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Authors: Lois McMaster Bujold

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It bothered Fiametta that she could recall so little of Rome. Venice, now, she could picture clearly, even how Papa had taken her there perched upon the pack-horse. The excitement of the journey, the wonder and glitter and arrogance of the city... but there had been nothing of Mama in Venice. Fiametta had watched from her upstairs window as gaudily-turbaned Moorish merchants were poled down the canal in their gondolas, or the occasional blackamoor slave of some great lord or lady, city-smooth and almost as proud as their masters, and once, the floating entourage of an Ethiopian ambassador. But none of these seemed to have any connection to Mama, the slim dark witch from Brindisi.... Fiametta was accustomed to thinking of her Papa as the powerful one, but Mama had been a sorceress too. Fiametta touched the lump of the snake belt. The silver work was Papa's, yes, but the original spell...?
Was it Mama's? Yes
.... Indeed? The dark woman smiled at Fiametta over the shoulder of the beneficent white statue.

      
Mama, why did you give up your power to marry Papa?

      
I traded it for you, love, and never regretted the bargain. Magic is power, but children are life itself, without which there is neither magic nor any good thing....

      
Papa regretted I was not a boy. Did you?

      
No, never. Fear not, Fiametta. The fullness of her power comes late to a woman. You must live your way to it, grow, and get more life... then all that was mine shall be yours, at the still center.

      
No. Not all the power had been Papa's, for he had circled that center as if swung on the end of an unbreakable silver cord. Till death had broken it. Fiametta's drifting calm was swallowed by panic.
But I need power now. Power, not patience. Mama. Mother Mary...

      
The two faces, cool white marble, soft brown smiling flesh, fused together in a kind of maternal sisterhood.
You are my golden child....

      
Fiametta snapped awake at the wail of an infant: shocked at her fleeting dream, soggy with weariness, appalled anew at the noise. The edgy din in this crowded chamber would surely drive her mad. The light of the setting sun was knifing through the window slits on the western wall. Fiametta rolled back off the pallet and visited the latrine, which stank. Even there she was not alone. She eyed the dark squares of windows cut high in the wall for ventilation, just under the eaves, and wished they were larger. The other two women left. Another screaming argument started in the adjacent dormitory. Dizzy with tension, Fiametta reached high over her head and curled her hands around a dirty ledge, to heave herself up and half through. She hung on her belly over the stone and stared around.

      
The eaves of the leaded roof overhung these tiny windows like a tent, concealing them from outside view. Beams from the ceiling thrust out to meet the roof, making triangular braces. Far below Fiametta's nose, the monastery's outer wall met the ground, weedy, rocky, deserted. With difficulty, Fiametta wriggled her hips through the little window, scrambled sideways, and laid her body across the bridging beams. Narrow, precarious, but might it make a hiding place if the monastery was overrun by Losimons? Maybe, till the beams burnt and the roof collapsed.

      
But at least she was alone, the mind-numbing uproar of the women's dormitory muffled to a blur of sound. She allowed herself to weep at last, though silently, lest some guard stationed on the roof above or the ground below overhear and investigate. Her tears dropped away and fell in the sunset light like molten gold in her Papa's shop falling into the basin of cold water to make the tiny round beads. The droplets puffed into the dust far below. The tears became pearls, then disappeared in the shadows as the light went. Her head and chest and belly ached with pent sobs.

      
Every dependency had betrayed her. Her trust had been mocked by one failure after another: Papa, Monreale, Thur... poor Thur. Drawn all unprepared into this. It was hardly his fault.... A large spider, making its web in a triangle to the west of Fiametta's head, dropped upon a strand of silk and bobbled a moment before re-climbing the thread, reminding Fiametta horribly of a man hanged. A blond young man, all blue-eyed and feckless and unlucky in love.

      
I could have fetched such a spider for Abbot Monreale,
Fiametta decided.
So what if I'd had to touch it.
If only she had spoken up. Maybe it would have made the difference in the abbot's spell.

      
The spider sat upon its web, which was moving gently in some faint draft. The creature was fading to a black blot as the shadows deepened.

      
I'm only a puny girl. Somebody is supposed to save me. I'm not supposed to have to save myself.

      
Or them.

      
She could do nothing, clapped up in this stone pile of a monastery. Master mage or puny girl, demonstrably one had to get closer to the target. Risking the journey. Risking... what? Death? She risked that staying right here. Torment? Likewise.

      
Damnation?

      
Not a worry that stopped Ferrante, obviously, or even slowed Vitelli down. Nor their murdering bravos.

      
I'd fight those bastards with steel, if I were a man.
If she were a man, a priest would sprinkle holy water on her bloody sword and pronounce her forgiven before the bodies had cooled. But she wasn't a man, and she doubted she'd get ten paces with a sword in her hand.
Not man, but true mage.
And if God wanted to damn her for using the only strength He'd given her, that was God's choice.

      
In the gathering dark, her belly filled with fires of resolution. She reached out and closed her hand over the faint suggestion of a spider hanging before her nose. It wriggled and tickled the flesh of her palm. There was more to a spell than pure will. There was focus, and the accumulation of power within symbolic structure.

      
"Bene,"
she whispered to the spider,
"forte."
Barely able to see it, she squeezed its abdomen. Fine silver thread spun out from her hand, looping around a beam. She kicked her skirts free, dropping upon the spider's thread toward the iron-hard ground. Her arm yanked up as the thread stretched—and held. She rotated, once, twice; her feet struck the ground with a thump, and she staggered for her lost balance.

      
The drop should have broken both her legs. Her impromptu spell had
worked
. She opened her right hand upon a gooey, crunchy, smeared blob.

      
Oh. I'm sorry, spider.
A wave of nausea nearly overwhelmed her. She rubbed her palm hastily upon the warm rough stone of the monastery wall to scrape off the remains.

      
Dizzied with the drop and the after-burn of magic along her nerves, it took her a moment to realize that she was standing openly in the dusk against the wall, a clear target for any Losimon crossbowman sharp enough to have noticed the movement of her controlled fall. The spider thread, its enchantment consumed, had blown to dust upon the wind; she could not climb up it again. Nor make that poor squashed spider spin another. She dropped flat to the ground, panting.
Oh, God, Are You revenged for my pride already? Mother Mary!
But no quarrel hummed viciously above her head; no shouts rained down. Only the first croakings of frogs and the last twitterings of birds floated upon the cooling darkness. She waited several minutes, rigid with fear. The darkness deepened.

      
Now you've done it. You can't get back in. You have to go on.
She wriggled around until she freed the silver snake belt concealed under her bodice, then wound it back openly around her waist. She took a breath, swung to a crouch, bundled up her skirts, and scurried toward the woods.

      
The shade was blacker, under the trees, but her footsteps crackled among the leaf litter, weeds, and sticks. She stepped as carefully as she could. If she could slip through the Losimon lines and reach the road to town —

      
She did not scream, when the dark man in soldier's leathers leapt upon her. It wasn't as if she weren't expecting something of the sort. Still her breath caught in her throat, and her heart pounded as he spun her around. "Ha!" he cried. "Got you!"

      
"No. I have you," she stated, then stopped, taken aback. Even in the dimness it was clear that the man was bald as a plate, and clean-shaved. But he wore a woolen shirt under his leather vest; she could smell the dried sweat in it.
"Piro,"
she said clearly.

      
His sleeves burst into flames, twining around his arms like orange flowers in the dark. Fey, she walked off into the wildly wavering torch shadows while he was still screaming and rolling on the ground. She didn't even run. His cries would bring his comrades to his aid; even now she could hear them crashing through the brush behind her. But not, she thought, after her. Few among the Losimon rank and file would be fool enough to chase an unknown sorceress through the dark fast enough to risk actually catching her. She strolled on awash in a kind of disconnected lassitude, very much like the times she'd drunk too much unwatered wine. She was without fear, and wanted to sleep. Her fingers felt thick as sausages; her legs felt like wood.

      
This wood lot to the south of the monastery featured a ravine which ran down to the lake, where the ground flattened out and the road crossed. She slipped and scrambled down the slope, scraping her hands on the rough tree bark to slow herself. She could feel stickiness from the blood, but her hands seemed numb to pain. At the bottom, a nearly dry stream oozed slimy black around pale blotches of rocks. She picked her way among them.

      
She froze, crouching among some fallen logs, her white sleeves crossed under her breasts, when a couple of Losimon soldiers clanked past, swords drawn. Intent on the shouts echoing faintly from the vicinity of the monastery uphill, they ran by without seeing her. They must have been guarding the road, for when she reached the dusty track, a vague ribbon in the moonless dark, it was deserted. The lake lay like black silk.

      
She turned south and started walking home.

 

 

Chapter Fifteen

 

 

After an age, the reverberations of pain through Thur's body died away enough for him to uncurl from around his throbbing crotch and try to sit up. The north-facing window of the cell admitted no creeping patch of sunlight to mark the time, but the deep blue color of the bit of sky he could see suggested that the afternoon was waning. Gingerly, he put his hand to his swollen lips, touched loose-moving teeth, and winced. Sheer chance he had not bitten his tongue in half. His sides and back and kidneys ached from booted kicks, almost eclipsing the clamor of yesterday's sword cut broken open again. His red cap was gone, likewise his shoes. His knitted hose were torn, unraveling badly. By pushing himself up sideways he got his back to the wall and his legs out in front of him. He looked around at last.

      
Lord Pia sat cross-legged upon a straw pallet, which had its own scrap of blanket. The castellan rocked gently back and forward, nibbling at the blanket's corner in much the same absent way as a man might bite his fingernails. His red-rimmed eyes were fixed unblinkingly on Thur. His fine silk hosen were all riddled and ruined too, Thur noticed with a sense of dreary fellowship.

      
"Who are you?" Lord Pia said in a husky voice, not dropping his unnerving stare, nor ceasing his rocking.

      
"My name is Thur Ochs," Thur mumbled, muffled by his puffy mouth, "Brother to Captain Uri Ochs. I came seeking my brother, but Lord Ferrante has killed him." His tale sounded almost mechanical in his own ears, leaden, so often had he repeated it.

      
"Uri's brother? Truly?" Lord Pia's stare sharpened. "He spoke of a brother... I saw him die."

      
"He mentioned your name from time to time in his letters, Lord Pia." Thur ducked his head respectfully. Both men had been Sandrino's officers; they must have worked together daily.

      
"Uri was a good fellow," Lord Pia remarked, staring now into the middle distance. "Sometimes he helped me to catch bats in the caves west of the lake. He was not afraid of the caves, after the mines, he said." He fingered the silver embroidery on his tunic, the glitter, Thur realized upon a closer look, of tiny bats ranked wingtip to wingtip edging collar and cuffs. Had Lady Pia stitched them?

      
"Oh?" said Thur neutrally, remembering how mention of the little flying animals had set Lord Pia off last night.

      
"A bat's the thing, you know. Clever creatures. I think a man might fly as a bat flies, without feathers, if he could but devise wings light enough, yet strong.... The leather was too heavy, even for Uri's sword and shield arms; next time I shall try parchment. Do you know, bats eat the marsh mosquitoes that plague us? Their fur is very soft, like a mole's. And they can be trained not to bite the hand that feeds them. Unlike men." The castellan brooded. "To think that men dare to call them evil, only because they fly in the night, when men do murder in the broad day—the hypocrites!"

      
"They are God's creatures too, I am sure," Thur said warily.

      
"Ah! So good to find a man who is not prejudiced by idle superstitions."

      
"I often saw bats in the old mineshafts. They do no more harm than the kobolds."

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