Water for Elephants (31 page)

She blinks again and opens her mouth in a smile.

“Nog
, Rosie!”

She fans her ears and sighs.

“Prosz
?
” I say.

She sighs again. Then she shifts her weight and lifts her foot.

“Dear Mother of God.” I hear my voice as though from outside of my body. My heart is pounding, my head spinning. “Rosie,” I say, laying a
hand on her shoulder. “Just one more thing.” I look her straight in the eye, pleading with her. Surely she knows how important this is. Please God please God please God—

“Do tytu, Rosiel Do ty
u!”

Another deep sigh, another subtle shifting of weight, and then she takes a couple of steps backward.

I yelp with delight and turn to an astonished Greg. I leap forward, grab him by the shoulders, and kiss him full on the mouth.

“What the hell!”

I sprint for the exit. About fifteen feet away I stop and turn around. Greg is still spitting, wiping his mouth in disgust.

I dig the bottles out of my pockets. His expression changes to one of interest, the back of his hand still raised to his mouth.

“Here, catch!” I say, sending a bottle flying at him. He snags it from the air, looks at its label, and then glances up hopefully at the other. I toss it to him.

“Give those to our new star, will you?”

Greg cocks his head thoughtfully and turns to Rosie, who is already smiling and reaching for the bottles.

F
OR THE NEXT TEN DAYS
, I serve as August’s personal Polish coach. In each city he has a practice ring set up in the back end, and day after day, the four of us—August, Marlena, Rosie, and I—spend the hours between our arrival in town and the start of the matinée working on Rosie’s act. Although she already takes part in the daily parade and Spec, she has yet to perform in the show. Although the wait is killing Uncle Al, August doesn’t want to unveil her act until it’s perfect.

I spend my days sitting on a chair just outside the ring curb with a knife in one hand and a bucket between my legs, cutting fruit and vegetables into chunks for the primates and shouting Polish phrases as required. August’s accent is appalling, but Rosie—perhaps because August is usually repeating something I’ve just yelled—obeys without fail. He hasn’t touched her with the bull hook since we discovered the language barrier.
He just walks beside her, waving it under her belly and behind her legs, but never—not once—does it make contact.

It’s hard to reconcile this August with the other one, and to be honest I don’t try very hard. I’ve seen flashes of this August before—this brightness, this conviviality, this generosity of spirit—but I know what he’s capable of, and I won’t forget it. The others can believe what they like, but I don’t believe for a second that this is the real August and the other an aberration. And yet I can see how they might be fooled—

He is delightful. He is charming. He shines like the sun. He lavishes attention on the great storm-colored beast and her tiny rider from the moment we meet in the morning until the moment they disappear for the parade. He is attentive and tender toward Marlena, and kindly and paternal toward Rosie.

He seems unaware that there ever was any bad blood between us, despite my reserve. He smiles broadly; he pats me on the back. He notices that my clothes are shabby and that very afternoon the Monday Man arrives with more. He declares that the show’s vet should not have to bathe with buckets of cold water and invites me to shower in the stateroom. And when he finds out that Rosie likes gin and ginger ale better than anything in the world except perhaps watermelon, he ensures that she gets both, every single day. He cozies up to her. He whispers in her ear, and she basks in the attention, trumpeting happily at the sight of him.

Doesn’t she remember?

I scrutinize him, watching for chinks, but the new August persists. Before long, his optimism permeates the entire lot. Even Uncle Al is affected—he stops each day to observe our progress and within a couple of days orders up new posters that feature Rosie with Marlena sitting astride her head. He stops whacking people, and shortly thereafter people stop ducking. He becomes positively jolly. Rumors circulate that there may actually be money on payday, and even the working men begin to crack smiles.

It’s only when I catch Rosie actually
purring
under August’s loving ministrations that my conviction starts to crumble. And what I’m left looking at in its place is a terrible thing.

Maybe it was me. Maybe I wanted to hate him because I’m in love with his wife, and if that’s the case, what kind of a man does that make me?

I
N
P
ITTSBURGH
, I
FINALLY
go to confession. I break down in the confessional and sob like a baby, telling the priest about my parents, my night of debauchery, and my adulterous thoughts. The somewhat startled priest mutters a few
there-theres
and then tells me to pray the rosary and forget about Marlena. I am too ashamed to admit that I haven’t got a rosary, so when I return to the stock car I ask Walter and Camel if either of them has one. Walter looks at me strangely, and Camel offers me a green elk-tooth necklace.

I’m well aware of Walter’s opinion. He still hates August beyond all expression, and although he doesn’t say anything I know exactly what he thinks of my shifting opinion. We still share the care and feeding of Camel, but the three of us no longer exchange stories during the long nights spent on the rails. Instead, Walter reads Shakespeare and Camel gets drunk and cranky and increasingly demanding.

I
N
M
EADVILLE
, A
UGUST DECIDES
that tonight is the night.

When he delivers the good news, Uncle Al is rendered speechless. He clasps his hand to his breast and looks starward with tear-filled eyes. Then, as his grovelers duck for cover, he reaches out and claps August on the shoulder. He gives him a manly shake and then, because he’s clearly too overwhelmed to actually say anything, gives him another.

I
’M EXAMINING A CRACKED
hoof in the blacksmith tent when August sends for me.

“August?” I say, placing my face near the opening of Marlena’s dressing tent. It billows slightly, snapping in the wind. “You wanted to see me?”

“Jacob!” he calls out in a booming voice. “So glad you could come! Please, come in! Come in, my boy!”

Marlena is in costume. She sits in front of her vanity with one foot up on its edge, wrapping the long pink ribbon from one of her slippers around
her ankle. August sits nearby, in top hat and tails. He twirls a silver-tipped cane. Its handle is bent, like a bull hook.

“Please take a seat,” he says, rising from his chair and patting its seat.

I hesitate for a fraction of a second and then cross the tent. Once I am seated, August stands in front of us. I glance over at Marlena.

“Marlena, Jacob—my dearest dear, and my dearest friend,” says August, removing his hat and gazing upon us with moist eyes. “This last week has been amazing in so many ways. I think it would not be an exaggeration to call it a journey of the soul. Just two weeks ago, this show was on the brink of collapse. The livelihood—and indeed, in this financial climate, I think I can safely say the lives, yes the very lives!—of everyone on this show were in danger. And do you want to know why?”

His bright eyes move from me to Marlena, from Marlena to me.

“Why?” Marlena asks obligingly, lifting her other leg and wrapping the broad satin ribbon around her ankle.

“Because we went into the hole acquiring an animal that was supposed to be the salvation of our show. And because we also had to buy a train car to house her. And because we then discovered that this animal apparently knew nothing, yet ate everything. And because keeping her fed meant that we couldn’t afford to feed our employees and we had to let some of them go.”

My head snaps up at this oblique reference to redlighting, but August stares beyond me, at a sidewall. He is silent uncomfortably long, almost as though he’s forgotten we’re here. Then he remembers himself with a start.

“But we have been saved,” he says, gazing down at me with love in his eyes, “and the reason we have been saved is that we have been doubly blessed. Fate was smiling on us that day in June when she led Jacob to our train. She handed us not only a veterinarian with an Ivy League degree—a veterinarian befitting a big show like ours—but also a veterinarian so devoted to his charges that he made a most amazing discovery. A discovery that ended up saving the show.”

“No, really, all I—”

“Not a word, Jacob. I won’t let you deny it. I had a feeling about you the very first time I laid eyes on you. Didn’t I, dear?” August turns to Marlena and waggles his finger at her.

She nods. With her second slipper secured, she removes her foot from the edge of the vanity and crosses her legs. Her toes start bobbing immediately.

August gazes at her. “But Jacob didn’t work alone,” he continues. “You, my beautiful and talented darling, have been brilliant. And Rosie—because she, of all of us, is not to be forgotten in this equation. So patient, so willing, so—” He stops, and inhales so deeply his nostrils flare. When he continues, his voice cracks. “Because she is a beautiful, magnificent animal with a heart full of forgiveness and the capacity to appreciate misunderstanding. Because thanks to the three of you, the Benzini Brothers Most Spectacular Show on Earth is about to rise to a new level of greatness. We are truly joining the ranks of the big shows, and none of it could have happened without you.”

He beams at us, his cheeks so flushed I’m afraid he might burst into tears.

“Oh! I almost forgot,” he cries, clapping his hands in front of him. He rushes to a trunk and fishes around inside. He pulls two small boxes out. One is square, one is rectangular and flat. Both are gift-wrapped.

“For you, my dear,” he says, handing the flat one to Marlena.

“Oh, Auggie! You shouldn’t have!”

“How do you know?” he says, smiling. “Perhaps it’s a pen set.”

Marlena tears off the gift wrap, revealing a blue velvet box. She glances up at him, unsure, and then opens its hinged lid. A diamond choker sparkles on the red satin lining.

“Oh, Auggie,” she says. She looks from the necklace to August, her brow creased with worry. “Auggie, it’s gorgeous. But surely we can’t afford—”

“Hush,” he says, leaning over to grab her hand. He plants a kiss on its palm. “Tonight heralds a new era. There is nothing too good for tonight.”

She picks the necklace up, letting it dangle from her fingers. She is clearly stunned.

August turns and hands me the square box.

I slide the ribbon off and carefully open the paper. The box inside is also of blue velvet. A lump rises in my throat.

“Come on now,” August says impatiently. “Open it! Don’t be shy!”

The lid opens with a pop. It’s a gold pocket watch.

“August—” I say.

“Do you like it?”

“It’s beautiful. But I can’t accept it.”

“Yes, of course you can. And you will!” he says, grabbing Marlena’s hand and pulling her to her feet. He plucks the necklace from her hand.