Wicked Kiss (Nightwatchers) (16 page)

I didn’t care about anything else.

Only Bishop.

“Kraven’s right.” His breath was warm against my cheek. “When
I’m this close to you...it’s like being a fly trapped in a spider’s web. I can’t
seem to free myself.”

“I want to kiss you right now.” I was completely unashamed by
the truth spilling from inside me. “So much. It’s driving me crazy.”

He didn’t reply; he just nodded slowly, his gaze fully fixed on
my lips.

“I won’t take it all. I can stop myself before it’s too late.”
My hunger turned me into something other than myself, other than the shy and
awkward kid who’d only allowed herself crushes on a couple of guys before. The
girl who shielded her heart to keep it from being broken. The one who looked in
the mirror and still only saw a skinny girl with long, wild hair and barely
enough chest to stuff in the smallest bra on the rack.

But Bishop had never looked at me like I was that girl. He
looked at me like I was something amazing. Something beautiful beyond words.
Something he wanted more than anything or anyone else.

And, at the moment, with the sounds of Ambrosia now only a
distant echo, I knew he was every bit as lost as I was.

He drew closer, closer until finally...finally, his lips
brushed against mine.

Chapter 16

I literally groaned with pleasure to be able to touch
him, to taste him. Bishop’s breath was so warm, so sweet. I wanted more...

“Please,” I whispered, staring deep into his blue eyes.
“Bishop, please—”

Snap!

It’s done.

The knife in my hand clatters to the
ground. The blood wells beside his body. He stares up at me as he gasps for
his last breath. He stares at me as if looking at a stranger instead of his
own brother.

“Why would you do this?” he whispers.
“Why?”

“Because you had to die today.” I would
think I should feel something at this moment, some form of regret, but I
feel nothing. Nothing at all.

“You know what happens to me now. Don’t
you care?”

“No, I don’t.”

“What did she promise you? What’s your
reward?” The pain in his gaze that I would surprise him like this, that I’d
stab my own brother in the back without warning, is deeper than his physical
pain.

“Goodbye, James.” I turn from him toward
the door.

“You’ll burn for this, you stupid son of a
bitch.”

I glance over my shoulder to see the
shadows already rising up to claim him. “No. You will.”

Snap!

Bishop staggered back from me, his eyes wide. I pressed the
back of my hand to my mouth, stifling a scream.

“What did you—?” he began, but then his words broke off. There
must have been something in my eyes, some shock and horror, that stopped him
from asking what I’d seen.

“Stay here,” he said sharply, averting his gaze. “I’m going to
search the club for Stephen.”

He knew I’d seen another memory of his past, but I didn’t think
he knew which one in particular. Any memory, according to Bishop, was an
invasion of his privacy, of his mind. And it could lead to jarring
revelations.

He was absolutely right about that.

The next moment he was gone. My mind cleared a fraction at a
time, but I trembled as I pressed up against the wall.

When I had the memory melds, it was as if I
was
Bishop. I saw what he’d seen, I heard what he’d
heard. I felt what he’d felt.

But it was different this time. Something had been very wrong
with him.

Watching Kraven die in that memory had shaken me more than
anything I’d faced because the person who killed him was the one person I’d
quickly come to care about more than anyone else.

And the more I learned about Bishop, the more shaken I
became.

Someone who’d done something so horrible, who’d murdered his
own brother in cold blood...how was he given the chance to become an angel?

Out of the corner of my eye, I saw someone pass by outside the
beaded curtain. My breath caught.

It was Stephen.

Without waiting another second or thinking about it first, I
hurried after him, trying desperately to keep him in view through the mass of
people.

I finally caught up to him by the stairs, catching his arm.
“Stephen!”

He spun to face me. His face was pale, his eyes wild and
unfocused. “What are you doing here?”

“I came here to find you.” I turned to frantically scan the
club for Kraven and Bishop, but they were nowhere to be seen.

“Leave me alone.” He pulled away from my grip and started up
the stairs. I followed after him. My head still swam from the memory meld, but
there was no possible way I was going to let Stephen out of my sight now that
I’d found him again.

Bishop was right about him being here. Now all I had to do was
convince him to help me. I’d been so close at the mall yesterday, I knew it. I’d
seen it in his eyes. Witnessing his fear about stasis had changed something
inside me when it came to Stephen. For so long now I’d blamed him for my
misfortune, for my hunger and troubles. I still did. But he wasn’t totally the
villain I’d made him out to be—unrepentant and evil to the core. He was just
somebody else in over his head, dealing with the ramifications of his own bad
choices.

There had to be a way to help him, too. Being a gray had
changed him, but not completely. I’d seen the way he looked at Jordan yesterday.
How I knew he wanted to protect her, even if he chose to do so by being a
standoffish, passive-aggressive jerk.

There was still good in Stephen. And I was going to give him
another chance to prove it to me.

“Where are you going?” I called after him.

“I need to leave.”

“You don’t look so good.”

Stephen glanced over his shoulder as we ascended the stairs. It
took all of my energy to keep up with his long strides. “I don’t feel so
good.”

He was so pale, even the color of his eyes seemed faded. And he
was shivering. The cold was getting worse for him, even worse than it was for
me.

My throat closed. “You’re going into stasis.”

He didn’t answer, instead quickening his steps. When we reached
the lobby, I didn’t have time to get my coat out of the coat check. If I did, I
knew I’d lose him. Instead, I emerged with him through the doors into the night,
only the thin cotton of my shirt to protect me from the chill. It would have to
be enough.

He walked so fast I had to literally run to keep up with him.
“You can’t just keep ignoring me. Please, Stephen. You need to help me. You know
you do.”

Finally, he stopped walking and turned to face me when we’d
gone about a block from the club. His expression was bleak. “It’s too late,
Samantha.”

I shivered, and crossed my arms tightly over my chest to try to
stay warm. “I know you’re scared. If you help me, I can help you, too.”

“You think so? Afraid not. Nobody can help me. And nobody can
help you, either.”

His words were like a slap—which was how he’d meant them. He
was lashing out at me because he felt so desperate and alone. But I wouldn’t let
myself be put off that easily. Not tonight. “You can’t lose hope.”

He laughed, a dry and humorless sound that sent a fresh chill
down my spine. “Natalie promised me a lot of things when she was still alive.
She said it was going to be great. That nothing would get in our way. That we’d
be together forever. I believed her. Mostly.”

Empathy welled inside me. He’d been played by my aunt like a
fool. She’d used him any way she could. “Don’t tell me you were in love with
her.”

“Hardly.” He glared at me. “Don’t you know by now, Samantha?
I’m an opportunist, always have been. Natalie represented an opportunity for me
to be more than what I was. I took it. In fact, I jumped at it, sacrificing
everything in the process. I deserve this as my punishment.”

“You’re not that bad.”

That earned another laugh that echoed coldly off the dark
buildings surrounding us. “No, I’m worse.”

“You broke up with Jordan to save her. That proves to me that
there’s still something inside you that gives a damn.”

His laugh broke off and he sent a look at me so sharp that it
almost cut. “You don’t know anything about what happened with Jordan.”

He started walking again, but I scooted around to block his
path. The two of us were momentarily lit up by a set of headlights from a car
turning the corner. It only showed me how pale Stephen was. And that even though
he shivered from the cold, there was also a sheen of perspiration on his
forehead. He looked sick.

“Maybe you’re right,” I said. “Maybe I’m just guessing. But I
saw something in your eyes at the mall. You don’t like hurting her. I’m not
saying I get it. I mean, to me Jordan’s a total bitch. But maybe down deep—maybe
with
you—
she was different. Maybe she saw the real
you, and vice versa. Maybe it was true love.”

“Shut up.” His voice shook. “It’s over—everything is. I’m going
into stasis and right now I need to be anywhere but here.”

When he moved again, I literally shoved him back a step. “Stop.
Just stop. My friends...they can help you. I’m serious.”

He didn’t look at me, he looked at the ground by my feet.
“Yeah, right. They can help by putting a knife through my heart.” He rubbed his
forehead as if his head ached. “I still have just enough self-preservation to
want to crawl off somewhere private if I’m going to die tonight. I don’t want to
be killed. If that makes me a coward, then fine. I’m a damn coward.”

With that, he pushed me out of the way.

“Stephen, don’t go. Please.” My voice caught.

He looked over his shoulder at me, his face shadowed by the
small amount of light from the nearby streetlamp. “I’m sorry, Samantha. I’m
sorry I did what Natalie told me to do. I shouldn’t have taken your soul.”

My eyes burned. “You can make it up to me by giving it back.
Simple.”

“Nothing’s simple anymore. For me or for you.”

Regular reasoning wasn’t working. I needed to up my game. “What
do you want? Protection from my friends? I’ve already asked them not to hurt
you. They won’t.”

“Sure, they won’t.”

“What else do you want?”

“Bargaining, Samantha?” A glimmer of a cold smile played at his
lips. “Has it really come to that?” Then the smile died. “I know what this is.
You’re trying to slow me down so your buddies can catch up. Aren’t you?”

“No, I came after you by myself. Nobody else saw you.”

There was no more patience in his gaze. “Goodbye,
Samantha.”

I clutched onto his arm, digging my fingernails in hard. “You’d
really walk away, just like that? I guess I was wrong about you. You really are
a selfish asshole.”

He spun to face me, grabbing the front of my shirt and yanking
me forward. My anger fell away, replaced by fear. He had nothing to lose right
now. And there was nothing friendly or kind in his eyes. Instead, all I saw was
endless pain. “You’re right. I am a selfish asshole. But you were also right
about Jordan. I love her and don’t want to hurt her. She’ll be better off when
I’m dead. Because this stasis? I hope like hell it kills me tonight. I don’t
know what I’d turn into if it doesn’t.”

He shoved me back so hard that I fell to the ground, twisting
my ankle. As I scrambled to get back to my feet, he started running away.

I tried to pursue, but white-hot pain shot through my ankle. I
whimpered out loud, limping as fast as I could in the direction he’d fled. I got
as far as the next block before I realized he was nowhere to be seen.

He could die tonight from stasis and he still had my soul, and
Carly’s soul, too.

It was over. I’d failed.

“Damn it,” I whispered, my throat closing. Hot tears streaked
down my cheeks, but I furiously wiped them away. They wouldn’t be any help right
now. Tears never helped.

“There you are.”

My gaze shot to the right. Sitting on the curb was someone I
recognized immediately. Someone I’d been searching the city for, just as I’d
been searching for Stephen.

“Seth!” I didn’t want to take my eyes off him in case he
disappeared like an elusive ghost, but I had to crane my neck to keep searching
for Stephen.

He was gone.

“It’s over.” I inhaled sharply, raggedly, and forced back the
burn of tears. All I could feel now was the pain in my ankle. I let myself drop
down onto the curb next to him.

“Over? It’s hardly started, beautiful star.” He called me that,
beautiful star, and I had no idea why. One day I’d have to ask him why that was
his chosen nickname for me when I cared enough to know the answer. “One by one
they’ll all disappear until there are none left. But that doesn’t mean it’s
over. Soon, but not yet.”

Didn’t sound like much had changed when it came to Seth. The
fallen angel always talked like this—half insane homeless dude, half Yoda. I
knew he saw things, important things. Visions, kind of like what I had
sometimes. Somewhere deep down there was importance to the things Seth said to
me.

Over? It’s hardly started.

Okay. Good to know, I think.

One by one they’ll all
disappear.

Grays? They were disappearing, thanks to stasis. Thanks to the
team’s nightly patrols and Bishop’s shiny knife.

Until there are none left.

A chill went through me at this. I guess I didn’t need a code
breaker to help figure out that hidden message.

Seth looked much the same as he had the last time I’d seen him.
Of an indeterminate age—anywhere from thirty to fifty. Dark hair, shaggy, dark
beard, black eyebrows. Unfocused brown eyes. There weren’t many lines around
those eyes, which told me he was probably on the lower end of the age scale.
Possibly even younger than that.

I noticed something different about him this time.

“What are those?” I asked.

He glanced down at his arms. The sleeves of his shirt had been
pushed up. On his skin were wispy lines, like a tattoo. He pulled his shirt down
to cover them.

“Part of the package,” he said. “Comes with the territory, I’ve
realized. They’re pretty, don’t you think?”

Not really, but I chose not to comment. I wondered if an angel
or demon stayed in the human world long enough, they’d gain those marks. “I’ve
been looking for you, Seth.”

“Hard to find myself sometimes. We all get lost from time to
time.”

“There’s someone I need you to meet. Another fallen angel. He’s
found ways to deal with...his soul.” Ways that made me queasy whenever I thought
of him cutting himself. “But I need to know if there’s anything else he can do,
anything you tried when you first fell that helped?”

Seth grinned to show perfect, white teeth, so unexpected in his
otherwise ungroomed, grimy face. “Forget him, beautiful star. He won’t matter in
the end. And now the time grows close—close enough to touch.”

“The time for what?”

“Can’t you feel how close you are?”

I shook my head. “What are you talking about? Close to
what?”