The Hidden (11 page)

He’d seen enough. He battled the wind back to the cottage, pushed his way inside, shouldered the door shut behind him. Shelby was waiting next to the dinette table.

She said, “What was it? A falling tree?”

“Yeah. Across the lane near the end of the property.”

“You mean we can’t get out?”

“No way to drive around it on either side. I’ll see if I can get through to emergency road service on my cell.”

“Don’t bother. I tried mine Monday morning—no signal.”

He tried anyway. Nothing. Dead.

Shelby said, “Is there any way to push the tree off with the car?”

“Doubt it, too big and heavy.”

“With two cars? I think that SUV we saw belongs to the Lomaxes.”

“Maybe.” But he didn’t believe it. The pine bole was thick and the splintered end had looked to be wedged between the trunks of the pines surrounding it. “There’s a better way. If Ben has a gas-powered chain saw, we ought to be able to cut through the upper end once the storm passes.”

“Maybe in that locked shed behind the carport.”

“I’ll go see. There’s a bunch of keys on a hook in the kitchen—one of them ought to open the padlock.”

He took the keys and the flashlight out into the thick, ropy downpour. Stood hunched in front of the shed door, the flash tucked under his arm with the beam steady on the padlock. Among the keys were two small ones; the second fit the lock. But the staple was rusty and it took him a minute to free it from the case. He shined the light inside the shed.

Gardening tools—pick, shovel, rakes, trowels. Dull-bladed ax that a lumberjack wouldn’t be able to wield effectively. Electric weed-whacker. Hedge clippers, a long-handled tree saw. Handsaws, hammers, and other small tools. A wheelbarrow, a push broom, a pile of roofing shingles, a clutter of useless odds and ends. Everything you needed for the maintenance of a cottage like this except a chain saw and the gas necessary to run it.

He closed up the shed, leaving the padlock hanging unclosed through the hasp, and struggled back to the cottage. “No chain saw,” he told Shelby.

“Lomax is a builder. He’s liable to have one.”

“Yeah.”

“He’ll have to be told in any case. They wouldn’t have heard or felt the tree come down—they’re too far away.”

“Might as well do it right now, while there’s still some daylight left.”

“You want me to go? You’ve been out twice already—”

“No, I’ll do it. I’m already soaked.”

Out into the blow for the third time, running bent to the carport. All he’d need now was for the car not to start … but that didn’t happen, the engine caught on the first turn of the key. He backed out onto the lane, got the Prius turned and moving—toward the fallen tree first, to see if there was any chance of moving it alone.

The wind slammed into the car with enough force to rock it from side to side; he had to take a tension grip on the wheel to hold it steady. The wipers, on high speed but with the one blade still sticking, were barely able to keep the windshield clear of sluicing rainwater. He hunched forward with his nose only a few inches from the glass and his eyes slitted; it was the only way he could follow the jittery path of the headlights.

When he neared the tree, he eased off to the right—letting the high beams pick out a place where he could nose up against it. If there was any chance of moving it, it would have to be at the slender upper end.

No chance at all. The blacktop was too slippery and cone-littered, the trunk too thick and its base too tightly wedged. The Prius’s rear tires couldn’t gain traction, spun futilely; the pine didn’t budge an inch.

Macklin jammed the gearshift into reverse, backed carefully to the cottage drive; turned and headed the other way.

House lights swam up out of the liquidy dusk; the Lomaxes’ auxiliary generator was still working. But as he neared the entrance drive, Macklin saw that the gates across it were closed. He braked alongside, left the engine running as he got out.

The gates, their stanchions anchored into socket holes in the blacktop, weren’t just closed, they were also chained and padlocked together. He caught hold of the two halves, shook and stretched them apart with enough force to rattle the chain. That created a gap between them, but it was too narrow for him to fit through.

He peered through the opening. No outside lights, no interior lights visible in the front part of the house. The ones he’d seen from down the lane filtered out from the living room at the rear. The bulky shape of the SUV loomed dark and dripping on the parking area.

He switched the flashlight on, aiming the ray at the front door of the house. It wasn’t powerful enough to penetrate the downpour, and there was still enough daylight left to dilute the beam, but if either of the Lomaxes looked out this way they ought to be able to see it. He waggled the flash from side to side, up and down. Kept doing that for more than a minute, without getting any kind of response.

Finally he gave it up, slid back into the Prius and swiped trickling rivulets out of his eyes and off his face. It took him three tries to position the car so that it was facing the gates. They were made of solid wood, but the high-beam glare penetrated the gap between the two halves and shone glistening off the curtain of rain. He flicked the lights on and off, on and off, a dozen times.

That didn’t get him anywhere, either. Even if Lomax noticed the signaling, he wasn’t coming out.

In frustration he leaned hard on the horn. More wasted effort; they wouldn’t be able to hear it through the wind shrieks and the ocean’s roar. He pounded the wheel with his fist. He was wet, cold, wired up as taut as a guitar string. And his breathing was off a little, coming short and painful, the same as in the aftermath of one of the nightmares; he hadn’t noticed it until now.

The hell with it. Tomorrow was soon enough to tell Lomax about the blocked lane, find out if he had a chain saw. None of them was going anywhere until then anyway.

S I X T E E N

T
HREE OF THE CANDLE
flames had been snuffed by the incoming blast of wind when Jay shoved his way through the door. Shelby got the box of matches, relit the wicks. Still murky in there, like the gloom in an underground grotto, and it wasn’t even full dark outside yet; shadows and clots of blackness seemed to lurk beyond the edges of light from the candles and the fire. She was feeling the old fear of dark, empty places again. It never bothered her when she worked night shift on the ambulance; there were always lights, people, movement. But when she was alone in a closed-in environment like this, the fear crawled up out of her subconscious and scraped on her nerves, built an edgy restlessness.

The storm made it worse, screeching out there like all the pain cries from all the accident victims she’d ever heard combined. So did the fallen tree blocking the lane, trapping them. So did what had happened to Gene Decker. She’d had plenty of experience with death; watched Mom die by degrees, watched strangers die at scenes of mangled metal and flesh or in the ambulance on the way to the hospital. But proximity to cold-blooded murder was something new and unsettling.

She wondered again how Claire was holding up. Not too well, probably, alone in that house with her abusive husband. Maybe she should have gone along with Jay, talked to Claire while he talked to Brian Lomax about the tree. But what could she say to the woman now? Words of comfort from a stranger usually rang hollow; that was a lesson she’d learned early on in her job.

She couldn’t sit still. Kept pacing back and forth, waiting for Jay to come back—animal in a cage. Her wineglass was empty; she detoured to the kitchen to refill it. What she really wanted was a martini, or a slug of straight gin without the trimmings, but she’d had two glasses of wine already and if she mixed in hard liquor this early—not even five o’clock yet—she’d be down and out fast. And getting wasted wouldn’t accomplish anything anyway, except to give her a hangover to deal with tomorrow. Alcohol was fine for dulling the edges of anxiety, but too much of it did more harm than good.

She’d been in a dull funk ever since she’d made her decision yesterday afternoon and confronted Jay with it. There should’ve been some sense of relief, of sadness and loss; she ought to be giving some thought to the future, to other decisions she’d be facing. But she seemed mired in that same cold emptiness she’d experienced in the car yesterday. Feeling a kind of bleak disconnection, too; her mind wouldn’t stay focused. Why? Because at some level she wasn’t convinced a divorce was the right choice after all?

Pace, sip wine, listen to the storm battering the cottage, watch the quivery candlelight and firelight to keep from watching the stationary darkness. She’d never wanted to leave a place more than she wanted out of this one, a feeling as irrational as her borderline nyctophobia. There was really nothing menacing or unpleasant about the cottage or its setting. It was just the wrong place at the wrong time, a symbol, a catalyst. No matter what happened in the future, she knew she would look back on her time here with a sense of loathing.

Rattling at the door, an inrush of wind and wet for a couple of seconds: Jay was back.

He came in breathing hard, jammed the door shut with his body and then threw the bolt. Under the brim of his rain hat, his face was a pale oval slicked with wetness. Shelby went to the kitchen for a dish towel while he shed his rain gear and gloves. The legs of his Levi’s were soaked almost to the knee, the rest of his clothing clinging from water that had gotten in under the oilskin.

“What did Lomax say?”

“Didn’t talk to him,” Jay said as he dried his face and neck. “Couldn’t get in past the gates. He had them closed, padlocked with a chain.”

“Can’t blame him, after what happened to Gene Decker.”

“I could’ve climbed over, but I didn’t want to risk it.”

“Illegal trespass,” she said.

“Yeah. Get my ass shot off.” He bent to pick up the sodden hat and coat he’d dropped on the carpet; his breathing was still labored when he straightened.

“Are you all right?”

He answered the question with a dismissive gesture. “Nothing any of us can do in the dark anyway, while it’s blowing like this. Have to wait for daylight.”

“You’d better get out of those wet clothes and into the shower. There’ll be hot water in the tank.”

“Okay.”

“Here, give me those. I’ll hang them up on the porch.”

He handed over the coat and hat. “I tried moving the tree with the car before I drove down there,” he said. “No use. Too big, and I couldn’t get any traction. I don’t think Lomax’s SUV can move it either. Chain saw’s our best bet. He’d better have one.”

“We’ll worry about that tomorrow. Go on, get into the shower.”

“Pour me a glass of wine while I’m in there?”

“Yes.”

He went off down the hall, carrying one of the candles. Shelby finished her wine as she poured a glass for Jay. Another glass? Might as well. Three glasses of inexpensive chardonnay should have had her feeling mildly buzzed, but not on this miserable night. The wine might as well have been tap water for all the effect it was having on her.

She relit another couple of snuffed candlewicks, then went to put a pair of logs on the banking fire. It wasn’t really cold in there, but she felt chilled just the same. Maybe she’d take a quick shower herself when Jay was finished. Once she’d have just gone in and joined him, to conserve the hot water, but that kind of intimacy was unthinkable now.

The fresh wood began to crackle, radiating heat against her back. But it didn’t take the chill away. Bone deep. A mound of blankets and comforters wouldn’t make her warm again tonight.

What was taking him so long in there?

Three minutes was his usual shower limit. And he wouldn’t use up what was left of the hot water, would he?

She picked up a candle, followed its light into the bedroom.

He was in there, not in the bathroom, dressed in dry trousers and a long-sleeved shirt and sitting slumped on the far side of the bed. The room was cold, very cold—the fire’s heat didn’t reach back here—but for some reason he’d failed to button the shirt. The candle he’d brought in was on the dresser in front of him; its trembling flame created a restless play of shadows across his face, so that the skin seemed to be rippling like dark water.

“Jay?”

He mumbled something she couldn’t hear over the wailing and whining of the storm.

“What’s the matter? Aren’t you feeling well?”

He winced as if with a sudden spasm, lifted a hand, and then let it drop onto his lap.

Shelby went around the bed, bent to hold the candle up close to his face. It was difficult to tell in the pale light, but his color didn’t look good. She pressed the back of her hand against his forehead. Cool, sweaty. And his respiration seemed even more labored.

Red flags. Alarm bells.

“Do you have any pain?”

No answer.

“Dammit, Jay. Do you have any pain?”

“Yes.”

“Where?”

He winced again, squeezed his eyes shut.

“Answer me. Where do you hurt?”

“… Chest. Left arm.”

Oh my God!

“Anywhere else?” she asked. “Radiating down your arm, into your back?”

“No.”

“Describe the pain to me. Sharp, dull, crushing … what?”

“Like a … hand squeezing.”

“How much trouble getting your breath?”

“A little.”

“Nauseous?”

“A little.”

“How bad was the pain when it started? Scale of one to ten.”

“… Five, six.”

“And now?”

“I don’t know … not as bad. Three, four.”

“Tingling sensation in your fingers?”

“Yes.”

“Lie back on the bed, knees up,” she said, and helped him into that position. She felt his neck—the veins weren’t distended. And there was no pedal edema in his feet and ankles. Quickly she got a blanket from the closet and covered him with it. “Don’t move. I’ll be right back.”

She hurried to the utility porch, swept her raincoat off the hook, found the car keys, and ran outside with the coat draped over her head. Her jump bag was in the Prius’s trunk, where she always kept it for work and emergencies. She rushed back inside with it, stopping on the way for another lighted candle. In the bedroom she set the bag on the bureau, opened it.

Stethoscope, blood pressure cuff, pulse oximeter, bottle of chewable baby aspirin. She pulled the blanket down to expose Jay’s chest, listened to his lungs with the stethoscope. Slightly wet-sounding. She clipped the oximeter to his index finger, then took his pulse. Rapid, too rapid—125 beats per minute. Rolled up one shirtsleeve, strapped the cuff around his arm, pumped it up, read the pressure gauge by candle flame. 185 over 100. High. Checked the digital reading on the oximeter: 92 percent blood oxygen saturation. Low, on the edge of the danger zone.

“Am I going to die?” he said.

“Not if I can prevent it.”

She buttoned his shirt, pulled the blanket back up under his chin.

“… Pills,” he said.

“I’m going to give you aspirin—”

“No … in my shaving kit. Prescription vial, little white pills.”

Prescription vial, little white pills. “Jesus, Jay—you’ve been taking nitroglycerin?”

“Yes.”

In the bathroom she rummaged through his kit, found the bottle of nitro tablets. The doctor’s name was Prebble—a name she recognized, a well-known South Bay cardiologist. Jay had been to see Prebble, had had heart medication prescribed, and hadn’t told her. Why the hell not?

Well, she knew the answer to that, didn’t she.

She gave him the baby aspirins first, to make the platelets in the damaged artery less sticky, minimize the threat of blood clot formation, and prevent further blockage. When he’d chewed and swallowed them, she shook out two of the tiny nitro tablets and put them under his tongue to dissolve. Then she pawed through her bag again. She had a large portable bottle of oxygen, a Jumbo D, but on a mask it would run at ten to fifteen liters per minute—half an hour at most before it ran dry. Might be better to put him on a cannula instead; it could run at two to six liters per minute, providing a smaller increase over a longer period of time to bring his O
2
level back as close to 100 percent as possible. Depended on what the next blood pressure reading showed.

“How’s the pain now?”

“Better. Mostly gone.”

“Still having that squeezing sensation?”

“No.”

“Difficulty breathing?”

“Not anymore.”

“The nausea?”

“Gone.”

“All right, good. Just keep still.”

Shelby listened to his lungs again; the faint wetness was barely discernible. His pulse rate had slowed and steadied at 80. He wasn’t sweating any longer, but his forehead, cheeks, and neck felt even cooler than before. At her touch a shiver went through him. And when she ran fingers over his arm, she felt the goose bumps that had formed there.

She dragged a pillow off the bed, hurried with it into the living room. The fire had begun to bank; she fed it quickly, leaving the fire screen open. She managed to shove the heavy couch over close to the fire, then took three more logs from the wood box and set them on the hearth bricks close by.

Back in the bedroom, she asked Jay if he thought he could sit up.

“I can try.”

She helped him into a sitting position. “Any more pain?”

“No.”

“Okay. Let’s see if you can stand up and walk.”

“Where?”

“Out by the fire. You can’t stay in here—it’s too cold.”

She wrapped the blanket around him, holding it closed with one hand. Got him up off the far side of the bed without difficulty; training, all the running and working out she did, had given her the strength to move and support bigger men than Jay. He was a little wobbly, but he didn’t sag in her grasp.

“Light-headedness? Discomfort of any kind?”

“No.”

She told him to lean on her and take a step, then another. His knees didn’t buckle.

“Slow, now,” she said, “baby steps.”

Out of the bedroom, down the hall, across to the couch. She eased him down on it, arranged the pillow under his head, drew his knees up and tucked the blanket around him. Returned to the bedroom long enough to pull the comforter off the bed, pick up her jump bag and the oximeter and pressure cuff. She covered Jay to the neck with the comforter, leaving one arm exposed, then put the oximeter on his finger and the cuff around his arm and took the readings.

Blood oxygen saturation at 95 percent. Blood pressure at 160 over 80—the nitro tablets had lowered it some but it was still too high. Better go with the cannula. She took it and the Jumbo D and mask from her bag, set the bottle on the floor at the end of the couch farthest from the fire, at the same time running through the litany of questions with him again. The answers he gave were the ones she wanted to hear. She put the cannula on him and started the oxygen flowing.

Stable now—temporarily.

Shelby stood looking down at him, for the first time letting her emotions break through the professional mind-set. A whole conga line of them—cautious relief, compassion, sadness, anger, frustration, tenderness. Love, too, no use denying it. What else would make her eyes start to tear up the way they were now?

You poor damn fool, she thought—and she wasn’t sure if she meant Jay or herself or both of them.