Read The Road To The City Online

Authors: Natalia Ginzburg

The Road To The City

BOOK: The Road To The City
2.19Mb size Format: txt, pdf, ePub
ads

Books by Natalia Ginzburg

All Our Yesterdays

Family Sayings

The Little Virtues

The City and the House

The Manzoni Family

Valentino and Sagittarius

Family: Family and Borghesia, Two Novellas

Voices in the Evening

The Road to the City

The Road to the City copyright © 1944, 2012 by Biulio Einaudi editore s.p.a

The Dry Heart copyright © 1947, 2012 by Biulio Einaudi editore s.p.a.

English translation copyright © 1952, 2012 by The Hogarth Press Ltd.

All Rights Reserved. No part of this book may be reproduced in any manner without the express written consent of the publisher, except in the case of brief excerpts in critical reviews or articles. All inquiries should be addressed to Arcade Publishing, 307 West 36th Street, 11th Floor, New York, NY 10018.

Arcade Publishing books may be purchased in bulk at special discounts for sales promotion, corporate gifts, fund-raising, or educational purposes. Special editions can also be created to specifications. For details, contact the Special Sales Department, Arcade Publishing, 307 West 36th Street, 11th Floor, New York, NY 10018 or
[email protected]
.

Arcade Publishing® is a registered trademark of Skyhorse Publishing, Inc.®, a Delaware corporation.

“The Road to the City” was originally published in Italian under the title
La strada che va in citta
.

“The Dry Heart” was originally published in Italian under the title
E stato cosi
.

The characters and events in this book are fictitious. Any similarities to real persons, living or dead, is coincidental and not intended by the author.

Visit our website at
www.arcadepub.com
.

10 9 8 7 6 5 4 3 2 1

Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication Data is available on file.

ISBN: 978-1-61145-679-0

TO LEONE

Contents

The Road to the City

The Dry Heart

The labour of the foolish wearieth
every one of them, because he knoweth
not how to go to the city
.

ECCLESIASTES X. 15

THE ROAD TO THE CITY
1

N
INI
was the son of one of my father's cousins and he had been with us ever since he was a little boy. After the death of his parents he went first to live with his grandfather, but the old man used to beat him with a broomstick and he was always running away to our house. Finally his grandfather died, too, and he was told he could stay with us always.

There were five of us, not counting Nini. The oldest was my sister, Azalea, who had married and gone to live in the city. I came next, and then my three brothers, Giovanni, Gabriele, and Vittorio. They say that big families are happy, but I could never see anything particularly happy about ours. Azalea had married and gone away when she was seventeen, and my one ambition was to do likewise. I was seventeen now myself, but I didn't have any offers. Giovanni and Nini were equally restless; in fact, the two smaller boys were the only ones content to stay where they were.

Our house was red with a pergola in front of it, and we hung our clothes on the banisters because we didn't have enough cupboards. ‘Shoo, shoo!' my mother would say as she chased the hens out of the kitchen.‘Shoo, shoo!' All day long the gramophone played the same record over and over again:

‘Velvety hands, your sweet perfu-u-me
Seems to pervade this cosy roo-o-m …'

The cadence of this song enchanted us all and we sang it from the time we got up to the time we went to bed. Giovanni and Nini slept in the room next to mine and woke me up every morning with three knocks on the wall. I would get dressed in a hurry and we would all three set out for the city, which was an hour's walk away. When we got there we lost no time in separating, as if we were total strangers. I usually went to see a friend and strolled with her under the arcades. Sometimes I ran into Azalea with a red nose under her veil, but she refused to speak to me because I hadn't a hat.

Later in the morning I would eat bread and oranges down by the river or else go to see Azalea. Usually I found her in bed, smoking or reading a novel or having a jealous quarrel with her lover over the telephone, quite heedless of the presence of the children around her. Then her husband would come in for lunch and she would quarrel with him too. Her husband was an oldish man with eyeglasses and a beard. He seldom paid any attention to what she said but read his newspaper, sighing, scratching his head, and exclaiming to himself every now and then: ‘God help us!' Then Ottavia, the fourteen-year-old servant girl, wearing her black hair in an untidy braid and carrying the baby in her arms, would announce from the door: ‘Lunch is ready!' Azalea would pull on her stockings, yawn, and look down at her legs, and then we would all sit down at the table. Whenever the telephone rang Azalea blushed and twisted her napkin in her hands, while Ottavia answered from the next room: ‘She's busy just now; she'll call you later.'

After lunch her husband always went out again and Azalea went back to bed, where she almost immediately fell asleep, with a calm and affectionate expression on her relaxed face. The telephone could ring, doors slam, and the children shout, but Azalea only breathed deeply and went on sleeping. While Ottavia cleared the table she used to ask me in a frightened manner what would happen if ‘the master' were to find out. Then she would add in a low voice, with a bitter smile, that ‘the master' had someone else too. At this point I would leave. I used to wait on a park bench for evening to fall, while my friend and I listened to the music coming from an outdoor café and looked at the dresses on the women passing by. Sometimes I would see Nini and Giovanni go by, but we never spoke. I was sure to meet them later on the dusty road outside the city, while the city lights went on behind us and the café orchestra struck up more gaily than before. We walked silently along the country road, between the river and the trees, until we reached home.

I hated our house. I hated my mother and the bitter sorrel soup that she set before us every evening. If I had met her in the city I should have been ashamed. But she had not gone to the city for years, and now, with her unkempt grey hair and missing front teeth, she seemed for all the world a peasant. ‘You look like a witch, Mother,' Azalea would say when she came to the house. ‘Why don't you get some false teeth?' Then she would lie down on the red couch in the dining-room, kick off her shoes, and say: ‘Give me a cup of coffee.' After she had drunk down the coffee which my mother brought her she would take a nap and then go away. My mother always said that children were serpents' teeth and that no one had any business bringing them into the world. Indeed she spent all her days cursing her children, one by one.

When my mother was young a justice of the peace had fallen in love with her and carried her off to Milan. My mother was always telling this story, but she claimed that the justice of the peace was a figment of gossip and that she had gone away because she was tired of her children. ‘If only I'd never come back!' she used to say, spreading her fingers over her face to wipe away her tears. My mother talked all the time, but I never answered. Only Nini answered her occasionally. He was very different from us in spite of the fact that we had grown up together. He had a pale face that never tanned in the sun and a lock of hair that tumbled over his forehead. He always had his pockets stuffed with books and newspapers, which he devoured unceasingly, even at mealtime. Just to be fresh, Giovanni would knock over whatever he was reading.

Nini would simply pick it up and go right on, running his fingers through his hair, while the gramophone blared:

‘Velvety hands, your sweet perfume…'

My two younger brothers shouted and hit each other, and my mother pitched into me for not helping her with the dishes. My father would say that she should have brought me up better, and when she sobbed that everyone treated her like a dog he would take his hat down from the rack and go out. My father was an electrician, with photography as a side line, and he wanted to teach Giovanni to be an electrician too. But Giovanni was too lazy to answer any calls for a repair job. We never had enough money, and my father was always ill-humoured and tired. He would come in for a few minutes and then go away again, saying that the place was a madhouse. But he always said that it was his fault and my mother's, not ours, that we were so badly brought up. My father still looked young and my mother was very jealous. He always washed thoroughly before he went out and put brilliantine on his hair, and when I met him in the city I was not ashamed. Nini was a great one for washing, too, and he used to steal brilliantine from my father. But it failed to hold down the lock of hair that fell across his forehead.

One day Giovanni said to me:

‘Nini drinks grape brandy.'

I stared at him in astonishment.

‘Brandy? Does he drink it often?'

‘Whenever he can. Just as often as he can lay his hands on it. He has a bottle of it hidden here at home. I found it and then he had to let me have some. It was good.'

‘Nini drinks grape brandy!' I repeated unbelievingly to myself. I went to see Azalea and found her all alone in the kitchen, eating tomato salad with a vinegar dressing.

‘Nini drinks grape brandy,' I said to her.

She shrugged her shoulders.

‘Well, he's got to do something to keep from being bored, hasn't he?' she said.

‘That's right. We're all bored. Why, I wonder?'

‘Because life is boring,' she said, pushing away her plate. ‘There's not much to do about it. Nothing gives one a kick for very long.'

‘Why are we always so bored?' I said to Nini that evening on the way home.

‘Who's bored, I'd like to know? Not I!' And he laughed and took my arm. ‘Are you bored, then? Why, when everything's so beautiful?'

‘What's beautiful?' I asked.

‘Everything,' he said. ‘I like the looks of everything I see. A while ago I enjoyed walking in the city, and now that we're walking in the country I enjoy that just as well.'

Giovanni was just a few steps ahead of us. He turned around and said: ‘Nini's working in a factory now.'

‘I'm learning to use a lathe,' said Nini, ‘so I can make some money. It's too painful not having any. If I've just a little change jingling in my pocket I start feeling more cheerful. And it's a question of either stealing or earning it. That's something they've never explained properly at home. They're always bawling us out, but that's just their way of passing the time. No one's ever told us: “Shut up and get out!” And that's what we needed to hear.'

‘If they'd said anything like that to me,' retorted Giovanni, ‘I'd have put
them
out of the door in a hurry.'

On the road we met the doctor's son, who had been out hunting with his dog. He had shot seven or eight quail and gave two of them to me. He was a stoutish young man with a thick black moustache who was studying medicine at the university. He and Nini got into a discussion and later Giovanni said:

‘Nini has ten times the brains of the doctor's son. Nini's no ordinary fellow, you know, even if he hasn't had much schooling.'

But I was all excited because Giulio had given me the quail and looked at me and said that one day we must go to the city together. Summer was coming on and I began to think of remodelling all my clothes. I told my mother that I had to have some light blue material, and she asked me where I thought she was going to get the money. Then I said that I had to have a pair of cork-soled shoes, too, and I threw in a curse at the mother that had borne her. She slapped me in the face, and I shut myself up in my room and cried all day long. Later I asked Azalea for the money. She sent me to a house at 20 Via Genova to ask if Alberto was there. I brought back the answer that he wasn't, and she gave me the money for pay. I stayed several days in my room sewing the dress and almost forgot about the city entirely. When the dress was finished I put it on and went out for a walk. The doctor's son caught up with me and bought some cakes and we ate them together in the woods. He asked me why I had been shut up in the house so long, and I told him that I didn't like to have other people pry into my affairs. He asked me not to be so hard on him and tried to kiss me, but I ran away.

I lay all morning on the balcony tanning my legs. I had the cork-soled shoes and the dress and a woven straw handbag that Azalea gave me for taking a letter to 20 Via Genova. My face and arms and legs soon took on a wonderful brown. The neighbours told my mother that Giulio, the doctor's son, was in love with me and that his parents were very upset about it. My mother turned agreeable all of a sudden and gave me an egg for breakfast every morning, because she said that I didn't seem up to par. The doctor's wife stood at her window with her maidservant beside her, and when I went by she closed it up as if she had seen a snake. Giulio half smiled and went right on walking beside me. I didn't listen to what he was saying, but I thought to myself that soon this stoutish young man with the black moustache and the riding boots, who whistled to his dog, would be engaged to me, and many a girl in the village would cry her eyes out.

BOOK: The Road To The City
2.19Mb size Format: txt, pdf, ePub
ads

Other books

By Murder's Bright Light by Paul Doherty
The Saint Meets the Tiger by Leslie Charteris
The Dark by Sergio Chejfec
Fabulous by Simone Bryant
Aunts Up the Cross by Robin Dalton
The Heartbreak Cafe by Melissa Hill
Brutality by Ingrid Thoft