Three Heroes (87 page)

“You bit me!”

“Mmm.” Laughing, he grabbed her by the waist and hoisted her out of the bath to sit on the edge, then spread her legs wide. He smiled at her as he’d smiled at her breasts, then put his mouth there.

“Con!” She tried to wriggle back, but he grabbed her hips, looking at her with surprise.

She knew then that this was something experienced lovers did. She stopped trying to escape, but didn’t know what else to do, what to say.

“You don’t like it?” he asked.

“Of course! You just surprised me.” Did that sound convincing? “And you bit me,” she added as a distraction. “I thought you were going to bite me there!”

“No teeth. I promise.”

He put one hand on the rim and leaped with agility out of the bath. He went to the pile of linen towels on a shelf and came back to spread them lavishly on the tiles.

She sat there, drinking in the beauty of his strong body, trying to look as if she knew what he was doing.

She’d just lied to him, and she hated that. She wouldn’t tell the truth, however. She couldn’t bear for this to stop now.

He picked her up and sat her on the towels, then dropped back into the water. It was certainly more comfortable than cold, hard tile.

“Now lie back.”

She did so, but he kept his hands on her knees so she had to leave her feet dangling, up to the ankles in water. Then he began to draw her toward him, and hooked her legs over his shoulders.

She knew better than to cry a protest now, but she lay there on her back, quivering with ignorant uncertainty, staring at the lewd ceiling, but shockingly aware of being exposed to his very close eyes.

Then she felt his hands beneath her, thumbs brushing apart sensitive skin. She stared fixedly at the dragon about to impale the screaming maiden, water still thundering into the tub, echoing around the tiled chamber.

His thumbs entered her, opened her, shuddering her, making her want to squirm away—and to wriggle closer. Then it was only his mouth, stroking and sucking. She almost felt too sensitive to be touched there, and yet immediately her body responded, demanded.

His tongue swirled around her and she gasped for breath.

Her breasts ached, and she reached up to comfort them, squeezing and stroking. A mere touch at her nipples sent fire through her, and she pressed there, squeezed there. Hot pleasure swept down to meet his mouth, making her arch toward him, but the dragon had her lower body chained, completely in his power.

Her demanding dragon with the mouth of fire ...

A moan escaped her to bounce around the room. She squeezed her breasts harder as he sucked harder and that blissful darkness circled in.

She was being ravished by her dragon, but raptured, not raped. This was the most perfect, the most blissful rapture she could ever imagine.

Then fiercely he was in her, wonderfully big, hard, and strong, driving the velvety darkness deep into her until it swallowed her whole.

She drifted back to hard tiles beneath damp towels, to sweat and sandalwood. To silence. The water had stopped.

Curious, she raised her head to look. It had stopped a hand’s breadth from the rim.

“Have we created a flood?” he asked sleepily.

She let her head sink back. He was half over her, his head between her breasts, and she stroked him there. “No.”

“Pity. I wouldn’t mind the end of the world.”

She knew what he meant.

She moved her hand down, exploring the firm strength of his muscled back beneath the smooth, wet skin, a worm of sadness stirring. Never to do this again. A bitter shame, but better than never to have known it.

The one candle gave little light, and the room, the house, was quiet. Even their breathing had calmed.

Then he stirred, pushing up off her to stand. He extended a hand and she put hers into it be pulled up. As she stood, she winced. She was tender, but her legs were protesting unusual exercise, too.

He smiled and pushed her into the water. She yelled as she splashed in, and it echoed around the room.

Would it echo through corridors and courtyard to tell the world what they were doing here?

She didn’t care.

He jumped in after her, and waves splashed over the edge, rippling down the steps.

“You’ll bring the house down!” she protested, laughing.

“Good idea.” He circled his arms to create waves, and she lunged at him to hold him still, his body slippery beneath her hands. They wrestled through and beneath the water, to emerge spluttering and collapse against the side.

“We could go out on the beach in the dark,” he said, nibbling her ear. “Go swimming.”

She shared his need to re-create the past, to make it whole and good, but she had to say, ‘There’s not enough moon.“

“Another time then.” He said it lazily, but she knew from the tension of his body that he’d remembered that there wouldn’t be another time.

Because there wouldn’t be another time, every moment of the night became precious, and one thing she wanted was to know more about him.

She struggled up straight and embraced him in the water. “Tell me about the army.”

“That’s not something you want to hear.”

“It’s most of the years that divide us, Con. And there must have been some good times.”

He moved back against the side, and she let him. When he leaned his head against the rim and let his body float, she floated beside him despite the distraction of his lovely body and soft, promising genitals.

“It seems barbaric,” he said, “but it’s true—there were some good times. Wild incidents. Insane acts of bravery and generosity. And pure farce, like the time the company tried to smuggle a bunch of piglets on a march . ..”

He began to talk, telling her stories, but leaving out so much. She wanted to ask: Were you frightened?

What was it like to kill? How often have you been wounded? How much did it hurt?

They were stupid, invasive questions, but they made up a part of his life that she would never know.

She could tell from his body that he’d not been seriously wounded, but scars told of pain. She supposed everyone except an idiot was frightened sometimes. And certainly a soldier must kill.

Her sweet, gentle Con.

She turned to put an arm around him, to float against him. “I’m glad I was apart from you when all this happened.”

He stroked her back. “But I was just telling you about the time Major Tippet made assignations with three Spanish women on the same night. That’s not so terrible.”

“I know,” she said, without explanation, and he didn’t ask for one.

“I checked the casualty lists,” she confessed. “I knew that we’d hear the news eventually, but I couldn’t bear not to check.”

It was growing cold in the water, but she didn’t want to move, didn’t want to risk any change. “So many deaths. With each one, I thought what it would be like if it were you. I became intense about it. Uncle Nathaniel tried to forbid me to read the papers, but I always found ways. They couldn’t understand, but of course, they didn’t know about you.”

“They had to know something.”

She traced the coils of the dragon. “They knew we’d met. We’d been seen together often enough. But most of our time was out of sight. No one realized how much time we spent together. And of course, no one knew the whole of it.”

“You never told anyone?”

She shifted to look up at him. “Did you?”

“No, of course not.”

“Then why think I would?” It hurt, and she added, “It’s not as if I wanted to be forced to marry you, after all.”

They slid apart. “It was force you had in mind, was it?”

Appalled, she tried to repair the damage. “No! I thought you willing. You were willing! I simply encouraged you.”

“But you’d have encouraged Fred if you’d realized he was the heir, wouldn’t you? You did, in fact. I could tell from his letters that Miss Susan Kerslake was doing her best to be of interest to him.”

She bit back tears. “I told you. Marrying the future earl had to be a worthy goal. I’d already sacrificed you on that altar.”

“Any passionate little sessions on the beach with him? I doubt it. If you didn’t have sails and a rudder, Fred would hardly notice you.”

She sucked in a deep breath. “Don’t do this, Con. It’s so long ago now.” Desperate for harmony again, she offered him a cautious bit of her heart. “He wasn’t you.”

He took it wrong. “That always was the problem, wasn’t it?”

He yanked the plug out and water began to run away, taking her magical night with it.

She turned and climbed out by the stairs, grabbing a damp towel to wrap herself in, and drying herself as she hurried into the bedroom.

He followed, stark naked, watching her, silently.

“Are we finished?” she asked, knowing that too had come out all wrong.

“Oh, yes, I think we are.”

She turned away to pull on her shift, to fasten her corset, to struggle into her dress. Her hair was still sodden, and she shivered at the water running down her back.

No, that wasn’t why she shivered.

She’d constructed a time of lies here. She’d wanted him, and to get what she wanted she’d lied. As she’

d feared, as she’d known, now she had only dust in her hands.

There was nothing for them now, but earlier there had been friendship, and tonight, together, they had thrown it away. What use was friendship, however, if they never met?

Once he left here, and she left here, they would never meet again.

She looked back at him still watching her, still naked.

The room smelled of sandalwood, and passion, and Con. She thought she’d remember it all her life.

What to say at such a moment?

In the end, she simply turned and left, in silence.

Con could finally allow himself to collapse into a chair, to sink his head into his hands.

Susan. Susan.

A thief, and a whore, and a liar.

He stood and went to the table to pour himself a glassful of wine, knocking it back in one swallow. He finally really did understand those poor fools entangled with worthless women. He could feel the bonds winding around his limbs.

What did it matter? a voice was saying. As his wife she’d have no need to steal. He should be able to keep her satisfied and in line so she didn’t whore around.

But could he ever trust a word she said?

She lied so well. So convincingly. She’d claimed lovers to overcome his resistance to surrendering to his needs.

But it had been his idea. He remembered that. His insane, overpowering idea. He’d bribed her with half the gold...

Was he mistaken? Was she honest?

How could he twist the lens to see her as honest?

“Lady Anne. Lady Anne. Lady Anne.” He spoke it aloud, an incantation against dark magic.

Thank God he’d sent that letter. It bound him. It protected him. But even so, he had to get away from here soon.

Swann was coming from Honiton tomorrow, and Race had sorted out the essentials of the earldom’s affairs. Even after giving Susan half the treasure trove, there’d be enough to keep this place going for a while.

By tomorrow night he might be able to leave with a clear conscience and ride east.

To claim Lady Anne.

Sweet, kind, gentle, good—

He hurled the glass to shatter against Saint George’s smug face.

Susan felt she could hardly breathe for suffocating sadness. She took refuge in the garden, but this was all too horribly like the past, without the brash certainties of youth to hide behind.

Then, for a while, she’d been able to think: I made a brave sacrifice so I could continue to pursue my great goal.

Now she could only think of might-have-beens.

They might at least still have been friends.

Where had she gone wrong?

Everywhere.

She should have reacted with outrage, as she’d wanted to, to being bought, and explained clearly why the Horde had the right to that money. He might not have agreed, but he’d have known she wasn’t a greedy thief.

But then they would not have made love.

She circled the shadowy fountain, thinking of the dragon’s bride splayed on her rock, screaming. Had she screamed in true terror, or because she was horrified at wanting to be ravished?

The chain still hung there, trailing limply into the stone basin. What had really chained the bride to the rock? What if she’d gone willingly, though shaking, to give herself to the dragon?

She leaned on the rough stone rim, shivering with loss, and with the prosaic chill of damp clothes and wet hair. What else should she have done differently?

She should have pretended more skillfully to be experienced.

No, no, she should have told him the truth.

But then they would not have made love.

Clearly she shouldn’t have let her anger show at the end. Why not, though? Why not? Why shouldn’t she be outraged at being thought of no honor? Was that how he’d thought of her all these years, as a person who would stir up trouble out of spite?

But if she’d held her tongue, perhaps they would even now be making love again.

She pushed herself straight and took a deep breath. Life goes on. Despite lost chances and broken hearts, life goes on and must be endured.

As she continued through the shadowy garden she tried to comfort herself with the fact that she’d earned half the gold. She didn’t know how much half was, but it must surely enable David and the Horde to lie low for a month or two.

It didn’t touch the pain eating deeply into her.

Susan was wakened the next morning as usual by Ellen with her breakfast tray. Tea, a fresh roll, butter, and jam-Routine, blessed routine, except that she had no interest in food at all. She’d hardly slept, but she managed a smile for the girl, and thanks.

“Was it something terrible last night, ma’am?” the maid asked.

“What?” Susan froze, wondering what people knew, what they’d heard....

“The earl, ma’am. He said it was urgent, and he looked ever so wild!”

Susan choked down a laugh. “No, no. It was a minor matter. Nothing to worry about.”

“That’s good, ma’am.” Ellen smiled. “He’s a lovely man, really, isn’t he? It’ll be all right here with him as earl.”