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Authors: Melody Carlson
Tags: #Mothers and Sons, #Christian, #Biographical, #General, #Christian Women, #Historical, #Christian Women Saints, #Fiction, #Religious
Then I take these men straight to John, introducing them as if they are all related as brothers. Fortunately, my own sons do not seem offended by this. John takes them around the room and introduces them to the other ten disciples. It is not long before my sons are gathered around Simon Peter and John, listening to these two dear men retelling some of the things they have seen and heard during these past three years, and especially lately. The other disciples inject bits and pieces here and there, and in the course of the next few days, my four sons are being thoroughly educated into their half brother’s incredible ministry.
Day turns into night turns into day, and yet we continue to wait. How long will it take? I must admit that I even feel brief gusts of doubt. What if Jesus’s disciples did not hear him quite right? Or what if we are in the wrong place? I know this is foolishness, but it is only because I am so tired of waiting. I feel that I have been waiting my whole life. Still, I sit in my corner and try to remain faithful. Waiting, waiting, waiting . . .
How long must we wait, Lord?
We have been up here in this room for more than a week now. I think it is ten days altogether. In some ways it reminds me of that other time of waiting. Certainly, that was a much darker time, a more hopeless time, and only three days. Even so, this is beginning to feel like eternity to me. I sit quietly in my corner in the back of the room, where I have remained most of the time, as we continue to wait. All of our needs have been graciously seen to by servants that Martha of Bethany and Mary of Magdala have made arrangements for. Food and water is carried up. We have bedding to sleep on. And here we have stayed day after day.
I realize during this confinement that I am unaccustomed to being indoors for such extended periods. I am a woman who needs the blue sky overhead and the dusty earth beneath my feet. But, other than to tend to my body’s most basic needs, I refuse to leave this stuffy room for long. I am too worried that I might miss him while I am out. And I could not bear to miss him again.
I tell no one of this, but I have grown weary, very weary, during these past two days. I am weary from travel, weary from waiting, weary with this earthly life altogether. I am beginning to think I am a very old woman, too old for such things. Perhaps it is time for me to go home to Nazareth and then to lay my body down next to my dear Joseph, beneath the ground. That is how weary I am right now. But I sense that I am not the only one. The room has been heavy with quietness today. I think everyone is weary of waiting.
Suddenly there is a change. I think we all feel it, for it seems that instantly and simultaneously everyone comes to attention. Some rise to their feet, and I discover that I too am standing, although I do not recall getting up. And then a blast of wind bursts into the room, almost like a whirlwind or a small tornado, although that seems impossible. With the howling of the wind in my ears, and with dust and debris and something else—is it light?—whirling around, it seems that everyone in the room has disappeared—or are they obscured?—except for me, and I feel that I stand all alone with this loud rushing in my ears, and a feeling of energy—or is it fire?—surges through my head clear down to my toes! It is unlike anything I have ever experienced! And yet it is familiar. In some ways it is like that night so long ago when God’s Spirit came upon me and I conceived his son. But so much more so!
I stand with my hands and face lifted to the heavens, worshiping God, fully expecting to be lifted and swept away with this wind. I am hoping I will be taken up in the same manner that my Lord has gone before me. And then, as suddenly as it began, it is over.
I look around and am surprised to see that everyone else is still here. But I know that nothing will ever be the same. Their faces look as astonished as I feel. But there is something more—each face has an expression of pure ecstasy—as if they have looked into the soul of God. Indeed, that is how I feel.
Before long some of the disciples and others are beginning to speak in foreign languages, and many other astounding things are happening, and miracles too. It is wonderful and incredible, and yet I have this strong sense that it is time for me to go. It is not a negative feeling, not as if I want to leave these people I love so dearly, but simply a knowledge within me—maybe it is the Holy Spirit, the Helper. But somehow I know deep inside that it is time for me to leave.
With so much activity and excitement in this room, no one notices as I slip out the back door and head down into the street below. I walk quietly with my head slightly bowed as I consider the amazing thing that has just happened to me. My heart is so full! Full to the point of overflowing. And I realize now that I no longer need to see the Lord with my own eyes. I realize that he, by the power of his Holy Spirit, is living inside me now. I do not know how, but somehow I know this without doubt. Just as assuredly as I knew that the Son of God lived within my womb more than thirty-three years ago, I know that the Son of God lives here now. Only more so.
I head for the city gates, thinking I will first go to the house in Bethany, where I will gather my things, and then I will prepare to leave. Just as I am outside of the city, I notice someone is walking beside me. An old man, I think, for his gait is slow and smooth, but I continue to walk, keeping my head down as I ponder all these things and make my plans.
“Where are you going?” the stranger asks.
Surprised that he is addressing me, I glance at him, then simply say, “I am going to Nazareth.”
“Why are you going to Nazareth?” he asks.
Unsure of the answer, I reach up and touch my little secret seed pocket, checking to see if my seed is still there. “To plant seeds,” I tell the man, as if that should make sense.
“Is that all?” he asks.
Suddenly I wonder why this man is so curious about me, but I answer him anyway. “And then I am going to harvest.”
I am sure this stranger must think I am crazy if I plan to harvest when it is still springtime. So I turn and study his face to determine if he is confused by my answer. But he just smiles.
And that is when I know. He is no stranger. But before I can say anything, before I can fall upon my knees and thank him and worship him, he is gone. In a glorious flash of pure golden light, he vanishes. But his smile remains with me. Such a smile. And that is not all. He remains with me as well, and I know that wherever he leads, that is where I will go. But right now he is leading me back to Nazareth to plant seeds and then to harvest.
The Beginning
ABOUT THE AUTHOR
Melody Carlson
is the award-winning, prolific author of more than two hundred books of fiction, nonfiction, and gift books, including
The Christmas Bus
and
Angels in the Snow
. Among her many awards for excellence in writing are the Gold Medallion and a Romance Writers of America Rita Award. She lives in Oregon.
© 2005, 2012 by Melody Carlson
Published by StoneHouse Ink
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First Paperback Edition published 2007
Second printing, February 2007
First eBook Edition 2012
Previously published under the title
Three Days
Published in the United States of America
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