Thomas M. Disch (44 page)

The two other deaths were another matter. The Tyler girl had been attacked by one of the guard dogs when she had tried to escape with Alison Sanders from the Shrine. Gerhardt had discovered her body in the woods only a few minutes earlier. In a sense, even that death could be accounted accidental. The dog had not been directly incited to kill her.

It was the death of Raven Peck that was confounding, for Gerhardt had found her in her own cell, in restraints, the apparent victim of strangulation. She could not conceivably have committed suicide, but who would have done such a thing? Gerhardt had said with a perfectly straight face that he believed Father Pat was responsible. The only grounds for this suggestion was that another of the girls, the youngest, had told Hedwig that Father Pat had attempted to molest her, but the Obers had not believed the girl, who was an accomplished liar, and neither did Father Cogling.

Father Cogling was more inclined to believe that one of the Obers had killed Raven Peck than that Father Pat had done so. Father Pat’s sexual drive did not tend in the direction of teenage girls, and Father Cogling doubted whether that was the sort of thing that changed overnight. So the girl’s murder had to be accounted, at this point, a mystery—and one that there was not time, now, to investigate in the spirit of an amateur detective. For Gerhardt was determined to find where the Sanders girl and her meddling boyfriend had gone off to.

“We can’t just stand around gassing,” Gerhardt insisted, without any of his usual deference to Father Cogling’s authority. “If they manage to get away now, this whole thing could blow up.”

“It seems to have blown up already,” said Father Cogling acerbically.

“What I mean to say, Father, is that we could all of us end up in jail.

You and me and Father Pat, and even my poor sister, who has been another Mother Teresa toward these girls.”

“So what do you propose to do, Gerhardt? Hunt down the boy and girl like a pair of animals?”

Gerhardt’s reply was a steely silence. Father Cogling realized that that was exactly what Gerhardt intended.

“What about the priest who’s locked in the reliquarium?”

“Isn’t he the one you said was pestering you on the phone about his friend, the faggot who started this whole mess? You think he isn’t going to the police after what’s happened?”

This time it was Father Cogling who had no reply.

“We deal with him like we dealt with his friend,” said Gerhardt. “We deal with all of them that way. I honestly don’t see any alternative, Father.

We’ve discussed before what we’d do if one of the girls died. We’d tell her parents that she ran away from BirthRight and we don’t know where she went.

None of the parents know each other. All they know is that their kid is a runaway. It happens all the time.”

“And the priest, Mabbley? And the girl’s boyfriend? Mabbley says the Chancery knows that he was coming here. The
Chancery
, Gerhardt!”

“We say they never got here. Or maybe they helped the Sanders girl break out of here and ran off with her. By the time someone starts looking for them, we’ll have had a chance to get things back in order here.”

“And what about Father Pat?”

“What about him? You don’t think he’s going to go to the police, do you?

Fat chance of that happening. Father, this is not the time to be talking things over. We got to find those two kids. Am I right?”

Father Cogling nodded, and then added, prudentially, “But you’re not to hurt them.”

“Right, right. Now, here’s what I suggest. You stay here in front of the altar, where you can see most of the church, and I’ll check out all the nooks and crannies where they might be. Fortunately, the way the Shrine is built, there’s not that many possibilities for them. But if they try to scoot out of one while I’m checking into another, you’ll be able to see them.”

“I understand,” said Father Cogling.

It took Gerhardt no more than fifteen minutes to check out all the side chapels, starting with those behind the main altar, and the confessionals.

“No sign of them?” asked Father Cogling when Gerhardt returned to him.

“No, but that means I know where they’ve got to be. It’s the only place left. And it’s just where I want them. They’re up there.” He pointed with his shotgun at the bats circling in the dome.

Father Cogling snorted derisively. “And how did they get there? Did they fly?”

“There’s a stairway that goes up there. There’s no door on it. It goes all the way up to the base of the dome. See that railing that goes all around the bottom part of the dome, like a little fence?”

“The balustrade?”

“Mm-hm. Well, there’s a little walkway behind it, just wide enough for one person to go along it. Apparently, the idea was for tourists to be able to go up there and have a view of the whole Shrine.”

“Yes, it’s a common feature of churches that have impressive domes.”

“That’s where they must have gone. And that’s where we’re going after them.”

“No, Gerhardt, please leave me out of it.”

“Sorry, Father, but there has to be two of us. ‘Cause the pathway goes all around the dome. And there’s just the one way to enter or to leave. By the stairway that goes up there. So if I went up there by myself, and they were on the opposite side of the dome, I couldn’t flush them out. ‘Cause if I go to the side where they are, then they can just keep opposite me and get back to the door. Unless there’s somebody by the door. You see the logic, don’t you?”

Father Cogling hated having to keep taking his cues from Gerhardt, but he did see the logic.

“You’re certain that’s where they are?”

Gerhardt smiled and nodded. “In fact, Father, if you look up there right now, you can see the girl. Or a bit of her white dress. They’re crouched down behind the balustrade, looking at us and wondering if they fooled us.”

Father Cogling sighed. “I’m afraid your eyes are better than mine, Gerhardt.”

Gerhardt nodded. “They’re there. And they can probably see us looking at them. And where they are they’ll be able to see us heading to the stairwell.

So they’ll know we’re coming up there. Which means, since I’ve got a twelve-gauge pump, I should be ahead of you on the stairs.”

Father Cogling readily agreed.

It was a long climb. Gerhardt, despite his years, seemed indefatigable, and Father Cogling had to beg more than once for a respite. In his youth, on visits to various cathedrals in Europe, Father Cogling had been obliged, as a responsible tourist and a devout Catholic, to undertake similar ascents into domes and bell towers. Even then he’d considered it a form of pious madness.

But the long climb did give him an opportunity to think. Gerhardt had performed many services for him that Father Cogling did not like to think about. If the police began to examine him (as now seemed inevitable), Father Cogling doubted that the man, for all his proven loyalty, would have the courage to shoulder all the responsibility for everything that had happened.

Indeed, so much had happened that it would probably not be possible for Gerhardt, if he began to be asked questions, to avoid implicating Father Cogling—and (this was surely the most important consideration) compromising the Church.

The more Father Cogling pondered these matters, the clearer it seemed that the best service Gerhardt could perform would be to sacrifice himself
before
he was interrogated.

When they reached the top of the staircase and emerged into the bat-infested madness of the dome, Father Cogling had also reached his decision. And, thanks to the gun that he had appropriated from Father Mabbley, he was in a position to carry it out.

As Gerhardt had foreseen, the guilty couple had crawled along the walkway to the side of the dome opposite the doorway. Father Cogling was able to discern, once Gerhardt had pointed it out, the telltale white of the girl’s dress and the blue of the boy’s jeans through the massive balusters supporting the railing.

“You stay here by the door,” Gerhardt told him. “I’ll walk around this way and flush them out. And don’t let yourself be spooked by the bats.”

Father Cogling nodded. He did not have time to hesitate, but he wasn’t familiar with the operation of the handgun. He knew there was supposed to be some kind of mechanism called a safety that had to be released. Like cocking back the thingamajig on a cap pistol. He couldn’t discover any such device, however, and he decided that the gun was ready to be fired. But Gerhardt had already progressed too far along the walkway, and Father Cogling wanted to be sure of his aim. He followed after him as quickly as he could.

Gerhardt turned around. “I thought I told you—” he began.

Father Cogling took aim and pulled the trigger. There was only a muted click.

“Well, you goddamned son of a bitch,” said Gerhardt. He lifted the 12-gauge pump and aimed it at the priest.

Father Cogling pulled the trigger again. The gun had been used to kill the dog: There could not have been just a single bullet in it. But in fact (for Father Mabbley had had peculiar scruples in the matter of guns), such was the case. There was only a click.

Gerhardt fired. The charge tore off the cap of Father Cogling’s left shoulder and, striking the concrete, ricocheted all about the dome. A few bats died and dropped to the floor of the Shrine, but Father Cogling was still alive. He ran toward the door of the stairway.

Gerhardt fired again. Father Cogling’s body smashed into the concrete base of the dome and, rebounding, toppled over the balustrade to plunge to the floor of the Shrine.

Gerhardt leaned over the balustrade, amazed at what he’d done.

It was the moment Greg had waited for. During the time that Gerhardt’s attention had been focused on the priest who had betrayed him, Greg had run forward in a crouch, as near as he thought he would have to get for his aim to be true. Then he hurled the brass candlestick he’d taken from the main altar, and the candlestick connected. Gerhardt fell, dazed, onto the railing of the balustrade.

Greg didn’t hesitate. He was there beside him at once. The old man still had enough of his wits about him to sense what Greg intended. He was able to lift his hand and to say, “Don’t.”

Greg caught hold of Gerhardt by the calf of his scrawny leg and tipped him into the Shrine’s central void.

Gerhardt’s body landed atop that of the man he’d just killed. Together their corpses formed a kind of sign of the cross.

The following is excerpted from Appendix B of
A Prolegomenon to Receptivist Science
, Revised Edition, by A. D. Boscage (Exegete Press, 1993): In the interval since the appearance of the first edition of this investigation, I have been harshly dealt with by many socalled critics, who have pointed out real and pretended inconsistencies in my text. Many have done so in a spirit of open derision that has been a cause of real distress to myself and to the many others who have had experiences similar to my own and have had the courage to speak of them. What kind of “critic” is it who points the finger of laughter at those whose only fault is to have exhibited the psychic scars—or the still bleeding stigmata!— of sufferings such as I have recounted in these pages? Perhaps these wounds were inflicted by weapons unknown to the limited perspective of “scientific” investigation. I have never professed to be able to offer a complete scientific explanation for all that I have been a witness to. I leave that to those who will come after me. I have only been able to offer suggestions, hypotheses,
hints
, that may pierce the dark veil surrounding events that often do seem inexplicable.

Perhaps the cruelest of all these critiques was that offered by someone I had supposed to be a friend. “Tripping with the UFO Messiah” appeared in a monthly magazine of limited circulation but high reputation (a reputation that has been irreparably tarnished by the publication of such a mean-spirited

“hatchet job”), and it bore the byline of HéloIse Vendelle. As a rule, I refuse to read the screeds of those who have no other purpose than ridicule and vilification, but I knew Héloise Vendelle! She it was with whom I journeyed in 1981 to the ruined abbey church at Montpellier-le-Vieux. With her I had marveled at the picturesque remains of that abandoned city. She it was who had discovered me as I emerged dazed and confused from the crypt of Notre Dame de Gevaudon, after my experience of transmentation, and it was she who was my companion in the blisses of love for the three weeks that followed.

What a very different account of that experience Héloise Vendelle related in the pages of that magazine which I forbear to name. According to her, there is no such city as Montpellier-le-Vieux! According to her, there has never been such a city! The blocks of stone that once formed the pillars of Notre Dame de Gevaudon are nothing, according to her, but geological formations of a peculiar character, the work not of medieval stonemasons but of eroding winds and rains! She quoted passages from reference books and even supplied her own poor-quality snapshots of what she claimed was Montpellier-le-Vieux. I looked at them and could not believe my eyes, for these were not the ruins we had visited!

HéloIse claimed, further, that at the time of this visit I was under the influence of illicit substances—both amphetamines and hallucinogens. I have already written that Lorraine had purchased amphetamines when we were in Rodez, but they were entirely for her own use. I
did
prepare myself with a megadose of Vitamin C, and was in a state of heightened receptivity to my external environment. But I categorically deny using any hallucinogens, a kind of drug whose use I have forsworn since 1976. Perhaps
Héloise Vendelle
was dropping acid unbeknownst to me, but
I
was not!