The Night That Started It All (18 page)

It was too early to share her news with the world, so she was cagey even with Emilie and Neil. ‘I’ve decided to stay on for a week or two,’ she told them in her email. ‘Luc has come to my rescue and he’s letting me stay at his place for some of the time.’

At his place. Not
with
him. She hoped they got the distinction, though, red-eyed and sleepless from attending to the latest set of twins all night through, they were hardly likely to notice anything.

She included a few pics of Disneyland, some of them strolling in Montmartre, and one rare one she just couldn’t resist of Luc laughing while getting drenched in a downpour of rain.

When the possibilities of varying her limited wardrobe reached saturation point, Luc took her to a boutique in the Rue Cambon, near the Ritz, that blessed venue, and some others in the Rue du Faubourg St Honoré. She tried on dozens of things, and he wanted to buy her most of them, but she accepted one lovely pale green dress to wear for daytime occasions and two for evening—one a simple, stunning black, the other a pale silvery cream.

She would never have been able to afford them herself, though she kept a tally of the cost so she could pay him back when her first truly massive royalty cheque arrived, just supposing one ever did. And she allowed the generous guy to give her some pearls and matching earrings as an outright gift.

She insisted on buying herself the shoes though, and, with the weather warming, trawled the Galleries Lafayette for some cooler things for casual wear. She couldn’t imagine how large she might be in a few months’ time, but there was the rest of spring and a certain amount of summer to live through first.

In her third week in Paris she was booked for her first prenatal visit. A private clinic had been recommended to Luc by a friend in the medical profession. It was the finest in Paris, the friend had assured Luc; reputed to be the most cutting edge in Europe.

The clinic was in the sixteenth
arrondissement
, across the river from Tante Laraine’s, though not far as the crow flew. In fact, after their big appointment, as Luc casually informed Shari over his breakfast croissant, his mother had suggested they join her for lunch.

‘Oh, have you
told
her?’ Shari said quickly.

‘Only that you’re still in Paris,’ he said soothingly, the shimmer in his eyes informing her he was perfectly alive to her alarm on the mother front.

The consultation alone was enough for Shari to worry about, without mothers—and
such
mothers—thrown in.

She put her anxieties aside and focused all her energies on preparing her questions for the doctor. Luc seemed as eager and excited as she was herself, an energy in his stride and a gleam in his eyes that melted her heart whenever he glanced at her.

Finally they were ushered into the consulting room and spent an arduous and exciting hour with the obstetrician, who was a pleasant and efficient Frenchwoman.

There was an endless list of questions for each of them to answer in regard to their family health histories, forms to fill out and government stuff to take care of.

Her official status in France was one of the items at issue.

‘My visa is good for another two months,’ Shari explained. ‘It will have to be extended, of course.’ She glanced at Luc. ‘Will that be a problem, do you think?’

He looked thoughtful, then shrugged. ‘Somehow we will deal with it.’

Then it was time for her examination. Luc didn’t appear to enjoy the pelvic part. Not that he was able to see much from where he was standing, wearing an expression of extreme pain.

His face lightened with relief when the doctor finally peeled off her gloves and pronounced her healthy, and, as far as she could ascertain,
l’enfant
progessing normally.

L’enfant
. Shari’s heart skipped a beat.

And that was just the beginning. By the time the doctor had informed them of the sort of changes to expect along the way, the routine tests and ultrasounds Shari would undergo and her dietary requirements, her head was spinning.

‘We will book your ultrasound for twelve weeks. Then we can measure your baby, check for certain of the possible abnormalities, the heart, et cetera. If we have any concerns at that point there’s a remote possibility we might schedule you for an amniocentesis test.’

‘I’ve read about that.’ Shari couldn’t help wincing. ‘Is that where they insert a needle into your womb?’

For Luc’s benefit, the doctor explained the procedure and its purposes fully.

‘It is not routine these days to take this test. Only if there are particular concerns, and of course even then it is your own choice whether or not you have it,’ the doctor continued. She produced a booklet that described the whole thing in detail.

Luc looked worried. ‘But it sounds … How safe could it be?’ He glanced from Shari to the doctor.

‘
Bien sûr
, any intervention carries a risk,
monsieur
,’ the doctor replied. She indicated the booklet with all the different tests profiled. ‘The risk is there, but it is quite small. The statistics are tabled in here. I advise you to study everything carefully.’ While encouraging, her cool professional smile revealed no clue of her own feelings on any matter.

Out in the street, floating, dancing, pirouetting the few blocks to where they’d left the car, while Luc was absorbed in some deep Gallic thinking, Shari was infected with an Australian need to babble.

‘It’s beginning to feel very real.’ She fanned herself with pamphlets. ‘I’m actually creating a new person. I’m turning into a mother before your very eyes.
Me
. Who would’ve thought?’

Luc roused himself from his reverie and slipped his arm around her. ‘It isn’t so impossible to imagine.’

‘You think? Have you imagined it? What about you? Do you see yourself as a papa?’

He shrugged nonchalantly, straightened his shoulders and flexed a thousand or so muscles, but his gorgeous eyes glowed. ‘Maybe.’

‘I can imagine it. You’ll be stern and thoughtful and
très très vraiment
strict.’

He grinned at her mimicry. ‘
Me
—
Zut
, I am thinking of that ultrasound. It will be—amazing.’

‘I know,’ she breathed. ‘To hear the little heartbeat.’

He grabbed her hand. ‘Come. I’m not ready to be with other people. Let’s go where we can talk.’

The Ritz wasn’t to hand, but luckily there was a patisserie on the next corner, Le Brioche d’Or. As they approached the crowded café Shari heard some jazz being played within. As if her heart wasn’t high enough.

All the aromas made her mouth water. Though ravenous after her scant breakfast, she was mindful of the upcoming lunch. It would be a serious social solecism not to eat at Laraine’s on this occasion. So she confined herself to selecting only tea and a miniature
tarte aux pommes
from the pastry counter. Luc ordered coffee.

Sliding into a booth in the upper room at a window overlooking the street, Shari spread out the information pamphlets and selected one, only raising her head when the food was delivered.

The tea was weak and watery, but these days that was how she liked it. She cut the pastry into two pieces and shoved one across to Luc. While perusing a screed about suggested dietary modifications for pregnancy, she bit into her scrumptious flaky pastry. Luckily there was nothing on the forbidden list about butter, apple a squidgin on the tart side, or rich heavenly custard.

The entire
tarte
was the sheerest bliss. She felt so sorry for all the people in the world who weren’t in Paris with Luc. She eyed his untouched piece.

‘Are you sure you want that?’

Without looking up the gorgeous man passed it back to her.

‘Thank you. This one’s in French only,’ she murmured, applying her paper napkin to the corner of her mouth. ‘Though I can manage most of it. You know, if I’m going to have this baby here I’ll have to enrol in some French lessons.’

Luc glanced up from the booklet he’d been perusing. ‘If? What is this
if
?’

‘Oh.’ Jolted, she met his sharp gaze. ‘Well … It’s just a figure of speech. I’ve booked into the clinic now so—I guess I’m—having the baby here.’ She grinned reassuringly. ‘If I can fix my visa.’

He glanced away from her. When he looked back again his eyes were veiled. ‘And you’re content—with that?’

‘You mean—am I content with
tu
?’ She smiled at his searching gaze. ‘I am. I’m quite content.’

He returned to his reading. Glancing at him a couple of times, she noticed his brows edging closer and closer together. Was it something she’d said?

The next time he spoke, he sounded his usual calm self. ‘Why were you thinking about this amnio needle test? Are you concerned there might be something wrong?’

‘Oh, no.’ She sighed, then pressed her lips together. ‘I don’t even want to think about anything like that.’ She hesitated, then blurted something that had been nagging at the edge of her mind. ‘The thing is, apart from checking for abnormalities, the test can also determine the baby’s DNA.’

‘So?’

She gazed at him. ‘Maybe we should have it. Just to—settle any tiny little doubts you might have.’

His eyes glinted. ‘I don’t have any doubts.’

She could feel her pulse beating a little too fast, but she disciplined her voice to stay serene and reasonable.

‘Still, the question has been raised between us, and I—I—well, just for my own peace of mind—need to know that if I’m staying here with you, if we are together in this, you have no reason to doubt me.’

With a rueful expression, he reached across the table and grabbed her hand.
‘Chérie
, I don’t doubt you. I don’t doubt you at all.’

She covered their clasped hands with her free one. ‘That’s lovely of you to say, Luc, but I’m thinking ahead to when this baby is born. What if he or she doesn’t immediately resemble
you? Or what if I can see the resemblance, but you can’t? Don’t you see? I’m quite an affectionate person. By that time I’ll have spent nearly a year of my life with you, and I could probably end up being really quite—attached to you by then. If that happened and you doubted me, I wouldn’t be able to bear it. The ending would be bad.
Big
time.’

He concealed his lowered gaze behind his dark lashes, frowning deeply. The moment stretched and stretched until her nerves nearly snapped.

Finally he said, ‘If you think it will bring you peace of mind …’ He threw out his hands.
‘D’accord
.’

D’accord
? Just like that?

Like a sandbagged zombie, she poured more milk into her tea and made it even weaker. If coffee wasn’t recommended, tea probably shouldn’t be either. And if a man agreed to having a DNA test to verify his paternity without a fuss, surely that was for the best.

N’est-ce pas
?

Even if the test had the barest, most infinitesimal possibility of endangering the child’s very existence?

‘Y
OU’RE
very quiet.’ They were crossing the Seine en route to
chez Laraine
. ‘Was it all too much? Are you feeling well?’

‘Sure. I’m feeling great. Just—thinking, is all.’

Thinking about what an idiot she was. Why had she done it? She’d set up a trap and walked straight into herself. She didn’t
want
that ghastly test unless the doctor specifically recommended it.

It only served her right for angling for reassurance. And how useless that had been. If a man wasn’t in love, he wasn’t, and nothing would ever make it happen.

At least he wasn’t lying to her. She supposed she should respect his implacable resistance to swearing undying love he didn’t mean.

With a sick feeling she realised that if she didn’t take the test, Luc would assume she was scared of the outcome.

‘This may not be the best time for you to go to lunch when you have had such a strenuous morning,’ he said apologetically, ‘but on any normal day I’ll be at work. I’m not sure you’re ready to visit Maman on your own. What do you think?’

Shari glanced quickly at him.
Her
? Visit Maman on her own? Had he been eating the wrong mushrooms?

‘You may be right,’ was all she said. But her mental cogs were whirring like crazy. Was this to be her lot from now on? Regular visits into the jaws of hell? Not that they were unkind to her there. It was just that her status with them was so uncertain.
She wasn’t quite a cousin, nor yet a
fiancée
. Perhaps she was a girlfriend, although surely Frenchmen loved their girlfriends.

‘What am I?’ she said.

He looked sharply at her. ‘
Comment
?’

‘How do I explain myself to your family? I mean … it’s hard to know where I stand there. Am I a friend of the family?’

‘Of course you are a friend. You are—
my …’
Seemed he too had trouble finding the word. ‘It will be easier for you when you learn more French,’ he said suavely. ‘Everything will be easier.’

After twice making an exhibition of herself before his entire family, she seriously doubted that. It would take some magnificent achievement, like saving France from invasion, or reconstituting Napoleon, to correct the impression she’d made.

‘Exactly how much does your mother know?’ she said lightly as he backed the Merc into an impossibly tight space in the vicinity of the building.

‘She knows nothing. Or …’ He lifted his hands from the wheel. ‘She is Maman. She could know everything.’ He flashed her a grin.

Great.

‘Think of it this way,’ he said smoothly, urging her up his mother’s garden path. ‘Now you are staying in Paris you will need to know some people. When I am at my office all day, you might need a friend to talk to. Here are some people who are willing to know you.’

Shari broke into a laugh. Her heart warmed with love for the sweet man. At least he was thoughtful about her loneliness. And his excitement about the baby was a fantastic relief.

Fortunately, this visit was less nerve-wracking than the first. She’d done everything humanly possibly here to dispel the notion she was Rémy’s woman on her first visit, and today it paid off. No urns were on display, and the assembly around the lunch table treated her with kid gloves.