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Authors: Jean Johnson

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However, the
rolling
part didn’t work properly if the bus was firmly parked. Which this one was. Finding the gearshift, Ia shoved it into the Neutral setting, then pulled on the release lever for the parking brake. Crawling backwards down the steps, she hauled her trembling body upright via the doorframe and edged behind Sergeant Tae, who was overseeing the recruits as they counted off their demerits.
I am not going to let
you
destroy my career . . .
she thought fiercely inside her head. Tired as she was, she knew far, far better than to project that thought.
I am
not
going to let septillions be slaughtered because
I failed! I will not fail!
She tripped over the cable. Barely managing to twist in time so that she took the worst of the bruising in a slumping roll, Ia fought against the urge to cry. Mind and body were almost disconnected, she was that close to the last of her strength. She
hurt
, inside and out. For a long, pain-filled moment, there just wasn’t enough left of anything within her, beyond that urge to cry.
“As for
you
, Recruit Ia—”
. . . No.
Breath huffing through her clenched teeth, she sought for the energy she needed. Her body was used up; her muscles did not want to respond. The only thing she had left was her mind, and her mind was filling up with the horrors of whole worlds being torn apart by uncaring, rapacious hordes.
“—if
this
is the so-called best you can do—”
No.
Rolling over, she grabbed the looped cable and levered herself up, hauling on the cable and jerking against the unmoving weight of the ground bus.
No! I
will
not let them die . . . I will
not
fail . . . I
will not
!
“—then I guess I’m just going to have to—”
“—NO!!”
Screaming her denial, she threw her body, voice, and mind against the dead weight of her task . . . and lurched the bus forward. The cable fought painfully against the grip of her gloved hands, but the bus moved. Muscles straining, joints protesting, Ia hauled on the cable with sheer willpower, her weight-wrapped body leaning at an extreme angle as she fought the inertia of the vehicle. Even as a heavyworlder, even if she had been in perfect shape, free of exhaustion, it would have been difficult for her to move a ground bus loaded with recruits and instructors.
She moved it.
That was all that mattered.
Step by step, she hauled on the cable, keeping it moving, overcoming friction and inertia with burning determination, and every bit of her telekinesis she had to spare. At this point, hiding her abilities from detection was the lesser threat to the future. Being pressured to join the Special Forces Psi Division, she could work around. Being thrown out of the Corps, she could not.
The bus picked up speed from a bare crawl to a gentle roll. She forced her leaden feet to move faster, to keep her from tripping and letting the bus drift to a stop, or worse, roll over her. Not that she couldn’t lie flat and clear the undercarriage, but if it stopped, she’d have to get it started all over again, and there were almost four kilometers between this spot and the barracks.
“Recruit! Recruit Ia! Dammit—somebody get behind that wheel!” she heard Sgt. Tae demand. “Chong, I’m putting an end to this—”
NO!
She hauled harder on the cable, moving the bus a little faster. Faster.
I
will
tow it back! I will not fail!
“
Shak
k—get on the bus! Everyone on the bus!”
His orders turned into meaningless noises. Only four words mattered to her now.
I will
not
fail!
With that single thought burning through her blood, giving her the energy her mortal flesh lacked, Ia spun and hauled on the bus with the cable slung over her shoulder, putting her legs and her back fully into each angled step.
There was nothing left but the driving need to haul the weight of the future itself out of the grey, choiceless mist clouding her path.
I.
Will.
Not.
Fail.
 
The counter-tug on the cable, caused by the ground bus braking behind her, almost yanked Ia off her feet. Dumbly, she twisted to see why it had stopped. The oblongs of white off to either side took several seconds to register as buildings. By that point, however, she had a short, brown-clad, furious man yelling at her.
“What in the
goddamned
name of the Motherworld did you
think
you were
doing
?”
Ia blinked at him.
“Just
what
did you think you were doing, Recruit Ia?” he repeated fiercely.
“Hauling . . . the bus . . . back to the barracks,” she managed, struggling through the exhaustion fogging her thoughts. “As ordered, Sergeant . . .”
Whirling, he smacked the front of the bus with his baton, then spun back to her with a growl.
“Why?”
“You . . . You said . . . I’d get thrown out. If I didn’t follow orders,” Ia reminded him. “So I just . . . just followed your orders. Sergeant.”
“I was trying to
rescind
those orders!” Sergeant Tae shouted, swaying so close, the brim of his hat brushed against her nose.
Ia blinked. “. . . Oh.”
“What the
shakking
hell kind of Drill Instructor do you
take
me for? I expected you to
try
, yes, but I
also
expect you to
know when to quit
, dammit! I
should
court-martial you for being so stars-be-damned
stupid
as to almost
kill
yourself . . .”
His tirade floated around her like aural ribbons in an unseen wind. They flicked at her senses, but never really landed, never actually impacted. Ia just stared at him, blinked a few times, and waggled her head in vague, wearied semi-responses to whatever it was he was ranting about. Something about quitting, of course, but that didn’t really make sense. She
couldn’t
quit.
Whatever doubts about her own ability to carry through with what she had to do had burned away somewhere during those four or so kilometers of hauling the bus back to the barracks. Barracks which now had a bunch of men and women lining up in front of, most of them with the same mix of concern, awe, and uneasiness in their eyes as she saw in Tae’s. If without the ranting.
“Well?”
he finally demanded.
She stared, unable to remember what he had asked. There was no past for her to peer into, and no future left to guide her. Not even a grey mist. Just the here and now. Licking her dry lips, Ia ventured the one coherent concern left on her mind. “Sergeant . . . Permission to fall down, Sergeant?”
The expletive that left his lips wasn’t exactly a “yes,” but it wasn’t a flat-out “no,” either. He didn’t actually say “no.” Taking that for what little it was worth, Ia closed her eyes and let the ground leap up to catch her.
CHAPTER 8
 
Some people . . . alright, a lot of people . . . have accused me over the years of meddling in matters where I shouldn’t. To all of them, I’d just like to take a moment to say: “So, what, if you catch on fire, I shouldn’t inform you of it? I shouldn’t advise you to stop, drop, and roll? I shouldn’t grab for a bucket of water and douse the flames crisping their way up your legs and your back?” Somehow, I don’t think ignoring someone if they’re on fire is the right thing to do.
Parents meddle with their children’s growth and development every single day. Governments meddle in the lives of their citizens every single day. Peacekeepers meddle in the crimes committed by wrongdoers every single day. Even restaurant servers meddle in your choice of meals, by making suggestions about the daily special every single day.
Don’t tell me not to meddle, as if I’m some sort of godcomplexed monster. I am not the worst being in this whole galaxy when it comes to that.
~Ia
 
 
MAY 18, 2490 T.S.
 
Liquid silver surrounded her. Drowned her. Ia twitched, trying to shove it away.
(
Shhh . . . shhh, little one. We’re being watched, so kindly do not wake up fully, just yet.
)
Huh . . . wha . . .
Sharpening her thoughts, Ia struggled to open her eyes—and felt them being kept shut from inside her own head. She shoved mentally at the other presence, but she was too weak, too sapped in strength to budge the other presence.
(
Trust me, child, you don’t want to officially wake up just yet. Not until you and I have had our own little talk, first. Afterward, we’ll know how to deal with the Marines waiting to speak with you . . . particularly since I’m “legally obligated” to inform them of what I’ve seen inside your little white head.
)
(
Shakk!
) Fear spiked through her. She clamped down on her thoughts, on her gifts, and winced at the spike of pain that stabbed through her head with the attempt. A deep breath to stifle the pain filled her lungs with the medicated, antiseptic scents found only in a hospital.
(
Easy . . . as much as I could expose you, there’s always the counterfaction threat of you deciding to expose
me
. . . ah, I see you’re grasping what I am now, yes?
)
(
Feyori.
) That explained the swirling silver blinding her inner sight. With that clarity, the Feyori gave her a mental-window view into the Infirmary room where she lay, supposedly still unconscious from severe exhaustion.
A brown-haired, grey-eyed man wearing one of those ubiquitous, plain-cut exam jackets in a tastefully bland shade of grey perched on the edge of her bed. One set of his fingertips touched her brow, the other set encircled her wrist. On his shoulder was a flash patch with the Radiant Eye, marking him as a member of the Special Forces, Psi Division. No doubt he had been brought in to make sure she didn’t suffer from the backlash of KI depletion, which could cause mental and emotional damage to her psyche as much as her advanced exhaustion could cause physical damage to her body.
His presence as a Psi Division soldier was highly ironic, however, because it was the fault of the Feyori that there were any psychics to begin with. Their great Game was impossibly convoluted and gave Ia a brain-twisting migraine whenever she tried to understand it. They used other races as counters and markers, they altered bloodlines and introduced abilities that should not naturally exist, and they rose or fell in their convoluted ranks based on the effects that they caused in the lives of the often unwitting, matter-based beings they chose to manipulate.
Like draconic players in the most complex poker game ever invented, they did not care if their actions would be considered right or wrong by the standards of their card-pawns. All that mattered was that they tried their best to behave like miniature gods, unknowable, inscrutable, and annoying as hell—particularly when their usually subtle effects exploded into blatant manipulations.
(
. . . Yes, you are a clever half-child, aren’t you? And a
powerful
one. Your progenitor must be very pleased with your creation. Or perhaps worried. You
are
powerful, disturbingly so . . . and blatantly determined to do your own Meddling. If I were from a counterfaction . . . you’d be dead.
)
(
Don’t threaten me, Feyori,
) Ia growled back mentally. (
I know how to kill your kind.
)
She could sense he didn’t fully believe her, but he did humor her. (
And your discretion thus far is appreciated, I’m sure. But your presence, with your power and your own agenda and your determination to carry it through, threatens the Game. Thus I must decide for the benefit of all what must be done with you. But . . . I am not unreasoning; there may be an advantage for my faction in the Game, if I spare you.
)

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