time we fucked with Stevie on his birthday?”

Soupy and a few of the other boys had brought big blond Stevie Reneau down to Detroit to celebrate his thirtieth birthday. We’d spent most of a Friday night at the Post Bar, ordering round after round of tequila shots. Except only Stevie was drinking tequila. The rest of us were drinking shots of tap water, thanks to the ten spot Soupy threw the bartender when Stevie wasn’t looking. We let him in on it after the tenth or eleventh shot. He took a wild swing at Soupy and fell on his face while the rest of us howled with laughter. We had to carry him to Lafayette Coney Island for 3:00 a.m. dogs.

“So it’s water,” I said. “I don’t get it.”

Soupy took the “G” bottle back and swigged from it. “Gracie wasn’t really drinking, except for a shot of peach schnapps every now and then.”

“Let me get this straight. She wasn’t drinking. But she drank schnapps.”

“Whenever she had the urge to drink, she took a shot of the peach shit.”

“Which she hated.”

“Hey, I didn’t say this was the straightest-thinking chick I’ve ever hung out with. Although she was Einstein compared to my ex. But look, Grace knew what people thought of her. She basically wanted nothing to do with them. Best way to do that, she figured, was let them think what they wanted.”

“That she was a fucked-up drunk.”

“Yeah.”

“So they’d leave her alone. Talk about esteem issues.”

“I’m telling you, man, she was working on it.”

“That and a bottomless glass of Squirt and water.”

I took a long pull on my beer. Gracie had faked me out. I recalled the last time I’d seen her, in the Zamboni shed. She’d seemed shit-faced to me. I recalled how Trixie had gotten in my face when I’d said Gracie was always high or drunk.
Of all people, you should know that appearances
… she had said, without finishing the thought.

“You really did like her, didn’t you, Soup? It wasn’t just the fucking.”

He pulled his hair back on his head again, held it. “Yeah.” He chuckled. “She kept saying she wanted to hang one of her shoes and one of my skates in the tree.”

I smiled. “Of course.”

“She was messed up, but she was all right. Good heart.”

Kind of like Soupy. Except he wasn’t dead.

“So that’s it?” I said. “That’s what you had to tell me?”

“Don’t get pissy with me, Trap.”

“I’m not pissy. It’s late.”

He set his beer down and came across the room. “Move,” he said. I stood up from the napkin boxes. Soupy took the River Rats calendar off the wall. He flipped inside it to the month of November.

The top half of the page showed a photograph of the Rats mobbing Taylor Haskell after a win. The bottom half was obscured by a piece of loose-leaf paper folded and taped across the days and dates. Soupy peeled it away and handed it to me. It was a photocopy of what appeared to be a letter.

I read the four short lines twice before I looked up.

“Where did you get this?” I said.

“Grace.”

“When?”

“Technically, last week.”

“Around the time she found out the new rink wasn’t going to hire her.”

“Yeah, about then.”

“What do you mean ‘technically’?”

“She gave it to me then. She told me to keep it in case something happened to her. Then something happened.”

“Did she give the original to Haskell?”

“She never said. I don’t know what she did with it. If anything.”

“She obviously intended to give it to him.”

“Looks that way. But I don’t know.” He waggled his empty beer bottle. “Another?”

“No thanks. Jesus, Soup. If this is real …”

“Looks pretty real to me. Though who knows if Grace would’ve followed through. She kept saying she was done with all that.”

I thought of the boxes in her dark room.

“Why didn’t you give this to the cops?” I said.

“Almost did,” he said. “Dingus put the heat on me, man, the whole interrogation room with the lightbulb thing. Said he’d do everything he could to bust me for underage drinkers. But I honestly didn’t know shit. They just got me because I called.”

“What do you mean you called?”

“I called, man. I called her in. Grace. I found her.”

I imagined Soupy’s pickup truck rolling up to the snowbank on the road shoulder by the shoe tree. Sheets of snow blowing across his windshield, his wipers beating vainly against the blinding white. He might not have seen Gracie right away. Maybe he backed the truck onto the road sideways so that his headlights shined over the bank past the dangling silhouette.

“You closed early,” I said.

“Fucking-ay, huh? I must have been out of my goddamn mind.”

“But how did you know she was out there?”

“I didn’t. But I was worried. It was after ten, and she still wasn’t here. She was always here by ten. Then I got a call.”

“A call from who?”

“No idea. They didn’t say and I didn’t recognize the voice.”

“A man or a woman?”

“Whoever it was wanted me to think it was a man. The connection wasn’t so hot either, and I couldn’t hear shit because of the bar. But I’m pretty sure it was a woman.”

A woman? My chest tightened. What woman could have known that Gracie was hanging in the tree? Darlene? Trixie?

“And she said what?”

“‘She’s waiting for you at the shoe tree.’ ”

“Good God. So you closed the bar? Nice move, man.”

“I know. I freaked. But I guess I’m not so paranoid, huh? I mean, she’d given me that letter and all I could think was—”

“Did you open it then?”

“No. It was at my house. I read it later.”

“So you went out there and called it in but what? You just bolted?”

“She was dead, man. There was nothing I could do. Maybe I’m fucking stupid, OK, but what would you have done? I’m her boyfriend. I closed the bar early. I’m the only one out there. Here, Dingus, slap the cuffs on. I freaked.”

And you’re Soupy Campbell, I thought. Still a boy.

“But the cops traced your call.”

“Fuck, man.” Soupy shook his head. “You know how sometimes you think you shut your phone off but you didn’t?”

“Nice. So Dingus brings you in. What’d you tell him?”

“What I saw.”

“Gracie hanging in the shoe tree.”

“Yeah.”

“So, again, why didn’t you give the letter to the cops?”

“I want a beer.”

He walked out of the kitchen. I looked around. His makeshift desk, a folding table with a checkerboard etched into the top, was pushed into a corner beneath a bulletin board covered with pink-and-yellow invoices. I counted three stamped
OVERDUE
. It made me sad. Soupy had given up his family’s marina along a soft stretch of beach for a tunnel of darkness and smoke and hourly replays of “Freebird.”

He returned with a fresh Blue Ribbon. “She didn’t want me to,” he said.

“She didn’t want you to give it to the cops? Then why would—”

“She told me to make sure you saw it.”

“Me? No.”

“Yeah. You. She said you’d take care of it.”

Of course she wouldn’t have gone to me directly. She thought I couldn’t stand her. I thought she couldn’t stand me. And yet there she was downstate with my stories hung on her walls, and here she was up north, trusting me from the grave to find her murderer. I tried to stop the pang of grief I felt by reading the letter again.

“So what was all the horseshit you were giving me yesterday when I was in here?” I said. “Why didn’t you give me this then?”

“For one thing, I didn’t have it with me. For another, I wasn’t about to spill my guts in front of those losers who sit at my bar all day drinking three two-buck beers. My brain wasn’t exactly working right, Trap. I mean, the last thing I need right now is to have my name splashed all over your paper. I’m barely holding on here.”

I finished my beer and stood the empty on Soupy’s folding table. “Sorry, Soup,” I said.

“You, too, man.”

We shook hands. I waved the letter at him. “You don’t mind if I take this now, do you?”

“You going to put it in the paper?”

I wasn’t sure how to answer. At that moment, I had no idea how I would confirm that the letter was authentic. The person who’d signed it was dead.

“How about I just take it for now and if I want to write anything, I’ll tell you?”

“Cool. But you get it, right?”

I slipped the paper into my jacket. “Get what?”

“It wasn’t my fault, man. Either way, it wasn’t my fault.”

“Understood. Get some sleep, Soup.”

I pushed the back door open. The wind had kicked up.

“Hey,” Soupy said. “Good to have you back between the pipes.”

“It was a one-night stand, pal.”

“Nah. Once you got the kinks worked out, you looked pretty good.”

“Go to hell.”

I sat in my pickup rereading the letter beneath the flood lamp outside my mother’s little yellow house.

It was dated Wednesday, February 3, a few days before Gracie died. It looked like she had used a marking pen, perhaps blue or purple, given the gray shade of the letters on the photocopied page.

L—

Here is YOUR letter.

You have taken everything from me.

And left me with nothing.

Except what I KNOW.

—G

Motive, I thought. It obviously goes to motive. I thought of those videotapes again. And I thought, Why wouldn’t Haskell at least have tried to appease her? He’d made a career of negotiating, of finding that middle ground that made Vend sneer. Why not give Gracie whatever she wanted—some money, a lousy little job driving the Zamboni at the new rink?

Unless, of course, Gracie could not be appeased. Unless she really did want her dignity back, and neither Haskell nor Vend—who might well have received the same sort of note from Gracie—could give it to her.

I stepped out of my truck. I watched the boughs of the evergreens along Mom’s bluff swaying gently in the night wind, heard the pulley cable on Mom’s flag clanging off the metal pole.

I folded the letter and slipped it into the inner pocket of my jacket. What would I do with it? What could I do, without knowing whether Gracie had actually presented Haskell with her notion of blackmail?

I thought of Haskell and his wife and his son sleeping in their mansion beyond Mom’s evergreens, across the frozen lake, two of them more than likely knowing not a thing about Gracie and Haskell and the things they had done downstate. Unless Haskell had really killed her, or had her killed, what claim did Gracie really have on him and his family? Yes, Haskell was a goddamn bastard, as Trixie had said. So was Vend, who seemed a lot more capable of doing what had to be done. But Gracie was a big girl. She’d known what she was doing.

I supposed I could just go to Dingus, or Darlene, give one of them the letter. And watch Tawny Jane Reese tell the world about it on Channel Eight.

Oh fuck, I thought.

I had to be in Traverse City—I looked at my watch—in about five hours. As Philo said, eight o’clock sharp or I would no longer be employed by Media North or the
Pine County Pilot
, as if it mattered anymore.

twenty-one

Voices in the kitchen woke me at 6:34.

I found Mom and Darlene’s mother sitting at the dining room table. Mom was in her flannel pajamas, Mrs. B in a faded violet housecoat. Her galoshes stood dripping on the carpet by the sliding glass doors that led to the yard. I smelled the coffee they were drinking out of matching mugs labeled B for Bea and R for Rudy, my father. My mother had the R mug cupped in her hands.

“Good morning, Gussy,” she said.

Blinking against the hanging lamp, I peered past the table into the living room. A dozen or so bouquets of flowers adorned the floor beneath the picture window facing the lake. Through the window I saw scattered lights winking on the bluffs on the north side of the lake. I remembered my father taking me on my first snowmobile ride on a yellow-and-black Ski-Doo he had borrowed from a friend. Dusk was just falling. We shot down the slope in front of the house, across the snow-covered beach, and out onto the hard white lake. I almost fell off the back as I tried to turn and wave to Mom watching from shore.