Authors: Karyn Monk
“Good evening, Haydon,” he drawled, his voice coldly formal as he forced Annabelle back inside and closed the door. “I must confess, I had not expected to find you entertaining quite so many guests. I would have preferred to settle this matter between us without an audience.”
Haydon regarded Vincent with an air of carefully constructed calm. He gave no hint of his concern for Annabelle's welfare, or for any of the others within the crowded chamber. To do so would only enhance the perverse pleasure Vincent was currently enjoying and place them all in even greater danger. Haydon had seen that chillingly satisfied look before, on the day he had pleaded with Vincent to grant him custody of Emmaline.
He had erroneously believed that Vincent had exacted his revenge upon him by tormenting Emmaline until she couldn't bear to live. He had thought that must have been enough for himâthe horrendously lonely death of the child whom Haydon had wanted so desperately to help, and the subsequent disintegration of Haydon's life into the ashes of alcohol, guilt, and shame. Vincent knew about his appalling financial losses, and his reputation for drunkenness and brawling had become legendary. But in that frozen, hideous moment, it was clear that for the man whose wife Haydon had so selfishly bedded and gotten with child, Haydon's suffering had been wholly insufficient.
Only his death could assuage the humiliation and betrayal that Vincent had been forced to endure.
“Hello, Vincent,” Haydon said pleasantly. “I must say, I didn't expect to find you traipsing about in a sordid place like this. How have you been?”
“The ever urbane marquess of Redmond.” Vincent's tone was laden with bitter contempt. “No matter how unpalatable the situation, you always had a proclivity for being unfailingly polite. Even when you were ramming yourself between my wife's thighs all night beneath my own roof, you were excessively courteous and droll with me over breakfast the following morning. I suppose that made the game all the more amusing for you, didn't it.”
Haydon said nothing. He had no desire to further antagonize Vincent. Moreover, there really was no adequate excuse for his contemptible behavior.
“I believe I would prefer it if all of you would toss whatever weapons you might be holding onto the floor,” Vincent instructed, raking his gaze over the others.
His brow lifted as Eunice's rolling pin, Doreen's flatiron, Simon's poker, and Grace's warming pan clattered heavily to the floor. Oliver hesitated a moment, then reluctantly dropped a knife he had tucked inside his belt.
Vincent regarded Haydon and Jack expectantly.
“I'm afraid I don't have anything.” Haydon raised his empty hands.
Vincent shifted his attention to Jack, who had deftly slipped his dirk up his sleeve. “Me neither.” He regarded Vincent with barely contained loathing.
Vincent's eyes narrowed. “You're lying.”
Jack glared at him. “No, I'm not.”
“I believe you are,” Vincent asserted calmly. “And unless you produce your weapon within the next five seconds, I shall be forced to blast a hole into your pretty little friend here.”
A tiny, frightened whimper escaped Annabelle's throat.
Realizing he had no choice, Jack reluctantly allowed the dirk he had been hiding to slip through his fingers and clatter to the floor.
A triumphant smile lifted the corners of Vincent's mouth. “Very good.”
“Let her go, Vincent.” Haydon's voice was low and remarkably mild. “This is between us.”
“You really have been most tiresome, you know,” Vincent informed him, not relinquishing his hold on Annabelle. “I thought when I arranged for your little investment excursion here that these idiots I had hired would kill you and that would be the end of it. Instead you managed to slay one and scare these other imbeciles away. I must say, I found that rather vexing.”
“Forgive me for disappointing you,” Haydon apologized dryly. “I had no idea you had gone to so much trouble.”
“After you were sentenced to be hanged, it ceased to matter. I decided that having you dangle at the end of a rope on the scaffold was infinitely better than having your chest swiftly split in some dark alley. There was also the added enjoyment of the scandal your trial created, and the ugly stain you had brought upon the Redmond name. It was a most appropriate ending to what has been, by my accounting, a perfectly worthless life.”
Haydon did not argue.
“Unfortunately, however, you had to go and interfere.” Vincent cast an irritated look at Genevieve. “Of course, you cannot be blamed entirely for your feminine weakness, Miss MacPhail. I understand you have a bizarre penchant for helping worthless criminals, as is evidenced by the scum with which you have elected to surround yourself.” His lip curled with faint disgust as he swept his gaze over the unkempt children and elders crowding the room. “Moreover, the marquess here does have, what my slut of a wife took great pains to describe to me as, exceptional abilities when it comes to ruttingâas I'm sure you have discovered.”
Eunice gasped in horror.
“Keep yer filthy tongue to yerself afore I rip it from yer mouth!” Oliver's voice was quivering with fury and his ancient hands had knotted into fists.
“Did yer ma nae teach ye not to speak so in front of children?” demanded Doreen, looking as if she wanted to slap him. “I've a mind to wash yer mouth with a good chunk of lye soap!”
“Forgive me.” Vincent tipped his head in mannerly apology, amused by the elderly trio's scandalized reaction. “I had forgotten that there were children present. They are such mysterious, fragile creatures, aren't they, Haydon?” He adjusted his hold on Annabelle while he studied the anxious faces of Jamie, Grace, Charlotte, and Simon. Jack was glaring at him with poisonous loathing. “Although these children, I suspect, are not nearly as fragile as little Emmaline was.”
Despite his resolve not to antagonize him, Haydon found he could not keep silent. “You would know best about that, Vincent. After all, you tormented her to death.”
“Shut your mouth, you goddamn bastard,” Vincent snarled. “You, who crawled between my wife's legs night after night in a drunken haze of lust, with no thought whatsoever to the fact that a child might result from your sordid couplings! A child who was nothing more to you than spilled seed, and whom you passed off as my own while you sniggered behind my back about how clever you were! You haven't the right to speak her name, do you hear?”
His eyes were burning with rage. But there was something more there, buried deeper, masked within the swirling depths of fury and loathing. Haydon was far too consumed with his own wrath and his fear for Annabelle and the others to see it. But Genevieve recognized it instantly. All the years of ministering to the lost and broken souls of her children, each of whom had been so cruelly wounded before coming into her gentle care, enabled her to see beneath the suffocating layers of Vincent's hatred for Haydon. However much she despised him for threatening Annabelle and wanting to kill Haydon, she could not help but be moved by the raw pain she saw twisting deep within the shadows of his gaze.
This, she realized with piercing clarity, was a man who was drowning in agony.
“Do you dare think that you are better than me, Redmond?” Vincent continued savagely. “That your actions are above reproach? Or have you deluded yourself into believing that you are somehow the hero in all of this, and that you actually loved Emmaline because you accidentally planted her in my wife's womb?”
“I loved her enough to want to save her from you, Vincent,” Haydon retaliated, finding it increasingly difficult to maintain his calm facade. “I loved her enough to be willing to acknowledge her as my own, and to care for her and support her for the rest of her life. But you refused meânot because you gave a damn about Emmaline, but because you despised her very existence, and wanted to punish her for the fact that she was mine and not yours.”
“She was never yours!” Vincent's voice was hoarse, like the cry of an injured animal.
“She belonged to me!”
“And that's why you treated her so cruelly, isn't it, Vincent?” demanded Haydon. “You wanted to show the world that she was your possession, to revere or destroy as you wished. And that's exactly what you did, you goddamn heartless bastard. You tortured her by denying her even the simplest acts of kindness and care, until finally she couldn't bear your cruelties a moment longer. You murdered her, Vincent, as surely as if you had thrown her into that pond and held her head down while she thrashed about gasping for airâ”
“That's enough, Haydon.”
Genevieve's voice was sharp, cutting through his tirade with the efficacy of a razor. Haydon stopped and looked at her in surprise. But Genevieve's attention was riveted on Vincent, who had tightened his grip on Annabelle as if he needed her for support, his pistol still positioned precariously at her head.
“Forgive me, Lord Bothwell,” Genevieve began, her tone infinitely gentle. “I don't believe Lord Redmond understands. You did love Emmaline very much, didn't you?”
A mantle of deafening silence fell over the room as Vincent stared at Genevieve in bewilderment.
“I can see it,” she persisted quietly. “And I can feel it. You loved her terribly, and when she died, you didn't think you could bear it.”
The room was frozen as everyone waited for Vincent's response.
“She wasâ¦everything,” he finally managed, the words breaking from his mouth like painful, shattered fragments.
“That's a bloody lie,” countered Haydon. “If you loved her, then you never would have spurned her the way you did.”
“It was terrible for you to discover that she wasn't your own child, wasn't it?” Genevieve continued softly, her gaze locked upon Vincent as if he were the only other person in the room.
Vincent didn't reply.
“And in your anger and your pain, you couldn't bring yourself to be near her, could you?”
His mouth tightened.
“And so you tried to cut her from your heart.”
He stared at her in silence, fighting the demons clawing at his soul. And then a helpless, pained sound, part laugh and part sob, escaped his throat. “My wife laughed when she told me. She said I was a fool, and that she and Redmond would spend the rest of their lives laughing at me, because I had not been able to see that the child I had so willingly claimed as my own for five years was not really mine at all.”
“That doesn't make you a fool, Lord Bothwell,” Genevieve told him adamantly. “You loved her. She was your daughter.”
He shook his head. “I wasn't her father.”
“Not in blood, perhaps. But blood is not what forges the strongest bonds of love, nor is it what makes a family. Just ask any of my children.”
He looked about helplessly at the children's faces before him.
“Emmaline could not be held accountable for the circumstances of her creation, any more than any of us can,” Genevieve continued. “It was wrong for you to punish her for something in which she was a victim, just as you were. But I don't believe you intended to drive her to such sorrow. I believe you found your love for her too painful to endure, and so you erected a wall and tried to push her to the other side. And she couldn't bear it.”
“I didn't understand how delicate she was,” he confessed, his eyes shadowed with regret. He loosened his hold on Annabelle slightly, as if he suddenly feared that she, too, might be more delicate than he had imagined. “I thought she would simply turn away from me and focus her attention on other things. I convinced myself that was best, because I feared that one day she would learn the truth. I thought it would be easier for her to bear if she hadn't spent her whole life clinging to my hand. But instead I destroyed her.” He turned his gaze to Haydon. “And so did you, Redmond. You carelessly created her with a woman who was incapable of having any tender feelings toward her own child, which is why it was inevitable that I would someday learn that you had sired her. Cassandra cared nothing for how that piece of information would affect Emmaline. Instead of loving her and wanting to protect her, she was jealous of her own daughter's relationship with me. She wanted to punish me, and on some despicable, incomprehensible level, she wanted to punish Emmaline as wellâI suppose because she was a constant reminder of you. And I was too blind with fury to see it.” His voice was ragged with emotion as he finished, “You should have bloody well grabbed her and taken her with you that day. Had you done so, my beautiful little daughter would still be alive.”
Haydon stared at him helplessly, feeling as if he had suddenly been set adrift. He had hated Vincent with a sickening intensity for two long years. He had nurtured that hatred freely, for it had helped to mitigate the crushing weight of his own responsibility in Emmaline's pitiful existence and tragic death. But as he looked at Vincent in that moment and saw how broken and haunted he was, he found he could no longer summon the loathing he had once felt toward him. He could not despise a man who was so filled with anguish over the death of his only child. Vincent was lashing out at Haydon because he believed Haydon was the architect of his suffering.
And he was right.
“I'm sorry, Vincent,” he began, the words rough with remorse. “I failed her, and I am deeply ashamed for that. But Emmaline is gone, and there is nothing left but her memory. Let us not mar it with any more hatred and misery and death. Let us bring this matter to an end.” He took a slow step forward and held out his hand. “Give me your gun, Vincent.”
Vincent regarded him helplessly, looking trapped. “You will kill me.”
“No,” Haydon assured him solemnly. “I won't.”
“But I tried to kill youâ”
“And you failed.”
“Then you will turn me over to the authorities so that I will suffer the same indignities you were forced to sufferâ”