Trust: Betrayed (44 page)

Mmm. Better.
“It’s all right. I’d like to understand what you thought the police would do?”

“Recently the Leibowitz Foundation helped in a similar case.” Alistair’s frown darkened, but Edward didn’t acknowledge it. “An S&M case where the court ruled that the amount of physical or psychological harm that the law allows between any two people, even married consenting adults in the privacy of their home, is to be determined by the State because of its responsibility to protect people from these injuries. Acts such as the ones Sophia researched online are illegal according to British law, even between consenting adults.”

Edward ran a hand over his face and stared into Alistair’s eyes. “I’m sorry. I didn’t know that anything had happened. I was only thinking that Sophia might...”

Alistair nodded his forgiveness. “It really doesn’t matter now, does it? Could you, please, show me what Sophia googled?”

He pointed to Sophia’s computer. “Sure, see for yourself. Her history is still on the screen.”

Alistair sat on Sophia’s chair and the first thing he noticed were two photos discreetly standing beside her iMac. He was startled. He didn’t know if he should be flattered or annoyed by the photos.

In the first one, Sophia, adorable in her wedding dress, looking enthralled at Gabriel’s face. Their body language spoke for them, shouting loudly, ‘Love! Love! Love!’.

In the other, Alistair saw his own smiling face, holding a lovely, laughing Gabriela in his arms. Sophia had taken that photo at Stonehenge.

He remembered that day clearly; the day she had asked him to slow things down. He should have known better. He should never have dragged Sophia into his darkness. His lips curled down and he shook his head sadly at the sequence of events that passed through his head.

“Jesus. Christ.” Alistair’s shocked mumble made Tavish look away from Dr. Kent’s face to stare at his brother.

Alistair had been going through Sophia’s searched websites for at least ten minutes. He was ashen, his green eyes glued to the screen. He was sitting stiff on her chair. When he turned to look at them, he seemed unsure of what to do.

Eventually, he exhaled, discomfited, and let his feet carry him to where the others were seated, and dropped heavily in one of the armchairs, “I never did anything like that.”

Edward just snorted.

“With her, I mean. She’s not the kind of woman-”

“You don’t need to tell me that,” Edward interrupted him. “I know Sophia better than you, MacCraig.”

Son of a bitch.
Alistair narrowed his eyes at Edward, “But you’ll never know her as I do.”
Steady, Alistair Connor, steady. You need to bring Davidoff to your side.

“I was friends with Gabriel for more than fifteen years. And with Sophia for almost a decade. I was at their wedding,” Edward thinned his lips with anger, stopping the hateful words he wanted to say. “And to think I’m the one responsible for your relationship. I encouraged her. She knew instinctively that you were trouble. Her damn instincts. I should have demanded a background check on you. But it was too late. She was already ensnared and didn’t let me. She wanted to build a relationship based in honor and trust.” He raised from his place on the sofa, disgusted with himself and walked to the window. “She was happy, damn you.”

“Edward,” Dr. Kent’s soft voice interrupted Edward’s train of thoughts, “we have to focus on Sophia. I’m quite worried about her state of mind.” She turned to Alistair and gently asked, “Mr. MacCraig, Sophia has undergone many harsh things during her life. Her mind works on a... precarious balance. Your brother was telling me that she remembered the events leading to her husband’s death. I wish you could explain it a bit better. How it happened and what she told you.”

12.45 p.m.

Alistair entered the car and faced Tavish, “I’m going home. I’m in no state to face anyone now. Can you cover for me this afternoon?”

“Of course. Don’t worry.”

Why wasn’t I careful enough to empty Ells Hall and Airgead of those things? Can I convince her of my new intentions?
He leaned his head on the seat, closing his eyes. He felt hollow, as an enormous sense of loss took hold of his soul.
What. Have. I. Done?

Somewhere over the Atlantic. In Ethan Ashford’s G650.

1.05 p.m. GMT.

“Feeling better?” Ethan helped Sophia sit down on the sofa as she came out of the bathroom. He put his arm over her shoulders, nestling her on his large body. Sophia put her head on Ethan’s shoulder too weak to do anything else. She should have remembered that painkillers had a much stronger effect on a plane. She shouldn’t have taken another codeine tablet.

He put his hand over her forehead and looked down at her pale face and blueish lips, concerned. “You don’t look well, Sophia.”
What did that bastard do to you?

“I’m okay, Ethan. I told you I’m not going to throw up. I never throw up. I’m just a bit nauseous, because of my low blood pressure. I need some salt.”

“Vanessa, please, bring to me some salt and a blanket,” he ordered from across the plane.

He turned to Sophia, “Lie down. I’m going to make a-”

She pulled him as he started to rise. “Stay with me.”

“All right.”

“Here, Mr. Ashford.” The attendant returned quickly, handing him a small china bowl with some salt and a blanket.

“Vanessa, please, bring an espresso for Ms. Leibowitz.” As he covered her, Ethan probed, “Tell me what MacCraig did to leave you in this state, baby.”

What Alistair did? He proposed. I couldn’t accept. Sophia’s eyes filled with tears again. “Nothing. It’s not him.”

Staring into her eyes, he said, “I don’t understand you, Sophia. MacCraig isn’t the kind of man you would be happy with. He’s not... Hm, how can I say this? Normal?”

I know this now. She closed her eyes and a tear rolled down her face. “Normal? What’s considered normal nowadays?”

His rage seethed. “Where’s your self-respect?” he asked, in a calm and measured tone. “How far has he degraded you?”

Ethan realized he’d made a mistake even before he finished his sentence, as Sophia’s face paled even more.

The shock of the unexpected blow was absolute. Sophia felt as if he’d punched her. “Ethan... He never, ever degraded me, as you put it,” she whispered. “It’s not like that. We just broke up. Simple as that.” Simple? She looked up into his azure eyes, “I don’t want to talk about it. Please.”

You don’t know how to lie, my love. I’m going to kill that bastard. “All right. Here. Drink the rest of your coffee. It’ll do you good. So, are you excited about the ball? I was thinking... We could go to India together when the new Leibowitz center opens there.”

The rest of the flight passed in relative calm as Sophia’s pressure normalized after they had a light lunch and talked about their plans for the charity.

Alistair MacCraig’s Apartment.

1.07 p.m.

If possible, Alistair’s stare would have melted his computer screen with its intensity as he contemplated what to do next.

“Baptist has a cunning ability to unearth secrets. If there is anyone who can tell me what the fuck is this crime she says she’s committed, it’s him. His reports are classy,” he told his brother on the phone.

“Aye.” Tavish snorted. “They can be a classy catastrophe for the person he’s investigating. Don’t do this, Alistair Connor,” Tavish admonished. “You may not like what you discover.”

“Tavish Uilleam. I have three words for you: Veritas vos liberavit.”

“Oh, man... You stubborn idiot,” he rubbed his hand on his forehead, wondering how a woman as gentle as Sophia could have possibly committed a crime.

Brazil, Rio de Janeiro, Copacabana, Avenida Atlântica.

The Gonçalves & Espírito Santo Families’ Penthouse.

3.33 p.m.

Sophia heard the sound of the door opening, but didn’t turn to look. The sea was glinting black and gray in the afternoon light of the rainy day, mirroring her feelings.

“Not now,” she said in a strangled voice.

Strong hands gripped her by the shoulders and whirled her around, turning her away from the view. She winced at the pain on her left shoulder.

“Heavens, Sis! What happened?” Felipe was appalled at Sophia’s appearance. She had put on makeup to cover up the bruises on her temple and under her eyes and was dressed in black as if in mourning, despite the warm weather.

She threw her arms around his waist, hugging him fiercely, “Oh, I’ve missed you, Brother.”

“What is it, Sophia? What’s happening?”

“It’s nothing. I’m just being silly.” She didn’t want to talk about it. Felipe had enough problems of his own. She wiped the tears from her eyes and asked, “What are you doing here in the middle of the day? Shouldn’t you be at work?”

“Carolina was very worried. She called me as soon as you arrived. She took Gabi to the shopping center, but she didn’t want to leave you alone with Grandma. She said you flew here with a man called Ethan. Is he the guy who gave us that ride from Geneva?”

“Yes, Ethan Ashford.”

“I thought you’d broken up with him, Sophia,” he gripped her chin and made her look at him.

“I did. But he’s still a dear friend. He seems to sense when I need a ride. And I was lucky I was with him, Felipe. I guess that the painkillers I took lowered my blood pressure. It was really bad.”

“Carol told me you practically had to be carried upstairs.”

“No big deal,” she waved his concern away.

“Where is he?”

“He had a business meeting in São Paulo. He just dropped us off here, but he said he’d come over later. He was very concerned. You know my pressure gives me a scare sometimes.”

“Yeah. Grandma told me you hadn’t eaten yet. Come-”

“Felipe,” she interrupted and put a hand on her stomach, “I feel sick. Don’t insist. Please.”

“Sophia...” His eyes, so like hers, rounded in surprise, “Are you pregnant? Alistair?”

How could I be? The memory of him made her break down in wrenched sobs.

“Oh, Sis, don’t cry,” he caressed her hair, tenderly. “You know a child is always welcome-”

“I-I’m not preg-pregnant,” she stammered between tears and sobs. “That’s not it. Oh, Felipe, so many things have happened these last few days.”

Ipanema. The Leibowitz’s Penthouse.

Wednesday, April 7
^th
, 2010.

10.10 a.m.

Sophia dropped the keys on the marble floor and they echoed loudly in the empty hallway. Kneeling outside the door of the apartment she had shared with Gabriel, she noticed she had started to shake uncontrollably.

Damn. Get a grip, Sophia.
She took a deep breath and stood up with the keys in her hand.
One. Two. Three.
Now. She shoved the key in the lock and pushed the door open.

The silence of the apartment, once so happily filled with laughter hit her hard.

Tiny black dots clouded her vision as a panic attack threatened to overwhelm her.
Not now. Please God, not when I’m alone.

She knew she had to say good-bye. And she had to face it.

Sophia took a deep breath, focused on her breathing, wrestling to calm herself. She closed the door behind her and leaned on the wall taking in the apartment where she had been so happy. The joyful memories were so sharp that if she were a weaker woman she would have laid on the floor and wept for days.

I’m sorry, Gabriel. To wish you were not dead, would mean to regret meeting Alistair Connor. And... Oh, God! I can’t make myself do that.
Sophia closed her eyes for a second, pushed off the wall and started to wander through the rooms.

She entered their bedroom and looked at a photo of them on their honeymoon.
How naïve I was then
.

Sophia never realized that grief and self-pity weren’t the same thing. She thought she was mourning Gabriel and all she had lost, but in reality what she had been doing was hating the world and feeling sorry for herself.

Sophia’s mind was now putting the memories together like a puzzle. All the time she’d spent angry at the world and asking the universe ‘why her’ didn’t help. On the contrary, it had kept her away from the pain brought by the loss of her innocence and the death of her husband.

With tears in her yes, she started cataloguing items on her MacAir, with photographs and small notes, listing what she wanted to keep and what she was going to give away and to whom.

When it all was done, she laid on her bed and cried.

For the first time in almost two years, Sophia let herself grieve.

Rio de Janeiro, Cajú. The Jewish Communal Cemetery.

Thursday, April 7
^th
, 2010.

8.51 a.m.

The sun was hiding behind the weeping heavy clouds, as if they understood Sophia’s mood.

She stared at the small marble tombs in the front row and her heart broke, even more than it did when she had visited the cemetery with Gabriel many years ago. Now they reminded her of Alistair’s daughter.

Children shouldn’t
die. Her throat closed. She didn’t understand why God would send little angels to earth only to take them back so quickly.

There were a couple of trees, here and there, a few vines and wisteria that graced the alley that lead to other tombs. That was all.

The general impression was of a deserted land where black and white marble were castigated by the inclement heat and rain all year long.